Paradise Lost
I don't know
He didn't quite know what happened. Well actually he did, but he shouldn't have woken up. He should've just stayed asleep, all dark around him, alone, peaceful, finally dead. But somehow he gained his consciousness back. Coughing and choking, his body forced his head out of the water in to the fresh air, his eyes wide open, his lips frozen cold, with his mind still blank. Before his brain would've had the opportunity to catch a break, or his lungs spitting out the freezing cold water, his trembling body suddenly found himself in a strong embrace and finally he was awake enough to grasp his surroundings.
"Hyungwon... Why... Oh my... Don't ever do that to me again! Ever! You hear me?"
Slowly, still trying to understand, how on earth he was still alive the tall beauty raised his eyes and met the tearful gaze, that laid on him.
"Minhyuk..."
Even that one little word hurt his throat and with a painful growl he shrugged away from his light-haired Hyung, tried to ignore the painful glance in his eyes, buried his wet face in his hands, holding back the tears, who tried coming back to the surface.
"Hyungwon... Please... Talk to me... Don't push me away... Not now..."
But he needed a minute, maybe more. He needed to think and the gentle voice that stung needles in his heart didn't really help. He had a plan. It was perfect. Well, so he thought. He waited till the other guys left the house. He knew what they were up to. Why shouldn't he? They were family... And that's why Minhyuk, Changkyun and Hoseok made it their mission to get revenge for their brother. Even if it meant to burn a house down, endangering people and maybe even get killed. And that's why Jooheon teamed up with Hyunwoo to rob that shop, so they could maybe save that one person, who was somewhat a parent for them all. And Hyungwon lied, he told them they shouldn't worry, that he would visit Kihyun, who was still in the hospital. And they believed it, because, well like already said, they were family. But there his plan ended. He didn't really know how he should do it. He could've gotten a gun, but that would be too difficult. Slitting his wrists? No... He had enough pain, he wanted to die without it. He still didn't know, why he ended up in the bathroom. Or how he could swallow so many pills, so many alcohol, without throwing up. Or why he filled up the bathtub and laid in it, with his clothes on. He didn't think straight anymore, but as his mind started to go blank, it didn't matter, because he knew, that freedom was waiting for him. But...
Why did you save me. Minhyuk I was dead... I finally did it. Why did you bring me back? Why were you even here? You shouldn't be here...
Again Minhyuks arms wrapped around him and this time he didn't fight back. Sobbing and crying he clinged to his Hyung, desperate. They both had so many questions, but now wasn't the time. Maybe they didn't ask, because they knew the answers, deep down.
How did you bring me back?
The flower...
Do the others know?
No... no... We're alone... I still had some left from Jooheon...
Why did you bring me back?
I can't live without you... Why did you do it?
I can't live anymore...
Minhyuk gently stroke Hyungwons water soaked dark hair, didn't want to let go of him, didn't want to see him like this. Not again. He didn't want to think about what happened. He didn't want to lose him. Not again. "You're safe now, Hyungwon... He won't ever ever hurt you again... You hear me? You're safe..."