Gratefulness~ pt.3

I'm throwing clothes in my suitcase. The flight has been moved ahead and I hadn't enough time to prepare and pack my stuff ready last night.
"Mineeha! Bali bali bali!" Seungri shouts commands from the hall and I rush as the last person out of the doors. Ji goes and checks the hotel room and as he comes back, he hands something to me. It's the heart medallion I got from him. I turn red immediately.
"Oh... Komawo..." My heart skips a beat. I almost forgot my most precious memory of G-Dragon in Paris. I wouldn't have gotten it back for sure.

At the airport I remember one very important thing. Ji's birthday is coming closer. He is an old man, he already turns 27 on Tuesday. I wouldn't believe it if I didn't knew. He looks so cute and young. Still, the age gap frightens me. I haven't gotten a moment to think about it properly. Eight years? It's almost like ten years! It feels funny to think about that I wasn't even born when he was already performing in front of people.
I walk slowly and leave behind purposely. I slip inside a shop and take a look around it. I have to find a gift for him! I'm holding the medallion in my hand that I have put on. It has to be something small, but fun... A cute little teddy bear catches my eye. It's white and it has black stripes and a black eye patch on. It reminds me a little bit of GD and his style. I smile by myself satisfied. I pay for it and cram it inside my handbag.

"Mineah! There you are! Did you get lost?" Daesung shouts from the gate as he sees me first. I shake my head and walk to them.
"Babo", Ji nudges me playfully and I poke his shoulder. Tae glances at us angrily and I totally get the message. It's better to behave, so that the press won't go crazy again.

"Seriously?!"
I wake up for Ji's voice. It's almost time for the sun to rise. He's holding his phone and staring at the screen with his eyes wide open.
"What is it", I mumble with sleepy voice and crawl from underneath the blanket.
"Somebody has hacked my private video again", he mutters and shows his phone to Young Bae who's sitting behind him.
"Look. I sent this only to you. Remember?"
So, it's time for me to realize too that life as a celebrity isn't dancing on roses, as we say in Finland. I have always known how much a person's life changes but still those kind of hacks feel bad. Crazy fans, or sasaengs in Korean, want to find out everthing about their idols, everything they can, no matter the method. They want to know every single move of their idols, every thought, every photo taken and every words they have said. Those crazy fans dig through every secret file to get to know everything. I mean, every thing. Why? Don't they get it that idols are just humans like every one of us? They have their own lives behind the stage. Just like Kwon Ji Yong and G-Dragon. They are two persons in one body. The fans should be able to respect the photos and stories of him that he himself has shared. Now I understand why some idols become so arrogant and forget their fans what leads to the situation where the fans start hating them and insulting the people they once admired. But the idols just want some private time. Some little time away from the spotlights. They get tired of the constant following, compulsion and insistence. They don't have enough strength to listen to the complain about a delayed album or a cancelled concert. Sometimes things just happen or, in those cases, don't. People should be able to swallow and digest those things. Fans' job is to support, cheer, love. Not to be the cause of stress or depression that the idols suffer from enough already. And sometimes you just 'flip'. You can't help it. It's humane and there's always times we get upset about something. But fans... Because of them the idols are born and because of fans they remain as idols. Yes. But the fans can also destroy and persecute their idols, even without knowing it themselves. Although a person is interesting, fans should know their own and their idols' limits. Not every thing belongs to the nation and to the world. Fans should be happy that they know someone worth admiring for. To know someone great person, is to be a fan. Few fan ever gets to know his/her idol. And that's why some of the fans try to do it by using force. I pity Ji and the other idols to be honest...

I drag the suitcase inside the airport. I'm super tired. It feels like my suitcase weighs more than it did when we left Paris. YG walks ahead of us inside a rented bus. I don't even have a chance to admire the nighttime in Seoul. I'm so sleepy my eyes close automatically.

"Hey. You. Girl", Hyun-suk shouts to my ear. I open my eyes and notice that I'm alone in the bus with him. Everyone else has left. Ji didn't say goodbye to me...
"Your dorm is here."
Another change I have to encounter. I'm going to move to a dorm and start living among the other trainees.
I walk inside the doors like a ghost. I can't even remember what the building looked like from the outside. I hear whispering from the doorway on my right as I follow YG to a room. A mattress has been placed on the floor, fortunately. I let go of my bags and fall onto the mattress dead from all the travelling. The flight took so long...
"Mineeha."
"Hmmh?"
"Two hours and you come to my office. Okay?"
"Mhm..."
With my last ounce of strength, I manage to take my phone out of the pocket and put it on charge. It's four am. I set the alarm and hide the phone well under the mattress, so that I wouldn't set the alarm off unwittingly. Because I do that way too often.

Notes

I'm back! But I still have lots of things to do. I will update this always when I've got some extra time :)
Aaaand I'm super super excited about Bigbang's comeback YAAAS! ♥ I stayed up late just to see who's next although I knew already. I can't wait for the album!

Edit. Some typos corrected.
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Teaser for chapter 17