Gratefulness~ pt.2

At the hotel I take a Snapchat of myself in the mirror with my shopping bag. "Little shopping..."
I can't resist, I have to go through all the social medias. Maybe someone has found me. But I got surprised because no one has tried to contact me. I have gotten a few new followers in Instagram like always, nothing has happened in Facebook and Twitter is silent as well. No one has heard about me and what's about to happen. No one of my friends are interested in kpop. So, no one knows. This also means that the media and the fans don't know me either. I sigh of relief. On the other hand, it could be fun to know how my friends would react but, at the same time, I don't want the jealous fans to find me. It's better to stay in the background.

Suddenly there's a knock on the door. Taeyang is standing behind in the hallway, looking at me scared.
"Do you know where G-Dragon is?" he asks immediately. I give him a weird look.
"You don't? Aiish!", he says and stamps the floor. I startle.
"You really haven't seen him?"
"No..." I'm confused.
"You don't know where he is?" I ask and take a look at my watch. It's 6 pm. Taeyang shakes his head and sighs. Then he nods at me as a thank and leaves for their suite. I close the door and sit down on the sofa to think.
Where can he be if no one knows? I want to find him. He can't be too far away. His car... Actually, he can be far away. I jump up and grap my jacket and handbag as I rush out of the hotel room to the elevator. On the side door there's a excessively salty guard man standing and he stops me.

"Wait there! Where do you think you are going?" he asks. I bet he enjoys the situation when he gets to use his influence. I don't have time for this, I think to myself.
"You don't know me?" I snap.
"No."
I huff frustrated and try to find a way to get past him.
"Did G-Dragon leave?" I ask, although, I know that he won't give me an answer. I roll my eyes and leave when I notice the gossp magazines on the holder.
"Aha!" I exclaim and grab a magazine which is showing me the most clearly. I take it to the guard and I nearly rub it against his face. In the picture I'm sitting at the interview with GD and Taeyang. He takes the magazine in his hands and views it from every possible angle like Sherlock himself. Finally he has to admit that I must be someone famous.
I rush to the yard and take a look around. I try to find his car but it's nowhere to be seen. I look down and sigh. Where could he have gone and why didn't he tell to the other members? Am I the reason he's gone? I start to blame myself right away. I get depressed and go back inside, past the guard.

I visit the Green-cafe/bar for the first time and sit down at the nearest, the furthest from the counter, table. I take my phone and play with it to avoid other people's looks. I can't do anything for Ji's disappearance and it makes me feel helpless. I don't have enough contacts in Asia, so I can't ask anyone about him. But, at the same time, I know that he can not have just disappeared into thin air. He's so significant and famous man that someone must have seen him.
I open the message app and slide my finger up and down the screen for a while. Then I notice the "Come here." message. I have GD's number! I get excited and startle. I take a look around embarrassed but no one is staring at me amused.

I text him: "Where are you? Tayeang came looking for you.."
I wait nervously for his answer for a couple of minutes. Then I decide to go and get a juice can from the counter. I pay for it and walk back to the table where my handbag and jacket are waiting for me. At the very moment I get a new message and I put the juice can quickly on the table and open the message.
"Were you worried?"
I utter a laughter. I'm relieved. I type the answer right away.
"Gosh! You almost gave me a heart attack... Don't disappear like that!"
I taste the juicy vitamin bomb.
"That's cute. ^.^" Our first smiley.
"Where are you!?:o"
"I was out. Come here to the backyard."
I drop the can in the trash and go back to the guard. He gives me a weird look but opens the door for me. Nothing has changed. I still can't see his car. I unlock my phone again and start writing: "Why are you teasing me? I can't see you."
But before I hit the Send-button, I start to hear a light hum and a black sport car arrives. I sigh.

G-Dragon gets out of the car and smirks. He walks around the car and opens the door for me.
"Let's go", he says.
"Why? Where?" I ask before I move anywhere.
"Just trust me", he begs waiting for me.
"Why should I trust you?" I tease him in turn. "Last time you brought me out of the party and told me to go to sleep."
Ji laughs. "Please..."
I walk to him reluctantly, glance at him and sit down on the seat. Ji slams the door closed, walks around the car and gets in.
"Couldn't you just tell me where we are going?" I beg. Ji backs the car up.
"You'll see."
"But I want to know now!" I exclaim with shrill voice and Ji laughs at me.
"You are so impatient", he smirks and turns to the right. I sigh and give up.

"But where were you?" I ask after a while. We are driving over the bridge to another island. Ji doesn't answer anything but instead he turns the music up louder. Powerful basses start to bang and vibrate. I turn the music quieter. Ji turns it louder again and I give up again. I huff and lean against the window as a loser. Ji mirks by himself and accelerates along the motorroad. The speed encloses us and leads us into the unkown. The turquose light strips glow in the darkness. The basses make the whole car vibrate. "Wicked, wicked Wonderland..." On the straight road GD takes his hands off the steering wheel and claps along the music.
When I notice it, I scream: "Are you trying to kill us!"
He grabs the steering wheel right away and utters a laughter. Ji pats my head and I sigh again. Try to find out who's under the slipper now...
It's so warm that I could fall asleep in the car. But Avicii's music, the awareness of G-Dragon's presence and of course the curiousity keeps my eyes open. We turn to a smaller road and Ji slows down. We drive along the silent street, past the dark buildings. After a while we arrive in an area where I can see a couple of shops and other small companies. We drive behind one building and Ji parks the car.
"Don't you hate it when you have to park your car always in the backyard?" I ask as we get out of the car.
"No. It's okay. I don't want you to get killed", he's joking.
"Hah!" I laugh sarcastically. "That just made me feel so safe." GD walks around the car and looks into my eyes. Chills run through my body. I'll never get used to seeing him, ever. G-Dragon.
Suddenly he hugs me gently. I freeze for a moment but then I wrap my arms around him.
"Thank you", he whispers. What for? "For coming", he answers my question and backs up, still holding my arms. I don't know what to say. I just stare at his loving expression and smile a little.

We sit at a private table behind the folding screens. It's peaceful. Ji orders us the same dishes because I don't know what I'd like to have from the Korean menu. When the waitress walks inside the screens, we act like innocent friends at a tea party but when she leaves, Ji touches my hand. He looks at me and smiles. No words are needed.
Beautiful traditional music plays in the background and candles have been placed inside the ornamental paper lanterns. Beautiful silky tablecloth and curtains look expensive and the paintings are real.

I taste the food which smells delicious. Last time I ate at lunch time, so the food tastes extra good right now. And maybe the company makes a difference too.
As we enjoy the food in silence, Ji lifts his head to ask something but then his phone starts ringing.
"Mwuh?" he answers and listens with a serious face. Then he looks suddenly worried and I start to feel ill automatically.
"Ne", he's repeating and nodding his head. He says something in Korean and hungs up.
The atmosphere has changed from tranquil to uptight. I stare at him.
"What happened?"
"Daesung had to leave to Korea."
"Oh. Wae?" I wonder and look at his anxious expression. Ji is trying to eat his food.
"Her mother is not feeling well."
I look down to show some sympathy. We are eating in silence again but this time we're not holding hands and the background music seems to flatten the atmosphere even more. When I've finished, I lean on my arm and glance at the painting next to me. It feels akward. Suddenly GD grabs the hand I'm leaning on.
"I'm sorry", he apologizes and looks ashamed. "I hope you can forgive me."
Koreans are so sensitive, I think to myself.
"Of course I can", I smile. "There is nothing to feel sorry about. Really."
Ji sighs of relief and smiles
"You make me feel so much better", he states. At the very moment the waitress comes from behind the screens and we pull our hands in our laps quickly but I think she sees it. I hope she won't tell the press.
Ji orders us desserts and tea and the waitress leaves again. Suddenly Ji kicks me underneath the table.
"Hey!" I exclaim and kick him. Ji kicks me again and I kick him. He laughs and I can't help but to smile at his adorable laughter.
"How is it in Finland?" he asks.
"How do you mean?"
"How is the weather right now?"
"Snowy, I think", I answer.
"What is your family like?" Ji keeps chatting.
"Well, I have a mother and two brothers", I tell him. "My mom is okay but my bros are so irritating."
Ji gives a laugh.
"I feel you." He doesn't even pay attention to the fact that I didn't mention my father at all.
I laugh.
"Do you see them often?"
"Yes. We all still live together and I go to high school in the same area."
"Omo! You are so young!" he laughs as he realizes the age difference. I get a little embarrassed. "I thought you were over twenty."
"Really?" I laugh akwardly and Ji grabs my hand again. "I'm.. eighteen."
"You seem so much older... But that's fine. Age is only a number."
The butterflies wake up in my stomach again. He just confessed something to me. He implied that there was something going on between us. Age didn't matter if love combined.
I get shy and I can't look at him in the eyes.
"Aww. You are so cute", he smirks and I cover my blushing cheeks. Ji moves my hands. The waitress comes in with the desserts.
"Taste it. You are gonna want to eat it every day."
And he was right.

We are walking along the dark and empty streets. We end up on a promenade. There's no people nearby because we are so far away from the settlement. Only a lonely jogger runs past us. We lean on the brick wall and stare quietly at the red sunset. The sea is waving and leafy trees sough as the salty sea breeze is blowing.
"When are you leaving?" Ji asks. I ponder for a moment.
"I'm not."
Ji looks at me surprised. "Are you gonna stay?"
"Yes", I look at him.
"Why?"
"I want to sing", I smile cheerfully and glace at the clear water and it's little waves. A few seagulls are flying above the sea. They screech.
"You are going to miss your family and friends a lot, you know?" GD is taking care of me.
"I know", I answer.
"You can't live the way you lived until this day."
"Yes."
"Do you really want to avoid public places and work over your limits?"
"You have done all the same things too, so why I couldn't do it?" I say a little annoyed. Ji is underestimating me.
"The industry has changed. New musicians have to work even harder than we when Big Bang was just a rookie group", GD tells and looks at me worried.
I hesitate but speak sharply with a serious tone: "I can do it."
He takes a look at the sea and scorns: "Okay then."

"And I will be there for you. Not all the time, but most of the time", he promises.
I smile and look at him. Ji's black hair is wavering as the wind blows over him. His read leather jacket looks so fine.
Ji glances at me and I get caught. He laughs and moves from the wall. I stare at the sea embarrassed and suddenly he wraps his arms around my tummy and leans against my back. Ji places his chin on my right shoulder and I try hard not to get scared.
"I can't wait to work with you", he says quietly and I get strong chills.
Then I slowly turn around and face his face close to mine again. Ji is looking at me gently and viewing my features. I have only one goal. I stare at his plump lips and wonder what it would feel like... Maybe like a moon flight. No, more unique. Mars flight.
His face moves closer to mine. Ji backs me up against the wall. He leans on it with his left hand and places the other hand behind my neck. I can't breathe.
Ji kisses my cheek. I'm a little disappointed but still happy. Then he smiles at me and looks at me long. Ji kisses me on the other cheek as well.
And then... We glance each other eye to eye for a while. Ji closes his eyes and I close mine. Hot breathe steams against my face. His lips touch lightly my upper lip and circle to my lower lip. He kisses me... Long and gently. So gently that it doesn't even feel like a real kiss.
It seems to last forever and ever and ever...
Ji runs his fingers through my hair and leans even more closer against me. He moves his leg between my legs that feel like over-cooked spaghetti.

And, at the very moment, our lips separate and I fall down on my butt. Just like an apple drops from the tree. I open my eyes and see GD standing above me. He's staring at the wall confused. I get amused by the situation. Then Ji sees me and knits his eyebrows.
"What are you doing?" he laughs and pulls me up. I get embarrassed and change color to firetruck-red. I just ruined the best moment of my life. How normal from me.
Ji hugs me and laughs. "Dummy."
He pulls something out of his pocket and moves his hands behind my neck. I can feel something cold on my skin. Ji takes a few steps back and smiles proudly.
"I knew it would look good on you", he says and I look down. It's a small silvery heart medallion.
"Oh my god! Thank you!" I exclaim enthusiastically and hold on the necklase. I run to hug him. Ji laughs and we spin around on the promenade for a moment. Only a small slice of the sun is still peeking behind the sea. We decide to head back to the hotel.

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