Gratefulness~ pt.3

I open my eyes slightly and see an arm resting on my tummy. G-Dragon is laying so close to me. He has crawled under my arm at night. I look at him and smile. He his holding gently around me and breathing against my skin with his mouth open. The sun only starts to rise and I guess the clock is maybe six or seven. I don't want to move. I will wait until he wakes up.
I reach my phone from the table and I notice that I've gotten a text message. It's from Joakim.
"Was the concert good? :) yours, hard-working man"
I feel immediately bad for Joakim. But only a little. I know that he's still hoping that we could get back together and, to be honest, I have considered it a few times but everytime the thought of us together has slipped out of my mind. I'm not able to forgive him. And here I am, sleeping next to another man... I would like to see his reaction if I told him that I had spent the night with one of the singers itself. With a singer who makes millions. Although, Ji does not brag with his money. And he doesn't make a big scene of his famousness. Ji Yong is humble and shy. He's nothing like G-Dragon. They are two completely different persons.

Ji budges and yawns loudly. He opens his eyes and blinks, trying to remember where he is. I put the phone down on my other side and look at Ji. He's looking at me first confused but then bursts into smiling and hides his face in my nightdress.
"Hey", I utter a laughter. Ji laughs. And even though I can't see his face, I can imagine him smirking. He looks at me shyly and streches his long arms.
"I didn't remember you were here", he mumbles quietly. He looks so tired and cute.
"Did you think it was just a dream?" I smile. Ji looks at me long.
"A good dream", he says and smiles.

I ruffle his messy hair.
"What do you have today?" I ask when Ji Yong rolls slowly to the edge of the bed and starts looking for his clothes. It feels like I did belong here, with him. I pull light holey jeans, a long t-shirt with a printed picture on it and a neon green hoodie out of my suitcase.
"TV show at 3 pm and interviews all day long", he says and puts on his pants. I can't help but to admire his body.
"Okay."
I walk to the toilet to change my clothes and do my morning routine. When I come out, Ji is waiting for me at the door.
"You want to eat breakfast with us?"

As we walk to their room I answer to Joakim.
Daesung is setting the table with Taeyang. Sara is still sleeping. Seungri mentions YG and the members discuss something in Korean. Then Daesung's phone rings and he turns to me.
"YG is calling. Do you want to say something to him?" he asks and I almost drop my chopsticks.
"Uh... I don't know."
Daesung smiles, takes the phone and walks into one of the bedrooms. Sara appears from her cave and peeks behind the door with a familiar-looking white shirt on her. I wonder if Taeyang carries it always with him, in case a girl would like to sleep in his clothes. I encourage Sara to come to us.
"Good morning", I greet her in Finnish and smirk. She sits down beside me and looks at all the odd foods in front of her.
"It's so funny", she just states and grabs some food on her plate. Boys are eating quietly as we are chatting in our own language.
"Did you sleep well?" Sara smirks and tastes some kind of meat dish. I utter an akward laughter and just nod at her.
"I have a little headache", she says and I offer her the jug filled with water.
"Did you two just sleep or...?" she begins. I slap her.
"What are you..."
Sara grins back at me.

Daesung comes back and places his Samsung on the table.
"When are you guys leaving?" Seungri asks us and I glance at Sara.
"I think 12 o'clock?" I guess and Seungri nods. Only then I realize how short time we got to spend together. I feel melancholic.
"Can't you stay for tomorrow?" Ji Yong looks at me sadly. Taeyang glances at me from the other side of the table.
"But we have to give our room away", I explain. Ji looks depressed. Daesung picks our plates and he seems to be in a surprisingly good mood.
"I think you will have to stay", he says mysteriously as he turns around and carries the plates to the kitchen. I look at him haltingly. Sara and boys glance at him.
Daesung comes back to the livingroom.

"YG still wants you", he notifies and sits down, crosses his arms behind his neck and leans against the back of the sofa.

We all gather around him.
"Wait. What happened?" Ji looks at him surprised.
"I just mentioned her name. That you are here", Daesung smiles widely and looks at me. "I think he really likes you."
"That's great!" Seungri exclaims
"Good for you", Taeyang smiles.
I still can't believe it and I just keep smiling akwardly. But then I drop the bomb.

"BigHit's producer contacted me too and asked me to become their trainee."
Everybody turns to look at me. Especially Ji Yong is staring at me with confusion and anger in his eyes. I think Sara doesn't know what we are talking about anymore.
"Huh?" Seungri and Daesung mutter together. "How did he know?"
I shrug.
"What do you mean? Don't you want to join YG?" Ji asks and looks at me astonished.
"What did you say?" Taeyang is curious.
"I didn't say anything yet", I answer and I can see a slight sign of relief on their faces.
"So when are you leaving?" I try to change the subject.
"YG is going to call you soon", Daesung tells me. I look at Ji to make him answer my question.
"Soon. Tomorrow", he says and I nod. It's quiet for a moment until Seungri gets bored. He has nothing scheduled for today. Only GD and Taeyang have a busy day ahead.
"Come with us", Sara surprises them.
"Really? Could we?" Seungri looks at Sara and then at Daesung and TOP.
"Can we visit you, Mineeha-ah?" Daesung smiles at me. "We are one big family in YG!"
"Yeah, we are gonna visit your home often from now on", Seungri smirks and I laugh. Why not!

When we get in the train, I notify my mom of our guests. She says that it's okay. I think she's just happy to get some company. As I'm about to put my phone back in my handbag, it rings. I haven't saved the number and I'm sure that the caller is YG.
"Annyeong haseyo", I answer shyly and realize how akward it would be if the caller wasn't him but someone else.
"Hey", a man's voice greets. "We talked with Daesung this morning."
"Yes", I agree.
"Do you still want to become a kpop idol?"
I hesitate but then I remember how much I regretted my mistakes last time.
"I... Umm. I do", I answer and wait eagerly what he's going to say next.
"Good. But you have to behave, remember it. Leave GD and Kiko alone."
I nod my head even though I know YG won't see it. If you only knew... Only then I remember Kiko's existence and it troubles me. Seungri, who's sitting opposite me, wakes up from his dream and looks at me. The others are still sleeping. Boys have disguised themselves in big hats, sunglasses and masks but I think that they attract even more attention this way. And there's only three older women in this wagon and they wouldn't recognize Big Bang for sure. It's different in here.

"Go with Big Bang. We'll see you in Paris." The phone call cuts off and I glance at Seungri astonished.
"Are we going to France?" I ask him confused. Seungri nods and smiles like usual.
"Last concert. Then we're having a little break", he explains and I nod widely. Sara comes back from the toilet and walks to me.
"Shall we go get coffee?"

She buys a cup of coffee and a chocolate bar but I am satisfied with my small fruit smoothie. I have to start taking better care of myself if I wish to get on stage and become famous. We sit down around a tiny table. Sara sips her coffee and looks at me like she has something important to say.
"Did you tell your mom yet?" she asks and I grin akwardly.
"What are you going to say to her? You have to move to Korea and everything", she reminds me. I look down at my small smoothie and move it in my hands.
"I do not know", I answer quietly. "I feel so sad and I get bad coinsience for leaving her."
"Why?" Sara is being curious but I don't want to disturb her by telling her about mom's healt condition, so that she wouldn't blame me.
"It's such a good opportunity. You are going to be rich one day. I believe she'd understand."
"Yeah", I say quietly and taste the smoothie.
The train stops and I can imagine TOP, Seungri and Daesung startling and standing up, listening to the announcements carefully without breathing.
It's almost three pm and Ji's appeareance in a TV show is about to begin. The girl behind the counter takes the remote controller and starts going through the channels.
"Stop", I shout her when a man inside the screen says something about a world-famous musician. She gives me a weird look and I smirk. It's a talk show. The man hosts G-Dragon into the studio and Ji waves to the audience and smiles. So cute, I sigh.
Sara is smiling at me. "I'm so jealous", she laughs and gets to her chocolate bar.
"Think about it! You are going to be a trainee", she says. "And when you get on stage you have to ask me to dance with you like they did yesterday." I laugh.
"Of course I will!"
"And don't work over your limits, so you won't get burned out!" she worries. A smell of fresh chocolate floates to my nostrils.
"I must work hard though", I laugh. "The other girls are already trainees", I note.
"Just not too much", she demands. "And remember to text me, okay?"
I nod and change the subject.
"What's... How was it with Taeyang?" I make faces and wink at her. Sara waves her hands in the air towards me and yells:
"Aiiits!"
I laugh and push her hands down.
"He is really adorable", she sighs loudly.
I knew that Sara had a crush on him. She was trying to spend as much time with Tae as possible. I'm not sure how Taeyang feels though, he might have just had fun time with her.

G-Dragon leaves the studio. We stand up and drop the trash to the nearest trash can. Boys must be waiting for us. The girl has watched the talk show with us and she looks at me as we walk past. She asks who that interesting person in the show was.
"Just somebody I know", I answer briefly.

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