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Back to Korea?
Early in the morning, I decided to go and take a walk as I always do. I was trying to let go all the on coming stress within me and try to finally relax myself. In my mind, I thought that it would be a good idea to do the presentation for the company,but I never thought it would be this stressful enough to put together. I just didn't want to fail at this job or mess anything up as Ren had high hopes for me. Furthermore, I can't make my personal life effect my business life and that's what seems to be happening.
As I was walking, I glared at some fans taking pictures with some celebrities that happened to be walking down the streets of Los Angles. It made me realize, that fame doesn't always come easy and that I must want it. Everyday I feel hopeless on if my dreams will be heard from those around me and if it would truly happen?. I haven't seen my family in such a long time that I wanted to actually pay them a visit,but I had to do the show first. Suddenly, I had a amazing idea which was to do the presentation, then take some of the designs that I had and have some of the best designers put them together.
It will take off a lot of stress off of me and it would be less things that I had to do. So I decide to head to my favorite hangout stop and continue on with the presentation. After that, I called the designers so that they can start working on the garments for the show. Then, I called Ren to tell him the plans for the show and I had discuss my plans on going back to Korea to visit my family. He agreed that I should visit my family and spend some with them.
The plane finally made it to Seoul, Korea it made me nervous to finally be back here in my hometown. I didn't know what to expect sense my Korean wasn't that perfect since living in America. I purchased a condo, it was nice and comfortable to my liking as I did have a lot of money as a co-designer of Rose Garden. When I finally unpacked all my belongings, I was already so tired from all the extra work. Before going to bed, I made sure that I had everything prepared for the following day.
Its already hard for me to remember what I've to do, so I make a schedule for myself to keep myself prepared and organized. Moreover, I was so nervous on meeting up with my parents because I haven't seen them in such a long time,so it was different. Plus, I didn't know what to expect from them sense, I had ran away from them without a word. They probably wouldn't want anything to do with me after I made a huge fool of myself and completely screwed over my job. Not to mention, that I even broke me and NaNa's friendship due to my complete stupidity of how horrible of a job I had.
But, I hope that they will not talk about that and hopefully forgive me. At the end of the day, I had to work extra hard,so that I could fore fill my dreams again. However, if they don't then it would be completely understandable and I will end up having to cut ties with my parents as harsh as it sounds. Moreover, I am willing to do so just to be a fashion designer and I don't need them just how I don't need NaNa and...Kris. They are nothing to me anymore!