Gratefulness~ pt.2
"Life can lead us to a happiness never ending"
Dry lips press against my neck and I open my eyes to meet the bright sunshine. I turn my head and see the man of my dreams looking at me. He looks cute when he's not completely woken up yet.
"Did you sleep well?" I whisper as my voice is cracking in the morning.
"Better than ever", he smiles and I give a laugh. It feels so good just to lay here on the bed near each other, with our skins touching.
GD moves and we both get up. I know that we should leave. I cough a couple of times to get my normal voice back. When I'm washing my teeth, I make funny noises and try to open my voice as the water is running. But I can still hear GD laughing in the livingroom.
We eat a quick breakfast and GD goes to the Big Bang's suite to change. I also put something clean and casual on and then we head to the studio which YG has rented for today. First I thought that GD would come with me as a backup but then he has to go because of some meeting. He promises to pick me up later.
I walk inside the building and find YG sitting ready behind the table. He has been waiting for me. I bow and he bows too. YG doesn't look happy seeing me and I get nervous immediately. He tells me to sit down and I do that. He crosses his arms and leans back. Coughs.
"You don't need to do the audition", YG blurts. I stare at him blankly.
"I think this was it."
"What...?!"
"You know G-Dragon had a fight with Young Bae?"
I nod embarrassed.
"Young Bae hit G-Dragon to the leg and we had to cancel five photoshoots because of that."
I gulp of nervousness. So, that's why he wanted to keep the jeans on...
"They don't want to talk to each other and it's all because of you. You are trouble."
I don't like the way this conversation is going...
YG slides a piece of paper to my side of the table. I look at him confused and open it. It says something in Korean.
"I'm gonna do something about her if you don't", YG translates the message. "Kiko sent it."
I stare at the paper silently and feel my posture collapsing.
"You have to understand that you are putting G-Dragon in danger. I think you should go back where ever you came from."
Suddenly YG has turned my world upside down. I can't react. I just stare at him. What just happened? I came here to audition but I didn't and now I have to leave the country?
"You are a good singer but you are also ruining my business. I can't take that risk", he says.
"You have a really nice voice. I don't want you to get killed by Kiko. That wouldn't be good for Korea's marketing either. Go to your home land and start your career there."
"And about Ji Yong... I think he's kissing Kiko right now", he adds to make his point clear and stands up to leave the room. The door slams and I stay staring at the table. I start to shake.
I'm not going to be anything. What about GD? What's going to happen to us? Is he really with Kiko? All the meetings... The puzzle pieces start to come together in my mind.
A female secretary knocks on the door and walks in. I look at her.
"Jamie is wating for you", she notifies and leaves.
After a while, I get up and walk out of the building. A familiar-looking limo is standing parked but this time it hasn't come here to take me to a party. Or to a concert.
Jamie gets out of the car and comes to open the door for me. I get in, with a blank face on. I can feel the tears coming.
"I'll drive you to the hotel. You have to pack your bags and then we will leave to the airport", Jamie tells me and I still can't believe what I hear. How can everything change so suddenly? I got cheated...
"I'm so sorry", he feels sorry for me and hands a napkin.
"I was really looking forward to driving you to some awesome places. To your own concerts."
After his words, I can't hold it back anymore. I burst into tears. Jamie keeps on driving because I know that he has no choice. He looks genuinely sad.
The limo stops in the side parking lot. The guard man glances at me again, this time empathetically. I pack my bag. I just throw the clothes and items on the bottom of my suitcase and shout out loud to express my feelings. Anger, sadness, hate... I empty the grape juice carton to the sink. I cry. It feels like I was pouring my life down into the drain. Ji sends me a message I'm no allowed to answer.
"Where are you? I can come to pick you up now :)"
I turn the phone off.
Jamie takes me to the airport where a private jet is waiting for me. I sit down on the leather seat and refuse to take the glass of champagne which a server is trying to hand me. Some people just dont have any discretion.
I'm watch wistfully from the window as the plane separates from the ground and leaves the Hong Kong skyscrapers behind...
"I'm coming home now, mom."
Notes
Not so happy ending...---> OUTRO
@yonnaah
Yes, they are sweet to us, no matter what and love us a lot. Some Koreans may just not really care if they date/marry foreigners, but not all of them.
Yes, I agree as well. Personnally, me being a Canadian, I will alow myself to say this: nowadays, it is very hard to find good music that DOESN'T talk about, sex, drugs, money, alcohol and more. They have probably been raised well, but because they have more free time than kpop idols, the fame and arrogance can get to their heads. I mean, look at Jusying Bieber! No offense, but he's far worse than ever and I just am ashamed of him coming from my country and displaying all his problems publicly. No offense, once more. Plus, Korean songers and groups have to dance in their performances most of the time, as in 99% of the time. They have dramas, variety and reality shows, practice, recording, radio shows, hosting, and much mkre, leaving them almost no free time at all. Back here, they almost all have free time to do what they want, they don't practice as much (or maybe they do?), most of them don't dance, most of them don't go to radio/variety/reality shows, most of them don't host, etc. I won't continue naming all the positive and negative differenc3s in between kpop idols and other idols (mostly from North America), because the list could go on forever and my fingers would fall off from so much typing. Well, we can't do anything about it, except hope for the best for american music and idols to change a little bit for the better.
2/14/15