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EXO Planet

What is Love?

Jongin can't believe his eyes. He doesn't believe this... he breathes heavily at the months and years passed by without him knowing what happened to the guy in front of him now. Sehun looks at Jongin with the same eyes, he opens his mouth to say something but fuck it, no voice escapes his lips.

Chanyeol smiles at Sehun and he drapes an arm over his shoulder, "Right! I have to introduce you to my friends..." Sehun then draws his attention to Chanyeol but he still feels the presence of Jongin, he looks at the one to whom Chanyeol is pointing to, "This is Baekhyunnie. He's my boyfriend." And that makes Baekhyun flush. Because everytime Chanyeol introduces him as his boyfriend, he feels elated.

Baekhyun waves at Sehun and smiles sweetly, Sehun smiles a little to Baekhyun and then turns at the short guy beside him who stands up to introduce himself, "Oh I'm Do Kyungsoo.
Nice to meet you Oh Sehun." Kyungsoo extends an arm to shake hands with Sehun but Sehun just bows at him when he rejects the hand. Kyungsoo blinks at that action of Sehun and thinks that that is rude... or maybe, because Jongin did almost the same when he tried to shake hands with him, Jongin just shoved his hand away and threw his hot pack away.

Kyungsoo looks at Jongin and thinks twice if he will still introduce Jongin to Sehun, but looking around, Baekhyun and Chanyeol are looking at him with expectant eyes that he'll be the one to introduce Sehun to Jongin. He rubs his eyebrow because it feels fucking awkward, "Uhm, Sehun, this is Jongin and Jongin, this is Sehun."

And Kyungsoo knows that he just makes the gravest mistake ever. When he looks at Jongin, Jongin has his eyes asking him why the hell Kyungsoo did that. He knows Jongin's story yet this is what he'll get? An introduction to the man who broke his world for years? An introduction to the man who just disappeared to somewhere? Jongin shakes his head to Kyungsoo and Kyungsoo can just bite his lips and bow in apology. But it is too late, Jongin runs away, again.

Baekhyun and Chanyeol blink at Jongin and Kyungsoo. Because what the hell is happening? Tell us something. Is there something to be awkward about? Then Chanyeol remembers what Sehun told him before when they first met, about the guy he loved and left. But Sehun didn't name the guy before so Chanyeol didn't know. And now that he realizes what is going on, he gasps and that makes Baekhyun look at him with still confused eyes. Chanyeol looks at Sehun and pats his shoulder. "I'm sorry." he mumbles and Sehun can do nothing but to stare.

Chanyeol looks at Baekhyun with his eyes telling him that he'll tell Baekhyun everything later. And Baekhyun instantly understands it so he nods.

Sehun knows that the short guy Kyungsoo knows what happened to him and Jongin. And he must call Kyungsoo an idiot because he's not considering the past between them. He looks at Kyungsoo with judging eyes and just turns to Chanyeol to leave the guy. "Let's go." he says.

Chanyeol looks at Kyungsoo with guilty eyes and Kyungsoo says that it's fine because Chanyeol doesn't know that he knows what is going on. Then Kyungsoo decides, he has to run after Jongin.

He goes outside and starts to search for Jongin. He looks around for Jongin and when he finds him, he tries his best not to hurt his foot because it just healed that week. Jongin leans his arms on the tree that is planted beside the playground of the orphanage and curses at why the hell destiny still made him meet Sehun in this place where Kyungsoo is. And that makes him more complicated.

Then he is touched by the familiar hand which touched his life in an unknown way. He looks at the guy and his eyes looks at those eyes like he regrets that he still told Kyungsoo everything. He didn't consider Jongin's and Sehun's feelings when he did that. Jongin tells Kyungsoo by the eyes.

Kyungsoo can do nothing but to bow and apologize for that reason. "He might have been hurt. Just like me." Jongin tells him. And Kyungsoo can do nothing but to agree with Jongin because Sehun must be hurt too just as Jongin. Because as he looks at Sehun's eyes when he met Jongin's, Kyungsoo knows that Sehun doesn't mean to leave Jongin that time. Well, he is not too sure for that because only Sehun, or maybe Chanyeol, knows.

"But Jongin. I think you must talk to him to know everything." Kyungsoo tells Jongin. Jongin looks at Kyungsoo and he shakes his head as he says, "It's not that easy Kyungsoo. I'm in pain, Kyungsoo. Now that I see him, everything goes back."

"But it will never be the same again Jongin." Kyungsoo says which makes Jongin look at him in the eyes, "Something may change and it's just in you two to decide what it is going to be." Kyungsoo assures Jongin like he has experienced it before.

But Jongin still says no, "I don't want to know Kyungsoo. I'm afraid that he became afraid at me that time. I cannot accept that." Jongin still shakes his head. And Jongin doesn't know why he says this, but he thinks Kyungsoo should know this so he will stop meddling with somebody's life, "And don't act like you've experienced this Kyungsoo. You haven't so just... shut up. Or you'll make everything more complicated." Jongin says.

Kyungsoo clenches his jaw and forbids himself to say something. He bites his lips and accepts that Jongin may still have feelings for Sehun, he accepts the rejection. Yet, he has to tell Jongin about the promise, "Jongin, I hav--"

"Just leave me for now Kyungsoo." Jongin shoves Kyungsoo's hand away from his shoulder. He turns his back to Kyungsoo and bows his head for everything form the past goes back to him now. And he can't help but to be hurt all over again.

Kyungsoo insists to tell it to Jongin but Jongin shuts him up, "Just please, leave me for now Kyungsoo." And Kyungsoo doesn't know why with only those two arguments, he leaves Jongin by himself. He has broken his promise to Jongin now... but Jongin asks for it.

Kyungsoo goes back to the café and restaurant just to be met by Sehun who is going out of the place. When Sehun sees him, Sehun doesn't know why he raises his eyebrow to the shorter man as he asks him, "Where did Jongin go?"

Kyungsoo looks at Sehun and examines the boy. He is confused at the look of Sehun to him because it makes him uncomfortable, or is it just because Jongin can't forget Sehun. "H-he's there under the tree." Kyungsoo doesn't know why he stutters. Maybe because Sehun resembles Jongin. Fuck it.

Sehun then goes to where Jongin is and Kyungsoo turns his back to the two. He goes back to the café and restaurant immediately and he dares not to look at the ex-lovers who are talking outside by the window.

And now that Baekhyun knows what is going on, he looks for Kyungsoo because he knows that it is hard for Kyungsoo right now. When Baekhyun sees Kyungsoo, he holds his bestfriend's hand and asks him if he's alright. Kyungsoo smiles a little but it barely arrived to Baekhyun.

Baekhyun caresses his hands like he is massaging it and just tells Kyungsoo, "Don't worry Soo." Baekhyun assures him which makes Kyungsoo cheer up. "Hwaiting! Don't give up!"
Kyungsoo nods and becomes more determined now that a rival has come into place. He has held Jongin in his arms, and so is Sehun that is probably sweeter than Jongin, so it should be easier for him.

Sehun goes to where Jongin is and slowly takes his way closer to the loved one. He touches Jongin's shoulder, Jongin looks like it's too hard for him right now, "Kyungsoo, I said leave me for now." Jongin almost shouts and when he turns to the one, he freezes while Sehun is hurt that Jongin thinks that he is that Kyungsoo guy. Jongin bites his lips and mumbles an apology.

Then Sehun tells Jongin what he's here for, "Jongin, can we talk?" Sehun asks Jongin first. Jongin rolls his eyes and tells Sehun stubbornly, "We're talking." Sehun smiles because it is so Jongin. And he hopes that Jongin is still the same because he himself is the same as always.
He still loves Jongin the same way he did before, and he hopes that Jongin feels the same way towards him.

"I'm really surprised that I see you here Jongin." Sehun looks at Jongin and Jongin doesn't know why he looks at Sehun. Sehun smiles at Jongin like the old times that's why Jongin remembers how he met Sehun under a tree too, "And I'm happy.." Sehun smiles and laughs at himself and Jongin doesn't know why he smiles at that too. Because he's supposed to be mad at Sehun right? But why does he feel the same way before?

"I know I'm not in the position to ask this but I'm really curious, how are you?" Sehun asks and looks at Jongin.

Jongin looks at nowhere and asks Sehun instead, "How am I when you left me?" Jongin smirks at the fucking question and Sehun is eaten by guilt. He speaks up to explain everything to Jongin but Jongin cuts him, "I am nothing when you left me." Jongin looks at him with daggers in his eyes and Sehun is shot.

Sehun feels a lump in his throat and forbids himself to cry because Jongin is the one who has the right to cry right now. "But you're here again... why?" Jongin asks Sehun, he doesn't know why he cannot curse Sehun, why he cannot blame Sehun of what happened to him since then.

"I don't know either..." Sehun really is not sure why he's here where Jongin is. He looks at the ground to take in Jongin's curses. Jongin runs his hand to his hair and laughs sarcastically.

"Aish, why are you here with me Sehun, tell me the truth." Jongin looks at Sehun to know the answer... and he tells himself to laugh at Sehun's answer but Sehun's answer makes it more complicated, "I want to be with you." Sehun looks at Jongin with those same loved eyes.

And Jongin can't help to fall inlove again with the same man, but there's some voice that his ears can hear that pulls him away, "Hwaiting!! You can do it Kyungsoo!! Wooo!! Yah!! Ahhhh!!" he hears and with that scream, he knows that Kyungsoo slips into something. He looks by the window and sees Chanyeol laughing like there's no tomorrow with his eyes twitching and repeatedly slapping his knee.

He wants to know what the commotion is about so he cuts what Sehun is going to say and drags the younger one into the café and restaurant. They go in the place and everyone is still laughing at the cake-smudged Kyungsoo pouting and laughing while still on the ground.

Sehun circles his eyes at Kyungsoo because what happened to him is embarrassing.
Everyone is laughing at him yet that Kyungsoo is laughing too. He looks at Jongin and Jongin doesn't know why he smiles at Sehun truthfully and says, "Welcome to my world." And Jongin drags him more in the commotion.

Jongin goes in the middle too and crosses his arms across his chest, "Yah, get up you clumsy kid. Your foot still hurts right?" he knows that Kyungsoo's foot is a little sore and he knows that Kyungsoo ran to him earlier.

Kyungsoo looks at Jongin and relieved that he's here. He smiles when he sees Jongin and stands up happily. He looks at Chanyeol who is still laughing his ass off, he stands in front of Chanyeol causing him to stop from his derpness. And suddenly, he wipes some cake on Chanyeol's face that surprises him. Chanyeol gets a cake from the ground and wipes it onto Kyungsoo. Kyungsoo laughs and starts to chase Baekhyun who is running away from him and shouting curses because he doesn't want to be smudged with cake.

Everyone laughs and joins the game while Sehun runs away from the crowd and doesn't want to be dirtied. He drags Jongin but to his surprise, Jongin's feet are glued on the ground. He looks at Jongin and almost scolds him, "Let's get out of here Jongin!"

Jongin shakes his head and says it is okay and it would be fun that surprises Sehun. Jongin is suddenly smudged on his back by Kyungsoo and he first glares at Kyungsoo. But then Kyungsoo puts icing on both of Jongin's cheeks and Jongin is a little surprised but he knows this will happen no matter what. Jongin then gets a cake from the counter and throws the plate to Kyungsoo's face. The cake splatters to Kyungsoo's face and Jongin laughs wholeheartedly which makes everyone smile. This is the first time they hear Jongin's laugh and they don't know why they feel overwhelmed.

Sehun looks at his shirt and there's some icing of a cake. He looks at Kyungsoo disgustingly but Kyungsoo looks at him and smiles playfully. Sehun shakes his head because he doesn't like what Kyungsoo is thinking. But Kyungsoo as a bitch, he still wipes the icing on Sehun. Sehun opens his mouth in surprise, "What the hell?! Did you just fuck me with that icing on your hand?!"

Kyungsoo doesn't like Sehun's tone, and he swears that Sehun doesn't like him also, "No, I kissed you. I'm really sweet, can you taste it?" And Kyungsoo puts the icing on Sehun's cheek which Sehun instantly shoves his hand away.

He almost curses Kyungsoo but Jongin suddenly throws a plate of cake on his face too and he laughs at him too. Sehun blinks at Jongin, oh no... this is not Jongin. Sehun shakes his head. Kyungsoo wipes icing on his shirt again but he sharply shoves Kyungsoo's hand away, "What is this?" and he suddenly gets out of the place with Jongin and Kyungsoo staring at his back.
Kyungsoo is about to look at Jongin but he is startled that Jongin runs after Sehun. He looks at Jongin and he suddenly feels weird. Kyungsoo says that it's weird because he doesn't have the right to be jealous. Kyungsoo looks at the ground and searches through his pocket. When he finds it, he wears it. I guess you're the only one I have right now. And he smiles at the star-shaped ring.

He turns his back just to see Suho looking at him. Suho goes to him and pats his shoulder. He doesn't know what to say because he doesn't know what Jongin is thinking or feeling. No one knows except Jongin himself. Kyungsoo smiles at Suho to tell him that it's okay but to Kyungsoo's surprise, Suho hits his smile and says, "Yah, why are you smiling when you're not happy." Suho pouts at Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo shakes his head to deny it. "I'm happy, really." he smiles again. Then Suho nods happily and that makes Kyungsoo think of what he's going to say.

"Yeah, because you have us. We're here for you Kyungsoo. Better remember that. This is our world." Suho says and Kyungsoo feels better. He looks at the star-shaped ring JeHee gave him and smiles; I guess we're not the only one who'll be for each other. We have this world. And now he knows why he hugs Suho and gives him a thank you for introducing him to his world.

Suho then goes to where the customers are and apologizes at them for the mess, but they eventually just smile and tell him that it is fun. And that makes Suho smile more. He looks around and sees Chen staring at him, his heart instantly thumps louder than usual.

Chen then moves towards him when Xiumin suddenly cuts the moment. Chen instantly halts and shits his body to do something on the table, but still, he has his attention on Suho and the fucking bun.

Suho instantly greets Xiumin with a smile and why. Xiumin then sheepishly holds Suho's arm to at least excuse him for a second or minute. Suho doesn't know what Xiumin's problem is but he's grateful that he's being dragged by him. Xiumin is being open to the member of their world now. And that's better.

"Uhm, can I ask you something?" Xiumin finds the back of his neck just to rub it.

"You didn't give me a choice there, Sunshine. Yeah, go." Suho chuckles at the cuteness of his new member.

"Will I trust him?" Xiumin suddenly asks and Suho blinks at what Xiumin said. Who is 'him?' he looks at Xiumin who is glancing at everyone because others might be curious to what they are talking about now.

But eventually, Suho sees it through Xiumin and he smiles and pats Xiumin's shoulder, "Why not?" he shrugs.

Xiumin pouts his lips and Suho gives thanks to the heavens that they gave him this cute little baozi in the world, "He was a bully." Xiumin gulps at his sudden confession.

Suho raises an eyebrow, not really knowing what Xiumin' point is, "Then?" he cannot see anything wrong in liking Lay.

Xiumin stutters, afraid that someone might hear him, "I-I don't really know what to think of him. I don't know if I can t-trust him because--"

"He WAS a bully." Suho continues what Xiumin is saying and emphasizes the word. Xiumin looks at Suho and says, "Uh, yes?"

Suho scratches the side of his neck and assures Xiumin, "Was Xiumin, was. And look at him right now, where is he? Is he bullying students or customers or bitches here?" Suho points his middle finger to Lay and Xiumin shoves it away, someone might see.

Xiumin shakes his head, but still, he tells his fear, "But what if it is just for a bet? He also bullied Kyungsoo before, and Kyungsoo cried that time." And Suho can tell that Xiumin is scared of being hurt.

Suho raises his eyebrow if that bet is really true, "Then who loses? You're amazing and different... in a good way." Suho points out and gives Xiumin a pat on his shoulder. "Don't afraid to be hurt, that's life." Suho nods and assures Xiumin and Xiumin can do nothing but to nod.

They both settle themselves with the other members and start cleaning the mess they made. Suho looks at Kyungsoo, and really, Kyungsoo is still looking outside. And suddenly, he feels shivers running through his body when he hears a hushed voice coming from Chen. "The last time I checked, you were flirting with Lay."

Suho instantly glares at Chen for calling him a flirt, "I am not flirting with anybody, even YOU. What the hell Chen, what spirit told you that?!" Suho hisses at him.

"Will I call my heart a spirit? Or is it just love's natural way that I am really really jealous?" Chen says which makes Suho's heart die. Suho can see in Chen's feature the desperation or whatever but still, knowing that Chen is jealous, Suho wants to die.

Chen eventually walks away from Suho after that. He feels his throat dry as he realizes what he has done, Did I just say love? fuck it!! Chen eventually moves on from that mental breakdown and he now serves a newcomer in this place. He can tell that they are new in here because they keep on asking Chen what is a good food to eat. Chen would like to roll his eyes and tell them that everything in the menu is food and they can really eat them all. They are all good too, or maybe, Chen is not picky.

He asks them what they are ordering when he is answered by a question, "Hey, is Baekhyun Chanyeol's boyfriend?" And Chen looks at the, probably, student. He is about to say yes when Baekhyun interrupts them.

"Really you. Don't make up stories, Chanyeol's not my boyfriend. We're just workers here in this café and restaurant." Baekhyun smiles his sweetest to the family of his student and he ends up getting their orders.

Chen looks at Chanyeol and sees him hurting inside. Baekhyun bows at the family of his student and goes to the counter to give Lay, who is in the counter now, the orders. Baekhyun's throat is dry, because he knows that Chanyeol heard what he said. He bites his lips and rests his hands on the counter. He sighs heavily.

Chen then pats his shoulder and tells Baekhyun what he saw, "That's not nice Baek..." Then Baekhyun looks at Chen saying by his eyes, there's nothing I can do. And Chen can only roll his eyes.

~~~

"Sehun!" Jongin chases Sehun who runs to nowhere. Sehun doesn't stop running away but Jongin is faster that he catches up to Sehun, he holds Sehun's wrist to stop him from running away anymore. "Why did you run?"

"Jongin who are you?" Sehun suddenly asks which makes Jongin blink and ask himself too.
Sehun runs a hand to his hair in confusion, "You're not the Jongin that I know." Sehun shakes his head and then he laughs at himself. "But fuck it, why does my heart still say I love you?" Sehun confesses for the nth time.

Jongin looks at Sehun and doesn't know what to say. Will he say I love you too to Sehun? But who is Kyungsoo in his life? Jongin doesn't know. Is everything the same? Obviously, it's a no. then Sehun holds Jongin's hands like he'll never let go again, "Jongin, do you still love me?"

Jongin looks at Sehun with unknown eyes and Sehun can read them, thus, it hurts him. And the first guy who flashes right in Sehun's eyes is the Do Kyungsoo who messed up with him with cakes "Is it because of that guy?" Sehun is still holding Jongin's hands expecting that he'll still choose him over Kyungsoo.

Jongin bows his head because he doesn't know. He shakes his head but he thinks it's wrong, "No... I don't know." Is what Jongin can only say in times like this? Sehun sniffs and bites his lips as he lets go of Jongin's hands. Jongin feels empty that time.

"Well then... but I'm telling you Jongin, I'll be taking back what is mine." Sehun sounds like he warns both Kyungsoo and Jongin. Jongin can do nothing but to breathe that time. But he does wish not to breathe if he'll only hurt the feelings of the people who are important to him.

And Sehun takes his leave after kissing Jongin on the cheek like they used to. Jongin is taken aback at what Sehun did that he feels that it's all coming back to him now. Will he take Sehun in his life again? He caresses the kiss that is still lingering in his insides but he doesn't know that there is someone who is cursing that kiss that is still lingering in Kyungsoo's hell. Does Kyungsoo have a chance to be in Jongin's life?

Jongin goes back to the café and restaurant and he is met by Kyungsoo glaring at him. He looks at Kyungsoo like he used to and Kyungsoo doesn't know why he feels relieved knowing that Jongin is the Jongin he knows, not the Jongin Sehun knows. He smiles at Jongin which makes Jongin call him, "Weird." Jongin rolls his eyes to Kyungsoo who pretends that he's flying in could nine as he goes his way to the bathroom to wash his shirt because he's so sweet.

Thinking of the word sweet, Kyungsoo flies back to Jongin who is fixing the things in his bag. Jongin feels the presence of the fucker but he ignores it. Not until Kyungsoo gives him a bunch of hearteu hearteu kisses which he doesn't felt a long time until now.

Kyungsoo looks at Jongin who is cursing him from giving those hearteu hearteu kisses again. He smiles because he knows that Jongin is shy because everyone sees them. "What the fuck Kyungsoo, you can't do that in front of these people." Jongin curses him.

But because Kyungsoo is a bitch, he gives Jongin another batch of hearteu hearteu kisses which makes Jongin shove him away sharply but gently. Then he lifts Jongin's face to him and he places his palm on Jongin's lips and kisses it quickly. Kyungsoo kisses his palm quickly that makes Jongin freeze in place.

Kyungsoo bites his lips first before giving Jongin a smile, "I wish I can kiss those lips of yours soon." He states before running into the room to wash his body. Jongin stares at Kyungsoo body slowly running to the room. He feels his heart beats faster than earlier and realizes that everything gets in slow motion again.

I lost my mind, neoreul cheoeummannasseulttae
Neo hanappaego modeungeoseun get in slow motion
Naege malhaejwo ige sarangiramyeon
Maeilgeudaewa sumanheun gamjeongdeureul nanwojugo baewogamyeo
Ssaugo ulgo anajugo
Naege malhaejwo ige sarangiramyeon

| I lost my mind, the moment I saw you

Everything except you gets in slow motion
Tell me, if this is love
Sharing and learning countless emotions everyday with you
Fighting, crying, and hugging
Tell me, if this is love |

Jongin thinks of it... if he didn't know what love is back then... what is Sehun? Why didn't he experience slow motion thing? Fighting with each other; cursing each other; hurting each other; throwing the other one to the bed with the blankets and pillows like he is so light like one of them? Why didn't he experience hating the other one first before realizing that he's important to him? Or is Sehun too perfect for him to experience those things first before loving him? Or is Kyungsoo too annoying and magical that he experienced all of those in just two weeks? Jongin always doesn't know.

Notes

I guess I should stop right now with those statements. Urgh, I really don't know how to write the things that will happen in the next chapters. Yes, I have a plan for the next chapters but I don't know now how to write it. huhuhu. Help me please please please. I want to make this fic better.
Tell me about your feels okay? Comments? Suggestions? Violent reactions bitches? Urgh, sorry... thank you for reading this chapter!! And as always, sorry for the errors you find in this fic.

OMO, just four more chapters and we'll really welcome who Kyungsoo's best friend is... Luhan or Kris? Let me know your guesses. :3 thank you! And I'll be revealing who is Kyungsoo's lost best friend in the next chapter.

OMO OMO, I almost forgot hahaha, this is a 4k+ word chapter. That's all, ahha! Thank you!

--- silver

Comments

OMG have never been this into a fanfic, I cried, laughed, smile, sad, I felt everything in this story. Thank u so much author for writing this wonderful story.. please Update soon

Dami tyler Dami tyler
9/11/15

Omg this is such a sad chapter! Update Soon!

Omg this is so good! I knew Kyungsoo's adoptive mother was Kai's mother! Update Soon!!!

YESSSSS!!! I CANT WAIT FOR YOUR UPDATE!!! I'LL BE WAITING THOUGH!!!

wu_lii wu_lii
4/12/15

Thank you for updating, author nim :)

eunhyeshi eunhyeshi
3/17/15