~I Can't Love Him~

~Your POV~
You felt so warm and safe, just sleeping in bed. You felt so comfortable that you didn't even want to wake up to go to school. It sucked because it was only Wednesday.

However you felt like burning, because it was getting hotter. You kept moving and moving in your sleep. Until you felt someone hug you tighter.

Your eyes widen right away. You saw Mark's face only inches away from you. Because you were shocked a lot, your reaction was to kick Mark off the bed, which you did. You quickly kicked him off the bed with all your strength.

You heard a loud thump that Mark made right when he hit the floor. You heard him grunt in pain. You slowly lift up your head to see him on the floor.

You watch him slowly sit up, which made you quickly lay back down comfortably and closed your eyes. Making it look like you were sleeping.

"Ya! What the fuck is wrong with you!? Shit my back." You felt bad now for kicking him, however it was weird for him to be home. Since Mrs. Tuan told you that he was going to stay over night at the practice room with the guys.

You remained silent, not even answering Mark back. You could feel that Mark was now getting up, since he pressed his weight onto the bed to help him up.

"Argh, shit that hurt. Seriously, I think you're a damn kangaroo hiding in a human body. Man you kick hard." Mark said with a groan.

'Mwuh!? You wanna die Mark! I'm not a fucking kangaroo!!!!!!!!'

You shut your eyes tight while clenching your teeth.

"I know that your acting like your asleep babo. How would I know because you never kicked when you're sleeping." You can feel Mark's glare. "Answer me or else-" You cut him off because you knew he was going to do something to you if you didn't answer.

You quickly sat up and glared at him.

"Psh, why were you sleeping on the bed when I was sleeping on the bed? Huh? I thought you were suppose to sleep over at the practice room with the others. Why did you sneak out? Because you didn't want to sleep with them?" You glared back at him. He just raises an eyebrow.

"First, I didn't know you were sleeping on the bed. Thought my appa already finished the guest room. Second, I was until the security guards kicked us out because no one can't sleep in the practice room because of a incident long time ago. Third, I didn't sneak out, plus I would never leave my members. Their like family, so it would be like you ditching your family." Mark then smirks after he finishes his answers to your questions.

You were speechless. You didn't think that he would answer so forward.

"Araseyo, but how did you not know that I was sleeping on your bed. It's not like I drowning in your bed that you didn't see me." You narrowed your eyes at him.

"Because I didn't, I just walked in and you weren't on the couch. And if you slept on the bed I would have notice since last time you slept where I slept. Because you were sleeping on the other side, the moonlight doesn't show that side that much." Mark said in a expressionless face.

"Whatever." You got out of Mark's bed and went to the bathroom.

'Jeongmallo? How could you not notice when you slept on it then. Did you think I was a damn large ass pillow? Psh, that babo. Probably he did know just acted like he didn't.'

You quickly took a shower and changed into your clothes. Still you never bought a uniform and you think you shouldn't. Because none of your teachers or other teachers yelled at you to wear the uniforms.


You peeked your head out the bathroom door to see if Mark was still there. Good thing you didn't see him. However you didn't know that Mark was leaning against the wall staring at you confused on what you were doing.

You smiled to yourself that you didn't see Mark. He just chuckled lightly while looking at you. Then he wiped away his smile and cleared his throat making your eyes widen.

"What do you think your doing?" You slowly look up to meet Mark's eyes.

You quickly stood up straight and cleared your throat. Pretending like nothing just happened.

"Nothing." You walked away from him and ran downstairs to the kitchen table. "God, it's like he's a damn ninja. I didn't even know that he was leaning on the wall. That damn person is too quiet." You scowled and started eating.

After a while of eating, Mark finally came downstairs. He just looks at you with a disgusted face.

'Is something wrong with him? He's been acting weird this morning.'

You just roll your eyes and continue eating while looking through your phone. You can tell that Mark sat down in front of you, because he always sits in front of you and then you can smell his cologne. Which he barely sprayed some on. You always knew that he isn't like those guys who sprays too much that makes you wanna suffocate just from smelling it.

Both of you guys ate in silence the whole time. The only thing being heard was the clock ticking.

'I'm seriously dying right now. It's so quiet and I have never been this quiet. Well, yeah let's just admit it. I love being loud at times. I can't take being so quiet. Better leave right now.'

You stood up catching Mark's attention. He looked at you confused. You just grab your bag and phone.

"I'm leaving now." You said while walking out in the back. You slowly peeked out your head to see the guys just now walking into the front lawn.

'Aish, why hasn't Mark open the god damn door. I need to leave already for school.'

You quickly pulled out your phone and look for Mark's number on your contact list. Yes you have his contact because his mom told you to save his number just in case if something happened to you, and they couldn't help. But Mark could.

You called his phone, waiting. However he didn't pick up. Of course he doesn't pick up phone calls that he doesn't know. You called again annoyed and very impatient.

"Fucking answer Mark. I'm going to kill you if you don't freaking answer." You growled yet mumbled to yourself so they couldn't hear you. After 5 tries, Mark finally picked up.

"Hey, I don't know you and I hope you stop calling me. Araseyo?" Mark said in a annoyed yet angry tone. You just scoffs quietly to yourself.

"Ya, this is Bora. Your omma made me save your damn number into my phone. Just open the fucking door so then I can run out. Bballi!" You scowled. You heard Mark evilly chuckle.

"And what if I don't want to?" Mark said with a teasing voice.

"Ya! You wanna die right now. Just hurry up." You said in a angry tone. He then chuckle again evilly.

"Shireoyo." Mark said with a smirk.

"Bballiwa. I don't have all day you fucking turd. I need to get to class." You said now impatient.

"Fine, fine. Since you care so much about school. Nerd." You heard the door open and them talking out loud.

"Gosh I freaking hate you." You said while running past them.

"I heard that. You never ended the call yet." Mark said in a bit of anger tone yet with no feelings.

"Oh, mian you're breaking up. Yep krrrr I can't hear you krrr you're breaking up." You ended the call with wide eyes. "Should have remembered that I didn't end the call. Babo Bora nice job." You let out a sigh.

'If I said I hate you then I would be lying. Of course I already have feelings for you. I just need to try my best to forget you. Of course I can't fall for you too deeply.'

***School***

You did your normal routine. Go to boring classes, mess around with Got7 members in classes. Ignore Mark like usual. Practice with Mark as usual. Make your heart beat like crazy just being near him. Eating lunch alone, texting the Exo members. Hearing about how whiny Sehun is because he wants bubble tea. Always sending him picture of you having bubble tea. Just to get him act cute towards you for you to buy him bubble tea when they return.

Yup, your original routine. However in the hallways Mark has been giving you disgusted looks, or like mean looks. He even made you drop your things a lot and walked off like nothing happened. Even Gyrui kept following him like a fucking 'bitch!

You were sitting outside trying to sooth out your mind from today.

'I don't get it. Why is Mark being so mean towards me nowadays. Did I do something wrong to make him take out his anger towards me. That fucking bitch. Seriously what did I do? I knew that having feelings for him was stupid. He's just like those guys who date however act in it. Then break your heart by cheating on you. Bora please throw away your feelings towards him.'

You walked back into the school building and to the restroom. Still trying to figure out what you did to make Mark be so mean to you. Even though in the past you hated each other, Mark never took it out on you. But now he has changed.

You went into one of the stalls. Right when you locked your stall, the two stalls beside you opened. Well, more like slammed opened.

'Ugh, araseyo. They're going to block my door and pour water over me huh. Araseyo, I already know who they are. Just wait bitches. I'm going to make you drink from the fucking toilets. When I break the fucking door down!!!!'

You just sat there and saw the bucket of water. Finally you were splashed what the cold water.

'Alright, I didn't know that it was cold water. Holy shit it's cold.'

After you heard the girls evilly laugh and run out the door. You stood up, of course ready to beat the shit out of them.

You let out a angry sigh then popped your neck. You kicked the door, and it totally broke open.

"Those bitches better get themselves ready for their funerals because I'm totally ready to kill them." You stomped your way out the girls bathroom to catch people's attention.

You quickly walked down the hallways not even giving a shit that people were looking at you. Girls laughing and guys looking at you worried yet horrified.

Finally when you reached the classroom. You watched as everyone stared at you shocked. Even Mark looked at you shocked and worried. You scanned the room and found the two girls.

Earlier you even heard the girls talking about doing it. You evilly smiled and walked towards them. Making them look at you scared. You roughly stopped and bent down a bit to be at the same eye level as them since they were sitting.

"Let me tell you guys something. My revenges are way too powerful and very hurtful. Also super humiliating. So just tell me the reason why you guys did it. And plus no one. I mean no one will stop me from doing my revenge. Araseyo?" You stood back up straight looking at them with a evil smile.

They just stare at you with wide horrified eyes. Even everyone in the classroom was scared of you.

"Bballiwa!" You yelled making them jump up, out of their seats. Immediately bowing and saying that their sorry. "I don't want an apology, I want the fucking reason why you did this to me!!!!" You yelled at them, making them tear up.

"Be...because..." The girl on the right was stuttering while crying a bit.

"Ok stop." Mark stood up and looked at you. You just ignored him.

"Go on." You said in a impatient yet threatening voice.

"Gyrui...she...she...wanted us...to...to hu...humiliate...yo...you." The girl on the left said with tears.

"Araseyo." You turned back around and went out the classroom. Right when you did, Gyuri was standing right at the door glaring at you. You let out a sigh and smiled. Everyone was shocked to see your expression.

"Those damn bitches." Gyuri mumbled which clenching her teeth.

"Oh, I thought you were friends. But that's really pathetic. Because you're fucking scared to show how a bitch you are. You used your followers to do it to me huh?" You said while staring at her like you just wanted to beat her up right there and listen to her groan in pain.

"Mwuh!? Pathetic!? You fucking bitch. Who do you think you're talking to!?" Gyuri yelled in your face.

"Go ahead. Hit me. Because of baby I can't wait to hear you groan in pain." Gyuri was confused on what you said. While everyone knew what you meant, first hit always gets in trouble. "Go ahead, right here." You made your right cheek face her.

So then she was going to hit you until someone grabbed her wrist.

"Ya! What are you doing!?" Gyuri yelled.

"I said to never touch her ever again." A deep voice said, with a hint of threatening. You looked to see Chanyeol. "Seems like you were about to take out your inner self and kill her. And we don't want that do we Bora?"


You just scoff.

"What if I did want to kill her right there. I wouldn't regret ever handling a pathetic bitch like her." You smirked.

"Now, Bora. Don't get yourself in trouble." You heard Xiumin's voice.

"Wae? I was letting her get the first hit." You kept on smirking.

"Because we all know that you would kill her not even letting her touch you once. We all know how you fight. Everything becomes a bloody mess." Kai smirked. Which Gyuri eyes widen just hearing that. She started to get scared.

"Awe, look now, you're scared of me. Awe how sweet of you. For now on don't you dare use your fucking followers to do something to me. And if you want to pick a fight then bring it." You smirked. Gyuri just scoffs and yanks her wrist from Chanyeol's grip.

Which she accidentally slapped you with all her force when she was trying to pull her arm away from Chanyeol. Everyone looked at her wide eyes.

"Araseyo, Chanyeol take Gyuri out now!" Xiumin quickly pulled you away.

"Get off of me! She fucking hit me!!! Now it's my turn!!" You screamed at the top of your lungs.

"Ya, I can't have you get in trouble!" Xiumin pulled you away. Everyone look at you terrified.

"Araseyo! Araseyo! I won't do anything!" You stopped struggling. Xiumin then let go of you.

"Keep your distance for now on. Come on, we need to put medicine on your cheek." Xiumin grabbed your hand which made girls gasp.

"Araseyo, but still going to get my revenge. Just watch Xiumin-ah." You yanked your hand back and stomped out the classroom angrily.

"Ya! Even your revenges are fucking going to get you kicked out!!!" Xiumin ran after you.

"Hyung, Bora noona is the scariest when she becomes angry." Yugyeom said with wide eyes while linking arms with Youngjae.

"I agree. Very scary." Youngjae was out of breathe just staring at you going off like that. Even though you acted happy and cute sometimes. You still had a deep dark scary side.

You were walking to Mark's house, well more like dragging yourself.

"Ya, you should be happy to see me again." Xiumin elbowed your arm lightly. You just let out a sigh.

"Xiumin-ah. Why can't I live a happy life like you? Have an omma and an appa. Even friends who you can count on." You let out a sigh.

"Ya, don't be so sad. Let me tell you something." Xiumin stopped and grabbed both of your shoulders. He made you face him. He bent down a bit to be at the same eye level as you.

"You have me. The guys. We're still like family right? You can count on us. We will always be there for you no matter what. Araseyo? Don't be so sad. What if your omma and appa see, wouldn't they be sad seeing you like this?" You nod your head lightly.

Xiumin smiles and pulls you into a hug.

"How come you guys came back so early?" You said while hugging Xiumin back.

"Well, we came back for only a week. Then it's off to world tour with the SM family." Xiumin said while breaking the hug.

"Araseyo. Since your back for only a short time. Let's go hang out. I really need to sooth out my head." You pouted cutely. Xiumin just smiles brightly and nods his head.

That night you and Xiumin went shopping, to amusement parks, and to eat out. Just the two of you. Finally dropping Xiumin off, you walked back home. You never wanted Xiumin to know that you lived with Mark.

***At Home***

You slowly opened the door and peeked your head inside.

"Ahem!" You heard someone clear their throat loud and clear. You immediately stood up straight.

"Where have you been Bora? We were super worried about you." Mrs. Tuan said while pulling you into the house.

"Mianhae. I was out with my friend." You said while slightly smiling.

"You should have called and told us Bora. We were really worried about you." Mr. Tuan said in a very concern voice.

"Mianhae. It's because I have a lot in my head that is happening right now. And Exo just came back. However they are only staying for a week then they will go on to a world tour with the other groups of SM entertainment." You hung your head down, a bit sad for not telling them. Even though they are not your parents or anything. They still cared a lot and you also didn't want them to worry.

"Gwaenchana. At least they are not bad people and they are close to you." Mrs. Tuan patted your shoulder.

"Mm. Gomawo for understanding. And next time I will surely call to tell you guys." You smiled which made them smile at you.

"Go rest. You must be tired from hanging out with 12 guys." Mr. Tuan chuckled however a little bit of a tease.

"Ani. Just one of them." You smiled. They both looked at you shocked. "Ani, not like that. He was my best friend when younger. We aren't dating or anything." You quickly said. Which makes them sigh and nod their head.

"Alright then. At first I did think that. But you explained it so I understand now." Mrs. Tuan said with a smile.

"Mm. Goodnight." You bowed and ran upstairs. Well, kind a like running. You just skipped a step.

When you finally reached Mark's room. You slowly open the door and peeked your head in. Just to make sure that Mark wasn't there or at least asleep. And guess what. He was asleep.

You quietly walked in. However right when you got in, you quickly ran to the bathroom and changed into a over sized t-shirt and shorts.

You slowly opened the door and peeked your head again. You smiled since it was a good thing that he didn't wake up since you ran past him just for the bathroom. You tip toed over to the couch and laid yourself down.

"Just 2-4 days to go." You let out a sigh. The only thing that you didn't know was that Mark was awake the whole time. He woke up from you running up the stairs. However he just kept his eyes closed.

He even heard you say that there wasn't long until you won't be sleeping in his room anymore. Which made him kind a sad, however relieved. Because he wanted to try his best to never fall deeper for you.

Even though he doesn't know that he already is and that you are already falling deeper.

Notes

Finally update!!!! Please leave a comment!!! Saranghae my readers and subscribers for reading. I will update more today!!! <3

~Thought this was cute, so I had to share!~


Annyeonghaseyo, I will be on here to help my friend with editing her story. I promise that I won't change the story, I am just here to correct and fix her wording and grammer. ~Jennifer