My Heart is For....

Yongguk POV
I was composing a new song. When I look at the piano, I start to remember that girl. “Aish stop thinking of her” I said while try to wrote a lyric. I can’t do anything her image keep came out from my brain. I mess up my hair, “Aish... Her smile” I spoke to myself. I meet Daehyun few days ago, we went to dinner together. “So how your girl?” he said to me. “We broke up already” I answer him while drinking. “Ahh… That why” he mumble, “What?” I asked him, “Nothing. Hyung, what do you think?” he show me a necklace. “Beautiful… It’s for your girl?” I asked him. He smiled and rubs his neck “Actually I want to confess my feeling on her birthday, next week” he blushed, look like he really like her. “Her name is Hyun” he told me a bit about that girl. “She look so rough outside but when she got closed to you she was the most caring person she bit fragile sometime like to cry a lot” he keep tells me. “Why is he telling me all of this?”I asked myself and I put down my glass “The girl that always with you?” I asked him. “Yeah that one, you guys bump to each other before this. The day that you cry” he smile while look at me. “I’m not crying” I start to avoid it. “Hyung” he pat my shoulder “Don’t worry there is so many girl out there, just forget her” he said to me while smiling. “How about introducing me to your Hyun” I tease him. “Ahh Hyung… No, that not necessaries! Andwae! She mine” he said to me and start to flustered. I just laugh “Just kidding Daehyun-ah” I laugh and he looks at me “Ah Hyung” he drink up. “Aish that girl” I said to myself. I stand and start to walked a bit. I can’t think anything accept her, “There is something about her” I said to myself. I walked near the window and look outside, so clear day today. Suddenly I saw that girl walk passed by the garden “That Hyun” I just watch her from the inside. She sit on the bench beside the flower garden, she was resting while listen to her mp3. She release her long hair as the wind blow her hair start to flow gently, she closed her eyes and smile. “What is she listening to?” I asked myself. “She look so calm” I feel like I want to join her, suddenly I saw Daehyun walked toward her. I feel so jealous, to see both of them. He pinched her face and she start to get mad. I saw another guy came, it was Kiseop he start to run over them and pushed Daehyun. I open the window a bit I could hear Daehyun yelled at Kiseop “Ya! You want to die Princess” the both fighting “Gummy bear! How dare you pinch my lovely Hyun cheek!” he said while holding her face. Daehyun grab Kiseop shirt and look like they going to fight. “Aish those stupid” I said to myself “Better ignore it” I said to myself and start to turn away. I heard she yelled “Enough both of you!” I look back at the window, their face look so shock. She pulled their ears, I start to laugh “She is crazy” I giggles. Both of them start to mumble “Ahh that hurt, Hyun-ah mianhae” I heard Daehyun said. “I should get some popcorn and watch this drama” I start to laugh by myself. Suddenly someone came inside the room. Quickly I closed the window and pulled the curtain. Start to pretend nothing happen there, it was Himchan. “What are you looking at?” he said while walking to me. “Nothing” I hold the curtain. “What someone make love at the garden again?” he smirked and start to pulled the curtain. I try to stop him be he was too fast “Aish nobody there” he sound so disappointed. I think they have left, I just smiled. “Are you smoking some weed? I heard you laugh from outside” he said to me. I glared at him “What weed?” he laugh and pat my shoulder “Just kidding. Ya, let drink some soju tonight? Let ride my new car” Himchan said to me while raise up his eyebrow. “Mian I can’t, tonight I got some event” I answer him “Aish too bad” he smile “Hey don’t drink tonight since you drive” I warn him. “Come on I’m not 6 years old kid anymore” he rolled his eyes. Since he can drive, he always drove like crazy person I’m bit worried. “Ya! I’m serious be careful” I glared at him “Yeah Omma” he smile at me and makes some face. “Aish you” I said to him, he just laugh.

Hyun POV
Both of them can’t even meet each other. I start to walked away from them, I went to the toilet. After that I made a decision to walk home alone again today. I was packing my bag when I turn around I saw Kiseop. “Found you” he smirked. I got shocked “Aish don’t stand like that. You make me scared” I said to him while holding my chest. He walked near to me “What do you want?” I covered my mouth afraid if he tried to kiss me again. “Let’s go home” he said to me and grabs my waist. I start to blush “Aish let me go sunbae” I said to him and push him a bit. Suddenly Daehyun came, “Ya let go of her” he yelled, quickly he take my hand from Kiseop. I feel so pissed of “Both of you enough! Can you become friend?” I yelled. “We are friend once, a long time ago” Kiseop said while staring at Daehyun. “So why don’t you become friend again?” I asked them. They look at each other “Friend with him? No way” they both say at the same time. Aish I just want to see them be good to each other. “Stay away from me, I will go home by myself today” I said and start to walked away. I heard Daehyun said to Kiseop “This is your fault” they followed behind me “Ya it’s your fault to” Kiseop whispered. They still argue, I bite my lips and look back. They both pretend to look other way. “Until both of you became friend, don’t you ever think to talk with me” I said to them. Kiseop start to hug Daehyun “We are friend, right Daehyun?” he said while gripping Daehyun head “Yeah friend forever” Daehyun and try to grip Kiseop back. They both start to argue again, they look like a child. “Hyun let me walk you home, it dangerous to walk alone it almost night” Kiseop said to me. “No let me” Daehyun said while pulling Kiseop. “Ok let’s do rock paper scissors, the winner will walk her home” Kiseop said to Daheyun. “Bring it on Princess!” Daehyun smirked. I just look at them while my hand on my hips “They do act like a little kid” I said to myself and shook my head. They didn’t fight seriously, I know they want to be friend again I can see their face, it just because of their stupid ego things “Ok I’m leaving” I start to run and they chased me. I take another way; I try to hide from them. I hide beside the convenience shop; there a lot of box there, I look at my watch “Aish already night time, I better get home quickly” I said to myself. I didn’t see them anymore and then I start to walked out slowly. Suddenly I bump with a guy, “Mianhae ajushi… I didn’t saw you” I start to bow. That man grab my hand, he look different. “Ajushi that hurt” I said to him he didn’t replied me he just stared at me. I start to get scared “Daehyun-ah, save me”.

Daehyun POV
“This is your fault Princess” I said to Kiseop, we both lost her. “Aish stop it, let find her” Kiseop said to me with his serious face “I heard there some girl get hurt by a psycho at this area, I’m afraid something will happen to her” Kiseop telling me. I’m shocked a bit “Why you didn’t tell me earlier? Let find her” I said to Kiseop “You go that way and I will go this way” He said to me, I just nodded. I try to find her behind the building, I didn’t see her. I turn back “Wait I didn’t search at the convenience shop yet” I walked back and try to search for her behind the convenience shop, I saw her. I start to smiled “There you are” I said to her but she look so scared. I saw a man in front of her, he was grabbing her hand. Slowly I walked to her, “Hyun-ah” I called for her. “Daehyun-ah” she look at me with her crying face. Suddenly that man yelled, “Don’t come any closer” he said to me. I try to get to Hyun, “Ajushi, please let go of her” I said slowly I’m afraid if I yelled he will do something at her. “Get away!” he start to scream and bring out a knife. Hyun start to cry “Daehyun-ah….” she was calling for me. I must do something “Hyun-ah I will save you I promise” I said to her, she nodded. “Ajushi let her go, I will not hurt you” I said to that man, he stare at me. “Don’t move or I kill her” he put the knife at her throat. “No… No… Don’t do that!” I yelled, aish where is Kiseop at time like this? “If I could attract him other way” I start to think. I try to get near them. “Don’t move!!” that man yelled. Hyun bite that man hand and he start to scream. She start to run over me, “Bitch I will kill you” that man yelled. She run toward me and hug me, while we tried to get away that man chase us and try to stab her. I saw he is coming for her, I pushed her away. It just happens so fast, “Shit” I said to myself. I look at my stomach its start to bleed. He pushed the knife deep inside my stomach and pulled it out. “I must protect Hyun” I hold that man hand and try to stop him. He stab me once again, I punch his face with all my strength. He fell down on the ground; I start to walked slowly to her “Hyun I’m here”, she looks so scared. That man try to get up again, he start to scream. Suddenly, I heard someone scream for my name, it was Kiseop, he kick that man down. I’m glad he was here, before I could reach her, my body and my legs start to get weak. I start to fall down and kneel in front of Hyun.

Hyun POV
Daehyun pushed me away, I fell down “Ouch” I rubbed my back. I look at Daehyun “No, tell me this is not real” that man stab Daehyun in front of my eyes. I’m so speechless, his stomach starts to bleed. That man stabs him again, I was freeze there and he try to walked towards me. My hand shake, suddenly Kiseop yelled “Daehyun!” while kicked the knife from that man hand. He beat that man to death. I saw two police car came, they run toward that man and Kiseop. “We found that psycho on this area, he got weapon” the cop make a report. Daehyun start to fall down, he kneel in front of me. I catch him, he bleeding too much. I press my hand on his wound, I try to stop his blood from coming out. “No, this is not real. Daehyun-ah can you hear me?” I yelled and touch his face. “You will be ok Daehyun stay with me ok?” my tears start to fall. “We need to take him to the hospital” Kiseop said to me he picked Daehyun up. One of the cop came to me “Get into the car quickly, I will bring him to the hospital” we start to get in the car. Kiseop have to go to the police station, he lay down Daehyun head on my lap. “I will meet you at the hospital” Kiseop say to me and closed the door. I just nodded and keep looking at Daehyun face. I heard the policeman called someone “We got injured citizen here, bad condition be prepared. I will be arrived soon.” he called the hospital. I ripped my cloth and push it to his wound to stop the blood. He screams a bit “Mian Daehyun-ah” I hold his hand tight, “Daehyun-ah we will get there in any minutes hold on ok?” I try to calm myself. He look at me “Stop cry Hyun-ah you look ugly” he cough and smiled. I don’t know whether I want to cry or smiled right now “Yaa! Stop talking, we will be there any minutes and then we will have a long conversation” I start to cry again. He smiled at me “I’m glad you are save Hyun-ah” he touched my face with his hand that full of blood, I take his hand and kissed it. “You have to be safe too, promise me ok?” I said to him “Sorry for make you face dirty” he said while wipe his blood from my face “Shut up, you just make it worst” I said to him and keep hold his hand, I don’t want to lose him. “How long sir?” I start to freak out, “Almost there” the policeman replied. Daehyun closed his eyes. “Jung Daehyun! Don’t leave me! Wake up!” I yelled at his face “Aish, don’t yelled I still can hear you” he said to me while closing his eyes back “I’m just resting” he smile “This is not funny!” I said to him, I keep press on his wound. He put his finger on my lips “You are too loud” he said to me and smile. His face turn pale, I can’t stop crying. I look at the window “We almost there Daehyun-ah” I feel bit happy. He touch my face “Hyun-ah, come closer” he said to me weakly. I just followed what he said, he whispered to me “I Love you so much” I opened up wide my eyes. He said he love me? I feel so happy. He kissed my lips and closed his eyes. “Yaa if you want to confess do it properly. Give me a ring or whatever. Promise me! Daehyun-ah!” I said to him while holding his face. “I promise…” he said weakly, I saw tears fall down from his eyes. We already arrived, he just stay silence, “No… No… Daehyun-ah” my voice starts to shake. “Daehyun-ah! Wake up!” I yelled. We were at the emergency lane, so many nurse waiting in front of the door. They were ready to take him out, as soon as the car stop they take him out from the car, they start to run and bring him to the operation room. I start followed them, his face became pale “Daehyun, you just pretend right? Wake up Daehyun-ah. Don’t leave me, you have promise me right? You have to keep your promise! I will wait for you” I start to lose my mind. “Sorry miss you have to wait outside” the doctor said to me. I take the doctor hand “Please save him, please he is important to me” I said to him “We will do our best” he just smiled. I sit on the floor, space out and start to cry again. “This is my fault! All my fault!” I beat my own chest. “You tell me that you love me, you can’t just leave me like this because I love you too Daehyun-ah” I said to myself. “Please God don’t take him away from me” I start to pray.

Kiseop POV
If I arrived earlier that time, if I’m the one that found Hyun first, if I followed Daehyun instead go to others way. Daehyun must be safe and not get stab by that psycho. I look at my hands, Daehyun’s blood is all over my cloth “Daehyun-ah I’m coming. Stay strong” I stalked to myself. “Thanks to the worker of the convenience shop he called us at the right time” the policeman said to me “Thanks to you to young man, you were so brave” he shake hand with me “I hope you friend will be find” the inspector said to me “Thanks for your concern sir, I hope he will be fine” I said to the inspector. After give the report to the police, I take a cab and quickly went to the hospital, “Daehyun stay alive or Hyun will get crazy” I start to pray. She must be crying right now, she must think all of this was her fault. I clinch my fist “Stupid Kiseop! If you fast a bit back there” I feel so angry with myself. Even Daehyun is annoying but he was a good friend of mine. He taught me to fight. We were so closed in elementary school. We fight because of small misunderstood. Well we just a kid. Since that we keep argue and fight. After that he moved out, since that I never meet him until now, the truth is I’m glad to meet him right now. “Daehyun-ah, I will come right now. Hang on” I said in myself. After a few minute I’m arrived at the hospital after pay the fare I start to run inside. I’m searching for Hyun, I walked bit and then I saw her sitting at some corner with her eyes closed while crying, look like she was praying. Her eyes start to swelling, she just sit near of the emergency entrance. To see her like this it broke my heart a part. Slowly I walked to her; I’m standing in front of her. She still didn’t notice me. Until I called her name “Hyun-ah” I said to her. She opened her eyes and look at me with her empty face. “Kiseop?” she gets up and hugs me tight. “Daehyun he... He…” she stuttered and cried again. “Calm down, he will be ok” I said to her gently while rubbing her back “This all my fault, if I don’t run away like that he wouldn’t get hurt…” I pulled her and put her face in my chest, “Shh… Everything will be ok. They will do their best let just pray for him ok?” I said to her. She still sobbing like a kid, she rubs her eyes. I look at her, she act like a little kid. I wipe her tears, “Don’t cry no more” I smile at her, it’s hard to see her like this. “Let wash your hand” I pulled her softly to the sink and wash the blood away. Her hand still shaken, I take her hand and make her sit on the chair. She still crying, I take her head and put it on my shoulder. I hold her small hand, she just let me. I take a glance at her, she must like Daehyun so much. Well the way she cried I already can tell it. Suddenly after a few hours the doctor came out from the operation room “Done?” I said to myself, she run to the doctor. “How is my Daehyun? What happen?” she start to asked so many question. I walked behind her. The doctor sigh “Miss, I’m truly sorry, he didn’t make it. He loosing too much blood, we have do our best to save him” he doctor said. I was shocked “Take my blood I have same blood as him” she still not give up. “I’m so sorry Miss…” suddenly a nurse ran. I hold Hyun to make her calm and I heard their conversation “Doctor we have situation. Another emergency, car crashed he got bad heart condition. You have to hurry” the nursed handed over some document to the doctor. “I’m sorry I have to go” the doctor walk away. I looked at her, “No… This is not true! Kiseop he just lie to me right?” she grab my coat tight “Daehyun-ah you have promise me. You such a liar!” she starts to lose her mind. I hug her “Hyun-ah calm down” I said to her, she start to get weak and fall down. She fainted. I grab her “Hyun-ah, are you ok?” I look at her face, her tears keep flow down.”Hyun-ah! Wake up!” I shake her body. She must be so shocked and lost her energy. I picked her up, I hold her in my arm “Someone help me!” I said while walked to the counter. “What happen?” the nurse ask me “She just fainted” I said to her. “Bring her here” she show me the way to the room “Hyun-ah” I mumble. I turn my head “Daehyun” I said to myself while looking at the emergency room. “This is not a joke right?” I said to myself.

Yongguk POV
I was resting in the room, after the event. “AIsh what happen? I feel not so good right now? Is something bad happen?” I asked myself while resting on the chair, I look down. Someone pushed my head “Yo…” he put the cold coffee on my back. I look at him he was my brother, Yongnam. “Ahh hyung that cold” I mumble. “What are you thinking?” he asked me and sit beside me. “Nothing I just not feel so good. Like something bad happen” I said to him. “Aish what are you saying? Are you seeing a ghost or what?” he giggles and tease me.”Aish what ghost” I opened up the coffee and drink it. “Yaa this is the best, hyung gomawo” I smile at him. “Yaa where is Himchan?” he asked me, “Ahhh he went out to test his new car, he ask me to come but since we got event here” I said to Yongnam “Ahh new car? He knows how to drive? I thought he just know how to reverse the car! Hahah” Yongnam start to laugh. “Remember the last time he drove the car? He almost hit the divider. It makes me scared you know” he said again “Yeah I remember. Stupid Himchan but I think he was better right now” we both start to laugh. I still not feel so good tonight, what wrong with me? “Hyung lets go home” I pat Yongnam shoulder. “Yeah let’s go!” he start to get up. My phone ringing “Hello?” it was from Siwoo, Himchan’s friends. “Hey Yongguk, Himchan got into car accident you know it?” he asked me. I stood freeze, “What?” I widened up my eyes. “Where? When?” I asked. “He was now at the hospital, they said he was in bad condition, I thought you already know. I was on my way to the hospital are you coming?” he said to me. “I’m coming, see you there” I hung up and look at Yongnam “Hyung!” I blinked my eyes still didn’t believe it. “What? Why?” he look at me “Himchan got into an accident he was at the hospital right now” I said to him “What?! We just talked about him. It is bad?” he asked me. “Siwoo said that he is bad condition” I said to him “So what are you waiting for let hurry to the hospital” Yongnam start to grab his jacket and pushed me. “Aish that guy I already warn him to be careful” I said to myself, we rush to the hospital. “This is why I feel so worried about?” I hold my chest.

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