I like it

I was giggling watching the roof looking away from the boys who were crazy. I suddenly felt someone come next to "daebuk, no way it couldn't be," jimin came hovering around me surprised "aye I guess you really have grown y/n....." I sighed and greeted him "don't worry I was teased for being chubby I wouldn't disrespect people as well," I giggled blushing feeling pretty thankful, until "ya chubs," my smile was interrupted, by an annoying voice. It was jungkook. I stopped feeling a bit irritated I looked towards him throwing daggers. He gestured me to go to him using his right arm, moving it up and down. I turned moving towards him, when jimin grabbed my arm, "ya...... she was my classmate too," I giggled and stayed put, leaving jungkook who looked a bit irritated I heard him whisper as he gave up and walked away "that girl......"

I smiled spending the rest of my time with jimin, who was cute and funny he was also a good host at least better than jungkook. It was getting late and I ended the conversation with jimin "it's getting late I should get going," his eyes widened

"wait wait, your house, is it far," he waited for my response, I just nodded "pretty far, I guess," he smiled, "I'll walk you we know girls shouldn't be alone at night," suddenly someone grabbed my arm

"ya, hyung go get some rest I'll take her myself," I felt uneasy as jungkook wrapped his arm around my shoulder and started tightening his grip I hissed a little, but before I knew it I was being dragged out of big hit entertainment. "bad girl," he hissed as his grip tightened. i cried in pain but he din't care. so i gave up and followed.


I stayed quite the whole time somehow it felt normal, it also felt like this has happened before and my body knew how to cope. "What were you talking about with jimin?" I giggled at his immaturity "you," I joked, his eyes widened as he jumped up.

"Really what did he say?"
"What did you say?"
"Were you two talking shit...."

I giggled and suddenly he stopped "why are you laughing," I stopped and giggled "it was a joke, aish this kid," I continued walking when suddenly I was in front of him "ya y/n you younger than me," we played in the rain till I finally got home.

The sudden giggling stopped and my dads eyes were hunting the male figure beside me, jungkook smiled and bowed at my father. Who suddenly burst "aye what a beautiful boy, walking my daughter back home, very nice would you like anything to eat......"
jungkook just smiled and shook his head "I'm fine, we just eat, but look after yourselves, I'll be going," he bowed then waved to me,

"Wow, you should totally seduce him, boys like that don't come easily these days," a blonde lady came out behind my father smiling.

"aunty," i cried as my eyes widened, rap monster older sister smiled down at me as I tightly hugged her "ya y/n, it's like I saw you yesterday and you've already grown, but I must say you've lost a lot of weight, let's eat,"

I smiled like a kid, my aunties cooking was the best. She learnt it all from my mother.

I was so thrilled when she came out with plants of food, there were 7 bowls and plants and pots. She had one big pan in the middle that was covered with a lid to hide the treasures inside, small bowls of soup and plates of rice cakes and everything. I smiled clapping excited of the course "aunty you’re the best," I smiled as she giggled "yah the best her job makes her one of the riches in Korea but she never leads us money, a song came on and she turned embarrassed "aunty It's you,"

I giggled as she went light red, my father flicked his hands trying to get my attention "ya y/n close your eyes," I just stood up and started rapping. My aunty is cl from 2ne1 a famous rapper in Korea. she promised me that she'll take me to see big bang but that’s never worked out. The night ended with laughter and giggling as we spoke. I went off to bed earlier than usual because I felt exhausted. I pulled a face mask on my face after my 30min shower then laid on my bed and waited. Singing badly.

The truth was I hated to sing because my father hated it. The last time I sang he was at the back smiling. And cheering but I knew there was something wrong, I walked at night to go toilet at night and heard him singing while drinking, my father was an acholic after my mother died. But stopped for me. I hated myself, he lied telling me he was okay
He had a job

I hated singing.......my last performance was when I was 13 my father clapped happily and cheered a lady came up to me and congratulated me, her words structed me "you beautiful like your mother and your beautiful voice is like hers too," I smiled, I was happy. I went back home, late with my father where he held me and sat beside me until I fell asleep.

I woke up in the middle of the night to singing, I walked slowly to the door where my father threw a bottle to the ground it was beer. He was crying I looked scared but not for myself for him. He was so drunk he didn't even notice the door open, but when it did he spoke "ya (your made up/ idols name) (for your mum) why did you have to leave......or why did you have to give birth to that child who only reminds me of you," tears started streaming hard down my cheeks as he turned his head unsteadily towards me "appa do you hate me," his eyes widened as he gulped "appa I'll never sing again,"….......

I started singing with all my might but ended up tearing up, I do sound like my mother. I threw my pillow to the ground and hissed as I hit my arm on the table that was on the left side of my bed. I threw my arms above my head. When someone knocked on the door. It was my father "y/n I've been meaning to tell you something," I sat up and listened eagerly "ne appa," I folded my legs and took my face mask off, "that day I was drunk, I didn't mean what I said, my child you can sing and....." I shook my head "appa it's okay if it pains you to hear me singing because of mum I'll stop,"

"no, please I know you love to sing and I remember as a child that was your dream you've been hiding your talents because of me I don't want it anymore," I looked to the ground "rap monster told me about the auditions and so did jungkook, I want you to use them because there opportunity's, my child stop working okay," I looked up "appa can do that, I can look after you, you growing up is what is killing me okay," I shook my head, but he stood and left the room.......I sat there dumbfounded waiting.

"I'm going to kill rap monster," what the hell am I thinking at a time like this why did I have to be so simple minded. I threw another mask on because it made the stress go away when my phone started vibrating I picked it up and instantly my eyes widened "v and irene broke up what......"

To be honest I felt happy but this was so shocking. And so soon

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