But You Love Me

Ever since that proposal on going to the park on Monday by Yoongi, we’ve been going there everyday after school the whole week. I’ve been rubbing off on him and he’s been rubbing off on me too. He got his first over 50% mark this year, and I experienced being told of by a teacher for the first time. I… didn’t like it. Today being Friday, I assumed I would be meeting Yoongi at the park again.. but he’s not here. He’s usually here at this time…
Worried, I decide to go back to school where he may be in detention and he forgot to tell me. Or worse he got his phone confiscated because he’d been using it in class.

Arriving at the school gate, I start walking in but I hear voices from around the corner of the curb where the school lies. I walk slowly towards it, cautiously. Is that… Yoongi’s voice? I walk right up to the wall and listen carefully. “Guys, did you ever think there was more to being mean to people, besides covering up your own wounds?” I was right, it’s Yoongi.
“Being mean? We’re just taking what’s been taken from us! We thought you understood that better than anyone else!” Jimin’s voice starts rising at Yoongi. What is he doing? Is he leaving the “Bulletproof Boys”? Why is he…
“I’m sorry. I’ve found someone who’s been able to see my wounds and love them in their imperfect ways.” He says calmly to them, contradicting my rising heartbeat. He’s gonna get himself hurt. I run out to see the scene of all the Bangtan members standing again Yoongi, who’s all by himself. Yoongi turns to see me, who’s standing there with my mouth open. He’s eyes suddenly drop as if he’s being hurt. “Saeyong-ah, what are you doing here?” My open mouth not able to respond as I look at each of the members seeing their faces of disapproval. “Go home Saeyong-ah. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I wasn’t going to be there this afternoon. Go home, please.” He says quietly walking up to me. He reaches for my hand and holds it with a tight grip with both of this hands. I look down at this, feeling protective over him.
“No.” He looks at me shocked. “I’m sorry too because, I can’t trust you to be here with them alone. I’m not leaving without you.” I say sternly with my best angry tone. “You’re leaving us for ‘that’”? Yoongi’s face turning from a once caring face, to a almost murderous face as he hears a member of Bangtan say this. He slowly turns around, silently, making me worried as I know what that face means. “Don’t you ever… call Saeyong ‘that’!!!” He shouts at them frightening me and I feel my hands start to shake. Yoongi walks back to them, with hands in fists. Before I knew it, Yoongi had been knocked down by Namjoon with one swift punch to the face. I gasp in surprise and run over to him but before I get there he’s up and fighting back, punching Namjoon back. I need to stop this. I try to get between Namjoon and Yoongi pushing their shoulders apart but i’m useless against their strength. “Please stop. Please!” I say feeling tears welling up in my eyes.
I blinked and before I knew it, a force pushed me back and onto the ground through my shoulders. All I could think about as pain went through my arm, was about Yoongi’s safety. I swiped my hair out of my face to see Yoongi taking punches. My heart hurts seeing all this pain inflicted on him and I start crying thinking, this love I feel for him, will be hard to have with peace. Yoongi sees me on the ground and quickly covers me with him body, wrapping my arms around me. I blink out the tears in my eyes, pushing against Yoongi. I know what he’s doing, protecting me from them, but I don’t approve. Like a ship, I feel myself shake with impact, but I don’t feel anything. Yoongi was taking the beatings from Bangtan making grunting noises. Yoongi no, please don’t do this. My crying intensifies and Bangatan’s punches lessen. Slowly I let out more and more tears and slowly, Bangtan give up. Yoongi’s chest exhaling against my body, we hear them walk away slowly. I try to stop crying, breathing deeply, knowing it’s over. Yoongi lets go of this cover on me. I turn to him and see him bleeding and bruising already. “It’s okay, it’s over.” He says winching slightly. My attempts at trying to stop crying fails as I see his face and the pain he is in. I burst out into tears, hugging my knees. Yoongi comforts me with patting on the back. As the streams of tears leave my eyes and fall down my face, I re-think my feelings. This, is too much. On Yoongi, and me as well. People at school will judge us and Yoongi has already lost his high powered position, all for me. Sometimes I love him, sometimes I hate him.

Yoongi stays with me there until I stop crying. When I do, we silently get up together. With his arm around my neck, we hobble back to my house.
“Yoongi-ah”
“Oh?”
“Don’t do that again, ok?”
“Never again."

Notes

AHHHH I CAN SEE THE ENDDDD ToT
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