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~I Can't Love Him~

Chapter Twenty-One - Moment Ruined

~Your POV~
'Thump! Thump! Thump!'

Your heart kept beating at a fast pace. Not even calming down for a bit. Like it was running a god damn marathon. If the radio wasn't on or quieter, you probably can hear how loud your heart was hitting against your chest.

The whole time, in the car, sitting in the passenger seat, next to Mark in silence (except for the radio). You couldn't forget about what happened back at the waterfall bridge. Just Mark staring deeply into your eyes, made your heart go crazy. His hands on your shoulders, his face just inches away from yours, and his warm breathe brushing against your lips.

You kept nibbling on your lower lip nervously.

'What's happening to me? Why can't my heart stop beating so fast!?'

Sometimes Mark would steal quick glances of you, thinking of when it's good to tell you that he loves you.

'When should I tell her? ... I think I should try to find out if she likes me too first. If she does then I can tell her that I have the same feelings and that I really want her to become mine.'

Mark smirked just thinking of the right way to confess his love. When the red light came red, he stopped and looked towards you with a small smile.

Since you were still staring outside, you saw his reflection staring at you. Making your heart beat more crazy.

'Dang it, why is Mark looking at me? Please look away, please please please.'

You bit harder on your lower lip, making you yelp in pain. Because you kept nibbling, you finally (well accidentally) made your lower lip bleed.

"Gwaenchana?" Mark asked while keeping his eyes on the road.

"I a-...nothing." You said while touching your bottom lip carefully.

"You what?" Mark said while raising an eyebrow.

"I said nothing." You said while licking your lower lip.

"Don't lie." Mark made a small pout.

"Not lying babo." You looked at Mark, and suddenly you couldn't move your eyes away from his (perfect) side view. Like something is making you stare at him, not letting you look away for one second.

"Ya, I know I'm very handsome. But could you stop staring at me. Your going to make a hole into my head." Mark said while looking at you with a smirk.

Your eyes just widen and you quickly look away right when Mark smirked.

"Handsome my ass." You mumbled.

"Heard that." Mark chuckled under his breathe.

"Your suppose to." You gazed outside.

***At Home***

After that little conversation, it was silent all the way back home. Like there was nothing to talk about. And at some points you would just listen to the radio, however then start thinking about random stuff.

When Mark parked the car onto the parkway, you were already knocked out. Not knowing, Mark just let out a smile without himself knowing.

He unbuckle his seat belt and started leaning closer to you. Just then his face was only inches away from yours again. For some reason, he felt as if he should kiss you. Right there, right now.

And then you opened your eyes feeling something warm blowing against your lips. Right when you opened your eyes, it widen quickly. Seeing Mark's face just not that close from yours.

"Uh...uh...I...was..." Mark said while quickly moving away from you. You just look away, still with your wide eyes. "I was...uh...go...going...to...to wa...wake yo...you up." Mark stuttered out all his words.

"Uh, thanks. I think." You quickly got out of his car and speed walk over to the door. Your heart was beating like...super crazy.

Mark, on the other hand, got out slowly. Because he was still embarrassed of what he did in the car. After he unlocked the door, he opened the door wide open so that you can go in first.

However you just stood there, still shocked to see Mark's face close to yours again. Your heart beating at the same pace as it was earlier when you were in the car. Like a car racing, or like running a marathon, or like it was a jet racing in the sky.

"Um...a...are you no...not going in?" Mark still stuttered his words. However you still remain in the same spot. "Bora? Bora. Bora!" mark shouted making you come back to your senses.

"Huh? Did you say something?" You said while blinking a million times.

"Yeah, I did." Mark said while staring at you a little worried.

"Wha...what di...did you say?" You stuttered because you were right there focusing on staring in his eyes. Like you couldn't look anywhere else, just his eyes.

However he didn't respond, he just used his head to tell you to go in. Which made you understand since you looked forward to see the door wide open. You bitterly smiled and walked in.

"Gwaenchana? You seem really, actually super tired." Mark said while walking in behind you. You just froze in the spot. Staring at the pitch dark house.

The moonlight was barely shining in the house. So then you couldn't even see anything. You slowly took small steps. Just looking around, to see that there wasn't anything to scare you. Of course you were afraid of the dark. Because of what happened when you were younger.

~Flashback~
You were only 12 years old, just a typical middle school student. You were going home, coming back from the park. The place where you lost your baby sister. You, like almost every single day after school, would come to that park and look for clues.

To help you find your sister.

It was getting darker and darker. Probably because it was almost 9pm. As you were walking scrolling through your phone to see if there was any notice of people finding your sister.

Since you put on the internet, missing little sister, need help finding. And all the info of her disappearing.

You started to feel as someone was following you. You locked your phone and straighten your back a bit. You shouldn't have been searching for your little sister. Still in your uniform, a skirt. Just smart.

As you were starting to pick up your pace, you could feel as the person was walking closer and closer to you.

You were about to make a run for it, however a figure popped up out of no where in front of you. Making you stop. Your heart racing, your breathing became heavier. You could even see the white smoke that was coming out of your mouth. Since it was getting colder and colder by day.

"Nu...nuguah?" You stuttered showing them that you were scared to death. Your grip on your phone tighten.

"How come a pretty little girl like you is wondering around? Did you get lost?" The stranger said in his husky deep voice. Now you were shivering.

"Plea...please do...don't do any...anything to....to me." You said in a (super) scared voice while stuttering.

"Awe, don't be scared. We won't hurt you.... Maybe~" The last word made your eyes widen as bit as a UFO. You were speechless. Even a small noise couldn't come out of your mouth.

You just stood there frozen, yet still moving a bit. You were taking small steps backwards as the guy was taking steps closer to you.

You totally forgot all about the guy that was following you earlier. You only remembered the guys walking towards you at that moment.

Until your back hit something, making you jump in fright with a scream. However your scream got cut off by the guy behind you covering your mouth quickly.

"Don't scream little girl. Or else." He whispered in your ear making a shiver down your spine. Of course your eyes were still wide open.

"Now, now. Calm down and it won't hurt a bit." The guys in front of you said while reaching out his hands.

You quickly pulled up your hands and grabbed the strangers hand. Hearing his scream in pain because of your hard bite.

After he let go you were going to take a run for it, until the other guy grabbed your and pulled you into his embrace. His arms around your waist and arms.

"LET GO OF ME!!!!" You yelled while struggling out his deadly grip.

"No until I get a taste." He kissed your neck roughly making you struggle even more.

"LET GO!!!!!! DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME!!!!!!!!!!" Tears started to stream down your face.

"Ugh, shut up already!" The other guy who you bit his hand yelled at you. However you didn't keep quiet.

"FUCKING LET GO!!! YOU RAPIST!!!!!!!" You screamed at the top of your lungs, still struggling.

You were about to scream again, until you felt a sharp hit on your face. You stopped struggling and your just staring at the floor. You dropped onto the floor, holding your right cheek.

You slowly look up to see the guy staring at you like a mad dog.

"Now fucking shut up." He hissed while grabbing you by your hair and pulling your up.

"AH!!!" You yelled in pain. However then you got punched in the stomach, making you once again shut up.

"I said shut up." He growled this time.

"Hey, man. Calm down with this one. I want her fresh, not fucking fucked up." The other guy hissed.

"Well, then she better shut the fuck up. Or I'll fucking kill her right here." The guy holding you pushed you towards the other one with force. Making you hit his chest hard.

"Well, guess I get the first." The other guy grinned.

"Just hurry up." The guy said while holding onto his hand again. "Fuck, she bites hard." He whined angrily.

"Well, I like it rough." The other guys said while his hands snaked around your waist. You still couldn't say anything because you didn't want to die. So of course you kept silent.

The guy quickly pushed you towards the wall, his hands holding both your wrist up against the wall. His foot onto of your foot. So then you couldn't kick him or do anything.

You started moving a lot, feeling his touch on you made you rather die then get touched by a fucking horny ass rapist.

'JEHBAHL! SOMEBODY! HELP!'

You cried out in your head, with tears streaming down your face.

You shut your eyes tight, right when you felt the guy starting to kiss your neck harsh.

'APPA! JEHBAHL! HELP!!!!!!'

You kept on struggling trying to fight the guy off. Even though you knew it was worthless. Until then you fell onto the ground. Hitting the cold hard ground.

Panting like you just ran a marathon, you slowly looked up after hearing grunts and groans.

You saw a guy breathing hard while standing up, his back facing you. And he was like hunched over while holing a stick to help him stand up.

After a few of breathing hard, he slowly stood up straight and turned to look at you.

That's when a happy yet painful smile appeared on your face. A smile also crept onto his face, making you feel safe and in relief that he came to help.

"Gwaenchana?" Even his voice made you happy and safe. He slowly walked over to you and went down on one knee. Right when he did, you quickly reached up your hands and wrapped it around his neck.

More tears started streaming down your face.

"Gwaenchana, I'm here now. It's going to be alright now. I'll protect you." Just those words made you feel safe.

"Gomawo, Xiumin-ah. Gomawo." You cried out while hugging him tighter. At that point, he was only your friend. You knew him for a super long time. Like they say, start as friends and end up as lovers.
~End of Flashback~


He was always there to protect you and keep you safe no matter what. But now he's gone, he's not there to hold you and to keep you safe.

As you were still taking small steps, with Mark just standing behind you. You kept looking around until you thought you saw someone, however you didn't know that it was just a plant that was standing near the back door.

So then you freaked out and turned around quickly. Wrapping your arms around Mark's neck. Making him jump a bit, out of your sudden movement.

You pulled him closer and hugged him tighter. Digging your face into his chest.

"Gwaen...gwaenchana?" Mark asked as his arms slowly wrapped around your waist.

"I'm...i'm scared." You stuttered out your words while hugging him tighter.

"Wae?" Mark asked as his arms around your waist tighten also. He felt as if he should just hugged you closer so that you can feel safe. Which it worked. You felt really safe in his arms.

You didn't even answer him. Just kept staying in that position.

"Are...are you scar...scared of th...the dark?" Mark stuttered out his words, because he was still a bit nervous to be hugging you right now. Even though he liked it, actually he loved it.

You just nod your head in his chest. He understood since he just started patting your back lightly.

"Gwaenchana. No need to be scared. I'm here. I'll protect you and keep you safe." After hearing those words, you felt super safe for some reason. You felt even more safe with Mark then Xiumin.

You just again nod your head. Mark just let out a smile, having you in his embrace. He wanted the time to just stop right now and stay like this forever. To cherish this moment also.

"Let's go. I'll take you to your room." Mark said while breaking the hug a bit. You just nod your head. So then your dropped your arms from his neck, to his waist.

Which of course made Mark smile even bigger.

As you and him were walking up carefully, still hugging onto each other. You finally reached your room.

Mark opened the door and lead you into your room. After being in your room, you both were standing in the middle of your room. Still, you were hugging onto Mark's waist tightly. Still kind a scared.

"Bo...Bora. We're here now...in your room." Mark said while breaking the hug so that he can look at your face. Because for some reason the moon probably likes your room, since the moonlight was showering your room perfectly.

You slowly looked up and met Mark's eyes. Right when you met his eyes, you already fallen deep into them.

"Uh..." You didn't know what to say. Well, actually you couldn't say anything because you were too busy staring into Mark's eyes.

Mark however, was also lost in yours. Like he wanted to say something. But then he couldn't say a word.

However then, something just made him start to lean in closer to you. He leaned closer and closer not even blinking. As for you, you just stood there. Arms wrapped around his waist, staring deeply into his eyes. Watching him come closer and closer to you.

You didn't even budge to move. Or you didn't want to move. Like you kind a felt like kissing his lips also. Because at some points you would look at his inviting lips but then back to his deep brown eyes.

Soon, Mark's face was only inches away or should we say only millimeters away from yours. The tip of your noses touching.

You could feel his hot breathe brushing against your lips, as for him he could also feel your hot breathe upon his lips.

For some reason, you slowly closed your eyes. As Mark also closed his eyes while tilting his head a bit so that he has more access to kiss your lips.

Right when your lips were about to touch, the lights suddenly went on and both of you looked towards the door.

To see a very shocked....

Notes

Mianhae for the late update. It's because school has been packing up on me. Projects, and then writing essays. Or should I say writing shit loads of paper for school. But anyways. More updates coming since it's my weekend!!!!! Again mianhae for my late update. Please bare with me, saranghae!!!

(Just something to cheer you up!)


Comments

Wah. I'm new in kpop fanfic and this is the third story I've read. This is too good. I wish there was sequel. I really loved this story.

Wang'zouu Wang'zouu
1/8/17

I LOVE THIS STORY

catdog21 catdog21
11/17/16

Omg this was amazing, the emotions being displayed really came out. Well doneeeeee♡♡

Kkstlh Kkstlh
10/29/16

OMG this story is so good >.< Unnie you did a great job! Thank you for writing this story, Saranghae :)

BTS Kookie BTS Kookie
5/29/16

Ahh unnie, you have natural talents in writing! Omg this was so good I cried tears of joy at the end! Please continue writing more stories! Impatiently waiting ^-^! Hwaiting!

TuanTuan TuanTuan
2/28/16