Insight
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I couldn’t stop staring at myself in the mirror…I mean, this Jeongguk guy. Why am I in his body? I slapped my face trying to get myself to wake up, why isn’t it working? “Jeongguk-ah, hey,” Hoseok knocked on the bathroom door, “you might want to lay down if you’re not feeling well, there’s ramen in the cupboard, help yourself, I have to get to class now” I guess we’re roommates, luckily, he found me and walked me back to the dorm.
I walked out of the bathroom and observe the cramp little room, so this is a Uni dorm? I looked out the window and saw students walking around, going to school, I’m a college student again? What on earth? I sat on the bed trying to think back on what happened last night, all I remember is being at work and leaving to go home…
What else happened? I was in MY body. What did I do to get here? Is someone else living in my body?? As I closed my eyes to think more I suddenly thought about Subin…
Subin!!” I quickly sat up, I was supposed to go see her after work, maybe she knows what’s going on?? I grabbed the phone and dialed her number, luckily, I know it by heart, I pressed call and the phone kept ringing, c’mon Subin pick up, pick up.
The operator came on saying the number I have dialed isn’t in service. What? I quickly hung up, why isn't her phone working? Maybe she’s mad at me, fuck, I need to see her…I need to explain to her what happened. For some reason, it feels like I haven’t seen Subin in so long, why?
I found out I’m still in Seoul, I’m 30 minutes away from Subin’s art school, I plan on going to see her and then…I don’t know, she’ll probably think I’m a crazy person if I tell her I'm not myself, well I might be crazy right? I went out to catch a cab to her school, I really wish l had a car to drive instead of wasting money on a cab, brings me back to my dreadful younger years. After paying the cab driver most of Jeongguk’s money I hopped out the cab and walked in Subin’s campus, she has to be here somewhere, that’s right, it’s 11:20am, she has to be at the school’s café. I quickly jogged there, where is she?
I sat in the café for almost 30 minutes waiting for her, she probably didn’t come to school today, I sigh throwing out my coffee. Is she okay? Now I’m worried, I was probably with her last night. I walked around the campus just observing and hoping just maybe I’ll see Subin, but no, maybe I’ll go to her house I thought to myself as I sat on the bench, well,l I’m probably going to walk there since I pretty much spent all of this guy’s cash.
As I looked around campus I saw something that didn’t seem right, "SCHOOL YEAR 2017! WELCOME NEW STUDENTS!” was on a large banner in front of the school, 2017? Why 2017? It’s 2014… I got up trying to make sense of it all, is this a joke? I grabbed the phone out of my pocket and went to the calendar…April 3, 2017?? Is his phone broke or something??? This is a joke, but how can it be, I woke up not myself anymore, I felt sick…
2017? In someone else’s body…did I time travel? Impossible. I need to get back to the dorm, I quickly walked out the campus, my mind was everywhere, why am I here, what is the purpose? How can I get back home…to my time…to MY body? As I walked down the sidewalk I accidentally bumped into someone, knocking down their books and pencils.
“Ah, sorry, sorry!” I say bending down to pick up the pencils, I slowly looked up and…
“Subin” I whispered,
she was quickly picking up her books, she looks…older…she was wearing a badge that says Staff. Staff? Isn’t she a student here? She was dressed really well, really polished, “Thanks,” she muttered grabbing the pencils out of my hands, I couldn’t move, is it really her? She didn’t pay me any mind and quickly walked passed me, “Um?”
She turned around to look at me, great, what do I say? My eyes caught the engagement ring I got her a few months ago was on a necklace around her, why isn’t she wearing it on her finger? We’re…still engaged, right? “What is it?” She asked looking really annoyed, “N-nothing,” I dropped my gazed. She said nothing and walked away.
Subin? Why does it seem like we’re far away from each other?
