~I Can't Love Him~

~Author's POV~
As you slowly open your eyes, squinting at first from the bright light. Showering you whole room. You sat up yawning, stretching out your arms. You rubbed your eyes, like a little girl just waking up hugging her teddy bear.

"Unnie~" Bomi's voice rung in your room. You slowly look at her, seeing her peeking her head out behind your door.

"What?" You said in your morning voice.

"Nothing. Just that omma said to come down and eat breakfast." Bomi eye smiled.

"Mm." You hummed, while getting out of bed and walking into your bathroom.

***

"So, what are you two doing to do today?" Your omma asked with a sincere smile.

"Nothing, probably just going to go watch some my Junior's drama." Bomi shyly smiled.

"Drama?" You looked at her confused.

"Mm." Bomi nodded her head like a little child with round eyes. "During school before everything, like Got7 happened. Junior was in a group with JB, but they were called JJ Project. And then Junior was also acting in a drama called 'Dream High 2'." Bomi said with a eye smile. You just nodded along.

"Wow, he must be really famous before then." You just nodded your head.

"What about you Bora?" Your appa looked at you, away from his newspaper that he was reading.

"I... I don't know. Probably go out on a walk or go visit my old neighborhood." You just shrug. They nodded along this time.

"Why visit your old neighborhood?" Bomi questioned with a puzzled face.

"I don't know. Or maybe I could go look for a job. Try to earn money." You said with a small yet confident smile.

"That'll be great honey." Your omma beamed.

"I want to work too, but too lazy. Watching my baby is better." Bomi giggled from the looks that everyone gave her.

"Tch, like that would lead you in life." You stated shaking your head. Bomi just glares at you.

***

You were walking around, walking to different stores, cafes, and etc. You actually did think of getting a job.

Walking out of a cafe that was near your school, you sighed.

"Well, we will certainly give you call if you got the job or not. And yet again mianhae for our boss not being here. Or any of the managers. One of our managers were here, however I have no idea where he went."

"If you don't get the job, then I super sorry. I hope you will find a place to work at." She shyly smiled.

You took a deep breathe.

*Hope I get the job. Too tired of walking so damn much. My legs feels like jello.* You hanged your head a bit as you were walking towards the near-by park.

(A/N:So I changed something. Whenever the main character (you) say your thoughts in your head. I won't be using '...' instead I'll be using *...*)

You dragged your feet to one of the near-by benches. Quickly you sat down and start massaging your legs.

"If I don't get the job, probably just keep my head on my academics." You pouted a bit.

"Whatcha pouting for?" You looked beside you to see that mysterious man sitting there on your left. Your eyes widen.

*Was he following me again?*

"I wasn't following you." He said as if he read your mind. "I was going out for a jog and ended up here. I was just resting." He simply said, while you looked away from him. You just stayed silent.

"So, have you been thinking about what I told you at our last meeting." He looked at you. Just his stare made you feel uncomfortable.

*No shit, they were fucking stuck at the back of my head. I know they're just lies, but I still couldn't get it out oh my head.*

"Tch, why should I be thinking about your lies? All they are just lies, nothing but lies. You know nothing about my mother or my life." You spat out. Leaning back against the bench, crossing your arms over your chest. He just chuckles.

*Why is that stalker laughing? What's so damn funny?*

You rolled your eyes, showing annoyance.

"I'm guessing you have been thinking about my words. Just because seeing you so uncomfortable right now. I can tell." He smirked. Your eyes widen a bit, you bit on your lower lip.

"No, never." You just simply said. He just roll his eyes.

"Look, I'm telling you the truth. I know everything about your mother. How? You may ask. Is because I dated her for 5 years. Got her pregnant, she ran away to some rich guy. Leaving me behind." He crossed his arms and his legs. You just looked at the floor.

"Y-Your making it sound as if my mother was some gold digger. As if she took all your money then went to another for more money." You looked at him with a expressionless face. He just shrugs.

*Shrugs? Did he just fucking shrug!? What the hell?*

"Look, what I'm trying to say is your my child. Not Yesung's. Or whatever his name is. I even figured out that your so called father was a widow. Before he married your mother. He got married, then got divorced. And ended up marrying your mother, Park Minyoung."

Your eyes widen with your lips parted a bit.

*H-He really knows omma. Park Minyoung, t-that's omma's name. Y-Yesung, t-that's appa's name. He really knows me.*

You gulped down your remaining saliva. You slowly turned your gaze towards the ground away from him.

"W-Why are you showing up now?" You stuttered still staring at the ground with wide eyes.

"How come your not looking at me when your not talking?" He smirked.

"J-Just answer the god damn question." You spat.

"Well, I came to look for your mother. However then I found out that she died after giving birth to your half sister. So then I changed my target to something even more interesting. You." Your eyes widen even more, if that was even possible.

Hearing that you were his target.

"W-What do you mean? T-Target?" You slowly looked up at him with fear.

"What do you mean? I told you everything. How can you not know what I mean." He scoffs.

"M-My mother would never ruin anyone's life though. I know that for sure. Maybe something happened between you two. I don't know, however all I know is that maybe you couldn't help support her or you didn't love her. That's probably why she l-left you." You stuttered a bit.

"Really? I loved her with my whole damn god heart. However all she does is just leaves me. I didn't do any fucking stupid shit to make her leave me. All I know is that she fucking left me when I fucking needed her so god damn badly. But now, I'm here for my revenge. She makes my life suck, now I'm going to make your life suck." He smirked.

"W-Why me? If I'm your child, you shouldn't do this to me." You still kept your eyes on him, as he sat there staring at you with a arched eyebrow.

"Your kidding me right? Who gives a fuck if your my child. I'm just going to make you suffer. Probably harm the people you love, or the people around you. Let's see how far we can go through." Your eyes widen again.

*H-Harm the people I love. Omma, appa, Bomi, Got7... Mark. T-The people I love could get hurt just because of me.*

"Don't hurt anyone. I-I'll do anything you want." You stood up staring at him.

"Mm. Alright. Let's see." He rubbed his chin while narrowing his eyes at you. "You'll do anything~" He sang out. You just bit your lower lip.

*Mark, I need you so bad right now*

You nodded your head as a small tear escaped.

"No need to cry sweetie. For now on, your real appa is here." He smirked. "For now on, you have to move in with me. Push away everyone. Quit school and start working. Got that? If you don't start working I might have to use you to get money." He smirked while eyeing you. Your eyes widen again.

"No! Never!" You moved away.

"Then better be a good girl to me or else, I might have to use you instead." He raised an eyebrow waiting for a answer.

"Mm." You hummed as you nodded your head.

"Better start now. Go tell everyone that you don't like them and you want to live by yourself. And here's my address." He handed you a piece of paper with a address on it. "Now your a Kim, not a Yoon. Kim Bora."

"A-Araseyo." You nodded your head again, as you grabbed the sticky note.

"Don't tell anyone about this or else, there will be consequences." He narrowed his eyes at you. You just nodded your head. "Good, I'll go home now and get your bed ready." He smirked as he turned around to leave however you quickly held him back.

"Wait, w-what's your name though?" You asked.

"Why do you need to know?" He looked at you suspiciously.

"Why can't I know? Of course kids, are suppose to know their parent's names right?" You question.

"Alright fine. Minhyuk, Kim Minhyuk. Got that?" He raised an eyebrow. You just slowly nod your head.

***

"Wae unnie? Please don't leave." Bomi cried. You wanted to cry so bad, however you held it in.

"I'm not a part of this family. I don't even feel as if you guys are even my real parents. Meeting at a park and knowing that we're sisters right away. How is that even possible. You could possibly be a stranger to me for god sakes. I'm probably living with strangers right now." YOu said throwing your clothes into the luggage.

"Unnie! No, your not a stranger. Your my sister. My unnie, you can't just leave me alone again. You can't." Bomi pleaded. You just scoff.

"How would you know if I'm your real sister huh? Just because we have to same surname doesn't mean that your my sister. Never! Your just a stranger that could perhaps be my sister!" You spatted angrily.

"Unnie!~ Jehbahl, don't leave me again." Bomi hugged your legs. Your tears were threatening to fall, however you bit your lip to hold it back.

"No. I'm not your unnie." You kicked Bomi off of your legs.

"Then what about Mark!?" Bomi shouted behind you as she stood up. You froze. You hesitated a bit, however words just spilled out which made Bomi shocked.

"We're over. Tell Mark, I was just playing with him the whole time. He was just a toy to me. Tch, easy guy I's say. Make it clear to him, we're over. We're not a thing anymore." You walked out quickly ignoring your parents presences.

After slamming the door closed, you poured out your tears as you quickly left the front yard.

*Mianhae Bomi, Neomu mianhae. I do love you. I-I have to do this so no one gets hurt. Mianhae Bomi. Mianhae Mark, I-I love you so god damn much. I'm super sorry for doing this to everyone. Pushing you guys away.*

***

You were organizing your things into your new room. You were amazed to see that your biological appa had a apartment.

After done organizing your things, you quickly made dinner because your appa was shouting at you. After done, you had to wait until your appa was done eating, to finally let you eat.

Your appa left, leaving you alone in the apartment. You cried and cried. Your phone kept ringing, however you didn't answer, you couldn't answer. You got annoyed of the ringtone so you quickly grabbed your phone and through it at the wall hard. Making your phone turn into pieces. The ringing stopped.

You ran into your room and slammed the door. Sliding down the door pouring out your eyes.

*I'm so damn sorry guys*

***Next Day***

You woke up early, quickly getting ready. You ran out the door and went to school super early. Telling them that your dropping out and everything. Until then you went and grabbed a newspaper. Going to sit at a table in a cafe. Quickly looking at all the job places. However then you remembered, that you applied for a job yesterday.

The cafe near the park. Quickly you shot up and ran out, running all the way to the cafe.

*Shit, now I wish I didn't break my damn phone!*

"Annyeonghaseyo. I came here yesterday to get a job." You said breathless.

"Uh, yeah you did. Are you alright? Why are you breathing so hard?" The employee asked concerned.

"C-Can I have water?" You asked between your pants. She nodded and quickly went to grab a water bottle handing it to you.

"Here. Let me go call my manager." She smiled and went off. You went and sat down at a near by table.

"Annyeonghaseyo, Bora right?" A man asked politely reaching out his hand. You quickly stood up and shook his hand.

"Ne, Yoo- I mean Kim Bora." You slightly smiled. He just nodded.

"Let's talk." He sat down as you also sat down.

***

After 3 hours of talking with the Marshmallow Cafe, you got the job to work in afternoon. Quickly you went back to the newspaper to look for another job.

The whole day you finally found three jobs. Passing out newspaper and milk in the morning. Working in the cafe in the afternoon and working in a small convenience store in the evening.

***

You slowly closed the door, exhausted. Locking the door, you slowly turned around to freak out. To see your (biological) appa standing there staring at you. Mad, just completely angry at you for coming home late.

"Where were you the whole day?" He questioned with a arched eyebrow. You gulped down your remaining saliva.

"I-I..." You stuttered.

"You what!?" He shouted at you which made you flinch.

"I went to go get jobs." You said while hanging your head.

"And?" He crossed his arms.

"I finally got three jobs. I pass out mild and newspaper in the early morning, then I work at Marshmallow Cafe in the Afternoon, to working at a small convenience store around the corner." You said quickly. Your appa smirked.

"Good. Now go cook dinner. I'm starving since I didn't eat breakfast or lunch." He spat. You quickly ran into the kitchen and started cooking.

***

After dinner, you laid on your bed after a nice warm shower. You took a deep breathe. Letting out all your stress.

"Guess this is it. This is going to be your new life, just to protect the people you love. Bora hwaiting!!! No matter what, you'll always be a Yoon." You said proudly and confidentially to yourself.

You looked at your bracelet once more, the couple bracelet that Mark bought you. Your heart ached, as tears soon starting forming in your eyes.

"I'm so sorry Mark. I love you so much. I-I love you too much that I have to let go now. I love you Mark, I really do." You kissed the bracelet with your eyes closed, as tears flowed down your face.

That night you fell asleep trying you best to have good dreams.

Notes

Omo!!!! Total change huh!? Yeah, I did this. Sorry guys, love me or hate me but I still going on. Hope you guys continue to read my story. Thank you guys to much to 40 votes and 59 subscribers!!!! It means a lot!!!! Saranghaja!!!!!!

P.S. Sorry for the late update, I was watching Exo happy camp. Cried along with Lay and Tao. Love that show whenever Exo's on. You guys should watch it, click on the link below. (I don't know if it works to click on the link lolz)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zygUdDN4v74

(A/N: Here's Mark for ya guys!!!!)