Paradise Lost
Some help
Hyungwon still didn't say a word. But at least his tears had stopped. He just stared to the floor, shaking, as Minhyuk helped him in to new clothes. wrapped a warm towel around his head, not bothered, that he himself was still soaked in the ice cold water. He didn't matter now, the only thing that was important was Hyungwon. The lighthaired boy gave his best to be strong, be strong for Hyungwon, but his heart almost shattered in to a thousand pieces, thinking back, to when he came home. It wasn't more than a few minutes ago, but for him it felt like an eternity. He didn't hesitate, as he discovered the dark haired younger one in the bathtub. He didn't hesitate to pull out his last dose of the blue wonder. He didn't hesitate pouring it in to the water. He didn't hesitate making himself wet, clinging on to the cold, lifeless body. And then he waited. Waited for a sign, that it worked. That he didn't lose his most loved person. That he would wake up, breathe again. And then he felt that soft squeeze from those slender, cold fingers around his hand. First he couldn't really be happy, it was just too painful watching Hyungwon rising out of the water, throwing up, gasping for air. But as healthy colour returned to the pale face, he finally could wrap him in his arms and finally he found his voice. He didn't want to ask, but he did.
"Minhyuk..."
The suddendly gentle spoken name woke him up from his thoughts and shaking his head, desperately trying to keep his sanity he backed away from the taller boy, gave him space, didn't want to scare him again.
"I'm sorry..."
Again his heart wanted to break at the tear-filled voice. But he couldn't do that, Hyungwon needed him. Now more than any time before.
"No. Stop. Don't say that. Please... just... I..."
His voice broke, he wasn't as strong as he thought. And at that moment, he was rescued.
"Holy shit... what happened? Everything alright?"
Minhyuk forced himself to a smile, turned around, hoping, that Hyungwon won't just jump out of the window and somehow managed to answer.
"Hoseok... You're back? Ehm, yes... Just a little bath. Why do you ask?"
Their Hyung raised an eyebrow, not really buying Minhyuks words, tilted his head and let out a tired sigh.
"Because the whole floor is covered in empty bottles of all kind of sorts..."
Just as Minhyuk wanted to answer, searching for a believable lie, Hyungwon finally found his voice again. But, it weren't the words Minhyuk wanted to hear.
"I tried to kill myself."
First it was quiet, too quiet. The bathroom was filled with an ice cold silence. Both of the light haired boys, could feel, how their hearts missed a beat.
"What?"
Hoseok wasn't sure if he heard right. He didn't want to. Not Hyungwon. Was everything they did for nothing?
"I'm sorry. What I actually wanted to say was, I killed myself. But Minhyuk brought me back."
Again Hoseok wished he was in a dream. But this was too real and he didn't want to be here. He didn't know, if he should just cling on to Hyungwon, crying, happy, that he was still, well again, alive. Or if he should just slap the shit out of the both younger ones.
"Minhyuk did what? Are you nuts?"
Minhyuk shrugged, he knew, he did something wrong. Well breaking the rules regarding the blue wonder was. But saving a friends, a brothers life, that was a different story in his eyes. And Hoseok came to the same conclusion as it seemed. Then, instead of bashing the younger light-haired one, he sighed again, came closer, looked at Hyungwon, who still just stared to his feet, clearly not happy with the situation.
"I won't ask why. I can think for myself. But, Hyungwon... everything's alright now. Well, at the moment."
"You killed them? Him?"
"No..."
Hoseok didn't like the look in Hyungwons eyes, as he asked if they murdered someone. But at least he was finally looking at him.
"We burned the church down and..."
A bitter laugh escaped Hyungwons lips. With a unusual smirk, not suited for their current talk he shook his head.
"And what good does that do? Nothing! You just made them angrier! Now they finally do have a reason to chase us... Chase me... Why didn't you let me die, the way I want? Everything’s better than..."
"No."
The sudden voice made the three boys stop in their doing and instead they turned around to the door, just to find themselves standing before their Leader.