Forbidden Feels

Solji was already waiting for me in front of her home. The way she was dressed told me that she must've been out. Maybe with Heeyeon or Jeongwha. It couldn't be Jungkook because I knew he had a filled schedule this day and I was thankful he found some time to cheer me up. I still didn't know what in the world he was doing at the trainstation and why he even was there. But the fact that he came to me, helped me up and held me in his arms as I was near having a breakdown, made me cheerish him even more as a friend. He may was, after Solji, one of the best friends I ever had and I was lucky that I got to know him.
„Rin. What's the matter? You seemed so sad on the phone.“ My actual nickname was Hyeri but somehow only Solji dared to call me Rin, which was one of the nicknames I hated the most but when she said this name it didn't sound as terrible as usual. Maybe it was her privilege since we knew us since early childhood and she was the oldest friend of mine. Actually this question showed her true personality. For others she may appeared a bit harsh but if you tried to get to know her better you could notice that she, in reality, was one of the cutest beans of this whole world. She cared a lot about her friends and didn't hesitate to be there if someone had a problem. This was one reason I just really loved her.
Without saying a thing I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. It didn't matter that everyone of her neighbourhood could probably see us. That everyone could see my crying in her arms, because I just felt safe. And I needed a place I felt safe since my home didn't appear that safe to me anymore. I felt Soljis hand softly stroking through my hair. „Oh my gosh. What did just happen to you? I never saw you like this.“ As she said this I noticed how she lowered her voice. Another sign that she really cared about me. I tried to catch my breath as I replied, „Min Yoongi.“ My voice was nothing than a caw but I knew she understood.

Sitting on Soljis bed I waited for her to bring me a cup of hot tea. „You don't need to. I can make some tea on my own.“ She just gave me a short glance which meant I should either accept the fact she would make me some tea or that she would be deeply hurt if I wouldn't let her. „Aish. Okay.“ I then said because I just couldn't stand her. Why did she always have to be so cute? „What kind do you want to drink?“ „I'm fine with anything.“ I said and then added, „Really!“, as I noticed her worried glance.
Her bedroom didn't change that much. We barely met each other at her place because her mother would always come and disturb our time together. Mrs. Heo was actually very nice, but she had no respect for her daughters privacy and always wanted to act younger than she really was. At her wall were hanging posters of various groups. Famous korean groups just as Girls Generation or Shinee. I need to state that I really loved Girls Generation for the cute concepts just as „Gee“, but I also loved After School and their Spin-Off Orange Caramel because for me Orange Caramel were the queens of cute concepts. Her laptop was turned on but I would never dare to touch her private stuff because well, we were best friends and either she would tell me or she wouldn't.
I heard someone coming upstairs with fast steps, then the door shut after Solji got inside the room. She handed me the hot cup filled with tea. The scent of the tea was sweet and fruity. As she sunk into her bed right next to me and fixed my face she asked me again, „What did happen to you?“ I took a sip of the tea and felt how the hot beverage was about to nearly burn my tongue, so I decided placing it at the occasional table near her bed would, for now, be the best thing. Then I sunk into the bed as well. „Did I tell you about my mothers boyfriend?“ Solji nodded. „I thought we would end up talking about Min Yoongi.“ „Oh we will end up talking about Yoongi.“ I said and felt how I was near crying again. „So let me start. I was waiting at the trainstation and then he came. We had a short talk and he told me he couldn't accept my confession. But that really isn't the worst thing that happened today.“ Solji leant her head against her arm. „This isn't the worst?“ She asked in disbelief. I then continued, „Well as I got home I found my mother and her boyfriend in the kitchen talking with each other. There was also another person inside the kitchen and it was his son. Now you can guess who his son is.“ Her eyes widened not being able to process the information. „This- This isn't true or?“ My lips formed a short smile. „This was exactly my reaction. Yes. Min Yoongi, the Min Yoongi I just confessed to is Mr. Mins son. But the worst thing is that- that my mom is going to marry him. My mom is going to marry Mr. Min and Yoongi will become my step brother.“ She wasn't able to say anything for a moment until she found the right words. „Well I would say this whole situation took an unexpected turn.“ I knew she tried to comfort me the best way she could do. But it was impossible to cheer my mood up.

The next day I woke up early. Usually I should've gotten ready for school but today I just felt the need to skip some lessons. „Could you tell them I'm sick?“ Solji rolled her eyes as soon as I asked. „Seo Hyerin!“ I hated when she needed to call me by my full name. „You can't just skip school because of this. We have some important classes today. It would be wrong to miss them.“ Her hand grabbed my wrist and so she forced me to get up. „Okay okay. Do you have a plain white shirt and maybe a skirt or something? I can actually wear my leggins today again. Oh yeah and do you-“ I started blushing. „Have some underwear for me?“ The good thing was since we were friends it wasn't troublesome to ask her but still very embarrassing and the fact that I forgot to take some clothes with me as I got out of my home in a hurry even more.

As the two of us arrived at school it was very late. Most of the students were inside since the schoolbell must've already rung. It happened a lot these days. Solji and me got late to class which was probably because she would always tend to end up waiting for me and I would always happen to sleep longer than I should. My mother was working really hard and work for her started at 5am which meant that she needed to get up at 4am to get herself ready. So of course I had no one that could have an eye on me and I wasn't the fastest person to get out of bed.
The hallway was empty and the classrooms were filled with noises of the students inside them. Solji dragged me down the corridor until we arrived at our room. She knocked at the door and waited for a sign to get in. „Yes?“ I happened to open the door and soon after bowed down in front of our teacher as a sign of excusement. „We are really sorry to be late to class. We missed the bus by accident.“ I said, leaving out the fact that I didn't even need to drive by bus today because from Soljis home we only needed to walk for 15 minutes until we'd arrive school. „Don't lie to me Seo Hyerin.“ The teacher said and looked me directly in the eyes. „But I'm not. You know that my home is further away.“ One last sigh of her and Solji and I were able to go and sit down at our seats. I glanced to the table next to us and was kind of surprised that Jungkook wasn't there. Yesterday as I saw him he was looking fine. „Hey.“ I whispered and was glad as I saw Jeonghwa was looking up. „What?“ She asked a bit harsh. Since she always wanted to pay attention to our teachers she hated being disturbed during class. „Do you know what's up with Jungkook?“ „He is sick. Yesterday we met and after I got home he called me and told me that he threw up. Since his parents aren't at home, like usual, I decided staying at his' tonight. But even today morning he had to throw up again. It was best to let him rest.“ The teacher appeared next to us and her book fell onto the desk making a loud noise. „Dear Hyerin. It's nice that you seem concerned about Jungkook, but may I inform you that we currently have class and that you already came in late? Could you please at least try to pay attention to your teacher?“ I couldn't do anything else than nod and I felt how my cheeks slowly blushed because of embarrassment.
The whole day I ended up being scolded by my teacher because I just couldn't stay focused. As Jeonghwa asked what was wrong with me I told her and our friend Heeyeon the whole situation. Besides Solji and Jungkook, those two were my closest friends. We all met each other in middle school. At first it was a bit hard for us to get close to each other, also since Heeyeon was in a higher class than the rest of us. But somehow we managed to get to know each other and establish a close friendship.
„Are you really serious? He is becoming your brother?“ The two were visibly shocked about hearing such things of Min Yoongi. „Speaking about him-“ Heeyeon started and I looked up. „I may happen to know why he rejected you in the first place.“ My body started trembling by the thought of Min Yoongi and I felt really weird. „Why?“ I asked,my voice being nothing than a caw. „A rumour is spreading that he happens to have a crush on one of the female Top 3 and I'm not proud to say this, but-“ She had to take a short break. „But what?“ Solji asked as she noticed another mental breakdown of mine was near. „The girl he might have a crush on is my sister.“ My eyes widened in a shock and I saw grey dots in front of my eyes before everything turned black.

„Min Yoongi, Class 14-A. I'm her step brother. Her, I mean our, mom called and told me I should take her home.“ The young males voice was somehow soft and filled with concern. I wasn't able to hear the nurses response as I still felt a bit sick and dizzy. I was laying in the bed of our doctors station at school. Jeonghwa, Heeyeon and Solji must've brought me here. „Hey.“ It was the sweet voice of Solji and she seemed relieved. „Finally you woke up.“ Her lips formed a friendly and warm smile. „I was really worried about you.“ As she noticed Min Yoongi getting closer to us she gave me a short kiss on my cheek and left the room.
„Hyerin!“ Yoongi said. It felt weird that he was calling me by my name now. I slowly sat up and looked into his brown eyes. „What are you doing here?“ I asked through pressed teeth, acting like I didn't know what he said just a few minutes ago. „Mom called and told me I should take you home since I happen to have a driving license and a car.“ „So you already call her mom?! She's my mom and not yours.“ I said harsh even though I didn't want to. „Listen. I'm not really a fan of you becoming my new step sibling as well. Mainly because of what happened earlier. So there are two options. Either you accept the fact that we are siblings now and forget what happened-“ He took a short break to lower his voice. „Or I promise you that I will turn your life into a living hell.“ While he said I noticed the slowly upcoming goosebumps as I felt his cold death stare on my skin. „Did you understand me?“ I nodded. „Option one doesn't sound that bad.“ I whispered and started teaing up. Even though I wanted nothing more than being with him, I thought of something else than living in the same house as him nor calling him brother. But that was just how we ended up now. Being brother and sister.

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