Dream(Joshua x Reader)

Since the day of the night walk with Joshua, my head has been a mess.
We started with our singing lessons right after their recording ended.
But as the days went past, my behavior changed as my head started to get messy.

I can't focus on my work, I space out all the time and my head was filled with Joshua.
Even when we tried to practice singing together, I couldn't do it properly.
But as time went, I became more comfortable with my singing. The more I sang together with Joshua, the more I started to enjoy singing. It became fun to sing and I got the same feeling as I was dancing.

Just being able to sing out my emotions to the sky felt amazing.
After my previous lesson with Joshua, a thought striked my head.
Maybe one day my voice will reach mother and father?
Somehow the thought of my parents made me sad and how I never was able to be with them...
I started to give excuses for not go to Joshua's lessons, I stopped hanging out with Seventeen and was unable to do my work.

I couldn't sing or dance before my parents pop in my thoughts. I couldn't find any happiness in dancing anymore, neither singing.
The thought of them was enough to make me shake in fear and let tears drip from my eyes.
I spent too many nights crying myself to sleep because of my parents.
But then I reached a point when I was unable to do any of my proper work. M y grandma suggested that I should take a break for a few days. Just to sort things out.

She told me that it was important for me to have time for just me.

Like personal time.
I was lying on the floor, my eyes glued to the TV screen when I heard a sound coming from the door. A sight escaped my mouth as I got up, walking towards the door.

"Grandma? Is it you?" I asked unsure.

My feet stopped as I saw the person in the door opening.
"Hi (Y/N)" he smiled.

"Joshua" I smiled back to him.

"Is everything all right?" he asked me with worry in his voice.

"y-yeah, I am okay" I tried to sound cheerful.

"Really? We haven't seen you in the field lately. The others are worried too"

"Oh? Well, I just needed a break." I explained, trying to walk away, but Joshua stopped me.

"T-the boys wanted to see you, soo I was hoping that you could come and meet them"

Before I could answer, Joshua interrupted me.

"If you don't feel like it, I can just say that to them, don't worry!" Joshua said after giving a sad smile.

He was about to walk away, I stopped him by grabbing his sleeve.

"It's not like I don't want to meet them, but won't I ruin the filming?" I explained my worry.

"Were you worried?" Joshua asked.

I nodded in emberresment.

A smile was shown on his face.
His gentle hand was resting on top on my hand that was holding his sleeve.
"Everyone like having you around, including the staff. You have helped us a bunch in the program! If it wasn't for you, Wonwoo wouldn't have eaten any food" Joshua explained, making my worry fly away.

I smiled, looking at Joshua.

Meeting his gaze made my heart beat faster again.

"Thank you Joshua" I smiled as I let go of his sleeve, which he didn't let me.

He suddenly grabbed my hand, holding it tight.

"Will you meet the others?" he asked nervous.

A small grin was shown on my face as I nodded.
Slowly, his smile of relive could be seen on his face.
The same smile that he had when we first met.

He released my hand and I quickly grabbed my jacket and put on my shoes.

We were soon on our way over to Seventeen's house.

But it was quiet between me and Joshua.
Usually we would talk, but now, I had nothing to say.

I mean, I skipped the lessons with him, how could I explain?
"Did I do something wrong?" Joshua suddenly asked.
"Huh?"

"Since we haven't had any lessons in a while. So I thought maybe I did something"

"No, you didn't do anything wrong. It is just... "

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" Joshua explained.

"It's not like that, but I owe you an explanation."
"I-i grew up here alone with my grandma. My parent's, they disappeared one day."

"Disappeared?"

"Mhm... When I was 1, they were going to the city for a meeting. The city people wanted to get rid of this island and my parents were fighting against them"
I tighten my grip around my bracelet. The tear pricked my eyes, but I refuse to cry in front of Joshua.
But he seemed to notice my action as he gently took my hand in his.

As I smiled towards him, I continued my explanation.
"I have always been scared to travel away from this Island. I never know what kind of world it is. What kind of cruel world that made my parents disappear. In a blink of an eye, Grandma was heartbroken to loose her son and her daughter in law. And she was stuck with me. She took the responsibility to raise me and protect me. "
"Wow, I really didn't know that you..."
"It's okay, but you remember my connection with singing?"

Joshua slowly nodded his head.
"After our previous lesson, my mom and dad suddenly got in my thoughts. It made me scared. I was unable to dance and sing before my body froze at the spot."

His eyes was on my bracelet that still rested around my wrist. He slowly lifted up my hand to our eye level.
"You got the bracelet from them right?"
I nodded.

"It is the only thing I have of them" I explained as my eyes landed on the bracelet.
It was a silver chain with a pink cherry blossom on it.

"It suits you" Joshua complimented.
I could feel my heartbeat fasten again.

"Thanks" I smiled as we soon reached the Seventeen's house.
The moment we walked through the gates, all the members greeted me with a big smile.
Everyone came running towards us and threw questions at me.

"Hey guys! Calm down! give (Y/N) some air" Joshua protected me.

The face of everyone pout was so cute that it made me giggle.

I tried to answer all of their questions when Chae suddenly caught my attention.

Maybe I can talk to Chae about my usual heartbeat I thought as I tried making my way over to him.
"Hey Chae, can I talk to you?" I asked, trying to sound cheerful.

"Yeah? Of course! Am I in trouble or something?" He asked scared.
"no! But can we talk a little private?" I asked as he nodded, leading us to a more private space.

We walked over to the usual place we used to play.

The secret cave that is behind Mr.Kang's house.
"So what's up (Y/N)?" Chae asked raising an eyebrow.

"I don't know, but I think something is wrong with my heart."

"Wha?! HOW?!"

"Everytime I meet him, my heart would beat like unusual fast!"

"wh- HAHAHAHAHAHA!!" Chae cracked down in laughter.

"What?! I am worried! What if I die?!" I asked scared.
Chae started to breath short and wipe away tears from his eyes.
"That isn't something serious at all little inoccent (Y/N)" Chae explained.
"W-what is it then?" I pouted, waiting for Chae to explain.
"It means you are in love..." he sighted as he put his hand on my shoulder.

"L-l-love?!"
"So, who did you fell for?" Chae smirked.

"I am not telling" I said angry as I walked away from him.
I fell in love with Joshua?

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