~I Can't Love Him~

***Monday***

~Your POV~
You shot up from your bed, because you bought a new alarm clock. Apparently, this one works very well. Making you always get a small heart attack before getting ready. You slammed the alarm clock so it could shut (the fuck) up. You ran to your bathroom and took a quick shower. You came out and put on something casual (as always).

You never had time to buy clothes, because of the stupid accident few weeks ago and then you don't have money because you need to pay for your house crap. So today (like always) you wore something casual, but still had style.

You ran downstairs to meet Luhan and Xiumin waiting downstairs eating with your appa. Guess the past few weeks Luhan kind a got to know your appa more. You even told him about the guy Daniel, and what happened to your appa that made him like that.

"Oh, annyeong Bora." Luhan sang out happily.

"Annyeong." You chuckled and sat next to them at the kitchen table.

"You should probably eat quickly, we have to leave soon." Xiumin said after swallowing his food.

"Araseyo." You quickly took a big bite of the delicious food.

"Ya, why haven't you bought your uniform!? You know you'll get yelled at for not wearing your uniform." Luhan glared at you with a mouth full.

"Ya, I can't understand you because your damn mouth is full." You chuckled. Luhan just pouts and keeps on eating without saying anything back.

"Bobo, bballiwa. I want to have another movie night." Your appa said happily.

"Araseyo." You finished your last bite and grabbed your keys and your phone. "Annyeong appa." After all the worries about Daniel not coming back anymore, you became all happy.

You walked to school linking arms with Luhan and Xiumin. However when you guys were about to reached, you pulled back your arms and walked away from them. Leaving them dumbfounded.

"Ya, gachigaja!" Luhan yelled from behind you. However you just ignored him and kept walking.

"Hey, what's wrong with you!?" Xiumin also yelled. You just kept walking until you glanced over your shoulder to see Luhan and Xiumin walking closer to you. So then you started picking up your pace. You were almost at the school, until they were just behind you.

You pushed open the door because you were going to run. You hated being around them now at school because girls kept bothering you. And your the type of girl who loves to be by themselves. Except for Bomi. She was always around you, so you kind a got used to her. Just that other girls who bully you. Like a fucking huge ass girl group would bully you.

You opened the door and heard someone grunt in pain. You peeked over and saw Mark olding his forehead. You couldn't help but laugh it out. Xiumin and Luhan both saw and laughed, while helping out Mark.

"Ya, gwaenchana?" Xiumin said while laughing.

"Psh. I'm fine hyung." Mark throws Xiumin hands off of him and walk away grumpy.

"Mianhae." You said with a chuckle. You cleared your voice and started walking to your class. Until someone took out their foot, that you didn't see. And you tripped, good thing you caught yourself, before you made out with the fucking floor. You quickly stood up and looked to see the one and only bitch that everyone hates, Gyuri and her little group. Sad part is that she's a group too. Called Kara.

"Ugh, what do you want?" You rolled your eyes already annoyed.

"Did I saw I wanted something from you? Um, no I didn't" She scoffed.

"That's good. Because there would have been nothing to give you." You smirked and let for your classroom, leaving Gyuri pissed off.

"Oh, noona!" BamBam waved at you. You just wave back and sit next to him.

"Hey!~" Jr. winked at you.

"Ok, jr. You have a girlfriend. So calm down." You glared at him and chuckled.

"For some reason whenever I see you, you really remind me of her." Jr. narrowed his eyes at you.

"Jeongmallo. Psh, that's a lie. Me and Bomi don't even look a like." You raised an eyebrow.

"Araseyo." Jr. just turns away. Class started and this time you've been listening to the teacher. Like you don't even ignore her anymore.

"Noona, what does that mean?" BamBam looked at you confused. Stuck on a math problem.

"Oh that. It's easy." You chuckled. You quickly helped BamBam and he quickly understood.

After all your first classes ended, it was your off hour. You decided to go sit in the library studying for the up coming tests. Many tests been coming because of the exams. So you had to study hard in order to get into a college you always dream of. Which was in like California.

Your english was perfect, and you were really smart even though if sometimes you didn't listen to the teacher.

You quickly sat in the corner of the library full of books. One book and another. Until someone shut your book. You quickly look up to make eye contact with Chanyeol.

"Ugh, what do you want?" You narrowed your eyes at him. He just sits down with Sehun and Kai. This time BamBam was in the practice room. Because they were going to debut. Exo already debuted and had their showcase. Of course you went because they couldn't stop bothering you, mostly Xiumin.

"Nothing, just wanted to bother you." Chanyeol smiled wide.

"Mwuh? I need to study guys. No more bothering, mostly you Kai." You glared at him. He just smiles like whatever you said he didn't hear anything.

"Gwaenchana. But anyways we're going to hold a showcase in China too." Sehun leaned closer to you as you open your textbook again.

"Jeongmallo? Congrats then." You smiled at them. However they were frowning. "Wae?" You looked at them confused.

"You don't sound so happy for us. Or is it because you don't want us to leave you." Chanyeol teased you.

"Mwuh? I'm super duper happy for you guys though. Super happy that words can't even explain." You chuckled as they all brighten up more.

"But I'm going to miss teasing you." Kai pouted (cutely).

"Awe, jeodohyo." You smiled. He just smiles back.

"So..." Sehun moved closer to you. You just look at him confused.

"So...what?" You go back to focusing on your work.

"Wanna come?" Sehun said out the blue even though you have no idea what he was talking about.

"Where?" You looked at him confused.

"We want to celebrate a goodbye party. Just family and friends, well mostly family." Chanyeol leaned in closer to you.

"Oh really, have fun then." You faked a smile and continue working.

"So you don't wanna come and celebrate?" You looked at Kai who looked very sad.

"Araseyo, I'll go." You were defeated by Kai's cuteness.

"Aigoo, I always win." Kai pinched your cheeks.

"Merong~" You stick out your tongue at him. And he does the same.

After chatting with the dorks class started again, and your next class sucked kind a. Because you had to make a choreography for a random song and you had to do it with a partner. You guys were assigned partners. And you didn't get partner up with exo. Instead you were almost partner up with Gyuri until Mr. Kang changed it.

You got partner up with Mark. Which sucked, because after being partners with Mark. Gyuri always kept bothering you. Like she keeps saying because of you, she can't be with Mark. Which was the stupidest thing ever. Because Mark and Gyuri aren't even dating anymore. And that Mark doesn't even have feelings for her anymore.

Sometimes you would like to tease her by being too close to Mark. However it would always make your heart beat faster and faster when you did it. Sometimes you can even feel Mark's heart beat. Which was really weird. At some points you face would be too close to his, like your noses would kiss.

You quickly changed into your comfortable dancing clothes. You came out and went straight to where exo was sitting. You always hated sitting with Got7, even though some days you would sit with them but it was because of the tension between you and Gyuri. And there's Mark who always be mean to you for some reason.

"Oh, not sitting with Got7 again." Baekhyun teased you. Now and then exo would tease you because of Mark. They would always see you two together and getting too close.

"Ani, because then the stupid staring contest with that bitchy girl would start. And you guys would always tease me." You glared at them. They all just chuckle.

"Araseyo, calm down Bora." Kris pushed you playfully.

"Ok, everyone knows what to do right!? Let's get to it!" Mr. Kang yelled. You stood up with the help of Lay. You quickly searched for Mark, and there he was. Standing like always just talking with everyone else.

You quickly walked over to him.

"Oh, noona. How come you always sit with exo hyungs?" Yugyeom asked you (super curious).

"Because it's fun sitting with them." You just fake smile.

"Well, we better go. Have fun.~" Jackson said with a tease in his voice. Even Got7 would tease you.

"It's not going to be fun." You scowled.

"Let's just get started." Mark scoffed. You just roll your eyes. Finally you grabbed out your phone and put on the song you were dancing too. You slowly took a step closer to Mark. Your heart beating fast, like it was going to explode.

Usually the song you both picked, had different types of tempos. First it starts slow then fast. It changes a lot.

Both of you and Mark moved to the beat. You slowly looked up and made eye contact with Mark. Right at that moment it felt like it was only you and Mark in the practice room. Then the song started getting faster, at those times, its where Mark would do some flips and you would do flips also. However because you guys didn't have room to do the flips. You both just remember.

Finally it was the end of class and you and Mark was sweating like hell. Because it was only your guy's song that goes super fast. It was like at a fun tempo, where it speeds up and slows down so you can get to breathe.

"Whoa, you guys are getting better and better." Mr. Kang smiled at us. You and Mark just both bow.

"Bora, let's go." Chen wrapped his arm around your shoulders.

"Araseyo." You smiled and was going to leave until Mark grabbed your wrist.

"We still have to try the other parts." Mark said with a attitude.

"Jeongmallo?" Your jaw dropped.

"Oh, then I guess we will leave. Annyeong noona." Chen walked out with the rest of exo.

"Annyeong, better buy me something to eat Baozi oppa!" You screamed out. He just puts up his hand and waves.

"Well, we're going to get going also." Got7 walked out the room after saying hwaiting. Now it was just you and Mark in the practice room.

"Well, come on. I need to try the flips." Mark scowled. You just scoff quietly to yourself. Mark quickly puts on the music. You both moved with the beat. There was not one mistake. Finally it was to the part of the flips. First Mark did a cart wheel, then a front flip, and then a back flip.

It was you turn now, with the help of Mark. Mark grabbed you waist which made you startled a bit. You quickly did a back flip and landed. Then you did a cart wheel with a one hand cart wheel in the middle. Finishing it off with a front flip.

***End of School***

You and Mark were still practicing. The project was going to be a really big grade. It started getting darker and darker as well.

"Let's call it a day." You said while plotting down onto the floor sweating like hell.

"Yeah." Mark said as he tries to catch his breathe. You glanced over to him and your heart started beating faster. For some reason you couldn't take your eyes off of him. He looked fucking hot right there, leaning against the wall. Breathing heavy, sweating like hell. Like for some reason, he looked so attracted right there.

You watched as a sweat came running his cheek to his neck. You opened your mouth slightly staring at his amazing jaw line.

"Is something on my face?" You snapped back into reality. You cleared your throat.

"Ani. There's nothing." You looked away.

'What the fuck Bora. What the fuck is happening to you right now!'

You then saw Mark crawling towards you, since the both of you were on the floor. You just swallow your saliva that was let in your mouth. You then felt his breathe on your cheek. You were frozen from just feeling that.

"Do I look attracting?" You could see him smirk at the corner of your eyes. You just push him away.

"Ya! What the fuck is wrong with you? Attracting?" You scoffed.

'Holy shit, what the fuck is wrong with him!? What the fuck is wrong with me!? But he did look so attracting at that moment.'

You stood up and cleaned off the dust on your pants. He was just laughing.

"What are you laughing at?" You furrowed your eyebrows.

"Ya, I saw how you looked at me. You're starting to like me. And hey I am pretty attracting." Mark got up and leaned against the wall.

"Ha, attracting my ass. Probably you look attracting to other girls. But to me, there's nothing attracting." You smirked. You then saw him glaring at you. He got off the wall and slowly started approaching you.

One step closer to you and one step you took back.

"What...what are...you...you doing?" Your eyes widen a bit. Mark just smirks and walks closer to you. Finally you were pinned against the wall, pinned between his arms. That was supporting his body. He leaned closer. And both of you guys made eye contact. Your heart racing like crazy.

Silence filled the air, the only thing that you could hear was your heart beat and his heart beat. Your eyes widen more as he leaned closer to you.

"Mar...Mark?" You stuttered. You felt like it was only just the two of you. You started getting lost in his dark chocolate eyes. Your heart started calming down.

You watch as Mark's face closer. The tips of your noses touched. You can feel his breathe on your lips. Which was making your lips tremble. He slowly tilt his head and leaned closer. His eyes closed slowly. Every thing was like in slow motion.

You felt his soft lips on yours. Your eyes widen quickly. However then you closed your eyes also and kissed him back. He was a little startled to you kissing him back. But he didn't stop. Your lips moving the same as his. The kiss became more passionate more deep.

You felt arms wrap around your waist. Your arms automatically draped over his shoulders, around his neck. You pulling him closer to you. Both of your chest touching. You felt fireworks. The kiss was just too amazing, or just too perfect. Tasting his lips.

However the moment got ruined when your phone rang. The kissing stopped, you quickly pushed Mark away thinking what just happened. You quickly moved away from Mark and ran to your bag. You pulled out your phone to see Xiumin calling you. You cleared your throat before answering, because you were still shocked of what just happened. not that long ago.

"Yeoboseyo?" You said in a soft voice.

"Ya, gwaenchana? Why is your voice so quiet?" Your grip on your phone tighten.

"Gwaenchana, just really tired. I'm coming home right now, so don't worry." You said quickly.

"Araseyo, bballiwa." You nod your head even though Xiumin couldn't see it. You hung up and grabbed all your things. You stood up and saw Mark grabbing his things.

"Um, I got to go." You looked away because you didn't want to make eye contact with him.

"Mm, I have to leave also." Mark walked out and you followed. You kept taking glances at him, well the back of him. You heart beating faster, just thinking of the kiss again.

"Is something wrong? I can feel your intense stare behind me." Your eyes widen. You saw him stop and look at you.

"Ani." You walked past him while hiding your face.

'Your so smart Bora. Why was I looking at him so intense. His back did look familiar. However I can't figure out who he is. But oh dang that kiss. It felt so magical, so fucking perfect. Wait, Bora you can't fall for him. Andwae! Andwae! ANDWAE!'

You and Mark were walking together in silence. It was getting really awkward too. Finally you reached your house.

"See ya." You speed walk over to your front door while Mark goes his direction. You let out a sigh and open the door. You were blushing hard, and your lips were still a little swollen from the kiss.

'Man Mark is such a good kisser. His lips tasted so good. Wait what the fuck is wrong with me!? Ok I have to admit that I did like it.'

Right when you opened the door, someone was standing there.

"Oh, your home now." Xiumin smiled brightly.

"Mm, I'm back." You bitterly smile at him.

"What's wrong? And why are you red?" Xiumin touched your forehead. "Your burning up." Your eyes widen. You quickly push him away.

"Probably just stressed out. Goodnight." You ran to your room and slammed the door closed. Your heart was beating like crazy right now, your cheeks were burning up. You were even sweating right now.

"What...what the fuck is happening to me right now!?" You slowly walked over to your bed. You just plop yourself onto your bed. Laying there. Remembering Mark walking up to you.

One step at a time. Taking away your breathe. His breathe on your trembling lips. His soft warm (tasty) lips. You bit your lower lip just thinking about the kiss. How perfect it was, kissing him back. Touching his lips. His arms around your small waist.

You just adjust yourself on your bed and went to sleep with a shy smile. Thinking about the kiss. Then your eyes widen just figuring it out now that your first kiss was stolen by the jerk.

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