Just A Number
Chapter 41
*Yuna POV *
The door opening in Jungkook’s room is what woke me up out of my nap and there stood Jungkook leaning against the doorway looking at me. I slowly sat up, “Jung—kook,” “Hey,” he half smiled, “Can I come in?” “Uh..yeah I mean…it is kinda your room.” He walks in and sat on the edge of the bed, “You think we can talk, about last night?” I bit my bottom lip and nodded.
“I’m sorry about last night but I just want you to know there’s nothing going on between her and I no, no feelings, nothing. I haven’t’ seen in her in 5 years, it was just a shock. She was…the girl I dated in middle school, the first girl I ever dated. She was someone I loved. Well, at least I thought I did,” he looks down at the floor with his elbow resting on his knees, “I went to go see her this morning while you were asleep, and it was basically just us having closure.” I slowly nodded my head fidgeting with my blanket,
“I know there’s a lot of things I never talk about like my past but, I promise I’ll open up more about it, it’s just been so long since I’ve genuinely been with someone you know? And being with you has been so amazing, it’s more than what I’ve have experienced from my previous relationships because I realize I lov-“ he paused and quickly looks at me catching himself, what was he going to say?
"I uh, I mean, I realize I uh, was just…longing for company,” he nervously smiles. “Oh, okay I see,” I smiled at him, “You’re not mad at me anymore?” “Mmm, no,” I laugh, he scoots closer to me and ran his hand down a lock of my hair, “You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, “stop,” I laughed again rolling my eyes, “It’s true. But anyway, how was your morning?” I got up from the bed and stretched my legs, “It was…interesting...” I say, “Why, what happened?” “Oh well, I was just having tea with your father...” “Oh yeah?” “Mmhm, and uh…he knows about…the pregnancy.”
Mr. Jeon handed me some more ginger tea with a baked sweet potato, “It’s good for the baby,” he sweetly smiles. Jungkook’s eyes followed his dad as he sat down with us,“Dad, how could you have possibly known?” “It’s pretty obvious son, her constantly using the restroom, or going to bed early, they’re the strong signs,” he chuckles. “Yuna how many weeks are you again?” Jungkook asks, “9,” I said looking down at my non-existent belly.
“Son,” Mr. Jeon took a bite of his sweet potato, “You didn’t need to hide it from me,” Jungkook raises his eyebrows in surprise, “You probably thought I would have been disappointed,” Jungkook looks down at his plate, so that was the big reason he didn’t want to tell him, “I’m not son. You only get one life and I want you to live it with nothing but positivity and happiness. Bringing a baby into the world is a blessing, but you must work hard on taking care of that child. My father walked out of our lives and I never saw him again, so being there for your child is what makes me happy. I know you will be an incredible father Jeongguk.” At the corner of my eye I could see Jungkook getting teary-eyed, “Geez dad,” he says wiping his eyes with his shirt, “Thank you, really.”
*Flashback *
I walked into the studio and saw Agust D’s things were gone, he was sitting on his couch putting his laptop away in his backpack. “Hyung…? What..what are you doing, where’s your stuff??” I asked looking around what used to be his genius lab, “Ah, I’m leaving,” “Leaving?? To where?? You’re coming back, right??” He stood up putting his backpack around his shoulder, “No…I’ll be traveling for some time kid. My work here is done,”
“Done? B-but,” “I tend to…have a habit of not staying in the same place for so long,” He began to walk past me but I grabbed his arm, “We’ll be in touch, right? You’re… you’re like the closest friend I’ve ever had… you’re like a role model to me” His gaze was on the floor like he was in deep thought of what I’ve just said, then he puts his hand on my hand that was gently clutching his arm, “I’m not a role model,” he removes my hand off of him, “I’m a coward Jeongguk,"
“C-coward?” “It’s like I’m always running away from something…from someone,” I stared at him puzzled, his face was deepened with sadness,
“I lost the girl that was the first and only one to ever believe in me, she made me a better person,
but now… I can’t even look in the mirror knowing what I did to her, how I treated her,
I treated her like shit for years...and she just took it,”
Her...? Who is she?
“I always find myself trying to search for her in many different women but…I never will, I can only find her in the music I make.” He looks up at me, “I would never want you to ever be or end up like me, you’re better than I am. Better than what I’ll ever become, but thank you Jeongguk, thank you for your friendship.” He turns around and walks out the door, and that was the last time I ever saw or heard from him.
The door opening in Jungkook’s room is what woke me up out of my nap and there stood Jungkook leaning against the doorway looking at me. I slowly sat up, “Jung—kook,” “Hey,” he half smiled, “Can I come in?” “Uh..yeah I mean…it is kinda your room.” He walks in and sat on the edge of the bed, “You think we can talk, about last night?” I bit my bottom lip and nodded.
“I’m sorry about last night but I just want you to know there’s nothing going on between her and I no, no feelings, nothing. I haven’t’ seen in her in 5 years, it was just a shock. She was…the girl I dated in middle school, the first girl I ever dated. She was someone I loved. Well, at least I thought I did,” he looks down at the floor with his elbow resting on his knees, “I went to go see her this morning while you were asleep, and it was basically just us having closure.” I slowly nodded my head fidgeting with my blanket,
“I know there’s a lot of things I never talk about like my past but, I promise I’ll open up more about it, it’s just been so long since I’ve genuinely been with someone you know? And being with you has been so amazing, it’s more than what I’ve have experienced from my previous relationships because I realize I lov-“ he paused and quickly looks at me catching himself, what was he going to say?
"I uh, I mean, I realize I uh, was just…longing for company,” he nervously smiles. “Oh, okay I see,” I smiled at him, “You’re not mad at me anymore?” “Mmm, no,” I laugh, he scoots closer to me and ran his hand down a lock of my hair, “You’re so beautiful,” he whispers, “stop,” I laughed again rolling my eyes, “It’s true. But anyway, how was your morning?” I got up from the bed and stretched my legs, “It was…interesting...” I say, “Why, what happened?” “Oh well, I was just having tea with your father...” “Oh yeah?” “Mmhm, and uh…he knows about…the pregnancy.”
Mr. Jeon handed me some more ginger tea with a baked sweet potato, “It’s good for the baby,” he sweetly smiles. Jungkook’s eyes followed his dad as he sat down with us,“Dad, how could you have possibly known?” “It’s pretty obvious son, her constantly using the restroom, or going to bed early, they’re the strong signs,” he chuckles. “Yuna how many weeks are you again?” Jungkook asks, “9,” I said looking down at my non-existent belly.
“Son,” Mr. Jeon took a bite of his sweet potato, “You didn’t need to hide it from me,” Jungkook raises his eyebrows in surprise, “You probably thought I would have been disappointed,” Jungkook looks down at his plate, so that was the big reason he didn’t want to tell him, “I’m not son. You only get one life and I want you to live it with nothing but positivity and happiness. Bringing a baby into the world is a blessing, but you must work hard on taking care of that child. My father walked out of our lives and I never saw him again, so being there for your child is what makes me happy. I know you will be an incredible father Jeongguk.” At the corner of my eye I could see Jungkook getting teary-eyed, “Geez dad,” he says wiping his eyes with his shirt, “Thank you, really.”
*Flashback *
I walked into the studio and saw Agust D’s things were gone, he was sitting on his couch putting his laptop away in his backpack. “Hyung…? What..what are you doing, where’s your stuff??” I asked looking around what used to be his genius lab, “Ah, I’m leaving,” “Leaving?? To where?? You’re coming back, right??” He stood up putting his backpack around his shoulder, “No…I’ll be traveling for some time kid. My work here is done,”
“Done? B-but,” “I tend to…have a habit of not staying in the same place for so long,” He began to walk past me but I grabbed his arm, “We’ll be in touch, right? You’re… you’re like the closest friend I’ve ever had… you’re like a role model to me” His gaze was on the floor like he was in deep thought of what I’ve just said, then he puts his hand on my hand that was gently clutching his arm, “I’m not a role model,” he removes my hand off of him, “I’m a coward Jeongguk,"
“C-coward?” “It’s like I’m always running away from something…from someone,” I stared at him puzzled, his face was deepened with sadness,
“I lost the girl that was the first and only one to ever believe in me, she made me a better person,
but now… I can’t even look in the mirror knowing what I did to her, how I treated her,
I treated her like shit for years...and she just took it,”
Her...? Who is she?
“I always find myself trying to search for her in many different women but…I never will, I can only find her in the music I make.” He looks up at me, “I would never want you to ever be or end up like me, you’re better than I am. Better than what I’ll ever become, but thank you Jeongguk, thank you for your friendship.” He turns around and walks out the door, and that was the last time I ever saw or heard from him.
Notes
Yoongi is talking about Yuna
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10/5/18