~I Can't Love Him~

~Mark's POV~
I sat there in the dance room all alone, covered all in sweat. Just sitting there in the dark, against the wall. Sweat trickling down my face. Heaving breathing was only heard in the whole room.

My sweat soon mixed with tears. My ached so much, it felt as if my heart has been stabbed a million times.

I danced and danced until I just couldn't take it anymore. My heart hurt so damn much.

"Why?... " I panted. "Why did you have to leave me?" More tears soon formed in my eyes. My eyes turning red and puffy.

I took deep breathes, calming my heart down. From dancing so much. I barely could feel my legs. My hair was all wet also, from all the sweat that I shed.

"Mark! Where the hell are you!?" Jackson yelled. I just sat there in the silence still, not responding.

"Ya! Mark hyung!!! Where are you!?" BamBam screamed.

Everyone was all shouting for me. I felt as if I couldn't even breathe anymore. I felt like I was suffocating from all this.

*Did you really have to leave?*

"Are you sure he still here?" JB asked tired.

"Yeah, after he looked at his phone. He left with no words. He didn't look so good." Junior said concern.

"What could have happened? He even left his phone." Youngjae said.

"Ugh! Guys it's too late. We could have used this time to sleep." Yugyeom whined.

"Shut up Yugyeom! Keep looking!" Junior shouted.

***

~Author's POV~

"You guys!!! Mark's here!!!" Jackson yelled as he ran over to Mark. "Hyung gweanchana?" Jackson lifted Mark's head up as he saw the passing out Mark laying on the cold floor.

"Jackson, what happened to Mark?" Youngjae asked as he examined Mark.

"He's sick." Junior said as he pulled back his hand that was just on Mark's forehead.

"Let's take him back." JB quickly said.

***

"Hyung gwaenchana?" BamBam asked as he saw Mark slowly sitting up.

"Y-Yeah. Gwaenchana." Mark said weakly.

"Ya! Hyung you should still be resting." Junior scowled at Mark.

"Aish, be quiet. Your giving me a headache." Mark glared at Junior as he held his head.

"Hyung what happened? Why did you all of sudden disappear?" BamBam question as he gave Mark some pain killers and a water bottle.

"Guess I don't have to worry about Bora anymore." Mark said weakly, depressed.

"What you talking about?" Junior said with a arched eyebrow.

"We broke up. Bora broke it off. She even ran away. She's not living with Bomi anymore. She left somewhere, somewhere that no one has a damn idea. Her phone probably died or she broke it. No one's answering." Mark said as a tear streamed down his face.

"M-Mianhae hyung. M-maybe she wasn't the one." BamBam stuttered.

"Probably." Mark laid back down. "Good night." Mark turned to lay onto his side.

"Night." BamBam and Junior said at the same time.

***

You quickly woke up from a terrifying nightmare that you just had a few minutes ago. Heavy breathing was the only thing being heard. You could feel your cold sweats rolling down your face.

You just shook it off and went off tot he bathroom.

***

After a quick shower, you quickly changed into a pair of ripped up jeans and a hoodie. You quickly tied your hair and wore a hat.

Quickly you made breakfast and then went off to your knowing jobs. Even though it was 3 am in the morning.

***

You quickly passed out all the milk and newspapers to the neighborhoods. You then quickly ran to the cafe and changed into your knowing uniform. Quickly passing out the orders to all customers.

After your morning and afternoon shifts. You quickly ran to the small convenience store. Changed into your knowing uniform. You quickly stood behind the cashier ready to scan their items.

***

You dragged your legs towards your house. Feeling all stressed out and tired. You kept on walking until you froze. Hearing voices from just in front of you not that far away.

You gulped down your remaining saliva.

*Gwaenchana Bora. T-Try to walk around them. You can do this.*

You took a deep breathe and soon started to continue to walk.

*J-Just relax Bora.*

You heaved another sigh. Closing your eyes for a while then opening it again.

Right when you opened your eyes, you were not that far from the group of guys. You started to shiver from fright. Quickly you turned away so that you could went around them, however it was too late.

"Oh, look what we have here." A man spoke while eyeing you down. You just out your hood on, making sure it covered your long hair.

*Please, please don't come over here.*

You pleaded to yourself. You took one last deep breathe before they approached you.

"Hey, why did you put on the hood? Scared?" Another man said while coming closer to you.

You just shook your head and kept on walking. Soon enough the three men were standing right before you. You tried to move away, however they would always get in your way.

They were moving in sync with you, if you move to the left they move to the left. If you moved tot the right, they moved to the right.

"Loose the hood." The third man said. Soon, the man who was at your right made a quick move. Pulling down your hood. However your hat still covered you.

"Omo, it's a girl. What pretty long hair." The man at the left said while giving you the elevator look. You just bit your lower lip.

"P-Please don't do anything to me." You said in a frighten voice.

"See that your scared cutie pie." The man in the middle said with a smirk.

"Don't worry, if you don't move a lot. Then everything will be alright." The man at the right said with a bit creepiness in his voice. You just started to take steps backwards.

"Like he said pretty lady. No screaming or shouting. Or your going to get a bigger punishment." The man at the left said with a smirk.

"Alright guys, your scaring the pretty lady." The man in the middle said as his hand trailed down your jaw line quickly. "Soft, I like that." He said while raising an eyebrow. Your eyes just widen.

*Jebahl, someone. Help me. Jehbahl. M-Mark.*

You kept taking steps backwards, hiding your face with your hat.

"Gosh, your hat is covering your pretty face." The man on the left said while quickly snatching your hat. Finally showing your full face.

"Whoa!~ Your so pretty." The man on the right praised. You just stared at them scared. Really, you were shivering.

"Get her." The man in the middle simply said. Right after those two words came out, you suddenly froze, you felt your heart beat quicken even faster.

Both of those two men grabbed your arm and pulled you into a dark alley.

"No! Please!!! Don't do this to me!" You screamed.

"Stop screaming." The man who was in the middle quickly got on top of you. His full body pinning you down.

"Stop!!! Don't touch me!!!" You screamed even more.

"I said stop screaming!" The man quickly smacked you. A huge bruise plastered on your face. You were now bleeding from the corner of your lips.

*Please!!!*

You shut your eyes tight as you felt the disgusting man's hands crawling all over your body.

*Please, someone.*

A tear escaped from your eyes. You felt the man's breathe on your neck. Making a shiver do down your spine. You bit your lip, shutting your eyes even tighter.

The next thing you know is the man who was on top of you was yanked off. You heard grunts and groans. You slowly moved your knees, so that you could hug it. Tears coming none stop.

"Bora! Gwaenchana?" You heard his voice. Your eyes slowly opened, slowly turning towards the direction to see if it was real or not. Your eyes widen after seeing his face.

Quickly you sat up and hugged him tightly.

"It's okay, I'm here now. D-Don't be scared." He stroked your back while helping you stand up.

***

You and Mark were sitting at the bench in the park. All in the dark.

Just sitting there in silence, until Mark broke it.

"W-Why did you leave?" Mark asked weak. You could even feel how hurt he was from just hearing his voice.

However you didn't respond. You just kept silence.

*I can't tell you Mark. Neomu mianhae.*

Small tears soon started streaming down your wet face.

"Bora." Just hearing him call your name made you even more hurt. You quickly stood up, about to run away but Mark quickly stood up too and grabbed your wrist. "Please Bora, answer me. W-Why did you have to leave? W-Was I not a good enough boyfriend? D-Didn't you say that you always love me? That you would never leave and always walk by my side until the very end." Mark said as small tears escaped his eyes.

*I-I do love you. I love you so god damn much, that now it's time to let go. For your own safety Mark. I really do love you. I do want to keep on walking by your side, through all the hardships and stress. B-But now... I need to leave.*

"Mianhae Mark. But it's over. Y-You were just something that I could come too when I was down or bored. Neomu mianhae, but it's really over." You simply said, however deep inside you were dying after saying those words.

"W-Waeyo? D-Did I do something wrong?" Mark asked while his hand slipped into your hands. Intertwining his with yours. Your ached even more.

"Ani. Y-You did nothing wrong. I-It's just me." You said while pulling your hand away.

"Andwae! It isn't because of you. I know that it has to do something with me!" Mark shouted.You quickly spun around.

"Yes, fine then. You want to hear the truth. Everything has to do with you. Everything! I can't bare with it anymore. I really can't wait for you anymore. I really can't. Everyday, I'm here all alone with no one. Seeing couples walking here and there. I can't Mark. Not anymore. I'm done." You yelled out with tears streaming down your face. Mark froze seeing your tears.

"I-I... Bora." Mark didn't know what to say or what to do. Whenever he saw you in tears, he was always weak. "Bora, I'm-" You quickly cut him off.

"Sorry. Your sorry? Do you think saying that would heal the pain you gave me." You looked at the ground not daring to make eye contact with Mark anymore. Your heart was just hurting more and more, just like Mark's. Hearing all those words, it just hurt more.

"Bora." Mark said in very soft voice. However you could still hear it.

"I-I'm leaving." You quickly turned around wiping your tears. You were about to walk off, however Mark quickly grabbed your wrist once again.

"B-Before you leave. C-Can you do me one last thing?" Mark said between his small tears. You slowly turned back around and looked back into Mark's eyes. Just staring into his eyes, you could already disappeared deep in his eyes.

"What?" You fully turned, facing him. Still keeping eye contact with him.

"One last kiss. All I want is just one last kiss." Your heart ached as you heard what Mark wished for. However you acted as nothing affected you.

"A-Alright." Your voice cracked a bit. You stood there, looking deeply into his eyes. Your eyes soon diverted to his lips however back to his eyes.

You watched as Mark came closer to you, one step after another. He came closer. His eyes never leaving yours.

Slowly, his hand lifted up and cupped your cheek. Stroking it slowly with his thumb.

Soon enough he was only inches away. His face coming closer and closer to yours. Now he was only centimeters away.

You slowly closed your eyes, as he inched closer. After your eyes were fully closed, you felt his soft warm lips upon yours. A tear escaped from yours and Mark's eyes.

*I love you Bora. So god damn much that I think I can't get over you. I beg you to stay but guess I hurt you way too much.*

*I love you Mark. So much, that it's going to hurt for years until it'll finally heal. I want to stay by your side so badly, but I can't. Neomu mianhae Mark. Neomu, neomu mianhae.*

Notes

Made this heart breaking, I don't know if it's heart breaking for you guys. But for me, yes, it's heart breaking. One last kiss, before they both part ways. *Non-stop tears* Just kidding. But anyways I hope you guys liked this update. Please leave a comment loves!!!! Thanks again for reading this story!!!!!!

(A/N: For all us Mark lovers!!!)