~I Can't Love Him~

~Your POV~
The rest of the day, your mind kept on getting distracted. You could of barely concentrate on whatever the teacher was saying. Now it's the end of school and you were still thinking about him.

Even though you try to think of something else, he would always pop up in your head.

You were walking side by side with Mark. His hand holding onto yours. Mark even notice your sudden change. He knew that you've been spacing out a lot. Even when you talk to him, you space out the second it becomes quiet.

"Babe." Mark said in a soft yet worried voice. You just kept on walking, you didn't even hear Mark calling you. "Babe." Mark said again but this time more louder and stern. "Bora." Mark finally shouted making you snap out of your thoughts.

"W-What's wrong? G-Gwaenchanayo?" You asked worried while looking at Mark with wide eyes.

"That's what I was going to ask you. Have you've been thinking about that guy the whole day?" Mark frown.

"Ani. Not the whole day. Just after lunch." You said in a soft voice but Mark could hear you. "Mark. C-Can I say something?" You asked still with your gaze at the ground.

"Yeah. Go ahead." Mark said while looking at you a bit worried.

"I-I have a feeling. I'm still unsure what the feeling is, but just a feeling. Like he's someone I should know. Someone I should hate, I guess. Just someone that's been in my life before." You finished off your sentence by look at Mark with a confused expression.

"Probably he is then. Maybe in the past I guess. Someone you probably forgot and knew when you were younger. Sometimes, people have no idea what their past was like as a kid. So probably your like that. Probably just forgot everything in the past." Mark squeezed your hand a bit. You just nod with a small smile.

"Probably. Let's hurry. It's going to get darker and we need to do homework." You said with a smile that Mark would never get tired of.

"Gaja!" Mark pointed towards his house while you just laughed at his childish behavior.

***At Home***

Right when you stepped inside you quickly ran to the living room and planted yourself onto the couch. Mark just chuckled and followed behind after locking the door.

"Aish, my childish girlfriend." Mark joked.

"Mark~ I don't feel like doing homework now." You whined cutely while laying on the couch pouting.

"Come on. You need to do your homework in order to get ready for the exams. Remember it's May and what happens in May. Exams happen. And wha-" Mark was cut off by you.

"Araseyo, araseyo ommani. Gosh didn't need the lecture." You pouted and sat on the floor. "Oh, jamkkanmanyo. I'm going to get change. Be right back." You waved at Mark before running upstairs to change.

Quickly you changed into cute pajama shorts with a random t-shirt that you found in your closet. Then you quickly came back running down. When you did, Mark was already doing his homework.

"Aren't you hungry? How can you be doing homework with a empty stomach?" You said as you walked over to the kitchen.

"Does that mean your cooking me something?" Mark yelled from the living room.

"If only you help." You yelled back with a smile. 2 minutes later, Mark walked in the kitchen to find that you were already starting to grab all the ingredients for whatever you were going to make.

"So what should I make?" You looked over to Mark who was just leaning against the counter eating a apple.

"Anything you want dear." Mark smiled sweetly after taking a bite of his apple. "Want some?" Mark extended his arm with the apple. You just crinkle your nose while looking at him.

"Ani, you already ate out of it." You chuckled. Mark just pouted and walked closer to you.

"Come on. It's sweet.~" Mark cooed. You just chuckle while shaking your head slowly. Then mark put the apple in front of your face, wiggling it. "Ah!~" Mark said while opening his mouth also. You just laughed at his cuteness. So then you didn't protest and just take a bit out of the apple.

"Mm. It is sweet." You said while chewing on the apple.

"Let's get cooking!" Mark cheered. You just laughed. Quickly soon the only noise in the house was pans clinking, sizzling sounds, and your voice.

Finally you were done with your dinner, stir fry noodles.

"Mm. It looks good Bobo." Mark mostly drooled staring at the food in front of him. After hearing what he called you, you froze.

'Bobo'

You started to feel down. You were just staring at the food, right then you remembered cooking stir fry noodles for your appa.

~Flashback~
"Bobo! Baegopa!!!" Your appa whined with his failed aegyo voice.

"Araseyo appa. I'm almost done." You quickly put in the sauce.

"Argh! Bobo balliwa!!!" Your appa kept on whining because you had to work so you couldn't even cook him dinner. And it was already 11pm.

"Ya! Appa if you keep on whining then no food for you!" You snapped.

"Araseyo.~ J-Just hurry. Neomu baegopa." Your appa said in a soft voice but you could still hear what he said.

"Araseyo appa. Just a little bit more and you can eat. Araseyo?" You said while quickly stirring it.

"Araseyo!" Your appa beamed happily. "Mm!!! Bobo it already smell good!!!" Your appa sang.

"Jeongmallo? That's good then." You just chuckled at your appa. Later, you heard total silence in the house except for the sizzling sound on the pan. "A-Appa? Gwaenchanayo?" You asked a bit worried.

Until then you heard humming sounds. After you finished you turned off the stove and scooped the stir fry noodles onto two plates. You carried it out to see your appa sitting there politely humming a song that he normally hums.

Whenever you asked what he was humming he would just tell you that it was your omma favorite song. You always wanted to know what it sounded like, it sounded nice being hummed. But you wanted to hear the real song.

"Appa?" You asked as you set the plate before him. His eyes sparkled, his humming stopped, and his smile reached ear to ear.

"Ah!!! It's so good!!!!" Your appa beamed. You just smiled and sat across from him.

"Eat up appa." You said while smiling happily at him eating, then smiling at you and again eating.
~End of Flashback~

"Bora!" Mark shouted making you snap back into reality.

"Huh?" Was all that came out of your mouth.

"What's wrong? Is that guy really stuck in your head?" Mark asked concerned. You just smiled and shake your head.

"Ani. I-It's just that when you called me Bobo. It reminded me of my appa. How I also cooked him stir fry noodles before. For him. I-I really miss him." You said the last sentence really soft. But Mark could still hear it. He just reached over and placed his hand on top of yours.

Then moving his hand so then yours was on top of his. You looked up at him with a small weak smile.

"Hey, at least we know that he's in a better place. And that he's with he love of his life, right? He's happy up there, I bet he's watching you right now." Mark said with a warming smile. You just couldn't help it but soften up.

"Thanks Mark. For...For always being there for me. I have no idea what it would be like without you." You squeezed his hand with a bigger smile. "Come on. Let's eat." You let go of his hand and began to eat.

"Wanna hear something?" Mark asked while stuffing his face with noodles. You just chuckled and nodded your head. "Well, I heard that when someone special is gone. They'll be up there watching down at you. Protecting you even though they're up there. That they'll be forever in your hearts and that they never have let." Mark looked up at you with a small smile.

"People say that when it's raining, is because of that special someone is crying with you when your hurt or sad. People say that when it's bright and sunny outside. It's because that special someone is happy to see you happy. People also say that when it's time to sleep. That special someone is there holding you in their arms as you sleep peacefully." You couldn't help but you just went around the table and hugged Mark, tight.

"For some reason I feel like your the one hurting instead of me." You joked sadly. Small tears soon started flowing down your face.

"Actually there's something I should have told you before." Mark said, making you stop hugging him. You just furrowed your eyebrows and sat next to him.

"W-What is it?" You asked while leaning on the table.

"Well.... " Mark paused for a bit. You could see his face expression change, an expression that you never seen before. An expression that you just want to pull him into a big tight hug. "Your actually not the only one that lost someone." Mark finally let out those words.

"W-What do you mean? D-Did you lose someone also?" You asked shocked and confused. Mark then slowly looked up at you, your eyes widen when you could see that Mark's eyes were starting to get a little watery already.

"I-I lost someone very special to me. Very special." Mark hanged his head, and right then you felt a pang on your heart. Even though hanged his head, you still saw it. That small tear that slowly streamed down his face.

Quickly you reached over at Mark and cupped his face, making him look up at you. His eyes already turning red. Your heart ached so bad just seeing Mark like this.

"Mark. You know you can tell me if you want. If it's too painful. Don't. It hurts me to see you like this." You leaned closer and pulled Mark into your embrace. After a long hug Mark finally broke it, however he didn't let go of your hands. He was playing with it.

"I lost my sister." Mark said no even making eye contact with you. Your eyes widen again.

'He had a sister!? WTF! B-But he seem like the type to not have siblings.'

You just squeezed his hand a bit, telling him to continue.

"Her name was Angelina. S-She was only 14 years old. She was a bright and bubbly girl. A girl who loved to make new friends and a girl who was so... athletic. But then because she was the type to always help and the type that was always so kind and nice. I lost her. S-She was kidnapped. A-A guy asked her for help to find his 2 year old daughter. Mostly when he was just trying to lure my sister. When my sister agreed, the guy asked her to get into his car so that they can find her faster. However then my sister sensed that he was just trying to do something bad to her. So then she quickly came up with a excuse that she couldn't help anymore. By that time I was walking home already. By the time I was getting closer I heard screams and shouts. Until then it hit me, it was Angelina calling for help. I quickly started running towards the screams and shouts, a-and saw a guy forcing her into his car. I-I was scared, however I would not just stand still and watch. So then I quickly ran to them. By the time I was getting closer, the car was already driving off. I-I couldn't catch up." Tears started streaming down his face.

"W-What happened then?" You just had to ask.

"I-I reported my sister as missing and kidnapped. After 5 months when it was my birthday. S-She..." Mark totally broke down right there, which just made your heart ache even more.

"She what?" You asked in a soft yet scared tone, feeling as you knew what was going to happen next.

"She was murdered." Your heart totally fell, just hearing those words.

'Murdered? O-on your birthday?'

Tears soon started to fill your eyes. You quickly pulled Mark into a tight hug.

"M-Mark, mianhae. Neomu mianhae about your sister. At least we know she's in a better place. And as you said before, she'll always be in your heart. She never left." You said as you were patting his back lightly, with tears still streaming down your face just hearing that.

"Yeah, I know. It's just that it's been so long since I brought her up. Whenever I notice you missing your appa. It just makes me think about my sister and how useless I am." Mark said between his cries.

"Mark, babe. Your not useless. You tried. No one, and I mean no one. Can chase after a car that is speeding like hell. I bet your sister is so happy that at least you tried instead of not doing anything, right?" You kept hugging onto Mark tightly.

"I-I know. I-It's just that sometimes I think I'm so weak and useless." Mark finally broke the hug and wiped away his tears.

"But your not. Look at me, your protecting me. And I'm not hurt am I?" You cupped Mark's face. Mark just weakly smiled at you. "Now, you shouldn't be crying. It'll hurt your sister to see you hurt." You said as you wiped away the remaining tears on his face. Mark just chuckled and wiped your face.

"You too. Look at you. Crying for no reason." Mark chuckled, you just pouted.

"I do have a reason. One, because it hurts me to see the one I love so much hurt. Two, because that was a very sad story. And three, because hearing about your sister being kidnap reminds me of how my baby sister was kidnapped." You hanged your head. Mark just cupped your face, forcing you to look up at him.

"I didn't know you had a little sister too." Mark let out a small yet warm smile. He leaned closed and pecked your forehead. "Come on. Let's go sit at the couch. Crying at the kitchen table is really not my style." You just chuckle and nod your head.

***In The Living Room***

"So what was your little sister's name?" Mark asked as he slung one arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer to him.

"Bomi, Yoon Bomi. And I know it sounds like Jr.'s Bomi. But she's not her. But then sometimes I feel as Jr.'s Bomi is my Bomi." You leaned your head on Mark's chest.

"What a coincidence then." Mark hugged you closer.

"S-She disappeared when she was only 4 years old. While I was just 2 years older." Your then hugged Mark, while still sitting down.

"Wow, she was really young then." Mark said a bit amazed at how young your baby sister was when she disappeared. "C-Can I ask something?" Mark asked unsure if he should ask or not.

"Go ahead." You said as you looked up at Mark.

"H-How did she get kidnapped?" Mark stuttered. Right when he did, you can tell that he was hesitating to ask.

"Appa took us to the park and we all were playing hide and seek. The next we knew when appa couldn't find Bomi anymore nor me is that she was kidnapped. We searched the whole playground. Nothing." You hugged onto Mark tighter. Until then you soften feeling his soft pair of lips kiss your temple.

"Well, maybe she's still alive. Have you got any notifications about her?" Mark mumbled into your hair.

"Ani." You mumbled in Mark's chest.

"Well, how about on the weekends we go down to the police station and ask?" Mark said as he leaned his head down a bit so he can see your face. You were half sleeping so you barely understood what he said. You just nod your head. Mark just chuckled which made you wake up again.

"What? Did I miss something?" You blinked a few times. Mark just chuckled and ruffled your hair.

"Let's go to sleep." Mark stood up and pulled you up. Next thing you know, Mark is pushing you up the stairs since your so tired. Until then he was tucking you in bed. "Goodnight beautiful. Sweet dreams." Mark leaned down and kissed your forehead.

Notes

Double update!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!! So guys I heard, there's like probably 90% of Kris leaving Exo. My heart breaks.../sobs/. However then it's his choice. No matter what he picks I'll always love him and support him on. Also praying that he doesn't have whatever that heart condition is called. Forever saranghaja Kris!! Also saranghaja Exo!!!!!!!!! Hwaiting to both Kris and Exo!!!!!! And for all of this to stop. Anyways again, sorry for the late updates!!! Plus summer is almost here, school is almost over and I'll be able to update a lot for you guys. P.S. I already have other stories ready for you all!!!! So please bare with me!!! Saranghaja!!!!!!

(A/N: Here's our cutie pie Mark!)