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~I Can't Love Him~

Chapter Forty-Five - A New Start

~Author's POV~

*Two Weeks Past*

You sat on the floor breathing uneven. Your heart racing. Sweat trickling down your whole body.

"You did great!" Dasom beamed while clapping her hand at once.

"Here." Hyorin smiled and gave you a water bottle. You just smiled back and quickly drank it.

"Your actually really hard working. I hope you get into our group." Soyou sang happily.

"Hope so. Since I only know you guys." You said breathless.

"Let's go get something eat." Hyorin offered.

"Actually, you guys go. I'm going to practice some more." You weakly smiled at them.

"You sure?" Soyou asked worried.

"Mm." You hummed as you stood back up.

"Just letting you know. You actually have good talents. You could dance and rap. That's pretty good to me." Dasom winked at you. You just chuckle.

"Gomawo." You eye smiled. Which she smiled in return.

"Unnie, we'll bring you back food araseyo?" Hyorin said with a 'OK' sign. You just nodded your head.

"Now go. I'm going to practice more." You smiled and went to the CD player at the corner.

***

You quickly ate your food. You never ate food in so long and it tasted soo good.

"Whoa, slow down Bora. You could choke." Soyou chuckled.

"I'm just hungry. Really hungry." You said with a full mouth. They all just laughed.

"Cute." Hyorin pinched your cheek.

"Unnie, you look like a chipmunk when you talk with your mouth full like that." Dasom laughed. You just chuckled and swallowed your food.

***

"Alrighty! You ready Bora? You can start whenever your ready." Mr. Kim smiled. You just returned the smile and nod your head.

You took a deep breathe with your eyes closed. Slowly, you opened your eyes. You wore a small smile.

*You can do this Bora! Hwaiting!*

Soon, you heard the music playing. Quickly you started with the music. Moving your body perfectly with the beat, the rhythm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEVqMao-kvU

(A/N: Couldn't find any good ones, so I just used this one for Bora's dance thingy.)

***

"Whoa!~" Mr. Kim clapped his hands together loudly amazed. With the others clapping in a unison.

"Jjang!!! Unnie!!!" Dasom beamed happily.

"I agree! You practice so hard. And you totally perfected it!" Soyou sang.

"I'm so proud of you!!" Hyorin hugs you tightly. You just laugh.

"Well..." Dasom looked at Mr. Kim. Which brought everyone's attention to Mr. Kim.

"She in Mr. Kim?" Soyou asked nervously. You bit your lower lip nervously. Your heart pounding like crazy.

"Yup." Mr. Kim said in a sad tone. You all hang your heads until their heads shot up again.

"Wait! Yo-your in!" Hyorin shouted happily.

"I-I made it!!!" You beamed happily. All four of you jumped happily together holding each other's hand. Jumping in a circle.

***

"Now, you have to start practicing all our songs and everything. Hwaiting Bora!" Hyorin said with a lot of enthusiasm. You just smile, showing your pearly whites.

"I can't unnie is with us now!" Dasom said while hugging you tightly. You just laugh.

*Guess their my only family now. I'm starting new. As Yoon Bora. The idol, Yoon Bora!*

You smiled even wider as you watched you new so-called family laughing together.

***

It was late at night. You were in the practice room all by yourself, still practicing. Since you were the last to join the group, you didn't want to disappoint any of your members or your managers.

You sat on the floor leaning on the cold wall. You drenched in your own sweat. Just sweat drizzling down your face. Your heavy breathing being the only thing being heard since you turned off the music.

Slowly you raised your hand up to the dim lights. Staring at the now old piece of jewelry on your wrist. A small smile appeared on your face.

*Maybe one day we'll meet again.*

"You probably hate me now huh?" A small tear mixed in with your sweat. You quickly sniffed when you heard someone coming your direction.

"You done Bora unnie?" Soyou eye smiled at you. You just chuckle and nod. You raise both of your hands up signing for Soyou to come and help you stand up. Quickly Soyou grabbed both of your hands and pulled you up.

"Gaja!" You sang out as you wrapped an arm around Soyou's shoulder.

"Oh, unnie. Did you always have this bracelet on?" Soyou asked as she started playing with it around your wrist. You just hummed in response.

"Mm. Waeyo?" You looked at her. She shakes her head.

"Yeppeo." She said while smiling genuinely at you. You just chuckle.

"You like it?" You asked because you were a bit curious why she was so attracted to it.

"Mhm." She kept that smile of hers plastered on her face.

"Well, too bad. It's mine. Someone really special gave it to me." You smiled remembering him asking you if you wanted to buy a couple thing for you both.

"Chingu? Or..." She looked at you with a arched eyebrow. "Boyfriend?" You gawked at her after hearing her say that word.

"A-Ani. I don't have a boyfriend. Nope, nope, nope." You nervously chuckled. Soyou just laughed and nodded her head.

"Alright then. Let's go." She laughed once again. You just scrunched up your nose.


***Next Day***


You were back in the practice room, practicing again. That's mostly the only place you stayed at. You went no where, but just the practice room.

***

"Unnie!~" Dasom sang as she popped her head inside the practice room. You just stop and smile at her.

"Hey!~" You chuckled before you went on with practicing.

"Oh stop practicing for a while and come eat." Soyou said while taking out food out a plastic bag.

"Yeah. You need a break." Hyorin playfully glared at you. You just chuckle and nod.

"Araseyo, araseyo. Don't need the lecture you know." You joked and quickly plotted yourself right next to the chipmunk Dasom. "Seems like you haven't eaten yet Dasom-ah." You raised an eyebrow looking at her. However she just smiled with her cheeks poking out since she still have food in her mouth. You just laugh.

"Eat Bora. You're working so hard. And I'm really proud of you." Hyorin said with her adorable eye smile. You just return the smile.

"Just like Hyorin omma said. I'm proud of our little Bobo too." Soyou pinched your cheeks. You just groan from the pain.

"Ya! Ah po." You whined cutely while rubbing your cheeks.

"Should I kiss it then?" Soyou joked as she reached out her hands like a little baby reaching out for her mother. You quickly shake your head while your covering your cheeks with your hands.

"Ani, gwaenchanayo." You sheepishly smiled. Earning a chuckle from the latter.

"Ya, Soyou unnie she's older then you." Dasom finally spoke after chugging her food. Earining laughs from all of you.

"Ate all your food already?" Hyorin asked laughing. Dasom just innocently smiled like a little kid.

"Probably did." You said still with your laughs. Dasom just pouts.

"Hey, I was hungry." Dasom crossed her arms with her cute pout.

"Aigoo, our maknae is too cute." Soyou pinched Dasom's cheek.

"Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah po unnie!" Dasom whined while yanking Soyou's hands off her cheeks.

"Now you know I felt." You joked while stuffing your face.

"Bobo, do you have siblings?" Hyorin asked out randomly. Soon the atmosphere became a bit tense. That was a tough topic for you however you still answered.

"M-mm. I-I do." You stutter thinking about Bomi. Your tears were threatening to shed, however you held it in.

"Gwaenchanayo Bora-ah?" Soyou looked at you concerned. You kept your head hanged for a while until you forced a smile and raised your head.

"Mm. Why wouldn't I be?" You said happily. "Eat." You pointed your chopsticks to the food. They all just nod and continue eating.

***

After eating Soyou and Dasom went to go practice their vocals somewhere else. Hyorin left long time ago, somewhere. However when you were alone Hyorin came out of no where.

"Bora, do you want to talk?" Hyorin asked making you jump from her sudden appearance.

"Hyorin, where did you go?" You asked with a small chuckle of relief. She just smiles and sits down leaning up against the wall.

"Come here." She patted the seat next to her. You just obeyed and quickly moved to sit next to her.

"What's wrong?" You looked at her nervously.

"Even though we're not that close yet. I-I want to try. I know that something was bothering you when I asked about your siblings. As a leader, I should be there for my members." Hyorin smiled her one-of-kind smiles. You just lift up your knees to your chest, hugging onto them.

"Uh, yeah. T-that topic is... is kinda rough for me." You said out softly, however Hyorin could still hear it.

"Do you want to talk about it? Unless you can't then it's fine. However if it's bothering you, come to me anytime huh?" Hyorin wrapped an arm around your shoulders. You just smile at her.

"Araseyo." You heaved out a sigh. It was silence for a while before you broke it. "Hyo Jung-ah." You said softly.

"Hmm." Hyorin replied with a hum.

"To tell you the truth, I do have a sibling. Her name's Bomi, Yoon Bomi. However she's my half sister." You took a deep breath. You really need someone to talk all of this too. You needed it off your shoulders.

"Your appa remarried?" Hyorin asked confused.

"Ani." You shook your head. "My omma did. Actually she wasn't even married." You chuckled. "She was just pregnant with me." You hanged your head.

"Bora, you can let everything out if it's bothering you. I don't want anything happening to you." Hyorin said in a worried tone.

"My omma left my biological father because... well I think it's because he was a jerk that's why omma left him. But after she left him. she met Yesung. Who became my father. My step father. My mother already had me right after marriage with my step father. A few months, omma got pregnant with my step father. Which turned out to be Bomi, my baby sis. After giving birth to Bomi, we lived our happily lives together as a happy family. However everything came down when my omma had a car crash. Which I was also involved." You felt your tears again.

Hyorin gasped when she heard that you were involved in the car accident.

"A-At such a young age?" Hyorin asked in disbelief. You just nod your head.

"Because of that accident, it made me have amnesia. I forgot all about who my omma was or who she was. Appa even stored away all the pictures of her. When I was about 4 or 5 years old, we lost my baby sis at the playground. She was only 3 years old, if I'm correct. Life became harder, because a-appa was also in a accident. H-He became mental. He started to act as a 5 year old when he was already 36 years old. W-We lived a hard life. With omma and Bomi gone. My appa being mental put more stress on me. However I never gave up because a-appa was still there for me. He was the only one left for me. But because I was involved into this stupid thing back in my old days. Appa passed because of me. Just because this fucking stupid guy wanted to rape me. H-He killed my father." You burst out into tears as Hyorin was sitting beside you listening to you quietly. Also quietly crying along with you.

"After that, I went to move with my appa's best friend. While packing up my things, I finally found all of my omma's things that appa stored. It hurt badly to know that I forgot my own mother. Can't you believe that? I forgot my damn own mother! After finally moving with them, I..." You paused for a bit.

"Y-you what?" Hyorin asked with sniffles.

"I fell in love with their only son. We date for about almost a whole year. But after my biological father founding me again. I had to leave everyone behind. I even found my baby sister again. But I had to leave. I even had new parents, who adopted Bomi. I left them because my biological father threaten me if I didn't leave with him. He would harm my loved ones. I couldn't bare see the one who I loved to death harmed, my baby sister harmed, even I couldn't bare seeing my 'new' parents being harmed. I just couldn't. When I was just finally starting new, he just had to show up randomly in front of me. It hurt me badly, because I had to watch and hear my sister plead me to stay. To see my boyfriend in pain from my doing. I-I just couldn't bare with it, but at least they would be safe. The next thing I know, I had to quit and start working. While working 3 jobs. Everyday starting changing for me. My biological father became more aggressive. He started abusing me. Mentally and physically." You became quiet for a while as you start trying to put yourself together.

"Oh my god Bora. I'm so sorry that you had to go through so much hurtful moments. I'm so sorry." Hyorin hugs you tightly as you cried into her embrace.

"When I finally had the courage to finally run away. I did. I ran until I just ended up here. And now I'm going to start new again. A better one where their won't be anymore bad memories." You weakly smiled at the ground.

"Good. Because I'll be here to make those memories good too." Hyorin hugs you tighter.

"Nado." Two voices said in a unison. You and Hyorin both look up to see a crying Soyou and a sobbing Dasom. You both just chuckle.

"Mm. Together." You said while putting your hand in the middle. Quickly the three followed your movement and did the same.

"Sistar together!" Dasom yelled.

"Together!" You all said together.

Notes

Yay! Update!!!!! I'm really really really really really sorry for a late update. Really am. It's because so many things happening right now. Like my older brother is getting married and other things are happening right now. So I really sorry for the late post. Please forgive me! :'{ But anyways I hoped you guys liked this chapter. Soon, guys soon the truth about everything will be spilled out. Saranghaja!!!

P.S. Guys I have awesome news!!! If you guys still love Kris from Exo, then please bare with me. He's been announced to be coming back to Exo in August!!!! Can't you believe that!? He's coming back!!! But it's alright if you guys don't feel the same as I do. I understand.

(A/N: Lolz, they look so photogenic)

Comments

Wah. I'm new in kpop fanfic and this is the third story I've read. This is too good. I wish there was sequel. I really loved this story.

Wang'zouu Wang'zouu
1/8/17

I LOVE THIS STORY

catdog21 catdog21
11/17/16

Omg this was amazing, the emotions being displayed really came out. Well doneeeeee♡♡

Kkstlh Kkstlh
10/29/16

OMG this story is so good >.< Unnie you did a great job! Thank you for writing this story, Saranghae :)

BTS Kookie BTS Kookie
5/29/16

Ahh unnie, you have natural talents in writing! Omg this was so good I cried tears of joy at the end! Please continue writing more stories! Impatiently waiting ^-^! Hwaiting!

TuanTuan TuanTuan
2/28/16