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~I Can't Love Him~

Chapter Twenty - I Want To Cherish This Moment

~Your POV~

***Saturday***

Finally the guest room was finished. And you were finally moving to the guest room. Away from Mark. Even though you'll be in the same house as him, you felt kind a sad for switching rooms.

Like the past few days you fallen even deeper for him, the way he acts just makes you fall deeper. Even though he doesn't like you, you like him. A one sided love.

After packing up your clothes, you moved everything into the guest room. Even your boxes that you never touched for a long time. Ever since you moved your things, Mark's room became empty. Well, it looked more empty.

"Whoa, finished unpacking my clothes and everything." You smiled and clapped your hand at once.

"Seems like you still have boxes though." You turned where the voice was. It was only Mrs. Tuan leaning onto the door frame while looking at you.

"Well, I'm not going to open those. I'm going to get a job and then earn a lot of money. When I have enough I probably buy myself a apartment. Because I still-" You got cut off from Mrs. Tuan.

"I told you, it's not a burden. Stop feeling like that. It hurts me to hear that. I always loved to have you around. Since I'm the only girl on the house." Mrs. Tuan grabbed both of your hands. You just nod.

"I know, but I will surely buy a apartment. Because I think I can live alone. I have been living alone in my old days. When appa would go to work. So it wasn't a hard thing for me." You said with a small smile.

"Why don't we go visit your omma and appa today?" Mrs. Tuan smiled brightly at you. You just nod your head.

"Araseyo. I would love that." Mrs. Tuan pinched your cheek lightly and left. However before she could leave you stopped her.

"Mrs. Tuan." She turned around and looked at you.

"Mm." Mrs. Tuan smiled showing her pearly whites.

"Gomawo, for helping me. Sometimes when I'm around you, I feel like my omma is around also. Even though I never knew her or anything." You showed a sad smile wishing that you can just see your omma in real life.

"Awe, gwaenchana. I will always help you with everything darling." Mrs. Tuan winked and walked out. You just chuckle.

You quickly changed into a dress. Because you thought just wearing jeans with a random shirt wasn't respectful to your parents. So you quickly looked through your clothes.

After a while you finally found a dress.

Then you ran to the bathroom to curl your hair. However because sometimes you don't like having to have really curly hair, you brushed it out a bit. To make it look a bit more natural.

You slowly walked downstairs. Mrs. Tuan was just sitting at the kitchen table with Mr. Tuan. While Mark was sitting on the couch.

"Oh, what do we have here." Mrs. Tuan sang out happily.

"Wow, Bora you look very pretty today. Where are you going? Date?" Mr. Tuan said with a tease.

"Aniya. Just to visit my omma and appa. I thought wearing jeans and a shirt is disrespectful to my parents. So I decided to wear a little fancy." You smiled. Mark's jaw just dropped looking at how beautiful you looked.

He couldn't believe his eyes. You just looked so beautiful that he couldn't even move his eyes away from you.

"Oh, I forgot. Thought you wanted to eat before you wanted to go." Mrs. Tuan was about to stand up but before she could you stopped her.

"Aniya. Gwaenchana. I want to go alone." You showed a small yet sad smile.

"You sure, you might get guys to follow." Mr. Tuan joked. You just chuckle.

"Gwaenchana. I will surely have my phone out in no time." You just smile.

"Oh, have Mark go with you at least. Because I really don't want you to go alone." Mrs. Tuan said in a concern voice.

"Yeah, just have Mark go. He'll help you if something happens." Mr. Tuan smile. You just awkwardly smile.

"But...but..." You didn't know what to say. And you didn't want to be mean by saying that you never want to go with Mark anywhere.

"No buts. At least we wouldn't be worried about you if you go alone." Mrs. Tuan quickly said. You just nod your head obediently.

"Mark?" You all looked at him. He was just staring at the tv, still a bit shocked to see your beauty.

"Mark." Mr. Tuan said. Still no response.

"Mark!" Now Mr. Tuan yelled.

"Ne." Mark finally snapped out of his thoughts and came back to reality.

"We want you to go with Bora to go visit her parents. Because we would be worried about her, since she looks so pretty today. Guys might try to do something to her. So go with her." Mrs. Tuan said in a very serious tone.

"Do I-" Mark got cut off from his dad.

"Yes, now hurry!" Mr. Tuan said, however sounded like a yell.

"Araseyo." Mark stood up and went to change into something better. He then came back downstairs.

"Hey, don't blow it with her. She's a keeper Mark." Mr. Tuan said with a tease.

You however didn't even hear because you were already outside waiting. Also talking with Mrs. Tuan.

"Appa, what's wrong with you? I don't like her araseyo?" Mark rolled his eyes and grabbed the car keys.

"Oh yeah. You so don't like her. I saw the way you looked at her when she was talking to us. You totally had fallen for her." Mr. Tuan smiled.

"Aniya appa!" Mark marched outside and went right to the driver's seat. He quickly turned on the ignition.

"Well, I better get going. Annyeong." You waved to them and went to go sit in the passenger seat since Mr. Tuan had the door open for you.

"Please don't cry too much." Mr. Tuan said in a concern voice.

"I'll try." You sadly smiled.

"Alright. We're leaving." Mark backed out and left.

"Can you go to the flower shop first?" You asked while staring outside.

"Araseyo." Mark felt a little bad. He didn't want to see you in tears. Of course his heart would ache just to see a single tear drop from your eyes.

***At The Flower Shop***

You told Mark to just stay in the car. He did what you said, because he also didn't want to go in. When you went in, all eyes were basically on you already.

You went around the store to find the best flower you can give as a bouquet.

You decided to get this one for you appa.

And then you bought another set however different flowers for your omma.

You walked out with a smile of relief for finding perfect flowers that you knew they would love from above.

You sat back into the passenger seat smiling at the flowers not even knowing that Mark was sleeping in the car.

Until you notice that he didn't start the ignition. You slowly turned to meet Mark's sleeping face. You chuckled a bit of how cute he looked when he slept.

"Mark." You reached out to shake him a bit. However it didn't work. You cleared your throat and began shaking him again however harder.

"Mark!" You yelled out his name. He finally woke up a bit shocked from your yelling. "Mianhae if I startled you. You just knocked out didn't wake up when I called you." You chuckled.

"Oh, mianhae. You just took forever so I knocked out." Mark started the ignition.

"You know, when you drop me off at the cemetery. You can leave. I wasn't going to make you stay and wait for me." You said while putting on your seat belt.

"Psh, then where would I go? I can't go back home." Mark scoffed. You just roll your eyes.

"It's up to you. You freaking dummy." You stared outside.

On your way there, it was all silent. The only thing heard was the music from the radio and that was it.

Sometimes you can tell that Mark was stealing glances of you now and then. You wanted to ask him, however you also felt like you liked how he would steal glances of you.

***Finally At The Cemetery***

"You can leave now." You got out of the car and started walking towards your appa's and omma's grave. When you were littler, your appa used to take you to your omma's grave.

So then you decided to bury your appa next to your omma. Mark just watched you as you walked up the hill. Where there were a big tree.

And under that tree or near that tree. Was where your parents were buried.

You didn't like having your parents buried near other people. So then you picked that spot. However the only thing was that your didn't bury their body. You have their ashes only.

And you decided to bury them there. You kneel down in front of your parents stone.

"Omma, appa." Your eyes were already starting to be filled. "I came to visit you guys today. How are you guys now a days. I really wished to come visit more often but I'm too busy. I'm going to try to find a job that pays good. So then I can move out of the Tuan's house. I know that I shouldn't feel this way. But I just do. Mianhae appa. I do love staying at their house. But I still feel like a burden. And it hurts me to see a family. While I'm not part of their family."

You shed more tears as you kept telling your parents about your life.

"Omma, appa guess what. I...I think I fallen for their son. No matter how harsh he treats me. I've...I've just fallen for him. I done everything to forget him. But he just stuck in my head. In my heart. I figured that I have fallen deeper for him appa. What should I do? He doesn't even like me. He always treated me so bad. But I always liked him. My heart even aches just seeing him with other girls. Even though their his fans. Omma, appa I felt like I was going to cry. When I moved into the guest room. Even though we still live in the same house. Under the same roof. I felt sad for leaving his room. I have no idea why. I thought it was because I liked him too much. That I want to stay by his side forever. But you know. He would never love me. I'm not even his type of girl." You kept on crying, but not bad crying.

The shocking part was that you didn't even know that Mark was listening. He was just....just speechless. His heart raced, just hearing that you liked him too. However then he felt bad because he was an ass to you. When you just didn't care and still had feelings for him. Mark just wanted to run to you and hug you. However he couldn't just do that.

He was hiding behind the tree, which was funny because you didn't even notice that he when he crawled behind the tree.

You just sat there talking and talking. Even sometimes you would stop talking and pretend like they talked back to you.

"Omma, appa I think I have to go now. I've been here super late. Well, even though it's still sunny. I want to have sometime to myself. To try my best to get Mark out of my head. I really have to. Annyeong omma and appa. Saranghae." You sadly smiled at them and stood up while cleaning your dress.

You slowly walked yourself down the hill. While Mark just was at his car waiting. Trying to act normal.

You kept on walking until you notice Mark leaning against the car. You just raise an eyebrow and walk towards him.

"So, I thought you wanted to leave. How come you didn't?" You looked at him confused yet happy because he stayed.

"Because I promised my parents that I would have to take you home safely." Mark just looked at you with a expressionless face.

"Tch, liar." You smirked. He just raises an eyebrow.

"Ok, fine. You can go back on your own." Mark got in and drove away. You felt kind a sad that he just did that. However you also wanted to have your alone time today.

So you just started walking the other direction. Because you remembered the little walk that you and your appa had after visiting your omma. While you were walking, the same red car came backing up. Which made you stop.

Mark then rolled down the window. You just look at him confused at what he was doing.

"I can't leave you. My parents probably kick me out." Mark said while biting his bottom lip.

"Gwaenchana. But you can leave. After I've done what I wanted to do. I'll give you a call." You slightly smile and walked away.

You heard Mark get out of his car. And his footsteps running towards you. You just smirked however wiped it off when you felt his hand grab your wrist. Pulling you to make you face him.

"Mwuh?" You said while furrowing your eyebrows.

"Come on. Don't do that." Mark said with a little whiny voice.

"Do what? All I'm doing is just going to spend my Saturday in the beautiful sunlight." You chuckled.

"Ya, then what about me. I have no where to go. I don't even know where my members are." Mark lied about his members though. Because Jr. tried calling him to hang out, but Mark ignored it.

"So, then go somewhere by yourself." You said in a monotone. Mark was trying to spend his day with you. Without telling you.

"Ya, mechaso. People would think that I'm weird then." Mark narrowed his eyes at you.

"Then why don't you just follow me." You rolled your eyes.

"Araseyo." Mark said in a monotone. While he was dying of happiness in the inside. So as you, you were so happy that Mark was going to be with you all day. "But where are you going?"

"Ah, I'm going to go where ever I want." You smiled.

"Ok then. I'll take you where you want to go. Just get in the car." Mark slightly smiled.

"Araseyo." You walked past Mark and went to sit in the passenger seat. You smiled when you sat down. While Mark was also smiling while he was walking towards the driver seat.

When he opened the door, you quickly wiped away your smile. Just how Mark took off his smile when he went inside the car.

"Where should we go first?" He looked at you. You just hesitate for a bit.

"Let's go Joseon Dynasty." You smiled. Mark just nods his head.

Finally when you guys arrived. You got out immediately because you were so happy to be here.

The view was just perfect. And you were even happier to enjoy the view with the person you loved. Even though you didn't know that he loves you too.

You walked around staring at the view, enjoying every moment. Sometimes you would get over excited and link arms with Mark's.

Mark would just go along with it, because he liked it when you linked arms with him. However then you would pull your arm back and run to look at other views. Which would make Mark frown.

Your next stop was Nasam Tower. You always wanted to go there. Even though you didn't have a boyfriend or anything.

"Should we buy a locket?" Mark looked at you while holding a locket.

"I don't know. Usually people who are a couple buy lockets. We aren't a couple." You raised an eyebrow.

"Well, it doesn't always have to be a couple." Mark smiled. You totally melted after seeing his smile.

"Mm. Araseyo." You finally agreed.

After going up you were impressed by how many lockets there were.

You next stop was going to eat out. You went out to where there were millions of people and thousands of stores.

"Where should we go eat?" You said while looking everywhere. Where Mark was just following behind you.

You turned around to see why he wasn't answering and Mark quickly turned his head away. Pretending like he was staring at you the whole time.

"Yeboseyo? Ahjussi did you not hear me?" You went up to Mark and narrowed your eyes at him.

"Ya! Ahjussi? Tch. I heard you. I didn't answer because I was also thinking. Araseyo ahjumma." Mark chuckled while you just glared at him.

"Merong~" You stick your tongue at him. He just chuckles.

"Mm, how about there!" You pointed towards a cheap restaurant. Mark just looks at you with the 'are you serious' face.

"Ani. I already found the perfect place." Mark smiled and grabbed your hand. And started running towards another restaurant.

You both went inside, while you couldn't even see what the name was. Then you both ran up the stairs until Mark finally stopped making you bump into his back.

"Ya, where are we?" You looked at him confused. Then you didn't respond you just look where he took you. Which made your eyes widen. Even though you didn't catch the name, the restaurant probably was expensive as hell, just but the look of it.

"Ya, why did you bring me here? We can't possibly be eating here." You frowned while looking at him. He just smiles.

"Gwaenchana." He winked.

"Tch, it's too expensive." You roll your eyes.

"Gwaenchana. I got it. I'll pay for you." Mark eye smiled, while you were just shocked at what he said. He then dragged you to a seat. A seat where there were no one except for you guys.

"Mark, we can't eat here. We don't have the money." You whisper yelled at him.

"I said that I got it under control. Now stop your whining and look what you want to eat." He once again eye smiled. You just chuckle and look at the menu.

Your eyes widen quickly. Just seeing how the cost was. Totally expensive.

"Mm. I'm fine. What do you want Bora?" Mark looked at you, still with his smile.

"Um, anything would be fine." You awkwardly smiled.

"Araseyo. She'll have the same as me." Mark grabbed the menu out of your hands and hand it to the waiter.

"Are you out of your mind?" You glared at him.

"Ani, wae?" Mark furrowed his eyebrows.

"Because this is the expensivest place ever. Like I never had a expensive meal." You crinkled your nose.

"Gwaenchana. How many times do I have to say it. Everything is on me. So calm down you weirdo." Mark chuckled. You just look at him in disbelief.

'Oh man we're so going to die. That stupid Mark. What does he think he's doing? Omma, appa save me!'

You said in your head while staring out in the window. To love the beautiful view. However then you turned your attention back to Mark.

"Aigoo, my baby is here today!!!" You furrowed your eyebrows hearing some old lady's voice out of no where. You looked to see a old lady running towards Mark.

Then they hugged. Mark seemed like he was going to die because he couldn't breathe. After then the old lady spot you.

"Oh, your girlfriend Markie?" The old lady said with a bright smile.

'Markie! Hahahaa too cute.'

You were hiding in your laughter.

"Ya, gomo! I told you stop calling me that. Aish." Mark scoffed quietly to himself.

'Gomo? She's too funny.'

"Annyeong, I'm Mark's gomo. Whoa, yehpuehdah. Mark your super lucky to have her." Mark's auntie shook hands with you.

"Ah, annyeong. Bora imnida." You smiled.

"Your smile is even prettier. I can so see why Mark fell for you." Mark's aunt teasing Mark. Mark just blushes a bit.

"Gomo!" He yelled out. She just chuckles.

"Araseyo, araseyo. I'll leave you two love birds alone." Mark's aunt waves goodbye cutely while walking away. Until she stops. "Your just eating are you?" His aunt asked while narrowing her eyes at Mark.

"Mm. Don't worry I'll pay you back." Mark winked.

"Araseyo." Then his aunt walked happily.

"Hey, Markie. I think your gomo is so cute." You chuckled while Mark just frowns.

"Don't you dare call me that. It's so annoying. And weird." Mark scoffed. You just laugh

"Oh, mian Markie." You chuckled at him again. The funny part was that Mark actually liked you calling him by a stupid nickname that his aunt calls him. He would just love watching you smile. He loved being the reason why you smiled.

After eating, Mark decided to take you somewhere.

"Where are we going?" You whined.

"Somewhere." Mark chuckled.

"Wae? Just tell me." You whined again.

"Ya, why are you so stubborn? Just sit still and we'll be there in no time." Mark smirked.

Today where you and Mark have been going, many people notice that both of you guys looked like a couple. There were whispers saying that you guys looked cute together. Or some whispers saying that you guys would make a cute baby.

You both would blush hearing what they say, however pretend like you guys didn't hear anything.

"We're here." Mark smiled at you. You just frown. "Come on. It'll be very pretty." He smiled showing his pearly whites.

"Araseyo." You got out as the same time as Mark did. Usually Mark wanted to open the door for you, however you just stepped out whenever you wanted to. Not waiting for him to run around the car and open the door for you.

Mark then went by your side.

"You'll be amazed." Mark winked. You just roll your eyes. Mark then chuckled and grabbed your hand without hesitation. Your eyes widen at his sudden movement.

He started pulling you towards somewhere. You just blush, hard. Looking at his hand holding yours then at the back of his head. Your heart was pounding fast.

Finally Mark stopped and let go of your hand. Which made you frown. You wanted to hold it longer.

"Isn't it pretty?" Mark looked at you. You just furrow your eyebrows at him. He then moved out of your way and your eyes widen again.

You couldn't believe your eyes right now. The view was so beautiful.

It looked so magical.

"What...what place is this?" You said while walking closer to the fence that kept you from going over to the water.

"A place that I like to come when I'm stressing." Mark came and stood next to you.

"Yehpeudah, neomu yehpeuhdah." You looked at it still in amazement while Mark just looked at you.

When you turned your head to look at Mark, he quickly turned his gaze towards the waterfall.

"Ya, were you stealing glances?" You narrowed your eyes at him. He just shakes his head. "Your falling for me. I know it." You said while leaning closer to Mark's face. Now both of you were staring into each other eyes.

Your heart was pounding like crazy in your chest. So was Mark's. You couldn't move away or anything. Well, you didn't move away. However you did. You quickly turned your gaze back to the waterfall.

Your heart still beating at a crazy pace.

'Andwae. I was suppose to forget him. Not fall deeper.'

You bit your lower lip. Mark couldn't take it anymore. He wanted to tell you his feelings. He wanted to make you his already.

So then he grabbed both of your shoulders and made you turn to face him. He bent down a bit to be at the same eye level as you are.

"Mwuh?" You said with shocked eyes.

"Bora, I...I have...something to-" Mark was cut off from your phone ringing.

"Mian." You moved away from Mark and answered the call.

"Noona, hyung not listening to me again." Sehun whined threw the phone. You just chuckled.

"Oh, which hyung?" You said while pouting. Mark was just looking at you a bit mad.

"Luhan hyung!!!" Sehun whined loudly.

"Well, does Luhan hyung love you. If not then just ignore him for now on. Until, he gives in and buys you your bubble tea." You said with a small chuckle.

"Luhan hyung, I hate you!!!!!" Sehun yelled. "Araseyo, noona. But anyways what you doing? I'm bored." Sehun said while acting cute.

"Nothing, just looking at a waterfall." You smiled while looking at the waterfall.

"Jeongmallo? Awe, I really want to see it." You can hear the aegyo that Sehun put in his voice.

"Maybe next time. But anyways I have to go. I'm tired araseyo?" You said this time with aegyo in your voice.

"Araseyo noona. Sweet dreams." You just chuckle at Sehun's cuteness. After you hung up, you looked at Mark who was just staring into midair. Well, he was in his own little world right now.

"Mark. Mark. Mark!" You yelled making him snap out of his thoughts.

"Yeah." Mark looked at you confsued. "Did you say something?" You just frown.

"Ani. You were going to tell me something." You furrowed your eyebrows.

"Ah, that...I...um...said that we should go home now. Before my parents gets too worried about us." Mark let out a disappointed sigh.

"Araseyo." You smiled and walked back to the car with Mark following with his head down.

'That's not I was going to say. Why are you so stupid mark? Your such a pussy. You should have just said it. All you had to do is tell her that you love her. And that you wish for her to be by your side. But no, you were too of a pussy Mark. Ugh!!! It's also Sehun's fault. He ruined the good moment I had with her. Damn it Sehun!!!!!!!'

Notes

O_O Oh dang! Mark confessing. Just imagine him staring into your eyes and telling you that he loves you. Ugh, I would so die right there. Lolz, but anyways third update of the day!!! Please leave a comment. Really curious what you guys think of my story!!!

Comments

Wah. I'm new in kpop fanfic and this is the third story I've read. This is too good. I wish there was sequel. I really loved this story.

Wang'zouu Wang'zouu
1/8/17

I LOVE THIS STORY

catdog21 catdog21
11/17/16

Omg this was amazing, the emotions being displayed really came out. Well doneeeeee♡♡

Kkstlh Kkstlh
10/29/16

OMG this story is so good >.< Unnie you did a great job! Thank you for writing this story, Saranghae :)

BTS Kookie BTS Kookie
5/29/16

Ahh unnie, you have natural talents in writing! Omg this was so good I cried tears of joy at the end! Please continue writing more stories! Impatiently waiting ^-^! Hwaiting!

TuanTuan TuanTuan
2/28/16