Loving you 2

As I was walking around Seoul, it was so refreshing to see my hometown again and how much it has changed. Seeing so many Koreans walk the packed and busy streets trying to get to place to place. It was a big difference from living here in Korea and in California. It was suddenly time to visit my parents and see what they both had to say about me. Also, if they was willing on supporting me on my dream and also forgiving me for messing myself up.

I entered my families house and their they was sitting down on the couch staring at me. I took my seat next to my cousin who didn't even bother to look at me,but I didn't mind at all since we never got along. It was quiet, you could hear a pin drop and everyone was still like the world had stopped spinning. My mom had finally decided to speak upon the matter.

''Hello! Shiori, welcome home.'' she said calmly

''Hello! mom,thank you'' I said warmly in return

''Why did you suddenly want to come back here?'' She asked

''I wanted to come here because I am currently working on a big project with a famous company and I wanted to invite you to come and see it.'' I responded happily

''Really! '' She said excited

''Honey calm down! She needs to explain herself first on why she did what did first. What she did was not called for. The way she caused problems for herself, the family and others. '' My father said upset

''Right!!'' My cousin yell out upset

(*Rolls eyes*)

''First, I didn't mean for this too happen the way it did and I know I hurt everyone who had hopes in me. But, I've learned to forgive myself and I think you guys should too.'' I said calmly

''Shiori, do you not understand how much you've really hurt yourself and others? You didn't just hurt your family and your image as a designer,but also your best friend NaNa as well. She literally came to us and cried because now the media is causing problems with her and even her career.'' He said confused and angry

''But father...whatever is going on with her is her problem and I had so little to do with that. Furthermore, after she found out about the issue, I had already sat down with her and apologized with her. However, she decided not be my friend anymore, I waited day and night for her to come home at the apartment and she didn't come. So, I had left and decided to take my career somewhere else and leave it at that.'' I stated

''How can you even say that about NaNa? She was your best friend and even though she left you should've waited longer. She probably needed more time to except what you did to her and her career. Also, not only that,but she also needed time alway from you for what you did.'' My cousin said upset

''Shut up! How did you even get into this? This is me and fathers business to discuss not yours stay out of it.'' I said to my cousin

''Shiori! Don't tell your cousin to shut up. He is part of this family as well as the rest of your cousin and siblings as well.'' He said in spite

''You know what!! I am tried of this family and this argument. I came here to ask you guys to come and see me host this beautiful fashion show that I myself put together. However, you guys are now throwing me under the bus for something I had no (ZERO) control over. Then, you want me to apologize to that backstabbing Bitch NaNa who hurt me in the end. Forget it, if you can't forgive me then I will forgive myself and move on.'' I said in anger

After walking out on my family, I didn't know what else to think and what else to do at that very moment. I was to upset at how they treated me and I had even offered them to share my life that I was trying to put together for the both of us. My life felt like it was coming to a end,but on the other end it felt like it was just beginning. They hurt me so bad,but I didn't know how to fix it. However their was only one question...did I want to really fix it? And it was simply NO.

I decided to take a long walk on the streets of Seoul, so I could think about my future plans. It just stressed me a lot because people around me and I myself couldn't get passed this issue. It wasn't like I didn't apologize to her at all,but this is what she chose for herself as a friend. Yet, now she wants to come to my parents as the victim and act like she is an angle when she backstabbed me in the end after the apology. This time it was now my time to move on from this situation that I had cause and be straight with everyone around me including the public before this gets more messy as it already is.

As I was walking, I looked up at the jumbo screen and their laid both NaNa and Kris side to side together on famous magazines. It made think if my life is even worth it just seeing everything getting taken away from me because I my slip ups. The stress was becoming more real the more I thought about, it kept on making more and more sick that I couldn't handle it. It finally dawned on me that my eyes closed and closed as I fell to the very ground.

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