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One Thing After Another

Do I?

After hearing the news that Hoshi had publicly said he had a girl in mind… and hearing from Dino that that girl was supposidely me, I sat with Dino for a few minutes wondering how I didn’t notice this. ‘Why me?’ I kept asking myself. Then I thought about Uncle, and what he would make of this. If he knows it’s me Hoshi likes…
I bent over and ran my hands through my hair gripping at the roots, feeling an overwhelming feeling of worry and anxiety.
“Haeunnie, are you okay?” Dino said softly as his hand gently rub my back soothingly.
“Why me Chan?” I said with closed eyes trying to take deep breathes, “why is it always me?"

When I made it back to the dressing room, I knew the kind of looks I would get from everyone. Dino opened the door first and holding it open for me to enter. I looked around to see Seventeen slowly stop what they were doing and look at me, feeling my heart jump against my ribcage and my cheek heat up. I hated attention. I searched for Hoshi wondering if he was going to show his face to me. I couldn’t see him. I sighed before thanking Dino briefly before making my way to my bag to pack up my things. The dressing room was so quiet, with only occasional conversations going on. I hadn’t heard the dressing room so quiet before, which only escalated my heart in this awkward situation.

Be strong. You can do this.

I slung my bag over my shoulder as I finished packing away and turned around to head towards some members when Dohyun sunbae stood in front of me. I looked up at his angry face, wondering how long and hurtful this would be. “Get your act together will you?” He started out the conversation strong.

Be strong Haeun. You have to.

"This may be just another job easily earned through your Uncle but to me, this is serious business,” he almost shouted at me. You’d think after all the bullying I got, I’d be bulletproof. But i’m not. I felt tears well up in my eyes already.

Don’t let him bully you.

“Sunbae I wish you wouldn’t connect me with my Uncle!” I retorted with my eyebrows furrowing in frustration.
“But that’s how you got here! You didn’t tell anyone did you?” He shouts gesturing to the rest of the people in the dressing room who were looking uncomfortable. Their faces changing as they heard what Dohyun sunbae said. I sighed closing my eyes with tears almost falling out, dropping my head. Why here? Why now? I looked back up at Dino who was across the room, seeing his surprised expression mixed with a bit of disappointment. Why I cared so much about his reaction I didn’t know, but I was left with a bitter feeling towards it.
“You’re the CEO’s niece?” Woozi says on my right, bringing my attention onto him. I look at him, wondering if my tears were noticeable before nodding slowly. My confirming nod bringing whispers to the room.
“This is why you don’t let a girl do a guy’s job,” Dohyun scoffed out and he looked down on me. I turned my head to him sharply, questioning if I heard him properly. I was angry now, and I never get angry, but all that came out of me were tears. I was choked up.

I let him bully me again.

“Dohyun you’ve gone too far, ”Jaehwa sunbae whispered threateningly to Dohyun grabbing one of his arms. My eyes still on his I blinked out the tears to show him what he had done to me before heading for the door again. I kept my head low feeling more choked up by the second, speed walking to the door.
“Haeunnie,” my wrist was held back by the voice. With my hair drooping over my face, I looked up towards the voice, seeing Dino’s face with only one eye. His face full of sympathy, urging my inner self to latch onto him and never let go. I shook my head quickly and abruptly, dropping my head once again, pushing his hand off my wrist. I rushed out the door and sped walked to the bus stop. Checking the time of the next bus back home, I choked up again. I checked cautiously around the area seeing no one around. I sighed, collapsing into the bus bench… and it caught me. All my emotions caught me. Releasing out through tired and desperate cries into the early evening sky. With tears that traced different paths down my cheeks, covering me in the absolute sadness that had been built up inside me.

My mother had always stopped me from going back to work when I got home from school the next day. She was ready to complain to her brother, my Uncle about Dohyun. I begged her not to. That’s only what he would want, for me to abuse the use of my Uncle’s high status. It funny, he’s not my biological Uncle but I’m still so close with him. And Dohyun had ruined it…
I knew I could only face this problem myself if I was to learn from this. That scared me. I don’t even know myself.

I beeped my bus card and hopped off onto the pavement of the sidewalk. Lifting my head to start walking towards the Pledis Building, I see a huge crowd taking up the whole court in front of the doors. I started to slowly walk around them hoping they wouldn’t see me. I knew what this was about, Hoshi’s scandal. My quiet personality His supposed ‘love.’ I hadn’t messaged Hoshi because I was so busy. The building workers once showed me a back door to this building, I figured I could sneak around and go that way. As I got closer a random voice shouted out, “that’s her!” Every single head of the crowd switched like a light, turning their heads in my direction and staring at me with wide eyes. My heart almost stopped. How did they know it was me? Why me? Before I could answer any of these questions, the crowd magnated towards me. I had microphones in my face, flashing cameras, and even tugs of my hair. Everyone’s voice shouting over each other at me The cacophony of noise almost deafening all my senses. I stood there being blinded by the noise and light, tugged by my clothes and hair, completely unaware of how this happened. I knew I wasn’t a kid anymore, I couldn’t crouch down and cry. So with all my leftover inner strength, I covered my face with one hand, and held out the other to make space. I pushed through the crowd in what I aimed was the front door of the Pledis building. With everything flashing past me, the tears started to choke me. Scared to cry in front of everyone, I ran, pushing everyone away and sprinting for the door. The pathway in front of my suddenly cleared and the doorway had come into sight. Two security guards were trying their best to hold off the immense amount of people. With no regrets, I bowed to both guards are pushed though the glass door. I stopped running after I had gotten in a more hidden corridor further into the building, and started panting. Putting my hands on my knees, the tears were threatening me. I needed to somewhere more private. I stood up to see a familiar face, that made me both relieved and worried.“Morning Dino,” I said as if the crowd behind the glass doors weren’t screaming at me. I smiled through the anxious, crying thoughts. Dino scanned me with worry in his eyes. The type of look that gets me to just melt away. I looked down at my clothes to see them torn at some of the seams. Shit. I can’t have him see me like this, I just can’t. I’ve already crossed the professionalism line with him. I looked back up to respond to Dino when I saw his arms offered out to me. I paused to think. I so badly needed a hug, and more than anything I knew I wanted that hug to be from Dino. The tears and emotions had been held too long, and I let go.
I fell into his arms, resting my forehead against his shoulder feeling the tears drip from my eyes as I wailed out into Dino’s warm chest. I felt his arms wrap around my back, rubbing it soothingly and spreading warmth through my sad body. “Cry it out, you can cry all you want around me,” Dino’s low voice hummed at me, calming my every cry down.

With my eyes closed I stayed there as he said I could. As my cries lessened I released from the warm hug. Truthfully, I didn’t want to let go. Not know that I’d started to let out all of my bottled up emotions. “I’m sorry for being so unprofessional,” I said wiping the tears from underneath my eyes, “thank you for being there though.”
“My pleasure,” he said smiling softly, with the corners of his mouth sticking up softly. A smile appeared on my face before I knew it.
“Well I better get going to see my Uncle,” I said starting to walk away before Dino grabbed my arm softly, stopping me.
“Your umm…” Dino looked me in the eyes before avoiding them and pointing at my shirt. I looked back down at the ripped seams and sighed at them. I didn’t have any change of clothes. Dino gasped as if he had an idea. I looked at him wondering what he just thought of. He looked at me with a smile, “follow me."

I stepped out of the bathroom cautiously, tugging at the jumper I’d just put on to hide my shirt’s rips, as Dino suggested. Seeing him leaning against the wall across from the bathroom, I wondered why he looked so warm when he’d just took off his jumper for me.
“I actually kind of like it,” I said grabbing his attention. I looked at him for a reaction, to which a smile lit up his face and he laughed lightly, making me feel more comfortable.
“It’s so baggy on you!” He said walking towards me, shoving his hands in his jean pockets.
“Hey, I like baggy jumpers…” I said in defence while admiring the jumper. It being a logo jumper, I loved it even more. Dino only laughed more seeing how much I liked it. I looked back at him, feeling guilty all of a sudden.
“Are you sure you won’t be cold?” I asked him worryingly, looking at his half bare arms.
“I’ll be fine, you worry about yourself,” he said shrugging it off non-chalantly.
“No really I can’t leave you like thi-."
“Look, I’ll swing by the dorm and get another one if you’re that worried,” he suggested. I nodded in agreement.
“Okay, I gotta go now,” I said with sadness. We looked at each other smiling slightly, and my chest feeling warmer with his gaze. He nodded slowly, and I started walking past him.
“By the way,” Dino started, turning around back to him, "I don’t think you would have got this far through your Uncle,” he said honestly, holding my eyes on his. I smiled softly and blinked softly at him. “You work hard at what you do."
“Thank you, Dino,” I said sincerely and quietly before heading to my Uncle office with a heavy heart.

I knocked cautiously on my Uncle’s office door, admittingly knowing the worst could happen. With a long pause of silence I decided to open the door quietly. It’s hinges squeaking slightly as it swung open. I looked up from my downward eye line to see the look of utter disappointment on my Uncle’s face. My heart immediately sinking in hope. I walked in holding the edges of Dino’s jumper tightly in a fist. I miss him already. As I sat down in my usual sofa seat, he turned his computer’s monitor towards me.
“What is this news Haeun? I thought you took this job seriously?” He asked sternly as he pointed to the article with a picture of Hoshi and I on it.
“I do Uncle. This wasn’t all Hoshi, please don’t blame him,” I retorted back quickly hoping my nervousness wouldn’t show.
“Funny… he said the exact same thing about you when I met him a while ago,” he scoffed slightly. I looked at him quickly, before avoiding eye contact as to not come across as confrontational. Because in this position, do I even have to choice to fight back? Uncle sighed saying, “Haeun, maybe it’s time for you to move onto another group. Hoshi’s feelings for you could stop you from making a career.” He leaned back in his chair putting a hand to his forehead and rubbing therapeutically. My eyes widen at his words, my heart throbbing in my chest rapidly. At first I was sadden at the thought of leaving Seventeen, then I was slightly annoyed that all he could think to do was move on from the problem instead of facing it. I haven’t been very assertive in my life but I knew I couldn’t just forget this happened, especially since it involves my friends.
“So you’re saying i’m not allowed to be a relationship?” I furrowed my eyebrows slightly, letting him see I wasn’t happy at the suggestion of leaving.
“Well do you feel the same as Hoshi?”

I blinked rapidly at the question wondering the same myself. I paused to think of an answer. With all the drama that’s been going on I haven’t even been able to consider Soonyoung’s feelings properly. Do I feel how he feels?

Notes

WOW for once my promises are kept!
Here is a chapter earlier due to a shorter one released before!
Sometimes I feel back for putting Haeun in these situations but it makes the story so interesting! (like the drama W if you guys have seen that, if you haven't GO WATCH IT)
Hope you enjoyed this and aren't working too hard! Take a break sometimes!
BAIIIII

Comments

@Idontknowmollayo
You're welcome^^

minsiina minsiina
7/30/17

@minsiina
awww that message just made me feel ten times better thank you ^3^

Take as much time as you need;). I am writing stories myself and I know how it is to have no time but soooo many ideas or the other way around, so all I can say is take your time amd your fanfiction will turn out great at some point^^

minsiina minsiina
7/24/17

@Cilajaeyoung
고맙다 ^-^

Idontknowmollayo Idontknowmollayo
12/11/16

♡Cute 이야기

Cilajaeyoung Cilajaeyoung
12/9/16