Gratefulness~ pt.1

After a while listening to the music, fixing my makeup and texting with Sara, the boys start to make their way out of the dressing room.
Daesung comes out first and throws his bag next to the door. He has dressed casually in light ripped jeans, grey shirt and black wool jacket and he has re-done his side part hairstyle. He smiles at me and I smile back, waiting for the others. TOP comes out in his cool white suit and after him appears Taeyang wearing his leather jeans, shirt that I gave back to him and leather jacket. He has also lots of bling bling on. Seungri walks back from the corridor and he has also had time to tidy up a bit. His style reminds me a little bit of GD: checkered leather jeans, red leather jacket, black shirt, brimmed hat and cross earrings. But is it any wonder because GD must charm many ladies, so, of course Seungri is trying to be as attractive as GD is.

Finally GD comes out, puts the lights out and glances me with a shy little smile on his face. He is wearing the jacket from GOOD BOY music video, black leather jeans, shirt and the very known black fur hat. I just adore the jacket and the hat. I get chills.
“Ya ready?” he asks looking at me. I nod and smile with my eyes.
“Good!” he exclaims and I stand up. We leave the makeup room and start walking towards the exit. I still don’t have any idea where we are going. I venture to poke Tae with my finger. He startles and smiles shyly as I am pretty close to him.
“Where are we going?” I ask and fix my watch. It’s one o’clock.
Also GD, who’s walking ahead of us, hears the question and turn his head. He answers first:
“To the hotel. You are staying near us, right?” We go on and I got to admire their masculine way of walking. I feel like I’m living my dream…
“Aah. Okay. Yes. Number 259”, I tell him.
“Yup”, GD shouts on the run and opens up the back door.

It’s very dark outside but the lights and lamps are lightening beautifully. There’s two awesome sport cars standing on the backyard, possibly rental cars. Daesung, Seungri and TOP approach the first one and the besties G-Dragon and Taeyang the other one. Daesung turns around until he sits on the seat.
“You wanna come with us or with GD and Tae?” he asks and I hover. Taeyang glances at me shyly but GD shows off his bright beautiful smile and leans on the door. I look at Daesung and apologize but I go with GD and Taeyang. I sit down in the middle of the back seat alone. The car is super fine and luxurious, well, why not if you can afford it! G-Dragon starts the engine and it purrs like a kitten.
“Ayee!” the boys shout excited and keep nodding their heads. I smile compulsively and I have to make myself look outside of the window because I can’t get the akward smile off my face.

We take a turn to a wider road and it looks quiet. Daesung turns to the same road and starts following us. GD suggest something to Tae in Korean and Tae nods to him noticeably and puts an electro music channel on. The driver pushes his foot against the accelerator pedal. GD is testing the car’s acceleration power and we are speeding widly along the black road. The lights are bustling by and I hardly manage to admire the waves as we cross the bridge fast as a rocket.
Daesung tries to keep up with us. GD slows down because there’s more traffic on the other island. Many other youngsters who are also spinning around and looking for a good party to attend. Probably many of them have come from the concert and then stayed hanging out here on the streets of Hong Kong before they are heading to the bars or hotels or maybe to their homes to sleep. G-Dragon turns to a back road and drives up the streets speeding up. We are on a motorroad where Jamie hasn’t driven me yet. The motorroad is build up dozens of meter above the ground and it’s rambling in every way. There goes many roads, some of them even on top of the others. The sides of the roads are lit with purple lights and the iron railings are the only thing protecting us. I gulp of nervousness but I still trust and believe in GD. I bet he has driven here before. I send a picture to Sara. I also take a snapchat of the dashboard to make my friends confused. I write as a caption: “The best driver ever #celebs”.

We get up on the very top and GD silence the music for a while so that he can call out to me: ”Let’s cruise a little bit!”
Then he accelerates and we rocket down in turn. GD curves tightly as the wheels are whining and snakes skillfully along the motorroad. Taeyang laughs on the passenger seat: “I love this!” I utter a laughter and close my eyes for a moment. It feels like I was in a rollercoaster, only Linnanmäki’s and Särkänniemi’s (Finnish amusement parks) are nothing compared to this. Not even close. Firstly, in an amusement park you don’t usually have world-famous rappers and dancers with you. And secondly, those rollercoasters don’t have this kind of milieus around them. All the different colours of the lights in skyscrapers and shining signs are bustling by like a million thunderbolts as we glide on the asphalt. Daesung is no longer following us, he has turned to another road. Soon GD drives the vechile on a familiar road and we head to the hotel.

At the hotel I get off the car and pull my dress down. It’s so tight that it tends to roll up when I'm sitting. Daesung, Seungri and TOP have been waiting for us in front of ‘the celebrity entrance’ for a while and now they get off the car at the same time with us. GD and Tae are laughing together for the cruising trip as we approach the others. GD says something to the boys in Korean and TOP smiles as an answer and looks down.

The hall is empty. We take the elevator and Seungri pushes the button. I notice Daesung who’s sending many text messages with his LG phone. He asks G-Dragon something. GD hesitates a while but nods then blankly. Seungri utters a laughter by himself.

Taeyang pulls off a key card from his pocket and uses it to the last door, 262 at the end of the hallway. The door opens and the boys walk inside. I step in shyly and shut the door after me.
Their suite is even more fancier and bigger than mine and it’s decorated more modern way. I see different shades od red, grey and white. A little bit of black too. Taeyang, Seungri and GD sit down on a comfortable looking sofa that’s situated at the back of the livingroom near the glass wall. Daesung goes to put on some music and TOP starts to mix drinks on the compact bar in the middle of the livingroom. Seungri smiles at me charminly and I sit down on the opposite grey sofa.
“I tried to find you but I didn’t see the paper”, he says and I realize that he’s talking about the greeting sing on the iron gate. I dig it up from my handbag and show it to him.
“You mean this?” I ask.
Seungri nods. “Aah. You wanted to take it with you”, he understands. GD has watched TOP shaking the drinks but now he turns to look at me.
“So, you are from Finland. Is it cold?” he asks, crosses his legs and leans his arms casually on the back of the sofa.
“Not really”, I answer quietly and blush.
“I heard that Santa Claus lives in Finland”, he continues. “Is it true?”
I utter a laughter and look down shyly. Then I look again at his smiling face.
“Yes.”
At the same time TOP comes to us carrying glasses and the shaker with him and he pours us all blue coctails. I nod him as a "thank you".

Taeyang goes to open the door and some of the background dancers and a tall beautiful woman in her bright pink high heels walk inside. The woman approaches GD and hughs him tightly. I can’t deny, I’m a bit jealous. I’d like to get a hugh from GD too.
However, the woman sits far away from him on a bar stool in the kitchen and starts chatting with TOP who has gone to wash the shaker. GD sighs frustrated and sits on my left side. Taeyang comes back from the bedroom, sits down on the opposite sofa and asks something. GD answers him, glances at the woman in high heels and then he looks down, bites his lower lip. Daesung changes the music and Taeyang start swaying along the song
After a while I ask:
“Who is she?” I point at the woman without no one noticing.
“Kiko Mizuhara”, Tae answers quickly and looks away to avoid the extra questions. I google the name and find out something I was already expecting... Kiko Mizuhara and GD have been dating on-off for years. And now it seems like an off-period.

I look at GD and his expression tells: no can do… He looks down and suddenly Daesung grabs my hand and drags me up.
“Let’s dance!” he’s smiling his star smile and I twirl once. I laugh and the song changes. Fantastic baby! We dance, party along the song. GD leaves to the toilet. Seungri pulls the sofas with Taeyang further away that we can have more space to dance. They and most of the dancers move to the dance floor. We are showing off dance moves in a dance battle style. Daesung pushes me in front and I show some pathetic moves. After that a dancer boy rolls on his head, so he owns me clearly. After partying thorugh a couple of songs, a slower and touchier song starts to play. A woman sings beautifully. I place my hands on Daesung’s shoulders and he wraps his arms appropriately around me. I look at the city lights over his shoulder. I lean my head gently against Daesung’s rock hard chest and wonder what my friends and family are doing right now.
I see what others are doing while turning around slowly to the beat. TOP is talking with the dancers in the kitchen and laughing. Tae and Seungri are discussing something next to the sofas. A few dancers are on the dance floor with us and one of them pops a champagne bottle open. Champagne runs on his chest as he drinks straight from the bottle. Some champagne drops on the floor forming a puddle. Everybody is having fun. Kiko Mitzuhara is still sitting on the bar stool, writing a text message. Then she looks up and takes a look around. I notice myself too that GD still hasn’t come out off the toilet. I get a little worried.

Daesung tightens up but he’s not trying anything inappropriate. I clarify myself that I’m only dancing with him because I need some warmth now and because I got upset. I got upset when I found out about Kiko and GD even though I already knew it would be impossible to even befriend with the leader of kpop itself. The music fades and fades until the song changes to something with a faster beat. I take a step back and bow to Daesung to thank him. Daesung smiles and kisses the back of my hand like the real gentlemen do. I go fill the glasses with him. I sit on the counter and hand Daesung my glass which he fills with something pink and bubbly. He adds a little yellow umbrella to it. I don’t know where he got it.
“Here’s for our special guest!” Daesung says solemnly and hands the glass to me. I thank him again. I notice that Kiko has left the kitchen and walked to the toilet’s door. She leans against it and tries to listen through. Then she knocks on the door.
“Ji?” she screams. The music is so loud that I can’t hear her but I can read the words from her lips. “Ji?” she repeats and asks something in Korean. I guess that GD doesn’t answer her and she sighs. Kiko walks in front of the sideboard, takes a look at herself in the mirror and drinks her champane glass empty with just one swallow. Then she lifts her handbag on her shoulder and leaves the hotel room without saying anything. They didn’t even say a word to each other.

“Oh. Kiko left”, Daesung has noticed the scene too. I nod and look at him wondering.
“What’s wrong with GD and Kiko?”
Daesung shrugs.
“You know. Kiko don’t want to get too close with him because she takes her career very seriously”, he starts to explain.
“But wouldn’t it be good for her to be with G-Dragon? Wouldn’t it be just good for her career and reputation?” I’m confused. The drink tastes like fresh and sweet strawberries. Daesung leans his hand close to me.
“You’d think so”, he says. “But she is afraid of all the fangirls. And that they wouldn’t have enough time for work if they started dating seriously. They are both very busy.”
“Aah, I understand." It’s kind of sad, now that I come to think about it. I realize that I wish only all the best for GD, my idol, and therefore I’m feeling sad for him. Kiko is not treating him well. The anger grows inside of me.
“But what about G-Dragon?” I ask
“He loves her”, Daesung answers quickly and leans his head on the shoulder.
“Ji is very sad because of their situation. He is very sensitive.”
I look at the door with Daesung and think about Ji. Daesung wraps his arms around me.

“Now. Dance?” he brightens up and smiles. I laugh and nod. Suddenly I hear a horrible voice and sharp pieces of glass slide under the counter to the kitchen floor. The dancer had dropped the champagne bottle and all the other people had jumped on the sofas. Only the man who dropped the bottle had frozen to one place and was too afraid to move because of the million pieces of glass around him.
“Aiiish! S.O.S!” the man shouts. Daesung facepalms and shrugs as an apologize. He takes the wipe and lifts it up to tell me that “it seems like we can’t dance after all.” I smile politely.

Notes

I feel like here's so many typos so sorry for them...
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Teaser for chapter 10