Kyungsoo smiles as he remembers what happened in Suho’s palace earlier, even though Jongin can’t send him home, he feels like he’s with Jongin because Soo’s O continues to ask him how is he and where he is now. Kyungsoo immediately responds to the loved one and giggles like a girl everytime Jongin curses but afterwards tells Kyungsoo that Kyungsoo should be thankful because Jongin loves him. And Kyungsoo really is thankful.

He sends Jongin his response but after a few minutes of waiting for Jongin’s reply. Kyungsoo pouts and sends Jongin another message to tell Jongin to respond to his texts. Kyungsoo checks his conversation with Jongin and it says that it is sent to Jongin, but why doesn’t Jongin respond? Kyungsoo wrinkles his eyes at his phone and at his stomach rumbling maybe because of the foods he ate earlier, thus, the bathroom.

Kyungsoo struggles to let the beasts out of his stomach and he suddenly feels like Peter Pan that he flies in the air when his stomach is done growling like a wolf. He immediately scans for his phone and gets it. He’s got a message! Thinking it is Jongin, he immediately opens it just to be loaded by our heavy world. “Kyungsoo, I’ll be coming home for Jongin.” His foster mother sent him a message. Kyungsoo is not yet ready for this, but he has to be ready. He just hopes that Jongin won’t misunderstand.

Then another text comes in Kyungsoo’s phone and his nervousness suddenly turns into his heart beating fast because of what Jongin did. The text message says, “Sorry for the late reply but you can open your gift now… please check your gift from Luhan… the one with the ice cream design.

Maeil maeil maeil neoreul chajaga geunyang dasi dorawa
Neol mannan geu huro ireoke neoreul juwireul dolgi sijakhae
Doraol sun eopgetji jeo seonjabireul dollimyeon
Jeo gutge datyeoinneun mun neomeoe deun sesangi naneun gunggeumhae
| Every single day, I look for you but I just come back
After meeting you, I started to go hang out around you
I won’t be able to come back if I turn that handle
I’m curious about the world that is past that closed door |


Kyungsoo smiles at what Jongin is doing right now, he immediately looks for Luhan’s gift, a box of handkerchiefs, to him and there he sees Jongin’s gift, “Ice cream for I for I hate you

Yah Do Kyungsoo,

That’s true Kyungsoo, I hate you even now that I love you. Let me count the reasons why I hate you.

I hate you because you are so annoying.

The first time I saw you, I thought you are an I for Idiot because of your stupid smile. I don’t know how you got that smile but really, that makes me crazy. And there you go with your stupid I for Ideas of getting me or what. You always come near me just to see me smile, as you said, and now I am wondering, why do you want to see me smile? That’s weird.

I hate you because you are so confusing

I don’t know Kyungsoo whether you are happy or sad because you always cry whenever you’re sad and you always cry whenever you’re happy. Really, Do Kyungsoo, what’s your problem in life? The first time I see you cry, I don’t know… it’s like you’re so hurt, I thought that time that you are suffering from a grave I for Illness… but when I’m getting to know you that time, the window pane thing, I thought that you really are. You are so stupid that you still smile even though the things that those students did to you were fucking shit. And there you asked me what love is… and there I became confused for who you really are. Are for A… A for Apron…”

And there Kyungsoo gets it. He immediately looks for Baekhyun’s gift for him and there he sees something on its pocket, why didn’t he notice this earlier? Maybe Kyungsoo is just stupid.

“Apron for A for Appreciate,
You once asked me with the notes if I appreciate your presence or whatever like that. And my A for Answer is Yes and No. I’m confusing, right? It’s because of you.

No, I don’t appreciate your presence because as I told you earlier, you are A for annoying.
I did everything Kyungsoo for you to become A for Angry at me so you won’t be following anymore. But you’re still following me Kyungsoo. I always put a frown on my face everytime I see you because that’s what I feel. I didn’t know why you’re so eager to be with me always. I didn’t even know why you welcomed me in your world… but because you welcomed me in your world,

Yes, I do appreciate your presence

Don’t be greedy Kyungsoo. I also appreciate everyone’s presence, not only yours because you’re not the only one who’s fucking noisy and loud in our world. A for All of you are so loud, but you know what’s so ridiculous Kyungsoo? Even though everyone is so loud, your voice is all I can hear… now I’m A for asking you, is your voice that loud? Or all I can hear os you, fucking Do Kyungsoo?

I don’t really know how I did this but think of the microphone pendant Sehun gave you and his explanation for it.”

Kyungsoo blinks at what Jongin is telling him. Microphone pendant? Of course there’s nothing in it, how can a note fit in that tiny microphone. But still, Kyungsoo checks on the microphone pendant Sehun gave him and there’s nothing in there. Kyungsoo wrinkles his eyes because he cannot read the notes from Jongin in order. He curses Jongin for that.

Muni yeollin geu sungan naega aldeon sesanggwa dareun chosi pyeolchyeojyeo
Nega tteugo jigo nega pigo jigo neoneun cheom ireoke ireoke ttasarowo
Du bari danneun got I modeun ge da neoreul kkok darmasseo
Na salgo sipeo maeil maeil igose salge haejwo haru jongil ne gyeote
| The moment the door opens, a different place from the world I knew is before me
You rise and set, you bloom and wither, you are so warm
Every place my feet touch resembles you exactly
I want to live here every single day, let me live here, all day, by your side |

Eager to know what Jongin is trying to say, he just gets the next gift from Xiumin, an Owl stuffed toy, and there he sees another note of Jongin… he reads it immediately only to be cursed, “I know you’ll do this Kyungsoo. Because I know that you are stupid…

When I tell you to think of the microphone Sehun gave you, you looked at the pendant, right? I’m right because I know you so well Kyungsoo. Fuck it, please read it once again… think think. Think…. Think of the microphone pendant Sehun gave you and his explanation for it.”

And Kyungsoo laughs when he gets it, but he won’t admit to Jongin that he looked for a note on Sehun’s gift. Let Jongin roll his eyes. And now that he realizes it, he thinks of it…

And protect Jongin just like how you protect him. Microphone and smile because you can make everyone smile with your smile and voice. Don’t lose those

And Kyungsoo finds himself smiling at the memory. He then continues to read the note and there he feels his heart beats faster.

“Owl for O for Owl

Kyungsoo you look like an owl. And it’s true, look at your eyes and you’re like you’re always scared or surprised. And your lips which are thick or plump or whatever and pink, and when you are not smiling or whatever, your lips are shaped like a beak when I’m looking at you from afar. Maybe, you’ll not recognize this but that’s what I can see is that you are an owl.

Owl is known as clever, right? Because you are Kyungsoo, you’re so fucking clever that I don’t know how you did these things to me. Everything you did to me, tell me how you did this? Everything you did to us in our world, tell me how? Everything you did to our schoolmates, how the fuck Kyungsoo? Well, I just think it’s because of your heart-shaped smile.

You have big eyes like an owl Kyungsoo. That’s why whenever those eyes bear on me, I feel like I am eaten, I feel conscious and it’s your fault. Your eyes are deep that I want to drown in your eyes. And O for observe… you can observe so well Kyungsoo. The way how you explained my each and every movement, you made me tell to myself that you’re so amazing to have that deep observation… but Kyungsoo tell me… if you observe someone… uhm,,, I don’t know, I think you observe ALL parts of their body, can I ask you if you’re a pervert? I think you are because of how you look and because of those big eyes, maybe that’s the reason why you have big eyes, right?” And Kyungsoo can only curse Jongin.

“O for Okay
Neo naege wanbyeok, sangsanghaebwasseo
Hamkkeramyeon eotteolkka
Nan neoman gwaenchandago malhaejunmyeon
Modu wanbyeokhae, oh baby
| You’re perfect to me, I imagined
How would it be if we were together?
If only you say okay
Everything is perfect, oh baby |

Okay… should I stop from throwing curses to you? No… but for now, let me make you smile. I love you because of your smile. And please don’t lose that smile because it’s the smile that I loved, whether it’s the heart-shaped one or the other. Please smile for me, your true smile Do Kyungsoo. I want to be with you, okay? Please say okay.” And Kyungsoo smiles and send Jongin a message, “Okay. <3: ” it says. Jongin smiles at the message he receives and waits for the loved one to finish those notes.

Jal silgami anna wae kkumi anin geonji
Nado mitigji anha neo saramin ge matni
Neon moreugetji ama moreul geoya
Neoreul hyanghan nae mam love, love, love

Cause you’re my earth, air, water, fire
You’re my earth, air, water, fire
Neol boneun nal boneun neol boneun na
nal boneun neo neo neol boneun na na
| It doesn’t feel real yet, why isn’t this a dream
I can’t believe it either, are you really human?
You wouldn’t know, you probably don’t know
About my feelings for you love love love

Cause you’re my earth, air, water, fire
You’re my earth, air, water, fire
Me looking at you looking at me
Me looking at you looking at me |

“O for Circled hug
I love the way you fit perfectly in my arms. Are you made for me? I hope you are.
I can’t figure out how you made me agree with that Soo’s O and Jongin’s X you fucker. But I admit, I also liked it because at least we know that it’s not just one of the normal hugs and kisses we give to everyone. It’s O for Only O for Ours. It’s only ours Kyungsoo because I’m Soo’s O and you are Jongin’s X. You are mine and I am yours, you bitch.” Kyungsoo thinks if Jongin is beside him now, he’ll surely give him a lot of XOXO hugs and kisses. But the thing is, Jongin is not here. Kyungsoo ends the note and fumbles when it says, “Useful for Chef-Wannabees.”

Look into your eyes, butter-butterflies kkeuchi eomneun sky ne nun sogeul heeomchyeo
Neomani nal bichwo I can see the future
Nega animyeon andoege
Nal dasi taeeonage mandeun neoege incredible

Na neoreul mannan geu sungan naega aldeon sesangeun sisihaejyeo beoryeosseo
Gateun goseul bogo gachu ulgo utgo neoneun cham ireoke ireoke ireoke
| Look into your eyes, butter-butterflies
The endless sky swims in your eyes
Only you can shine on me, I can see the future
You made me be born again, incredible

The moment I met you, the world I used to know became boring
Looking at the same place, crying and laughing together, you’re so like like like this |

“U for Understand
I know that you can understand me when Sehun came here Kyungsoo, that’s why you gave me my space. You gave us space Kyungsoo. I was confused that time because I never thought that Sehun will appear, it’s like all of the things came back to me. I got fooled by that Soo that I didn’t consider your feelings towards me, that you are waiting for me. I forgot that because I remembered all the things that I experienced with Sehun. I felt all the things when I was with Sehun. But Kyungsoo I want you to know…

I was abandoned by my mother and Sehun was there. He changed my sad life into a serious but happy one. There I found my happiness. He was the reason why I started to smile, again.
But he also left me Kyungsoo, even though I know now the reason why… the thing is, he still left me and I didn’t understand before. That’s why I became sad again that I cursed the world for taking the important people in my life. I was afraid Kyungsoo that it might take you away from me too. That’s why I became scared because I don’t want you to disappear in my life.

Because Kyungsoo, if Sehun brought happiness to my life when I was sad. He also brought sadness in my life, and then came you. You became the reason why I cursed. You became the reason why I rolled my eyes. You became the reason why I hated myself for agreeing to your stupid ideas in life. You became the reason why I became confused. You became the reason why I laugh my ass off starting when you were thrown away with the blankets and pillows to your bed easily and lightly. You became the reason why I smile. You are the reason why I love you. Kyungsoo…” Kyungsoo curses at how sweet and simple Jongin is. He wants to cry right now when there is a note inside the t-shirt of Suho gave him.

“T for Thank you
Thank you for being an idiot that you still followed me despite all the pain I gave you.
Thank you for appreciating me, my presence, and all of me even though I’ve been here for only 3 weeks. 3 weeks Kyungsoo, fuck you. You’ve made me feel many emotions for three weeks Kyungsoo. What magic do you have?

Thank you for making me smile, even though you don’t see it (because I don’t let you) I always smile because of you Kyungsoo.

Thank you for making me your own. I am yours Do fucking Soo. Give me a circled hug when you see me, and I’ll give you kisses.

Thank you for understanding why I was stubborn and confusing before and now.

Thank you for taking me in your world where I belong.

Thank you for saying that you love me… because that time I realized that despite the things that happened to me, my dangerous past, someone can still love me, and I’m so lucky that that someone is you. I hope you are lucky too.

Thank you for I love you.

Thank you for being Do Kyungsoo, the bitch, the one that I loved.

Thank you for everything gets in slow motion when I’m with you, too.


Thank you for I know that you will read the next note in your scarf, Chanyeol gave you.”
Kyungsoo wants to cry because of the overwhelmed feelings he has right now, but he doesn’t know why he can’t. Maybe he is so happy because he also feels what Jongin felt when he gave him those notes too. And now that he thinks of it, he knows now why Jongin loved him, or maybe he’s just assuming, but that’s our Do Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo then opens the scarf Chanyeol gave him but he doesn’t find any note in there. He looks in the other gifts but there’s nothing on it, for real. He pouts when he observes everything around him because he cannot find what he’s looking for. He looks at the scarf on his hands and scans it. He smiles and realizes what Jongin is trying to tell him, he reads on the embroidered name in the scarf, Jongin’s X. And there he finds it.

He reads the previous note Jongin gave him and he smirks at how clever Jongin is now. He smiles as he realizes what Jongin is trying to say... he then looks for the gift Chen gave him, and there he finds it, “I for I love you

I love you Do Kyungsoo

Before, I don’t know why I love you but now, I guess I know why.
Because you are Do Kyungsoo
Because you make me feel loved
Because you are a bitch
Because you zealous, passionate like what you did to get me.
Because you insist that you want to make me smile
Because you never give up on me and I know you will never
Because you’re a gift from the heavens and hell Do Kyungsoo.

Because when I met you in Tao’s album….” And the note in that gift ends but Kyungsoo know what Jongin is talking about. Kyungsoo then gets the album Tao gave him and looks for the picture of him and Jongin for the first time.

“Do Kyungsoo and Kim Jongin met. It is horrible.” its caption says and Kyungsoo can only agree because of his facial expression in the picture, it really is horrible, Kyungsoo is smiling stupidly at Jongin and Jongin is giving him a disgusted look. Oh how Jongin hate Kyungsoo that time but… note E falls from the album and it’s saying “E for Everything gets in slow motion.”

Kyungsoo smiles when he looks at the note, they’re only five words but that will go to the three words and one feeling… Everything gets in slow motion. I love you. Love. And Kyungsoo is not an idiot in these moments so he does what Jongin did before and he swears he’s going to fuck Jongin when he sees him.

“I for I love you…
I love you Do Kyungsoo
Before, I don’t know why I love you but now, I guess I know why.
Because you Are Do Kyungsoo
Because you Make me feel loved
Because you Are a bitch
Because you Zealous, passionate like what you did to get me.
Because you Insist that you want to make me smile
Because you Never give up on me and I know you will never
Because you’re a Gift from the heavens and hell Do Kyungsoo.”
I met love when I met you, thus… I LOVE YOU.”

Ije nega eomneun goseun du beon dasin an gallae
Ije neo eobsin nothing geogi chuiguneun chiwojwo
Amugeotdo ije deoneun baral geosi eomneunde
Will you stay with me?

Neomeoseon sungan dorikil su eobseo
Ani geuboda meonjeo nan geureol mami eobseo
Manyagerado nega eomeun goseun
Sangsanghal su eobseo love love love

Jal silgami anna wae kkumi anin geonji
Nado mitigji anha neo saramin ge matni
Cham daaengiji neoreul alge dwaetgo
Saranghage dwaesseo love love love
| Now I don’t ever want to go somewhere that you’re not there
Now without you, it’s nothing, take away the exit
Now I have nothing more to want
Will you stay with me?

The moment I cross the line, I can’t go back
No, actually, I don’t wanna go back
I don’t even want to imagine a world without you love love love

It doesn’t feel real yet, why isn’t this a dream?
I can’t believe it either, are you really human?
It’s such a relief that I got to know you
And love you, love love love |

But there is one thing Kyungsoo cannot understand… when he tried to mark the notes to where he found it… he wrinkles his eyes at it…
Ice cream handkerchief
Apron
Microphone
Owl stuffed toy
Useful for Chef-Wannabees
T-shirt
Scarf
Icon of Chen
Do Kyungsoo and Kim Jongin met
Everything gets in slow motion


And when he uses the notes… well, it says the same thing… he pouts…

Thank you for being an Idiot
Thank you for Appreciating me
Thank you for Making me smile
Thank you for making me your Own. I am yours Do fucking Soo.
Thank you for Understanding why I was stubborn and confusing before and now.
Thank you for Taking me in your world where I belong
Thank you for Saying that you love me
Thank you for I love you.
Thank you for being Do Kyungsoo, the bitch, the one that I loved.
Thank you for Everything gets in slow motion when I’m with you, too.

Kyungsoo pouts because there is no way for Jongin to be outside because it is raining. And Jongin hates the rain too and Kyungsoo doesn’t want to think that Kim fucking In is outside because he’ll surely kill himself!!!

Kyungsoo runs out of his room and opens the door outside and fuck it! “Kim fucking In what are you doing here!!!” He shouts and the Byuns look at him. They see Jongin soaked under the rain. Kyungsoo immediately pulls Jongin inside his room and he locks it.

He kisses Jongin harshly that Jongin’s head bumps on the door, he winces but Kyungsoo scolds him, “Why the hell are you here Jongin?!” Kyungsoo is still shouting. Jongin curses because he’s not deaf for Kyungsoo to shout at him like that. And with all of the cheesiness he wrote in those notes, this is what he gets? What the fuck?

Jongin pouts and goes to Kyungsoo’s bed to settle himself in his room. Kyungsoo stomps to Jongin and shouts at him again but Jongin suddenly pulls him and lays him on the bed. Jongin locks Kyungsoo by straddling on his stomach and holding both of Kyungsoo’s wrists. Kyungsoo blinks at Jongin and shouts, “Yah! You’re soaked! Get off me and take a shower first!” Jongin realizes it and he snorts at Kyungsoo as he gets off of him and takes a five minute shower.

After showering he immediately runs after Kyungsoo who is about to go out of their room. Jongin lifts Kyungsoo up and throws him on the bed. Jongin laughs because Kyungsoo is really light as a bird. Kyungsoo laughs at it too and lets himself be in the same position earlier.

Jongin then fumbles on his pockets and when he finds it. He smiles at Kyungsoo, Kyungsoo pouts at what Jongin is going to do and Jongin kisses him. Jongin then sits Kyungsoo on his bed and earns his self up. He looks around Kyungsoo room and sees what he’s looking for. He reaches for it and slides on Kyungsoo’s finger. Kyungsoo pouts at the memory; Jongin holds the same ring like what happened before. Jongin then kisses the star-shaped ring JeHee gave Kyungsoo.

Jongin feels nervous right now but he knows that this is Kyungsoo so he doesn’t have to. He sighs to get courage and he looks at Kyungsoo’s owl eyes. “Kyungsoo, I hope this star-shaped ring will be forever appreciated by you but I want you to have this forever… and Jongin then reveals the thing on his hands. Kyungsoo’s eyes water in tears when Jongin slides the ring O on his finger. “I…” And Jongin smiles as the ring fits perfectly on Kyungsoo’s finger, he appreciates the ring and finger first and says, “Love.” And Jongin looks at Kyungsoo with loving eyes, “You.” Jongin smiles at Kyungsoo who’s crying in joy. And Jongin feels overwhelmed once again because Kyungsoo cries in joy again.

Jongin envelopes Kyungsoo in a hug. “O for a circled hug.” Jongin whispers on Kyungsoo’s ear and Kyungsoo whispers on Jongin’s ear too, “X for kissessss.” And there Kyungsoo starts, he kisses Jongin’s ear first that gives Jongin shivers all through his body that he writhes in Kyungsoo’s lips’ touch. Kyungsoo feels it that he wants Jongin to feel him more, Kyungsoo kisses Jongin’s jaw and traces his jawline with his lips. Jongin lifts his head in pleasure.

And down from Jongin’s chin, this is Kyungsoo’s favorite, he goes up to touch Jongin’s lips with his which Jongin returns immediately. They give each other kisses and touches until Kyungsoo lays his body on Jongin’s muscled one. Kyungsoo continues kissing Jongin on every part of his face as he straddles on Jongin’s stomach.

Kyungsoo nibbles Jongin’s lower lip that makes Jongin hitch in his breath and there, our naughty Kyungsoo, slides his tongue in Jongin’s mouth. Kyungsoo loves the taste of Jongin’s mouth as Jongin moves his tongue in sync with him. He explores Jongin’s mouth more especially when Jongin is letting him.

Kyungsoo instantly writhes when he feels Jongin’s fingertips trails touches from his bended legs to his thighs. He loves the feeling that he doesn’t care if Jongin can feel his needs. Jongin then touches Kyungsoo back until Kyungsoo is the one to toss his shirt to the ground, he does the same to Jongin and he starts to touch Jongin’s body by his lips.

Jongin never felt this good in his entire life. he lets Kyungsoo explore his body by his tongue. But Kyungsoo stops when he holds his hand, Kyungsoo is breathless but he gives a smack on Jongin’s lips first before sliding a ring on Jongin’s finger. “Soo’s X.” Kyungsoo says as Jongin looks at the ring on his finger, it has an X on it. He looks at Kyungsoo and smiles at how they know each other’s needs, especially when Kyungsoo goes down aligned with his throbbing member and pleasures him by giving him what he wants. But to their needs, Jongin is still the one who ends the night with an O for a circled hug and Kyungsoo seals it with an X for a kiss.

Notes

Okay, There they did it again… OmO, it’s just because of their love for each other okay? ahahah, and as I told you chapters ago, I kennot… I kennot write a full love making scene. And yes… Kyungsoo gave Jongin a blowjob. OmO!! I die…

I really cannot,,,, waaah!! I’m crazy, even that B thing… I cannot say it properly or write or whatever… please bear with my cliffhangerness… ahahah, cliffhangerness, is that even a word? Well, nevermind that, but because I’m a little bit young for writing those scenes so let’s settle with these only, okay? Or maybe I can’t see myself as not yet allowed to write so intense scenes, okay? Maybe when I’m older and older ahaha, let’s wait for yearsss. Ahah.

So! Tell me about this chapter? It’s 4k+ word chapter, how’d you find it? Tell me about your feels ‘kay?

Let’s see the next chapter… uhuhu, I don’t know but the pacing will be so fast. Maybe I’ll just tell you some changes in the next chapter so you’d understand…

Thank you for reading this! and sorry for the errors in this chapter!! And ask me some questions about this fic or whatever questions you want to ask. Okay? I’d gladly respond to all of your comments! Thank you again!
Bye!

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