Gratefulness~ pt.3

The stairs lead all the way to the roof and as I climb them up, I admire the city lights of Helsinki and listen carefully. Somewhere a glass bottle gets broken and I can see how a little bit too drunken customer gets kicked out of a night club.

Upstairs my eyes focus immediately on Ji Yong who's standing on the other side of the rooftop. He's standing quietly still, his arms crossed on his chest, and he's looking forward at the beach and the black sea. His bright lenghtened hair sways as the strong wind blows over the roof and I stay for a moment and just watch Ji.
Then I take a few steps forward. I walk a little closer to him.

"Gwenchana..?" I ask quietly, so that I wouldn't scare him. GD turns around and takes a look at me surprised. But then he turns back.
"Why are you speaking Korean", he asks weakly. I walk a few meters away from him and lean my body against the bannister.
"Why are you so upset?" I answer him with another question and look at Ji. But he's staring strictly at the sea.

"I don't understand", he says eventually with a raspy voice.
"What?"
"Why you came", he says.
"I got the tickets, so..."
"You could have given them away."
I look at him again, this time confused.
"I really don't understand why you are so mad at me!" I exclaim. "I have done nothing wrong!"
Then Ji Yong turns his head and looks at me for a long time. Without saying a word. He observes me with his eyes, almost like trying to find out if I was still the same person as six months ago.

"I'm with Kiko", he blurts suddenly and looks away from me.
"W-what?" I gasp. With that witch?
"Yeah..."
I look around like I could find something clever to say from the surroundings. I wrap my arms around my body to keep myself warm.
"So, you are still stuck in the same place as you were before", I state and look at the sea when Ji glances at me.
"What are you talking about?" he gives a sarcastic laugh. "I've worked very hard and I'm about to hit the American markets. I have moved on."
"I was talking about the life. Not about the work", I say and a long silent moment follows.
We are looking in the darkness. Seagulls are shrieking and flitting over the sky. Waves break against the solid rocks and cliffs. The sounds of city's bustle can be heard behind us. And the sea's murmur and splash feels relaxing. From the corner of my eye, I can see G-Dragon turning around, taking a few steps towards me. I don't budge an inch.

"Hey", he says with a low voice and tries to draw my attention. I turn slowly.
"Can you..." Ji begins. "Can you tell me that it's over?"
"What are you saying?" my face scrunches.
"Tell me that what we had was nothing. I need you to say that", he demands and looks down at his shoes. I look at him, not believing what he had just said. My heart screams no.
"Maybe I don't want to follow your orders", I look over the sea haughtily. Ji lifts his head, looking confused.
"Just say it", he asks raising his voice.
"Ani", I shake my head. GD rolls his eyes and walks to some kind of warehouse and sits down against it. I look at the scenery for a while and then move to him. Ji is thinking about something. He pats the concrete beside him. I slide down against the wall to sit down. Ji sighs loudly. And again. He's looking so desperate leaning against his knees and looking at the starry sky.

"I don't want to understand why you wanted me to say those words... Why can't you just forgive me? I will do anything, really!" I start begging. Ji Yong glances at me and tilts his head to show a little interest in my words.
"Please? Pretty please...?" I ask and look at him sadly. I keep blinking. I would so like to see his pretty smile but he hasn't smiled at me the whole evening.
Then he grabs my hand and starts stroking the back of my hand with his thumb. My heart beats faster.
"The truth is, I missed you so much", he says so quietly it almost sounds like a whisper and he coughs to open up his voice. We have been here in the cold for a good while and Ji even longer than me. I hope he won't get sick.
"I rolled in my bed every night thinking about you", he tells, looks at our hands and our fingers. My stomach hurts. No one has ever said anything like this to me. It's so sad.

"Did you think about me at all?" he asks with an expression that almost rips me apart. I can't take this anymore... I feel my eyes getting watery.
"At all...?" I repeat quietly and look down. "I missed you more than I have ever missed anyone. More than the sea misses the full moon", I whisper.
Ji pinches my chin and lifts my head up. He looks at me.
"I cried the whole flight back to Finland", I tell him and sob shortly. Ji looks at me astonished.
"The whole flight...?" he repeats.
"And", I sob. "I couldn't listen to your music but I still heard it everywhere and", I explicate faster and cover my mouth with my free hand for a moment.
"It was so hard..." I collapse but I manage to get myself together even a little. I don't want to seem like a drama queen. I look down again.

Ji moves closer to me without letting my hand go. Our knees touch. He lays his head against my shoulder and rubs my hands. I do the same.
"I'm so sorry, Mineea", he says to my ear and a tear rolls down my cheek. It drops on Ji's golden jacket and rolls down the shiny coat until it falls and splashes against the concrete forming a little dark spot.
We stay close to each other quietly for a moment. I listen to the sound of sea waves.

After a few minutes I lift my head up so that I could see his face. Ji is looking at me worried.
First I'm about to say something meaningful. But as I look at his silly face I end up giggling a little. Ji gives me a weird look. I start laughing.
"Mwuh?!" he looks at me like I was the crazy one. I laugh even more. He keeps turning his head and looks at me from every angle.
"Why are you laughing?"
I quiet down and take a good look at him.
"It's just that... You are so different now than what you are on stage", I state and Ji utters a laughter too.
"I know. I am sensitive really", he refers to his off-stage me and smiles by himself. We stand up and I hug him.
"I love to see you smiling. So happily", I whisper. He tightens the grip.

Then he takes my hand and leads me to the stairs. He stops and turns around to say something to me.

"I really missed you."

I nod and smile.

We step inside the suite and everyone turns around to look at us. Ji takes his shoes off and I smirk at Sara.
"Is this yours?" Ji walks to the kitchen and points at my glass. I nod and we smile at each other for a while. I feel so happy.
I sit down on the sofa next to Sara. She, Taeyang, TOP and Daesung are playing a board game. Seungri comes out of the toilet and notices me and Ji Yong.
"Oh, you're back!"
I smile at Seungri overly excited and he realizes that everything is fine again. He smiles back at me and sits beside Daesung.
Sara looks at me and squints and I try to keep my poker face. Then she nudges me to my side and I burst into a big bright smile.
"Well, you look cheerful now!" she exclaims in Finnish and laughs. Taeyang glances at us. He's sitting on the floor with a champagne glass on his right hand and it's his turn to roll the dice. His shirt has magically disappeared again... But that's not a problem, of course.
"What did you say?" he asks and Sara sticks her tongue out.
"Hey! You should teach us some Finnish", TOP requests. He has become more social after having a few drinks.
"That's a good idea! Teach us something we can use while staying here", Daesung says and throws his right hand in the air. Sara looks at me.
"You are better in English", she whines.
Seungri slaps the table and a few men fall down.
"You teach us Finnish not English", he shouts and laughs afterwards. Ji Yong walks around the sofa carrying glasses in his hands and comes to me. He hands me my glass which has been filled with some pink beverage. Ji sits down very close to me.
"Yeah but I have to explain in English", Sara mutters for an explanation.
"Teach us something easy then", Taeyang asks.
"Okay..."

After her English-Finnish classes and many game rounds everybody starts to get tired.
We are staring at the TV screen and watching a Korean drama series. Seungri and Daesung are leaning broadly against the back of the sofa and TOP's on the verge of falling asleep next to them. Sara's head lays on Taeyang's lap and he's stroking her blond hair. As I look at them, I can see that there's defenitely something going on. I myself have curled up next to GD under a blanket and he has wrapped his arms tightly around me. He lays his head on mine.

We all startle as we hear Sara sniffling and mumbling something. She has fallen asleep. Taeyang looks at me amused and I hold back my laughter. Sara turns on her side and Tae inches slowly from under her and slides her head gently on the sofa.
"You can't leave her there", Ji whispers loudly to Taeyang who glances at Sara. She's sleeping in such an odd position that her neck would hurt in the morning for sure. I feel so safe next to Ji Yong as he's being so thoughtful.
Taeyang lifts her on his strong arms carefully and carries her to his bedroom. I take a look at Ji.
"Can you do that to me too?" I try to look my cutest.
"I'm not that strong", Ji smirks and I snort disappointed.
"Ji, maybe you should sleep in Mineeha's room. Here's not enough space", Seungri notes. Ji nods and moves. I stand up to yield and he goes to get something from the room where Taeyang and Sara are.
I sit down for a bit and see that TOP and Daesung have fallen asleep side to side and that Daesung's head lays on TOP's shoulder. I get the feels! Seugri smirks at me and I read from his lips: "So cute!" and he does some aegyo. I laugh quietly.

Ji comes back and I stand up.
"Annyeonghi jumuseyo", I whisper to Seungri and we change the hotel room with Ji Yong. He heads right to the bedroom but I go to the toilet first to wash my face and brush my teeth. I hope that he wouldn't fall asleep in the meantime.
But no. Ji is sitting on the edge of the bed and setting an alarm on his phone. He has already taken off his jacket, shirt and jewellery but he's still wearing the black leather pants. I walk around the bed to my suitcase and pull out my nightdress. I'm so super tired that I don't bother to think about the fact that he might be looking at me as I undress to my underwear. I slip in my sexy lace dress, turn around and look at my pillow surprised. There's a white rose on it. Ji has taken off the rest of his clothes and slided between the sheets. He's laying on his side and leaning on his arm, watching my reaction. I take a moment to appreciate this. It's unbelievable that he's here with me. In my bed.

"What's that?" I ask and pick up the rose. I smell it.
"A fan gave it to me", he explains with a quiet voice. He's looking very tired.
"And you want me to have it...?"
Ji nods and I place the rose on the little table. I lift the blanket and lay beside him. I turn on my side, so that I can look into his eyes.
"Thank you", I whisper and smile a little. Ji's looking at me and his eyes hardly stay open. His hand moves on my cheek, his thumb strokes back and forth slowly. His warm, warm hand.
"Thank you for coming", he mumbles.
"Hmh?"
"I'm sorry what I said before... Thank you for coming back. To me", his voice changes into a whisper and then into a big yawn. He looks at me with his last ounce of strength. His hand falls down and we stare at each other's eyes until we fall asleep.

Notes

I decided to spend the whole night writing (since my imagination flies during the night so well and it's nicer to write when it's completely silent), so I'm releasing two chapters tonight. Enjoy!

It's 5 am... :D I will continue the part 4. It's already 3/4 written. I have decided to end this fanfiction after part 5.

edit. some typos have been corrected
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Teaser for chapter 6