~I Can't Love Him~

~Author's POV~

*Your Birthday*

"Bora!~" Dasom sang beautifully next to you. "Ileona!~"

"Mm." You groaned and turned away.

Today you guys had the day off. Since it was your birthday, also because yesterday you guys didn't come back to the dorm until 5 in the morning. So the manager let you all rest.

"Ileona Bora~ Balli if you want your breakfast.~" Dasom sang again.

"Mm." You just hummed in response, still in the same position.

"Unnie!~" Dasom whined cutely. However this time you didn't respond. "Ugh." Dasom sighed and she quickly jumped onto your bed. Landing on you.

"Oof! Dasom get off!" You whined.

"Then get the hell up you sleepy head!" Dasom said poking your sides.

"Araseyo, araseyo. I'm up. Happy?" You said up after pushing Dasom off of you.

"Yup. Now hurry and get ready. I'll be staying on your bed if you joke and come back to sleep." Dasom eye smiled at you. You just tiredly glare at Dasom before you forced yourself out of bed and went to the bathroom.

***

You walked out all dressed out wearing something simple yet cute.


"Whoa!" You said all amazed by all the delicious food in front of you. "W-What's this for?" You didn't know that the members would celebrate your birthday. They all laugh in unison.

"Well, someone's very beautiful's birthday is today." Hyorin chuckled. Your eyes twinkled.

"J-Jinja? F-For me?" You felt so happy. So happy that words couldn't express what you felt right now. You never celebrated your birthday like this. Soon tears started appearing just staring at the three smiling happily towards you.

"U-Unnie, W-Why are you crying?" Soyou quickly stood up and hugged you.

"Because I'm so thankful for having you guys." You broke out in little tears. "Gomawo guys. Saranghae." You had a group hug with all of your members.

"Now, eat. Let's go have some fun today!!!" Hyorin cheered happily.

"Mm." You hummed and quickly sat down with the rest. Right after sitting the manager walked in.

"Oh, was I too late?" He cheekily smiled. You just chuckle and shake your head.

"Ani, come oppa." You patted the seat next to you. He quickly walked over and sat down.

"I~ bought some wine.~" He pulled out a fancy bottle of wine.

"Bwoh?" Soyou laughed.

"Mm. Can't wait for a taste." Dasom said with bright eyes.

***

After your delicious breakfast, you and your members went out. Covering yourselves. However they (fans) still knew you and the members.

Every time sistar was notice, fans would say happy birthday to you. Which would make you so happy. You would of course thank them.

You went to the amusement park, a fancy restaurant for lunch, and a small walk around the park.

It wasn't that dark yet and you guys were on your walk.

"I have a surprise for you Bora.~" Hyorin sang excited.

"Jinja? What is it?" You asked as your eyes twinkled.

"Just keep on walking." Hyorin eye smiled. You looked at the others who were just smiling too. Before hand, when you left to the restroom. Hyorin quickly told the other's the surprise. They were shocked however happy.

You just shrug and keep on walking.

*I wonder what the surprise they have for me is?*

You guys kept on walking until you started to seem like you were walking alone, because the other three were walking behind you. Soon you were closing near a playground.

You stopped when you notice the familiar playground. You looked around your destination to find your old neighborhood. Memories soon start to pop up in your head as you looked all around you.

A smile crept upon your face as tears started to flow down. You walked closer to the playground memorizing everything.

"Bobo unnie! Look I'm a princess!!!" Bomi beamed brightly as she stood there on the playground. "You are now my princess sister!" She giggled cutely at you. You just chuckled and nod.

"Mimi, would you like to join me for tea?" You pretended to walk into her 'room'.

"Yes, I would love to join you for tea." She held her chin up high like those rich people. You chuckled at her action.

"Mm." You both said in a unison then laugh together.

"Darlings let's go back!!! It's getting late!" Your appa shouted from the bench he was sitting at.

"Araseyo!!!" Once again you both answered in a unison. Then laugh after.

Quickly both the adorable little girls ran over to their appa quickly holding his hand. Each on either side of him.

"Appa, what are you going to cook tonight?" You asked as you swung his hand with yours.

"What do you guys want?" He asked with a warm smile.

"I want japchae!" Bomi shouted happily.

"I want fishcake!" You beamed. Earning laughs from the elder.

"Araseyo, araseyo. Japchae and fishcakes it is then." He smiled down at his two lovely kids.

Your fingers ran along the pole of the playground. You just smiled like an idiot thinking about the happy past you had when you were still growing up.

"Unnie?" You froze after hearing a familiar voice. Slowly you turned your head towards the familiar voice. Your eyes widen.

"B-Bomi." Bomi quickly ran and hugged you tightly. More tears flowed down your already wet face.

"Unnie!" She hugged you tighter. Your heart just ached seeing her again.

"Bomi!" You hugged her back tightly. "I-I...Oh god Bomi." You cried on her shoulder as she cried onto yours.

"Unnie, neomu bogoshipo! Wae!? Why did you have to leave me again? Waeyo!?" Bomi sobbed. You hugged her tighter.

"Mianhae Bomi. Noemu mianhae." You also sobbed. Both of your clothes becoming drenched with tears.

"Do you know how much I cried after you left? I had a total mental breakdown. I had a freaking mental breakdown. It hurt so much unnie. I became a total wreck unnie! A wreck!" Bomi sobbed even louder hugging you to the tightest. You also hugged her back tightly.

"M-Mianhae Mimi. I-I was... I so god damn sorry Bomi. Please stop crying. I hate seeing you like this huh? Bomi neomu mianhae." You stroke her hair softly like a mother would do.

***

After the both of you cried your eyes out. You guys settle down back at your 'new' home. You totally forgot about the other three. It's like they just left you. Actually they did leave you. They left you with your sister. And then they would come and pick you up later.

"Where's omma and appa?" You asked out randomly.

"Oh, their still at work. I normally stay alone like this now." Bomi sadly said. You just wrap your arms around Bomi for comfort.

"Neomu mianhae for leaving you like that. I... I had to make a hard decision." You said as Bomi rested her head on your shoulder. "I promise you this time, I won't leave. No matter what, I won't leave. I'll stay by your side Mimi." You warmly smiled down at her.

"Never. Unnie never I'll ever let you go now." Bomi still sniffled. You just chuckle and nod your head.

"Araseyo, and never I will ever leave you." You hugged Bomi tightly. "Bomi how did you know I was there?" You looked at her puzzled.

"Because one of your members told me to go there."

"My member? So you know that I'm a idol now?" You rested your head on her's. She nods lightly.

"I think, if I could remember. Her name was Hyorin. She said that I should go to the playground where I grew up. She even told what time. When I came, I found you." Bomi hugs you tighter again. You just smile.

"Well, she's the best isn't she. She's my leader. She's like a big sister to me sometimes even though I'm older. But I'm really happy to have her by my side." You smiled wide.

"Unnie." Bomi spoke softly making you turn your gaze at her.

"Mm." You hummed in response. She slowly looked up at you.

"C-Can you tell me why you left?" She said with her red and puffy eyes. You just slowly smiled and nodded.

"Araseyo."

***

After telling her everything, she was very shock. Knowing that she was just your half sister instead of full-blooded sister. However she was still glad to have you as her sister. Bomi cried at some parts listening to your story.

However she cried for you. For going through so much. She cried.

"Well, now you can start new right unnie?" She weakly smiled at you with sniffles. You just smile and nod your head.

"Yup. I'm going to start new." You sadly smiled back. While you guys were hugging the front door open.

"Ugh, I'm so tired." A woman's voice spread through the whole house.

"Shh! Bomi's probably sleeping now." A man's voice spat.

"I know, I know." She chuckled. "I'm so glad I found out everything." You could tell that she was smiling.

*What did she find out that she's so happy about?* You thought in your head.

"I can tell. I'm glad too. Knowing that Bomi and Bora are Yesung and Minyoung's kids. I'm glad they came to our hands when they had no one left. It feels like the old days when we used to babysit them." He lightly chuckled.

"Babysit us?" You spoke with a arched eyebrow. They jumped from hearing you.

"Like the old days?" Bomi spoke out confused.

"H-Hon, you weren't asleep yet?" Your omma asked concerned.

"Ani, I was staying with unnie for her birthday." Bomi smiled. They looked over Bomi's shoulder to see you. Both their eyes rounded.

"Bora!" They both said in a unison. You just sheepishly smile at them .

"Um, hey~" You awkwardly greeted them. They both went and hugged you. You could feel the warmth of having a family. You smiled and hugged them back.

"Oh my gosh, wha-what happened to you? Why did you all of sudden disappear?" Your omma asked worriedly.

"Yeah, why did you leave?" Your appa asked confused and worried. All you did was smile.

"Omma, appa I want to know what you guys were talking about. Then I'll tell you why I left." You said with a small smile. They both looked at each other then back at you. They both nodded their heads in a unison.

***

You guys settle down on the couch. Bomi sitting right next to you as the elders sat in front of you and Bomi.

"Well?" You asked really wanting to know what they were just talking about earlier when they entered the house. They both just look at each other once more before turning to you and Bomi.

"Hon, what we were talking about earlier is going to shock you guys a bit." Your omma said with a small smile.

"Well, go on." You said with a smile.

*I must find out tonight who you guys really are!*

"We're close to your parents, because... because I was your father's ex-wife." Yours and Bomi's eyes widen.

*So what my biological father said was right. Appa was a widow, he was married before.*

"I got divorce with your father because I couldn't give birth. That time around, your grandparents. Your father's parents, wanted grandchildren before they pass. However I couldn't give birth. I couldn't get pregnant. So what happened was that your father and I got divorced. Few weeks later I heard your father got remarried and had a child already. A baby girl. My heart ached so badly, because I loved your father very much. But I just couldn't give him what he and his parents wanted right then. Few months later I got remarried, however the man I married." She held onto her husband's hand. "Didn't care if I couldn't have children or not. If only I love him and only him. Until then I heard your father have gotten another child already. Few weeks later your mother was involved in a bad accident. Which Bora was also involved."

"Because of the accident, Bora forgot all about her omma. While Bomi was with her appa that time. After her pass, life became hard on you guys. Your father worked harder then always. And we were the only ones that he was close too. So he chose us to watch you guys. You always loved coming over just to play. You were such a cutie that it made me hurt even more to know that I would never have a child like you. After a year has past or two. Your father wanted to move to a different place to forget all the hurtful memory of his beloved wife. He took both you guys. Years later you guys came back however you guys were still tiny. Still young."

You and Bomi were both shocked however still listened very well. Never skipping out on a word she said.

"I don't what happened but I heard that your father became mental. You guys lost Bomi. Which we seemed to adopt her when we went to the orphanage. And that's mostly all I basically know." She sadly smiled at you and Bomi. You were speechless, just like Bomi.

Silence played there for a while until you broke it.

"So, do we still call you omma and appa?" You asked confused after hearing the whole story.

"Actually, nope. Not anymore. You guys can for now on call us auntie and uncle." He smiled. You nod your head and then look at Bomi who looked like she was still processing everything.

"Well, now it's your turn." You turned your head when you heard your uncle talk.

"My turn?" You asked confused earning a chuckle from the elder.

"Aren't you suppose to tell us why you left?" He tilted his head a bit looking straight at you.

"Oh, yeah. Why did you leave?" Your auntie asked also.

"Well, it's a long story so bare with me." You said with a small smile.

***

You told them everything, which shocked them badly. They didn't know any of this.

"My gosh. Poor Bora, how dare that man do that to his own daughter!" Your aunt shouted with anger.

"Gwaenchana, because now I'm free. Since I ran away. I'm positive to live me life full of happiness now." You smiled brightly.

"So your going to come back?" Your uncle asked happily.

"No, she's not. But she's also not leaving." Bomi simply said with made the elders frown then knit their eyebrows together.

"She's not but she's not leaving either?" Your uncle said totally confused. You just chuckle.

"I became a idol auntie and uncle. I'm in the group called Sistar. Also a sub-unit called Sistar19." You said with a bright smile. They nodded however then freaked out.

"Your an idol!?" They both shouted in surprise. You just nod your head.

"Yup, a idol." You chuckled.

"Congrats cutie pie." Your uncle smiled sweetly at you which you returned the smile.

"Gomawo uncle." You giggled.

"I can't believe it. Even though you went through so much, you became a idol. I freaking idol. Now that's daebak." Your aunt said unbelievably. Earning chuckles from you and Bomi.

"Oh, that's right!" Your aunt remembered something.

"What is it yeobo?" Your uncle looked at your aunt puzzled.

"Happy birthday sweetie." Your aunt hugged you. Making your uncle's eyes widen.

"It's your birthday today!?" He asked surprised. You just laugh.

"Well, duh. Don't you remember Bomi saying it earlier before our long talks." Your aunt snickered.

"Mianhae, I didn't remember. But anyways happy birthday love. May happiness always come towards you." Your uncle held your hand and gave it a small squeeze.

"Gomawo auntie and uncle." You smiled brightly showing your pearly whites.

"Well, what do you want for dinner then?" Your auntie clasped her hands together at once.

"I-" You were cut off when your phone rang. "Mianhae." Yow bowed.

"It's alright. Idols are always busy." Your aunt chuckled. Quickly you took the call.

"Nae, oh. Already?" You frowned. "Alright, I'll be right out. No, I'm not walking back!" You shouted jokingly. You ended the call and look at them.

"My manager is here to pick me up." You sadly smiled. You then looked at Bomi.

"Gwaenchana unnie. Go. At least now you won't leave." Bomi smiled that eye smile of hers. Earning a smile from you.

***

"Love you Bomi." You hugged her tightly before you let her go.

"Love you too unnie. Always eat and sleep right. I don't want to get too worried." Bomi brightly smile at you.

"Araseyo." You chuckled. Next you hugged your aunt and uncle. "I'll be sure to come back for my presents." You joked. Earning laughs from them.

"Araseyo, come back anytime." Your uncle said with a chuckle.

"I'll be sure to prepare a feast for our one and only idol." Your aunt lightly pinched your cheeks.

"Take care of my little Mimi." You hugged Bomi again.

"Don't worry. We always did and we always will." Your aunt said with a sincere smile.

"Annyeong guys!" You waved to them as you walked over to your van. "Annyeong!!!" You shouted as you rolled the window down.

"Annyeong!!!" They all shout back in a unison.

***

You were already in bed, however you couldn't sleep. You kept tossing and turning. You sat up with a big sigh.

"So what's bothering the birthday girl?" You heard Hyorin say.

"I just can't sleep. That's weird." You mumbled the last two words.

"Maybe someone's thinking about you right now. That's why you can't sleep." Hyorin simply said. You just shrug.

"Maybe, but who. I know of course it's not Bomi. Because she's probably knocked out and dreaming about her boyfriend." You just sat there.

"Bomi has a boyfriend!? Nugu?" Hyorin asked all cheerful, earning a chuckle from you.

"It's Junior. From Got7." You said smiling at the two cuties. However then frown when your thoughts came to Mark. Those happy and romantic, also cute moments you had with Mark. His sweet and passionate kisses that both you guys shared. Then it lead to when Mark asked for one last kiss.

Your heart ached just remembering how Mark asked for one last kiss and teared up kissing you one last time. A small slipped down your face.

"Ya! Bora!" Hyorin yelled at you making you snap out of your thoughts.

"Huh? Did you call me?" You asked as you came back into reality.

"What were you thinking so deeply that you started to tear up?" Hyorin asked worriedly. You just furrowed your eyebrows and wipe your face to feel that it was wet.

"I-It's nothing. Let's sleep. Night." You hit the bottom of the top bunk bed where Hyorin was sleeping.

"Alright then, night." Hyorin then went silent. However you couldn't sleep, so you started to play with the bracelet.

*Bogoshipo.*

You said in your thoughts again.

***

~Someone's POV~

*It's her birthday today. I wonder what she did today for her birthday. Happy Birthday angel. I hope your now living in happiness. Bogoshipo.*

Notes

Yes!!!! Double update!!!!!!! So who do you guys think said that? Or said that in their head. Anyways hoped you guys liked this chapter, sorry for the late updates. Today was really busy, because I had to run around the house, helping. Cooking and stuff for my brother's wedding. Because I'm hmong, we have this tradition thingy. Which is a hmong wedding, different from other weddings. So yeah. Please vote and comment!!!! Saranghaeyo!!!

(A/N: He's adorable wink!)