I forgot to forget you

Leo slowly closed the door behind him and let his gaze sweep over the room. His legs was still shaking a bit but even though he felt like falling to the ground he just stood there. He didn't know what he was feeling, what should he be feeling? Thanks to him Ravi was in the hospital and maybe he should just do as N said and go away. Leo didn't really know when but as some point he found himself sitting on the floor crying with his back against the door. Leo new that most people would be angry right now, N didn't even try to understand the situation, the leader just heard what he wanted to hear and nothing else. But Leo couldn't be angry with him, Leo couldn't blame N for the leaders accusations. The only one he was blaming was himself.

Leo had totally lost count of the time as he sat inside the dark room crying by himself. the light outside slowly faded away and was replaced with darkness. It wasn't until dark that Leo's tears stopped. It wasn't like he wasn't sad anymore, he just ran out of tears to cry. But still he sat there, just sat there looking out into nothing. That's when he heard voices right outside the door.

"I know you wanted to stay but N is there right now so don't worry. "
That was Ken's voice. Leo flew up from where he sat and quickly hid behind the opening door. He knew it was a horrible hiding place but he still hoped they wouldn't see him.
"But Ken hyung." Hyuk looked at Ken with pleading eyes.
"No, N was right." Ken replied. "There's no need for us to skip sleep over it, Ravi would be angry if we did."
Hyuk looked down on the floor and nodded, he knew Ken was right.
"by the way, do you guy's know where Leo went?" Hyuk looked up at Ken and Hongbin who just walked in.
"Maybe he's. " Ken started but got interrupted.
"Who cares! " Hongbin said loud making both Hyuk and Ken jump.
" But Hongbin hyung, what if something happens to Leo hyung? " Hyuk asked worried.
"Who cares, maybe something should happen! " Hongbin said frustrated.
"You can't mean that." Hyuk said shocked.
"I mean it, if Leo wasn't here non of this would have happened. You wouldn't have that bandage around your head and Ravi wouldn't be lying in the hospital. "
"Yes but..." Hyuk didn't really know how to continue that sentence so he just fell silent.
"I'm going to bed." Hongbin said and turned around dispersing up the stares.
"Ken hyung, you don't think that way right." Hyuk turned to the one beside him.
Ken didn't look at the other and avoided Hyuk's eyes.
"Ken hyung? "
"Hyuk.. Hongbin have a point.. " Ken mumbled.
"No...Leo hyung would be really sad if he heard you! Stop it!" Hyuk suddenly yelled.
"I know you're only mad because you think Hongbin had a point to." Ken said silently.
It became completely silent in the room for a very long time until Hyuk broke it.
"I'm going to bed, nigh. "

When Hyuk left Ken stood still looking towards the stairs for a while and didn't notice the shadow sneaking behind him and out the door.
As soon as Leo was outside again he started running, as far away as he could, as fast as he could. Tears that he didn't even know he had left started to fall as he ran. It was true, every word Hongbin had said was true. It was all Leo's fault, if he wasn't there nothing would have happened, everyone would still be fine. Maybe he should just keep on running and disappear for ever, maybe that would make there lives a little easier and happier. Maybe it would be best for everyone if he just disappeared..

Hyuk walked back and forth in his room. He didn't want to think about it but still his thoughts drifted to what Hongbin had said. was there a point to it? But even so, Leo wasn't in hos right mind. what of something happened to Leo, if he got hurt. What if he was hurt now and nobody was looking for him. Hyuk felt bad only thinking about it.It was enough that two in the group was hurt, they didn't need anymore indgeryes. And Leo was already hurting, Hyuk had seen that when he had asked Leo wat was wrong. But even if Leo was hurting he should tell them and not let it go out over them. Hyuk didn’t know what he was thinking, he didn’t know what he was going to do.

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