Loving you 2
Sweet Jin
Shiori's Pov
I knew that Jin was going to have a hard time following the plan,but I didn't really care. As long as they both get what they deserve and pay the price as I did. They hurt me and my family. So, it is my time to play and have fun just as they did with me. However, I am a bit worried about Jin not being able to really hold his feelings towards me and not make a fool out of himself. Its not that I don't love him,but we are suppose to just be friends in all.
Moreover, I told myself that I wouldn't fall in love with anyone and that is what I'll do. But, it is getting harder for me to do because Jin is having deep feelings for me. He is handsome and all,but we are not a good match for each other. He is the complete opposite of me,I'm more independent while he is more dependent and we both have our different ways of dealing with things. Generally speaking, I don't want us to fall in love and forget our plan.
After thinking so hard on it, I just decided to just trust him in the end because he is all I have. On the other hand, I could've asked Ren,but he wouldn't agree on the plan. Likewise, he probably even disagree with the plan and just not let me attend the event entirely so I won't hurt myself. Equally, he also has feelings for me as well,yet I told him before leaving to put those feeling behind us.
It might have sounded rude to tell him that,but it was needed. We always have been just friends and now he want to be more than just friends. On the same hand, Their is times that I just need a friend not someone who likes me romantically. If that was the case they would always agree with me no matter what I say or think and I can't have that in my life right now. However, Jin is different because I know he knows what we both need in this terrible world that nobody else knows.
''Jin, I know this is going to be hard on you as you have feelings for me. But, I'm able to compromise with you.'' I said softly
''Its okay! I'm not worrying about the plan. If that is what you want to do then go for you and it doesn't matter nothing matters.'' he said calmly
''Why do I feel like you're upset about all this? Is it something that I did or said that you didn't like? If that is the problem then I'm sorry.'' I stated seriously
''No! need to apologize. I'll do anything as you want sense I don't have much a choice in this.'' he replied
''You don't have to do this,if you don't want to. Its my plan not yours and plus I got myself in this not you. This has nothing to do with you in the first place.'' I said laying my hands on top of his
*Jin stands up from his seat*
''Leave me alone,Shiori!'' he yells out leaving his office
This was the first time that I had ever seen Jin this upset over something. It made me want to cry because I didn't know what to say or do at this point. Our feelings for each other must be this strong for each other,but this is not the time to be having these emotions. I really wanted to comfort him,but I couldn't bring myself to do so. The party was in a couple of days and I needed to plan out what I was going to wear.
I stepped out of the house joining Jin out in the garden as he sat down on the swing. I didn't know what to say because I knew that apologizing to him wasn't going to do anything nor make things any better for the both of us. So, instead I decided to lean in towards him and kiss him on the lips. Jin's lips were soft and kissable. It was weird of me to think about it as we both held each other at this very moment.
He slowly lifted me up and took me to his room. He tossed me on his bed and closed the bedroom door. Two hours later, I woke up next to Jin who was still sleeping and when I looked I was in my underwear. While he was still asleep, I hurried and grabbed my clothes. Then, made my way to my room, I sat on my bed thinking back to what I just did. On the other hand, I didn't want to lie to myself anymore. I did like it and it did feel real as I could feel how much Jin did have real feelings for me.
The next morning, I was so still a bit stunned about what had happened yesterday. Me and Jin had...had-the thought of it just couldn't connect with me it seemed so surreal to me. Meanwhile, I went to Jin's room to see if he was still asleep,but it seemed like he was in the shower as the water was running. I suddenly was nervous due to the fact that it was weird that we both had intercourse with each other.
Furthermore, I didn't know why I didn't stop myself from doing this or maybe even stop him. Sense, he was the one who lift me up to take me to his room and that happened. Likewise, I wasn't going to say that I didn't enjoy it or I would be lying. After Jin was taking his shower, I decided to sit on his bed sense we both already became so close now. I calmly sat their with my legs crossed waiting for him to eagerly come out of the bathroom.
So, we could discuss what we were going to wear for the party. As he came out, he didn't look to happy to see me sitting here on his bed of all places. He glanced at me and glance away from me in an instant.
''What is the problem now? Jin!'' I yell out
''Nothing!'' he said softly
''Nothing! You obviously seem like you do have a problem. Was the intercourse not enough for you? Because I don't know what else to do? or what else to give you to make you happy?'' I said crying
''Shiori don't cry. It really isn't your fault,so please don't get frustrated with me or yourself.'' he said
''I'm just worried about you,Jin. To be honest, I love you,but I don't want to be in a relationship right now.'' I stuttered
''Its okay, I very well understand. I'm sorry,for having intercourse with you when you clearly wasn't ready.'' he said
''Its not that I wasn't ready,its that I didn't know if I wanted to be in another relationship.'' I told him wiping my tears
(I want him so bad,but I just don't know how to tell him.)
After we cleared things up, he gave me money to spend to buy a dress for the party. However, for some reason I didn't really need the money as I had money to buy myself a dress by myself. So, I took the money and saved the money for another time that was useful. We both decided not to talk about what happened the other day and not treat each other poorly over the matter.
He even agreed to not be so rash and to think smart before making a move on me. Which made me happy for once in my life at this point, we been staying in the same house for like two months now and we are now having problems. I'm slowly becoming a hot mess at this point to, its like I don't know what I want and its becoming hard. Moreover,its like I'm good at business,but being in a relationship is a problem.
''Jin,I want to attend work again.'' I told him
''Are you sure?'' he asked softly
''Yeah! I miss making clothes and you taking care my business must be stressful on you. Furthermore, you have your own business to worry about as well.'' I told him straight
''Well, If that what you want then go for it. Who am I to hold you back? You're the legendary, Shiori Wu.'' he said excited
''Thank you!'' I said happily hugging him
''Jin, you might not be a bad guy after all. So, I might need to hold onto you a little bit more.'' -Shiori
I knew that Jin was going to have a hard time following the plan,but I didn't really care. As long as they both get what they deserve and pay the price as I did. They hurt me and my family. So, it is my time to play and have fun just as they did with me. However, I am a bit worried about Jin not being able to really hold his feelings towards me and not make a fool out of himself. Its not that I don't love him,but we are suppose to just be friends in all.
Moreover, I told myself that I wouldn't fall in love with anyone and that is what I'll do. But, it is getting harder for me to do because Jin is having deep feelings for me. He is handsome and all,but we are not a good match for each other. He is the complete opposite of me,I'm more independent while he is more dependent and we both have our different ways of dealing with things. Generally speaking, I don't want us to fall in love and forget our plan.
After thinking so hard on it, I just decided to just trust him in the end because he is all I have. On the other hand, I could've asked Ren,but he wouldn't agree on the plan. Likewise, he probably even disagree with the plan and just not let me attend the event entirely so I won't hurt myself. Equally, he also has feelings for me as well,yet I told him before leaving to put those feeling behind us.
It might have sounded rude to tell him that,but it was needed. We always have been just friends and now he want to be more than just friends. On the same hand, Their is times that I just need a friend not someone who likes me romantically. If that was the case they would always agree with me no matter what I say or think and I can't have that in my life right now. However, Jin is different because I know he knows what we both need in this terrible world that nobody else knows.
''Jin, I know this is going to be hard on you as you have feelings for me. But, I'm able to compromise with you.'' I said softly
''Its okay! I'm not worrying about the plan. If that is what you want to do then go for you and it doesn't matter nothing matters.'' he said calmly
''Why do I feel like you're upset about all this? Is it something that I did or said that you didn't like? If that is the problem then I'm sorry.'' I stated seriously
''No! need to apologize. I'll do anything as you want sense I don't have much a choice in this.'' he replied
''You don't have to do this,if you don't want to. Its my plan not yours and plus I got myself in this not you. This has nothing to do with you in the first place.'' I said laying my hands on top of his
*Jin stands up from his seat*
''Leave me alone,Shiori!'' he yells out leaving his office
This was the first time that I had ever seen Jin this upset over something. It made me want to cry because I didn't know what to say or do at this point. Our feelings for each other must be this strong for each other,but this is not the time to be having these emotions. I really wanted to comfort him,but I couldn't bring myself to do so. The party was in a couple of days and I needed to plan out what I was going to wear.
I stepped out of the house joining Jin out in the garden as he sat down on the swing. I didn't know what to say because I knew that apologizing to him wasn't going to do anything nor make things any better for the both of us. So, instead I decided to lean in towards him and kiss him on the lips. Jin's lips were soft and kissable. It was weird of me to think about it as we both held each other at this very moment.
He slowly lifted me up and took me to his room. He tossed me on his bed and closed the bedroom door. Two hours later, I woke up next to Jin who was still sleeping and when I looked I was in my underwear. While he was still asleep, I hurried and grabbed my clothes. Then, made my way to my room, I sat on my bed thinking back to what I just did. On the other hand, I didn't want to lie to myself anymore. I did like it and it did feel real as I could feel how much Jin did have real feelings for me.
The next morning, I was so still a bit stunned about what had happened yesterday. Me and Jin had...had-the thought of it just couldn't connect with me it seemed so surreal to me. Meanwhile, I went to Jin's room to see if he was still asleep,but it seemed like he was in the shower as the water was running. I suddenly was nervous due to the fact that it was weird that we both had intercourse with each other.
Furthermore, I didn't know why I didn't stop myself from doing this or maybe even stop him. Sense, he was the one who lift me up to take me to his room and that happened. Likewise, I wasn't going to say that I didn't enjoy it or I would be lying. After Jin was taking his shower, I decided to sit on his bed sense we both already became so close now. I calmly sat their with my legs crossed waiting for him to eagerly come out of the bathroom.
So, we could discuss what we were going to wear for the party. As he came out, he didn't look to happy to see me sitting here on his bed of all places. He glanced at me and glance away from me in an instant.
''What is the problem now? Jin!'' I yell out
''Nothing!'' he said softly
''Nothing! You obviously seem like you do have a problem. Was the intercourse not enough for you? Because I don't know what else to do? or what else to give you to make you happy?'' I said crying
''Shiori don't cry. It really isn't your fault,so please don't get frustrated with me or yourself.'' he said
''I'm just worried about you,Jin. To be honest, I love you,but I don't want to be in a relationship right now.'' I stuttered
''Its okay, I very well understand. I'm sorry,for having intercourse with you when you clearly wasn't ready.'' he said
''Its not that I wasn't ready,its that I didn't know if I wanted to be in another relationship.'' I told him wiping my tears
(I want him so bad,but I just don't know how to tell him.)
After we cleared things up, he gave me money to spend to buy a dress for the party. However, for some reason I didn't really need the money as I had money to buy myself a dress by myself. So, I took the money and saved the money for another time that was useful. We both decided not to talk about what happened the other day and not treat each other poorly over the matter.
He even agreed to not be so rash and to think smart before making a move on me. Which made me happy for once in my life at this point, we been staying in the same house for like two months now and we are now having problems. I'm slowly becoming a hot mess at this point to, its like I don't know what I want and its becoming hard. Moreover,its like I'm good at business,but being in a relationship is a problem.
''Jin,I want to attend work again.'' I told him
''Are you sure?'' he asked softly
''Yeah! I miss making clothes and you taking care my business must be stressful on you. Furthermore, you have your own business to worry about as well.'' I told him straight
''Well, If that what you want then go for it. Who am I to hold you back? You're the legendary, Shiori Wu.'' he said excited
''Thank you!'' I said happily hugging him
''Jin, you might not be a bad guy after all. So, I might need to hold onto you a little bit more.'' -Shiori
@Shiori wu
Oh I’m glad is not over
2/20/18