Seriously Heart?

I walked out of the hospital and into the rain. I shivered and walked up and down many different streets. I was wet and cold but I didn't want to go home. To the last place I saw Chanyeol when he actually remembered me. I wandered more until a car pulled up beside me.

"What are you doing?"

I look inside the car to see Kris, Suho, Tao, and Lay, waiting for an answer.

"Walking."

"It's raining Claire! You need to get inside before you get sick." Suho scolded.

"Sorry, mom." I joked.

"Just get in the car you fool." Tao said, "It's cold."

I shook my head and got into the backseat next to Lay.

I didn't look at them I just looked out the window to the rain. Perfect weather for my mood.

"Hey what's the sad face for?" Kris asked.

"What isn't there to be sad for? My boyfriend doesn't know who I am."

"Yeah, sorry about that."

"It's fine. I just want him to remember."

"Me too. You guys were so cute and happy."

I smiled and we were silent.

___

They dropped me off at my dorm building and I found my way to my dorm. I walked in and sighed. Today was a long day.

I showered and changed into sweats and a jacket. I sat on the couch and switched through the channels. I settled on the TV show called ‘Pinocchio’.

I almost forgot all my worries, and I squealed when it was their kiss scene. I finally fell asleep at three o’clock.

___

Someone came in my dorm to wake me up at seven o’clock.

“Claire, get up!” Abby’s voice rang in my head.

I winced in pain, “Don’t yell, it hurts my head.” I winced again when I spoke, and I coughed.

I didn’t feel well at all, my head was killing me, my voice scratched my throat, and my nose was clogged.

“I’m sorry you don’t feel well but you have missed two days of work already.” Abby scolded, “Get up off your butt, eat breakfast, and let’s go!” Abby’s voice raised every word she spoke.

I got up off the couch, my neck was sore, and my vision went black for a second. I went to the kitchen to grab a pop-tart, and changed while eating it.

We finally made it to the building and I saw Chanyeol in the lobby, I smiled at him and he smiled back. It hurt, usually I would go crazy over that smile, but now it hurt so bad. I looked to the floor and walked slowly to the elevator. My legs felt weak and I wanted to lay down, fall asleep and never wake up.

Today’s schedule was all working out. I did push-ups, crunches, wall sits, lifted weights and many other things.

After lunch, I made my way to the dance studio to learn the dance for my next song. I tried my hardest but I could feel myself getting weaker and weaker.

In the middle of the song my legs gave out and I fell to the ground panting. I couldn't breath, and everything went black.

___

I woke up in the hospital, Abby sitting beside me. “Why didn't you tell me you weren't feeling well?”

“I thought I was fine.”

“You have the flu.” Abby said, she was mad, “What in the world did you do yesterday to make you so sick?”

“I went on a walk.”

“When? It was raining all day-” she paused, “You didn’t.”

I looked at my hands, “I did.”

Abby stood up, “How could you be so stupid!? The doctor said you have to be here for two days! Not only that, you can’t sing when your voice is like this! You will get so behind!”

“I can memorize all the songs for the album and when I get back we can record it.” I said, innocently.

“Alright,” she finally calmed down. “you better never get this sick ever again. EVER!”

“I’m not planning on it. I feel terrible.”

“Good, you’ll learn your lesson not to ‘go on walks’ when it’s freaking raining!” Abby stormed out of the room.

I sighed and stared at the ceiling. ‘Am I really that stupid?’

___

I slept for hours, and when I woke I got on my phone. More hate messages,

“How could you let this happen to my Chanyeol?” so possessive.

“I thought you loved him. I guess not.” since when was it my fault.

“I honestly thought you guys were a cute couple, but not anymore, sorry.” psh 'sorry', doubt it.

‘Why did this have to happen?’

I switched through the channels on the old TV but there was only news telling about what happened to Chanyeol, and other useless information that had been playing for the past five weeks. The only way you wouldn’t have heard about the other news is if you were homebound with no internet connection at all.

I gave up finding a good show and resumed my staring contest with the ceiling from earlier. I tried to count the tiles on the ceiling multiple times, but in the end I concluded there are tiles between fifty and seventy on the ceiling.

I tried counting the ones on the ground but gave up faster than the ceiling because so much stuff was in the way.

I found a rubber band on the counter and shot it at the ceiling, making it hit me in the face several times before I lost it.

I downloaded useless games on my phone and tried to play them. Most of which made me want to smash my phone.

I started looking up quotes, for some reason I have always had a thing with quotes. I love them. A quote by Chanyeol caught my eye:

“No matter how difficult and hard something is, I will always be positive and smile like an idiot.”

I smiled at his words, another one came:

“You’re too young to be so unhappy.”

I wish that were true. Because I know for a fact that I have had happier days in my life.

___

The next day I repeated most yesterday’s activities. Crying about my life, looking at quotes, counting tiles, stuff like that. Except for today, instead of shooting a rubber band, I looked up youtube videos like I would before, when I was still a fangirl. Well, I still am at heart. Fangirl Forever!

I found the music video I did with EXO. I had yet to watch it. I clicked on it and smiled at the memories. I had to admit I looked good with all the EXO member, especially Chanyeol.

I got overwhelmed with feelings when I saw us together, I didn’t know whether to cry, laugh, or both. So I just stared. I came across a video titled ‘Claire and Chanyeol Kiss Scene’. I smirked and clicked on the video.

I watched it several times, it was a good kiss. I wanted to just go find Chanyeol and kiss him right now. But I couldn’t. I am confined to this room because of my stupidity. I feel like I’m in prison, I can just see it in the headlines all in caps, ‘CLAIRE FROM SM ARRESTED FOR HER STUPID BEHAVIOR see page 13’.

I laughed at my stupid thoughts.

“What are you laughing at?” I heard Chanyeol familiar voice.

“My stupidity.” I said without thinking. Then I sat up. “What are you doing here?”

“Just coming to see my girlfriend.” he sat in the chair beside the bed.

“You remember?”

“No. I wish though.” he looked at me.

I looked at my phone and realized it was still on the video of our kiss scene. I quickly tried to hid it but I dropped my phone on the ground.

“Here I’ll grab that for you.” Chanyeol said, leaning down to grab the fallen phone.

“Thanks.”

“Hey, watch you looking at. ‘Claire and Chanyeol Kiss Scene’ hmm should we watch it.”

“No, no, no.” I tried to snatch it from him but he was too fast. He jumped up and held the phone high above his head. I stood up on the hospital bed and tried grabbing it from him.

“Hey, I have the right to watch this.”

“Ugh fine.” I said, and jumped onto the ground. Chanyeol brought the phone down to where we could both see it and pushed play.

We watched it silently, “Was this our first kiss?”

“No we kissed for the first time the night before, when we confessed.”

“I wish I remembered.”

“I wish you remembered.”

Chanyeol suddenly grabbed me and smashed his lips on mine. I was surprised, but I quickly returned the kiss.

His arms snaked around my waist, and mine around his neck.

Chanyeol broke off the kiss.

“What was that?” I laughed awkwardly.

“I was trying to see if that would make me remember. Like in movies. Get it? ”

“Did it?”

He shook his head softly, and sighed “Nope.”

I could tell he wanted to remember so bad, but something was blocking his memory.

Notes

I am really happy about this chapter because lately I have been really stressed because of school (I had six tests) and my stress is beginning to lift and I am happy. I hope you liked this chapter as much as I did, and I hope to write more like it. :)