This Is Us

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Outro : Love is Not Over
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LfVO2WtaqNs






Jungkook’s POV
I’d rather not say how I felt because I didn’t want to admit it myself. But it was the truth. We used to be friends. Most people didn’t even know that we were best friends, up until we were freshmen.
We had a bit of a falling out around the time that I got my first girlfriend. I don’t know why but she started acting very distant from me. I took it that she was mad at me but she had no reason to be. I didn’t do anything. So it’s 2 years later, we’re juniors now and we act as if we’ve never met each other in our entire lives before. But I’d always thought that we would somehow, some way, get back to what we were before.
When she said actually said it, my heart shattered. I could only turn my back and walk out the door. I remember the days where would just sit on the swings and just talk. But that was before I got my first girlfriend. She truly broke my heart. I thought we were really perfect for each other. But then she left me for someone that had more money.
I literally crashed during that time. I really needed someone to talk to. I guess that’s where Chae should’ve come in but we weren’t really talking anymore. That’s where my second girlfriend came in. We started out as just friends. I found myself talking to her more and more and becoming more open with her. I realized how important she was to me and I asked her to be my girlfriend. She said yes. It lasted for a little over 2 weeks. I found out that she was just using me for popularity. I fell into a drinking frenzy.
I blew all my money on beers and whisky. I skipped multiple days of school and drank in front of teachers, not caring about the consequences. Chae actually came around at this time. Apparently, she came in my house and threw out all my alcohol. I was too drunk to even notice. When I got sober, I saw a thermos of my favorite ramen soup. There was a note next to it, “Stop drinking beer. Drink soup. - Chae” I still have the note in my room, on my laptop.
I still was heartbroken for the second time, feeling even worse because I didn’t see it once again. I made the decision to never date another girl ever again until I was really, really sure that she loved me with no strings attached. I was wrong, yet again. My third girlfriend, the one that I had been the most sure of, left me the most heartbroken. We were together for a year.
I thought I was really happy. But turned out she was slipping drugs into this “special” drink that she would always make. She has me drink it the first day we met and everyday we were together. When she didn’t have the drink ready, she would just slip it into my water or food. I recall that every time we went out, we would always, somehow end up shopping. When I saw my credit card bills, I didn’t even notice the numbers. It was by the end of the relationship that I saw that I was bankrupt. She left me the minute I told her. She left me a drug addict and bankrupt. I borrowed some money from Jimin, who by then I was very good friends with, and tried to pay all the bills I was backed up on. I had called the police on the girl but they said, without evidence, they couldn’t convict her of anything. So by then, I was left with bills to pay,
multiple jobs to work to pay back the people I had borrowed money from, and wronged in more ways than one.
I had been hurt so many times consecutively that I simply closed off my feelings. I decided to use my status to my power. I just fucked around with girls, whether they actually loved me or not. Girls were throwing themselves at me anyways. Taeyeon soon realized that we could be some ‘power couple’.
Honestly, I’m not proud of what I do to the girls. But it wasn’t fair for those girls to do that to me. Through all of this, the relationship between me and Chae just got worse and worse. If she had been there for me, maybe I wouldn’t have been this way but it’s already too late to turn back the clock. Chae just watched me suffer.

Notes

soooooooo.....this is a record for me, posting so much in such a short time. but this might mean im not posting for a while ;-; huehue.
hopes u likes story.


i might start adding songs to chapters when i can so..yeah. ok.