Gratefulness~ pt.2

On Tuesday morning I send GD a text message to ask how it's going with Daesung and his mom.
"They are fine, thank God", he responds. I put the coffee maker off and decide to test the room service for the first time. I giggle for a while before I encourage myself to pick up the phone and order breakfast platter. After that I sit down in front of the window to drink morning coffee at piece. I don't usually drink coffee but in special occasions it suddenly tastes good.
A person from room service knocks on my door and I rush to open it. I greet her a friendly bow. I respect her job, even though I myself am just about to hit the music markets. People like her have worked hard for their current state. They may not even have other options. She pushes the cart inside, takes the covers off, pours the sauces in pots and does the tea ritual. Stunning aromas take over the room and I can't wait to get my hands on the delicious-looking foods.
Lastly she hands me a folded paper from her pocket.
"Youngbae-ssi asked to give you this", she says, bows and leaves the room.
Taeyang? What does he he have to say to me? I fold the paper open and read the beautiful handwriting. "Please, come to see me. Fly High Building. -Dong Young Bae" What, now? I hover. Then I eat my breakfast quickly because I think he might be waiting for me. And I wished I could have enjoyed the food in piece...

I call Jamie to pick me up and he says that he'll be very happy to come. I put on my jeans and black pullover and of course the medallion GD gave me and my watch. I curl my hair and put it on high ponytail. Then I quickly add some mascara, do my eyebrows and paint my lips with sheer lip gloss. I grab my sunglasses and handbag and slip in black over knee high heel boots and rush to the backyard past the guard man. He glances at me confused again, wondering who I really am.

"Fly High", Jamie says in front of a tall and big building.
"What is this place?" I aks before I get off. I don't even know where I am.
"It's a practice studio. For dance and workouts and other things.." Jamie answers.
"Aah. Okay."

Inside the building sweaty men and women walk past me with their towels on their shoulders. They head either to the dressing rooms or to the gym which is situated in the corner. That reminds me that I haven't exercised for a while.
Taeyang is propably not on this floor, I think to myself. I can see a sign on the wall and it reads: "Star Entrance". I look at the stairs and head to the next floor.
There's another guard man at the end of the stairs and he's staring at me strictly as he takes his black sunglasses off.
"And who are you?" he asks grimly and I get scared of his wild thick eyebrows.
"I.. Umm", I mutter and show him the paper.
"It looks real", he says and lets me pass. I take a few steps forward but then I see the millions of doors in front of me and I turn back to the guard embarrassed.
"Umm... Where --"
"23", he says.
"Thank you."
I walk along the hallway. I can hear voices from the room 18. Jin and V bash out.
"Aaaah! Airrr!" V shouts. Jimin follows them. They see me and look at me with the "I think I know you" expression. They recognize me.
"Oh! Helloo! It is Mineeha, raight?" V asks with his cute English that melts my heart. I utter a laughter and he laughs back at me akwardly. Jimin and Jin greet me with a bow and I nod.
"Yes. Hello again!" I greet them. I can see RapMon behind them, rapping 'Bulletproof' in front of the mirror wall. Suga, J-Hope and Jungkook are fooling around at the back. They have rehearsal going on.
"Amm... We have to gou. Soo, it was nice to see uu!" V tells me and I nod for one last time before they leave me and go back in.

I knock on the 23's door and Taeyang comes to open the door. I greet him and he invites me in without saying a word. He seems a bit nervous. Tae sits on the table next to the wall and drinks from his water bottle, swipes off most of the sweat on his face. I stand in the middle of the dance studio. Akward. Then he turns to me.
"Come here", he requests and sits against the mirror wall. I sit down opposite him and cross my legs.
"You wonder why I invited you", he says before I get to ask about it.
"Let me say it straight", he continues and coughs.
"Keep away from GD", Tae blurts and I back up.
"What are you saying?" I squeeze my handbag and look at him astonished.
"He's not good for you", Tae sighs. He's looking down.
"Why? Tell me the reason, why he isn't good for me!" I ask persistently. He makes a fist and I guess that he's about to do something unpredictable. But then he just looks at the ceiling and smacks his lips as he ponders.
"He is just trying to hurt Kiko."
"No", I laugh amused but then I get the point. Taeyang might be right. That's the reason why I felt funny earlier. That's why he left the club in such a pretentious way, although he normally acts shy in front of the press and he never reveals anything about his relationships. He wanted to make Kiko jealous. Ji wanted Kiko to read the news and feel hurt. I had been his little puppet all the time and he had used me. Could it really be so...
"Are you ok?" Taeyang looks at me under his blond bangs and gives his hand. I don't understand. "You deserve someone better. Someone who treats you right. I can be --"

Taeyang pulls his hand away when the door opens. I startle and see G-Dragon in the doorway. He looks at me astonished, almost eerly. Has he been listening behind the door? He seems so angry.
But then Ji asks casually: "What are you doing here?"
"I, umm..." I mutter. "I came here looking for you!" I save myself and GD understands. He smiles.
"Let's dance, bro", GD smirks at Taeyang and pulls his bestie up. I move to the side to watch their 'Good Boy' rehersal. I get to see their performance first.
It oppresses me that Taeyang couldn't finish what he was saying. But I guess he said the most important thing. As I watched G-Dragon and Tae dancing there, I couldn't believe that Ji could be that kind of person. But on the other hand, I didn't know him that well. I had only met him and all the YouTube videos I had watched didn't matter. Maybe he was someone completely different I had thought he was. A completely different person the whole world thought he was. Maybe I was wrong. I didn't know. Yet.

GD takes me back to the hotel and rushes to a meeting. On the highest floor, where the suites are located, there's a visitor waiting for me. It's the same fan who I met earlier.
This time she's standing in the middle of the hallway and looking at me angrily. I approach her slowly. He throws her hands in the air and shouts:
"I know who you are!"
I get scared of her attitude. Sasaeng, is it you?
"You are G-Dragon's girlfriend, right?" she asks bluntly and tilts her head. I stay calm. YG has told me not to answer this kind of questions.
"Excuse me", I say as I pass her but the fan grabs around my arm. I feel myself threatened and break loose. I rush to the door and take a look behind me. The girl is staring at me furiously.
"You said I would be happy when I hear about you next time. You remember?" she's breathing heavily. "Well, guess what. I am not."
I use the key card, sneak in the room and close the door after me quickly. So, this is what it feels like to date a celebrity, I think to myself and take a deep breathe.

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