One Thing After Another

During a practice with the boys I managed to get so head deep in my homework and reading that I let someone get hurt.
I felt so guilty, especially because it was Dino.

The boys seemed like they were having a blast when they were rehearsing choreography for a video. Maybe too much fun. And maybe I let them take it too far. I wasn’t good with telling the boys off when they were mucking around, and this was one of those situations.
“Boys, you’ve been talking about food for the past twenty minutes.” I said as I looked up from my book with my voice slightly raised. The pairs of eyes that landed on mine made my heart speed up with slight guilt. “Maybe get back to practising?” I suggested as I looked back at my book, trying to seem nice about the whole thing. But off they went again. ten minutes of practise, followed by double the amount of laughing and mucking around. Telling them off felt so foreign to me, that I didn’t do it again. But maybe I should of…

Hearing a thump, I turned my head towards it seeing Dino lying on the floor. “Dino!” I dropped all things in my hands and rushed over to him, kneeling down to his level. “Are you okay?” I asked looking up and down his body for an area of pain. Seeing him clenching his shin and making noises of pain, I knew he wasn’t fine. All I could think of at that moment was how this was my fault. “Chan, is it your ankle?” I asked him as the rest of the performance team boys gathered around him as well. Meeting his eyes he tried to break a smile through the pain to show me he was alright, but I knew he wasn’t.
“Channie, you okay?” Hoshi and the boys asked him tentatively. Meanwhile, I quickly grabbed my phone with shaking hands and scanned through my contacts for Jaehwa’s number. I quickly tapped on it and as it dialled through, while Hoshi went and grabbed the first aid kit.
“You have reached the voicemail of Lee Jaehwa. Leave a messa-,” I opened my mouth to respond quickly to Jaehwa sunbae, only to realise I’d hit her voicemail. I ended the call and scrolled through my contacts quickly, hands still shaking. I felt like such shit. I had a responsibility and I’d failed. If only I was stronger somehow.

Dohyun sunbae.

The contact name stared at me. I knew I had to call him. I tapped to call him with a sigh as Channie lay down with an icepack on his shin. Starting to chew my fingernails in worry, the call dialled through.
“Hello?”
“Sunbae! I tried calling Jaehwa sunbae but she didn’t answer. Dino’s hurt himself in practise,” I replied as soon as I heard I was through. Guilt filling my voice. A sigh came through from the other end and I knew he was disappointed in me.
“Good job Haeun, real good job,” he said sarcastically across the phone.
“I wanted to let you know! Be grateful I called you at all!” I raised my voice a bit being worried and anxious, causing the boys around me to stare at me. I looked around at them, before quietly replying, “I’m sorry. I’m… umm, going to need you to take us to a hospital.”
Hearing another sigh across the phone I was almost waiting for him to say no and leave me alone to deal with the situation.
“I’ll be there in ten,” he said before he hung up. I held my breaths lightly in surprise. He actually is gonna help.

“I’m glad to tell you it’s just a slight sprain in the calf muscle,” the doctor said as he looked around at the crowded room of people. Dohyun, the Performance team members, and I had gone to the hospital to see what was wrong with Dino’s leg. I sighed both relieved and worried about what this meant for Seventeen’s schedules. “He’ll have to stay off it for a while though, maybe a week or so,” the middle-aged doctor said as he took off his glasses and spoke to us. I looked at Dino as he sat on the hospital bed, seeing his looking out the window anxiously. I knew how he felt. He couldn’t stop dancing, even if he tried. Keeping away from dancing for a whole two weeks would be torture for him.
“Thank you doctor,” Dohyun said to him politely. As the doctor left we all bowed to his absence. The three members immediately surrounding Dino and making his laugh through his worry. “You know this is your fault then,” Dohyun said quietly next to me. I looked up at his stern face before looking back at the group of chatting boys.
“You couldn’t make me forget how this is my fault,” I spoke with pain in my voice.
“Then you know what to do,” he said crossing his arms, still keeping a quiet voice so the boys couldn’t hear him.
“You mean fixing Dino's schedule? I’ll do that,” I nodded as I looked down at my shoes. My hands holding my necklace.
“I mean you’ll look after Dino as well,” he added on quickly. I looked up at him, to meet his eyes and see if he was genuine.
“What?”
“Your name is still in the media, you don’t want this getting out do you?” He said with an evil smirk appearing in the corner of his mouth, as he looked at me. I huffed in surprise.
“Are you blackmailing me right now?” I asked with a straight face. This was going too far. Dohyun sunbae had always been mean to me, and threatening my managing status shouldn’t have surprised me. But somehow I wanted to believe his hate for me would end.
“Just stay with Dino when he’s off schedule, which is for the next couple of weeks,” he said turning his back on the boys slightly to ward them out off the conversation even more. His smirk gone, meaning he meant very clearly what he said. Looking at him, I wondered what I’d done to make his hate me so much. Looking after Dino? For some reason the thought made me both worried and excited. He uncrossed his arms and transferred his weight from one foot to the other, ”hey, this was your responsibility.”
My responsibility.
I knew it was and suddenly I felt myself forcibly agreeing upon the suggestion. I could have gone to my Uncle, sure… but going to him for help would mean I wouldn’t be dealing with this situation by myself. I was tired of living under my Uncle’s shadow. I was my own person.

Walking up to my house’s front door, I sighed as I got my keys out and opened the door. Seems like all I’ve been doing lately is sighing.
"I’m home,” I rung out to the house. I checked my phone for the time as I took my shoes off. 12pm. Lots of time for homework. I looked back out to the rest of the house, walking around to see who was home. With no response, it seemed like everyone was out. Grabbing a drink from the fridge, I plopped myself on my bed and unpacked my bag of it’s books, placing them on my desk ready for homework. Having to look after Dino meant I had to be away from school… again. I’d been away for a while that my teachers had started to email and call home wondering when I’d be back. I was no teacher’s pet but I am rather enthusiastic about learning.
Doing work now would help me to feel less guilty about being away so much.
Starting up some music for studying, I took a gulp of my water and sat down, trying to find which book I needed. BUZZ. Seeing the name on the notification, I dropped my pencil and grabbed my phone, opening it up a little to excitedly.
Channie: Don’t feel guilty about today Haeunnie, this one’s on me T.T
I smiled at the text a little. He knew I felt guilty. I quickly tapped back a reply.
Haeun: Too late, I’m feeling completely guilty already. I’ll be looking after you tomorrow because of it.
He replied quickly.
Channie: I must have saved a king in my second life… :O Now I get to see you more?
I smiled again. He wants to see me? After I let him get hurt?
Haeun: That’s an exaggeration. How’s your leg holding up?
Channie: I’m keeping off it so it’s okay at the moment. I got to go but you better stop feeling guilty, okay?
Haeun: I’ll try -.-

Every step closer to the dorm, seem to get heavier and heavier. I had trouble sleeping last night just thinking about looking after Dino. What would happen? How awkward will it be?
“Haeun Manager!” Hoshi’s voice rung out. I lifted my head off the pavement to see the group of boys heading into their vans ready for schedule. Hoshi waving like an idiot, making me smile as I walked over to them. Seeing Dohyun in the van’s front seat and Jaehwa standing by the door of the van, I bowed to both of them holding onto my bag straps tightly. “Channie is still asleep in the dorm,” Hoshi said still smiling at me as he gestured to the dorm in the tall building. I smiled a little awkwardly, as I nodded looking around at the boys.
“Look after him will you Noona?” Jeonghan said as he leaned over the seat in front of him to talk to me. I nodded honestly.
“I will make sure of it, you guys should get going,” I replied as I saw Jaehwa sunbae look at her watch.

I bowed as the vans left, walking up the building’s stairs to the dorm and punching in the dorm’s code into the door. I took a deep breath, feeling my heart speed up slightly. I pushed the door open and was immediately met with dozens and dozens of shoes. Stepping over them carefully, I stumbled into the lounge, seeing some bed sheets strewn across the couch. I was in Seventeen’s dorm. Any fan’s desire… how lucky am I?
Looking around the place, one room had its door closed. My heart skipping a beat as I realised Dino was sleeping in there. I carefully placed my hand on the door handle, turning it slowly to open it quietly. Gulping down my heart beat I walked carefully into the slightly messy room with two bunk beds in it. Immediately seeing him on the lower bunk bed, I froze in my position. My heart leaping up and down against my ribcage. I walked over to him, kneeling down on the floor next to the bed and noticing a slight sweat he had. My hand distinctively reaching for his forehead, but I stopped myself before I touched him. Was this appropriate for me to do? I admired him as I wondered what I was going to do about all these feelings I had for him. Distracting myself I thought of some food I could make for him. Porridge? I got up from my kneel, thinking staring at him for too long would be creepy. As I walked towards the door a voice spoke.
“Eunnie,” it croaked out. I spun around seeing Dino’s eyes slightly open as he wriggled in his bed. I jogged back to the bed, kneeling again.
"Chan! You’re up,” I said in surprise. Seeing him sit up in his bed, with his legs hanging off the side, I said, “be careful! Don’t take it too quickly."
"Why am I so hot?” He croaked out feeling his sweating forehead and frowning slightly at it. Why is he so attractive? Wait he meant…
"Maybe you’ve got a slight fever,” I suggested, feeling my own cheeks glow in heat at my sudden thought. He’d only just woken up but he still looked as amazing as he did when he was ready to perform. Though this fever was making me worry about his health at the moment.
"My cheeks are burning,” he said tapping his cheek with one hand and rubbing his eye with the other.
"Really? Lemme see,” I reached my hand up to his cheek, the other on my cheek. Feeling a difference in temperature, I worried slightly. “Yeah, you've got something… I’ll go get a towel.” I moved my hand away from his warm cheek, before he grabbed it and placed it back on his cheek.
"Keep your hand there! They’re nice and cold…” he said closing his eyes again and smiling. My heart meanwhile seemed like it was about to burst through my ribcage. I couldn’t stop feeling so taken by him, and I hated and loved it. I kept my eyes on his face, admiring his every feature. Noticing small moles here and there. He opened his eyes and looked into mine. Holding each other’s gazes, we let minutes pass by. I didn’t pull away this time, waiting for him to do it first, but he never did. His cheeks pink with slight fever, mine pink but not for the same reason. His hand on my wrist softly, as my hand held one side of his face.
“So beautiful…” he whispered out into the quiet room.

Notes

shieeet i'm kinda late again aren't i?
well i'm sorry okay? i managed to take up another responsibility recently thinking "oh yeah, i can do this" oN tOP Of eVErYThiNG elSe
not a good idea
I won't have this one for too long though don't worry
hope you're all still enjoying this
I'm getting the vibe that this one is not as AMAZING as the rest of the ones I've done. I'm aware of that...
but as hannah montana once said, "nobody's perfect"