I forgot to forget you

Leo’s eyes widened as he felt pain erupt on his face, he knew what had happened but he didn't believe it. He had really hoped that N would be reasonable and ask Leo what had happened, but Leo guessed N really hated him. Still shocked Leo looked up at N who looked almost as shocked as Leo and Leo half expected N to ask for forgiveness. But once again Leo was wrong.
“I’m done talking with you..” N said silent and turned around.
“N wait I…” Leo wanted to explain what had happened, he wanted N to understand, he wanted N to listen to him.
“Shut up!” N suddenly spun around. “Don’t talk to me, don’t even appear in front of me!”

Leo took a couple of steps back at the sudden shout, but he still wanted N to understand.
“N, please listen to me.. i want to tell.”
“I said shut up! Don’t come close to me or any of the other members! the only thing you do is hurt them so why don’t you just leave!” With that N walked out the door, slamming it shut behind him.

Just as the door shut Leo sank to the floor. He felt dizzy and he found it hard to breath, hin cheek still num from the slapp.
“Why don’t you just leave?” Leo repeated N word while looking down on the floor. “The only thing you do its hurt them..”
Something wet landed on Leo’s hand but he didn't try to stop the tears that was now streaming down his face, what was there for reason to stop it?
Actually, what was the reason to do anything anymore? He lost her and now he had lost the rest of the group. There wasn't anyone left to lean on, no one left to be by his side. He was all alone.. all alone in this world.

“Where did you go?” Ken asked and stood up as N walked back into the room.
“I talked with Leo.” N said simply and sat down on the bed beside Ravi.
“What did he say? what happened?” Hongbin asked quickly.
N paused for a minute, he hasn't even asked Leo what happened. Maybe he should have asked what. No, all he needed to know was that it was Leo’s fault.
“N?” Hyuk asked sitting down on the floor by N’s feet.
“He.. He said it was his fault.” N said looking away from the younger boy.

Hyuk’s face dropped immediately, had he just heard that correctly.
“What.. What did you say?” Hyuk asked in something like a whisper even though he knew what N had said.
“You heard me the first time.” N mumbled, not wanting to repeat himself.
“No.. that can’t be, are you sure you understood him right?” Ken asked shocked.
“Yes.”
“How could he?!” Hongbin said angry slamming his fist into the wall behind him.
“Where is he?” Ken said, he wanted to make sure N was right.
“It’s not important..” N sighed.
“But.” Ken tarted.
“It’s not important!” N yelled and stood up.
“Okay, take it easy.” Ken backed a couple of steps away from N.
“Are you okay N hyung?” Hyuk asked putting his hand on N’s shoulder.
“I need some air.” N mumbled before he dashed out of the room leaving the other three members looking confused and worried at each other.

Notes