Gratefulness~ pt.2

I crawl up slowly. The sun is shining right into my eyes. Joakim's words are still on my mind but I decide to push them aside.
This time I have my lacy night dress on instead of Taeyang's clean white shirt. I place my hand on my forehead and grinch. My head is pounding after only a couple of hours of sleep and I may had had a little too much alcohol as well. I find medicin from my suitcase and I walk in the kitchen.

Dressed in Reebok's loose college trousers and in a white sweater, I find my way to the hall where I run into a magazine holder, literally. I rub my eyes and yawn, crouch to pick up the magazines. Then I see the headlines. Huge capslock-written headlines on the gossip magazines' covers. I take a look at them and there's so many of them. I'm gasping. There are pictures of me and GD holding hands on the red carpet. I'm pulling my hat and hiding my face.
"Who did he leave the party with?" reads on the English magazine. "Who is she?" "Does G-Dragon have a new girlfriend?" "What happened to Kiko!? GD holding hands with another girl!" I read the headlines. I check that no one's looking at me. I can hear tinkle from the breakfast buffet upstairs and someone is walking down the stairs. I grap one of the magazines and put it in my bag. I fix the holder. Then I walk negligently to the Market for breakfast.
Nobody recognizes me, apart from a woman who's taking a look at me once in a while from the opposite side of the room. She may also be interested in my outfit or something else, I comfort myself. No one knows. I'm really freaking out because of the headlines. Now the fans hate me. Kiko hates me. Everyone hates me...

When I'm almost finished, my phone starts vibrating on the bottom of my handbag. I quickly take the plates away and walk out of the restaurant. Sara is calling.
"Hello", I answer.
"Minea!" Sara roars on the phone and I wonder what I've done now.
"What the hell?" she's laughing out loud.
"Whut?" I wonder and my eyes get bigger.
"Are you with G-Dragon?" she shouts and I feel calmer.
"Well. Not right know. Can I take a message?" I'm amused.
"Hey, seriously!" Sara demands. "Really, what!? I read some rumours on allkpop.com's website! But they are everywhere! It says: G.Dragon spent the night with an unkown woman", she tells me, sounding confused.
I laugh at her report quietly.
"And I do recognize you from that window picture! You are wearing the same clothes you have showed in your blog!" I don't have even time to get amazed by the fact that she has been reading my blog.
"What window picture?" I startle and walk to the elevator. I push the button. We haven't been in front of any window...
"Well that... I can't explain! Look it up yourself!" Sara answers. "Seriously!" she yells and sounds like she doesn't believe her eyes.

I open the door and rush to the sofa. I put my phone down and put the speaker on. I pull the magazine out of my bag and start leafing through to find the story written about me and Ji.
There it is. The centerfold. I exhale and cover my mouth. I can't believe this. Someone has taken a picture of us on the highest floor. In the picture GD is holding me on his arms and my hat behind his back. Next to it, there's a close-up picture and anyone can see that our faces are almost touching.
"Minea? Are you there? Helloo!" I put the speaker off and lift the phone on my ear.
"Yeah." I'm still staring at the page. "WHO IS SHE?" is written all over it.
"You know what", I say with calm voice and decide to tell her something else that's new. On the magazine, there's also a picture of GD holding his hands on Kiko's waist and the picture is ripped from the middle. It reads: "Is it over for good?"

"I'm going to be a singer under YG Entertaiment." It's perfectly quiet for a moment. Sara isn't answering anything. I read the little text:

"GD left the party with an unknown girl. They were seen holding hands and G-Dragon dragged the girl with him into the car. We couldn't recognize her because she was hiding her face under a big hat." Underneath there's a picture of me entering the club. "But, fortunately, our photographers took pictures of her arriving at the party. Still, she's wearing sunglasses. We only know that she has long dark brown hair, she is slim and judging by her body structure, she isn't from Asia (but we can't be sure of that). We couldn't reach them after they left. YG doesn't want to comment on the case. Do you know, who she is? Tell us! Your tip is worth 200$!"

Sara coughs. "That was a joke, right?" she asks with a serious tone.
I utter a voice that indicates disagreement and put the magazine away. The cover picture shines like the brightest light in the darkness. I just throw the magazine on the floor.
"You are unbelievable", Sara sighs on the phone

"Come here." That's all. It doesn't say anything else in the text message. Who is it from? Where do I have to come? I decide to go wandering around headlessly. I grap my jacket with me, just in case, and drop my phone in the handbag. I step out of the suite and take a look around. At least there's no one here... I'm not going to go too far away. God knows what kind of sneak has digged up my number and now he wants to kidnap me by luring me first out of the safe area.
I head to the elevator but then I hear someone whistling behind me. I turn around quickly to get to know where the sound came from. GD! He's standing at their suite's door and waving his hand to make me come to him. I can hear rattle from inside the room.
"Hi", I greet him with a nod. He pushes me in the suite and the first thing I see is YG's frosty gaze. From eye to eye. I can't even imagine what he's going through in his mind right now. How he values me. What he thinks about the fact that the senior and rookie-to-be got caught spending a night together (even though we just talked).
"Hello", he greets me and I nod at him as well as at the other members. Taeyang and Seungri are sitting on the sofas and TOP and Daesung walk back and forth looking for their stuff.

G-Dragon leads me to his and Seungri's room and closes the door, not completely because he doesn't want others to get suspicious. He turns to me and takes my hands. My heart starts beating faster.
"I want you to come to the interview", he says in Engrish.
"What?" I startle. Do I have to go in front of the media and just let everyone see me and let them feel free to judge me?
"I want to show you to the world."
I should be glad but I'm hesitating. I think that someone as wise as G-Dragon wouldn't do this so soon. We only met two days ago!
"Are you sure?" I knit my eyebrows. He's petting my head.
Ji looks into my eyes and says softly: "Yes. I want you to come."
We get out off the room and YG gives me a quick lesson telling me how to act in front of the media. He doesn't question Ji's decision to ask me with them, not even once, although I'm waiting for it.
A real makeup artist does my makeup and curls my hair. Accessory designer picks up jewellery for me and gives me clothes, like this was a planned thing. She gives me the last bracelet and mutters something meaning that I'm ready to go.
G-Dragon is the first one at the door and he's smiling at me charmingly. I approach him, still confused. YG walks to me.
"Hyungs,we have to go now", Ji shouts and grabs the door handle, pushes it down. The boys rush to the door and we leave through the side door. Another limo is waiting for us. I have travelled so much by limo while staying here. I wonder how can I ever settle back in my normal life in Finland... But, can I even go back to Finland in a long time? Do I have to start working right away when I sign the contract?

Some of the photographers recognize me and they are pointing at me and gasping. The interview is taking place outside of some company building. The stage has been built in front of the building and the backwall is decorated with Big Bang's tour photos. There's a huge crowd of fans and the photograpres and interviewers have squeezed themselves in front. They are ready to shoot us with tricky questions.
We sit down behind the white table in the following order: Daesung, TOP and Seungri are on the right, then there's Yang Hyun Suk in the middle and on the left I sit at the end of the table with GD and Taeyang. There's no mic for me, which is soothing. Although YG told me to not to most preferably give any comments at all, it's good that I can't let anything slip out of my mouth, not even by accident.
Fans' feelings are swerving. They cheer for their idols but react to me by criticising strongly. They look at each other and whisper something bad behind my back. I feel uncomfortable... But then G-Dragon turns to me and smiles, what helps a bit. It becomes his habit and he remembers to smile me encouragingly through the whole interview.

The members introduce themselves first and the most important question is asked: how did their tour go. They tell about the time they spent together and about all the incidents that happened on the tour. The press is going to dismiss me, I think by myself, when they continue talking about the future, music and schedules. I take a look at the grim fans and the situation starts to feel bad again.
I can feel GD's hand on my knee. The table is so tall that no one notices it. I grab his hand and squeeze it. GD utters a laughter as if he laughed at Taeyang's comment but I know that he laughed at me. Ji smirks and glances at the table for a second. Then he concentrates on the members. I squeeze his hand again. I can't lay my eyes on the crowd, I'm too afraid. But I have to. I need to look confident, so, that the press won't think that I'm an easy target. But just confident, not arrogant. I respect their fans but now I'm more terrified of them. I guess that they aren't going to become my fans when I debute, I think to myself. Will anyone at all want to listen to my ugly voice?

Then it happens. The moment that I have been waiting for from the very beginning. My stomach hurts. A man dressed in a red coat stretches his mic to me and starts teasing me first.
"Did you enjoy the concert?" he asks in English. They know so much about me already. I start to shake. They know that I've been at the concert and that I don't speak Korean. They must know everything! I keep my mouth shut and nod.
"You were seen with G-Dragon yesterday. Are you close?"
"Please, no personal questions", YG tries to stop him but people start talking. It's too late.
"She doesn't have a mic", Ji tries to calm them down but then they push a bunch of long mics in front of the table near me. I gulp.
"Don't answer", I read from GD's lips. He starts to answer the questions for me. My saving angel.
"She's my good friend", he says. A good friend already?
"Who is she?" a woman shouts further away and the mics are moving up and down, pushing each other.
G-Dragon glances at me and says: "A kind-hearted person and a good singer. You are going to hear about her soon."
I get chills while listening to his gentle voice and looking at his calm expression.
"Why?" she continues.
"You will find out."
"Did you spend the night together?" an older woman from a gossip magazine raises her voice.
YG stands up calmly.
"I think this was it", he bows to the crowd and we do after him. We leave the stage as the mics and fans run around us. Safe guards lead us back to the limo.

"Ya!" a girl shouts behind the clothing rack to her friend when I lift a shirt in my hands. I like the shirt and I place it on my arm. I continue shopping. Korean girls keep gossiping the whole time I spend in the shop and they follow me from afar. I act normal. Just like the celebrities, I play it cool and take it like it was something that happened to me every day.
I pay for the clothes and leave the shop. Even though YG told me not to move outside for a while, I still wanted to enjoy Hong Kong. I wanted to get to know this place.
The smell of street food floats in the air and I walk to a small booth. I order something interesting and sit down on a bench to eat. Older people don't pay any more attention to me but some of the youngsters, especially girls, look at me long and whisper to each other's ears. One girl even tries to take a picture of me but when I glance at her, she puts her phone in her pocket quickly and looks embarrassed. I must stand out, thanks to my looks. I throw the wooden stick away and, at the very moment, two girls show up. The other one comes to me boldly and the other one stays in the background.
"Are you G-Dragon's girlfriend?" short girl with dark hair asks me with bad English. I smile at him in a friendly manner but I don't dare to answer anything.
"I think you are very pretty", she says with a smile on her face and then she rushes back to her friend. They both wave off shyly and walk away. I utter a laughter. I feel so much better now. Maybe they don't all hate me after all.

Notes

I'm so tired for staying up all night. Ugh! I will correct the typos later... Zzz...

edit 6h later: AIIIIISH, so many typos! *facepalm* sorry for them !
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Teaser for chapter 4