But You Love Me

“Remember: Wednesday.”
I send the compulsory text to Yoongi as Miss Yang watches nodding.
“Good. Now Saeyong, be as patient as possible with him, he does have a learning disability.”
“Dyslexia, it’s mild though Miss, he has no excuses for not learning.”
In Miss Yang’s form classroom, the bustle of children can be heard loud and clear.
“How did you know he has dyslexia?”
I put my attention back to her seeing her suspicious look at me. Did I just say I knew Yoongi’s secret. Shit.
“Ughhh… I asked him miss.” I say trying to cover up my tracks.
She stands up from her desk and crosses her arms still keeping her eyes on me.
“Saeyong, I trust you with this information. Yoongi has been one of my main focusses this year, I really hope you can help him pass this year’s exams.”
I sigh realising the responsibility being placed on my shoulders. I stare at my phone in my hands. “End of year exams? That’s a bit too much for me to tutor him for don’t you think?”
“I think your capable of many things, including this.” Miss Yang says truthfully to me. “I’ve got a meeting to go to so i’ll see you later.” She says grabbing her bag and placing papers inside of it. I nod in response and bow as she walks towards the classroom’s door. “Have faith Saeyong! I do!” She says waving her hand behind her towards me.
“Yes miss! I’ll try!” I reply happily as if everything was fine. After a few seconds of silence I let out a huge sigh. This definitely wasn’t fine. I was stuck tutoring an incompetent teenage boy. Yay.

Through the hallways and the passing days, I would catch Yoongi’s eye but receive no punishment like others. I know he’s not an entirely bad person. As much as I resist this tutoring situation, this can be my apology in an insufficient way almost.
When Wednesday rolled around, I couldn’t sleep (or study) the night before worried about how he would treat me with no one around.
I stood outside the door of the assigned classroom and stared at it as my heart beat sped up furiously.
“What are you doing?”
I jumped as the voice further rose my heartbeat, breaking the silence of the after school hallways. I drop my books in this process in fright, and look at Yoongi annoyed. “YOU SCARED ME!” I yell at him.
He looks me up and down before stepping over my books with his hands in his pockets, into the classroom. What a gentleman. I start to pick my books slowly reassembling them in my arms.
“Don’t expect me to do anything,” he says as he slings his bag on a random desk in the middle of the room. Hands full of books standing by the doorway, I sigh and reply, “well what do you want me to do? Miss Yang has asked me to take leadership and I can’t let her down.”
As he slumps down he replies lazily, “you really haven’t changed have you, Saeyong-ah?”
My heart skips as he says my name. He said my name… for the first time in… I don’t know how long. I grip my books tighter as I walk to the desk next to him but before I can sit down he puts his foot up on the seat. I look at him to see a cheeky smile on his face making his eyes curve. Why… is he smiling at me? “What’s the password?” Mouth ajar slightly, I close it and gulp down wondering if he’s playing a trick on me, or if he’s being genuine.
“Umm, please?”
“Nope.” He replies with his eyes closed. I’m silent for a while, wondering how to reply and what to reply with. Is he being Yoongi from “Bulletproof Boys”? Or is he the “Minnie” I used to call him when we were younger.
“Wow, Saeyong, I thought you were better than this…” He starts saying proudly folding his arms.
Minnie… our childhood secrets we told each other were keep safe by a…
“PASSWORD!!! I GOT IT!!! It’s “Yoongi and Saeyong’s treasure will never be parted.”
He stops smiling as I realise what an idiot I look saying these things to him. He suddenly bursts out laughing as he takes he feet off. “You can-hahaha!! You can have the seat! That’s not what I was asking for but fine!”
I sit down slightly scared he’s laughing so loud about this. I even feel my cheeks go slightly pink on me getting the password wrong.
Like a switch he coughs and stops laughing. “Are you really not going to study?” I ask one last time.
“Well I don’t have any books to work from, and besides, i’m here to “impress” Miss Yang.” He says staring at his empty desk. I stare at it too, and I compare it to my desk, full of books. I suddenly feel grateful my parents have been there to push me and also sad for Yoongi. I look more towards one of my workbooks that is nearly finished. He can just read through it, it’s fine. But I need it too… I sigh and grab the book and place it in his desk. I look at him for his reaction. He frowns at it slightly. “I wasn’t saying that because I wanted a book.” He says staunchly.
“Well i’m done with it, you don’t even have to write, just read through it.” I say insistingly.
He sighs and I smile slightly before carrying on with my study and homework.
One up side to this one-on-one tutoring is… it’s absolutely quiet in here.

++PAST++

A tear falls down his cheek sadly and slowly. “Yoongi, that’s terrible. I’m so sorry,” I say into the silently sad atmosphere. He starts crying more and slums across the room with every sniffle he takes to the couch and collapses. This has never happened before, i’ve never had to be there for this type of emotional hurt. I sit down next to him and slowly place my hand on his slumped back. Slowly patting his back I think of all the things he has to face next without them.
Suddenly my phone rings breaking the sad atmosphere. I look at it’s ID caller name,”Mum.” I sigh knowing I have to take this call. “Yoongi, i’ve got to take this call, i’ll be back,” I say quietly and stand up slowly to exit the house. I slide to answer it. “어, 엄마. What’s wrong?”
“Saeyong, you need to come, now.” She explains the immediate situation to me, maikng my heart thump. I run without thinking, and leave for the hospital. Forgetting all about Yoongi until later the next day.

Notes

Sorry this is kinda a day late :/ It wasn't meaningful for this to be late I just have exams coming up soon!
If anyone else is having exams soon, GOODLUCK! Study hard, and enjoy this chapter!
MUAH ^3^