-The next day-

I was laying on the floor, staring on the ceiling, wondering what I should do.
"Maybe I start working tomorrow...." I mumbled to myself.
Then I heard the front door open.

Curious, I walked to the front door to meet Joshua and Seungkwan.

My cheek flushed in rosered color when my eyes met Joshua's.

"Hey, what's up?" I greeted them.

"Ehm! C-chae asked you to meet him" Seungkwan smiled.

"Oh? did he? Where?" I asked as I tilted my head

"Just come with us" Joshua commanded.

I nodded as I put on my shoes and jacket.
Somehow, Joshua was acting cold towards me today.

He didn't really have the usual warm, gentle smile. Was something wrong?

Was it something I did?
Wondering what made Joshua mad filled my head as we were walking our way down towards the gathering house.
The moment we walked in, Chae called out to me.
"Hi Chae!" I greeted him with a smile.
"Hi, (Y/N) I want you to meet someone." Chae smiled as a man with a suit walked towards us.
"Hello, I am Seventeen's manager"
"Oh, Nice to meet you" I bowed my head.

"Well, I am just going to tell you. Since we started recording, this show has now amazing ratings and views. Most of the viewers is interested in you and your talent. So we'd like you to come with us when we go back to Seoul." He smiled.
"Wha-? What do you mean?"
"He wants you to join the company as a trainee! That is good! We really need trainees at this point. Most of them quit..." Chae explained.

"Trainee? Like to be an idol?"
Both of them nodded as I looked down on the floor in confusion.

"But being an idol means singing, and I can't really sing." I confessed

"Oh that? I heard that you and Joshua had trained the singing"

"Oh My! How lovely (Y/N)!!! I bet you are going to have so much fun!" My grandma walked towards us.

"H-how long have you thought about this?" I asked scared.

"From the day you had the music battle-"
From that point I couldn't hear anything.

I felt betrayed at some point.

Did Joshua knew about it?

Was that the reason he wanted me to sing?

So the company could get more trainees?

I thought Joshua was kind, but maybe I was wrong...

My thought was interupted when a voice yelled through the house.
"REALLY MANAGER?! CAN (Y/N) COME WITH US?!" Seungkwan ran towards us with a wide smile.

"WOW!" DK followed behind him.
And soon, the rest of Seventeen was chatting exited about the news, expect Joshua.

"What do you say (Y/N)?" The manager asked me, stretching out his hand to me.

"I-I need to think about it" I excused myself as I ran out of the gathering house.

I ran and ran until I reached the beach.

The ocean wind was gently blowing, making my hair lift up in the air.

I sighted as I plopped down in the sand, making my butt hurt of the impact.

"ow..." I sighted, not giving a damn about the pain.

"Why, do they want me to leave the island? Is it because I didn't work?" I asked myself as I felt the frustration boil inside me.

*Sight*

"I don't even know anymore" I complained as I buried my face in my knees.
"Hey" as sweet honey voice called out to me.

I looked up and saw the familiar face I know.

"Hey Joshua" I greeted him, hiding my face once more.
"How are you doing?" he asked worried.
"Why are you even here?" I asked cold.

"Because I care about you" Joshua answered.
"You care about me or the company?"

"Wha-?"
"Did you decide to give me singing lessons because you knew?"

Joshua didn't answer my question, which made me wonder if he really did.
I lifted my head from my knees and looked him, he was biting his lower lip.

"I would lie if I told you that I didn't know about it, but-"
"No But... I don't want to listen to it now"
"But (Y/N)!"
"Sorry Joshua, but let me think for now. Your manager expects an answer fast." I said as I walked away from him.
Or at least tried to.
After I tried to walk away from him, he suddenly ran up to me, grabbing my hand.
"I know you don't want to listen to it, but please. Just hear me out"
I clenched my hand as I decided to let him talk.
His honey voice filled my ears, his dark honey voice.

"It is true that I knew what our manager's goal. And it is true, he asked us to give you vocal lessons, but after our talk together, made me want to give them to you."

"What is the difference anyway?"
"The difference is that I wanted to have the vocal lessons because I wanted to be with you. I wanted to spend more time with you. It made me relived to know that I could be honest with you, and just talk about whatever. I felt like I could open up for you"
I froze at the spot, not knowing how to respond to his explanation.

Of course I was happy, the one I apparently like just told me that he wanted to spend time with me. But I feel scared.
"Could you open up to me too?" he asked, making me shiver.

"What do you want me to tell you?" I asked bold.

"Tell me how you feel now."

"I am scared" I mumbled.

"Scared?"
I nodded as I clenched my hand into a fist, digging my nails into my skin.

"I am scared to leave this island. You know what happened to my parents. After I lost them, the world outside this island looks nothing more but a nightmare for me."

"But you will have people by your side, Chae, Seventeen, and me."
"W-when are your last day?" I asked in a shaking voice.

"We will leave the XX... "

"The XX? But that is-"
"4 days until we leave...are going to come with us?"
"I-i still have to think" I said as Joshua let my hand go.

The moment I was free, I ran away from the beach.

I ran home, locking myself in my room.

Panting, I sat down on my bed, hiding my face in my pillow.

"What do I do?" I asked myself as tears started to fall from my eyes.

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