Starting Over.

”I love you” he said.
My heart found its normal rhythm again. I began slightly hitting him in the chest crying a bit. He began to laugh.
“ouch, why are you hitting me” he said still laughing.
“I thought you didn’t like me back” I said still hitting him
He kept walking backwards and fell over my bed. I fell down with him. I was on top of him. it was just us two. I stared into his eyes, his beautiful dark brown eyes. I could feel my face began to heat up. I tried to get of him but he pulled me back down again.
“of course I love you” he said.
He leaned in and kissed me. I kissed back. The door suddenly opened and we both looked up. it was Bomi. She had a smirk on her face. She quickly ran downstairs, I looked back at Jae-sshi who was now laughing. Kissed him on the lips and stood up. we both walked downstairs and saw Bomi smiling like a maniac. My brothers were also smiling and appa smiled too. I looked weirdly at them
“why are you guys looking at us like that” I said and gave them a questioning look.
“CONGRATULATIONS WITH YOUR RELATIONSHIP!!” Bomi screamed in happiness.
I smiled at her. Jae-sshi held my hand and said thank you. We walked to the kitchen to make some popcorns. While we waited we began to talk about something random.
“what do you want to do after you graduated?” he suddenly asked.
“I don’t know, I want to become a painter, a lawyer or an artist” I said.
“me too, I want to become an artist” he said with his cute smile
“then we can sing a duet!” I said all excited
He chuckled at my actions. The microwave stopped and he took out the popcorns. We walked back to the living room and placed the bowl of popcorn on the table in front of us. The movie was really good even though I didn’t get to see all of the movie because of Niel and Jae-sshi. But it had a good ending. After the movie was finished my dad walked over to the kitchen to prepare dinner. Key oppa suddenly yelled that he wanted pizza. We all agreed, he sighed and called the pizza delivery. I decided to go out for a walk with Jae-ssi. We walked to the park nearby. We found a big tree and sat underneath it. We just sat there silently not saying anything, it wasn’t an awkward silent but rather a nice one. He started humming to a song, it sounded good. I laid my head on his shoulder, listening to his humming. It made me relax a bit.
“Jae-shhi can I ask you-“ I was cut off when I heard someone yelling.
“OPPA!” a girl yelled while running over to us. I looked at her, she was really pretty.
“oppa, it’s been a long time” she said trying to make her voice sound cute.
I rolled my eyes. She gave the disgusted look to me, like I was some kind of animal.
“Jae-sshi, I’m going to go home” I said giving him a small smile.
“ok I will come to” he said getting ready to stand up.
“no, please stay. I think your friend has missed you, you should stay and talk for a bit” I said.
I started walking away from the park and ready to go home. Damn I’m jealous, she was really good looking. I sighed and kept walking. It was beginning to get dark and I was a little bit scared. I saw a guy drinking that looked a little bit scary. He wore dark clothes, a black hoodie, black skinny jeans and black converse to match his clothes. I looked down at my clothes to make sure I didn’t wear anything reviling. There is nothing reviling in sweatpants and a t shirt. I walked fast past him, but he grabbed my hand. I was sweating, I’m so scared. Where is Jae-sshi when I need him.
“what is a pretty girl like you doing this time of day. Here. Alone” he said with his raspy voice.
I didn’t answer him, but tried to get my hand free. He started laughing at me.
“don’t try too hard” he said.
He started coming closer and began to lift up my shirt
“NOOOO!” I screamed.
He slapped my cheek really hard.
“SHUT UP!” he yelled.
“Please, stop I’m begging you” I started to cry.
Saru remember this to next time, never walk alone at night. If there will ever come a next time. I kicked him in the leg, he let go and began to curse. I took the chance and began to run. I looked behind me and he was chasing me. He ran faster and held me again, he ripped some of my clothes. I kept begging him. he got annoyed and took a stone there were beside him and threw it on my face, it wasn’t big one, I could feel something wet on my eyebrow. I pushed him hard so he fell down on the hard road. I started to run again but faster, when he was finally out of my sight and began to walk. I was shaking, I was scared. I walked into someone. I started to scream, he's going to kill me. I fell down, crying harder.
“I can’t get raped, I can’t get raped, I can’t get raped” I repeated in a shaking voice.
The person kneeled down in front of me.
“I’m not going to rape” he said in a soft voice.
I looked up and saw Jae-sshi looking at me with a worried look. He tried to hug me but I pushed him away.
“p-please don’t t-touch m-me” I said crying even more.
I stood up and began to walk home, Jae-sshi behind me making sure nothing happened to me. when I walked inside Bomi dropped the cokes she was holding. I heard the glass shatter.
“SARU!” Bomi screamed running over to me.
She was crying, she took her sweater off and put it over me. she wore a t shirt underneath the sweater.
“B-Bomi” I whispered.

Notes

sad chapter :(