Immortals: Book 1: The Ten Letters ~ Kim Namjoon Fanfiction (ON HOLD)

….. I volunteer.....

Maria's point of view

I shut down the alarm clock. 5:10. I need to get ready for work. I get up and go to the bathroom moving like a ghost. To my misfortune I hit my head to the closed door of the bathroom. I don't remember closing it last night...
My morning routine continues the same as always. Getting ready, grabbing my breakfast and I am out the door. I drive to work as I first stop for Mr. Kim coffee. Americano.
Today is a big day because the CEOs will welcome the new trainees. A year ago the first group of their company debuted. The 5-member girl-group “Gold” has already became a big sensation in South Korea. Their company “Powerful” wanted to give more chances to the youth to make their dream come true. A week ago the final trainees were chosen and today is the welcoming to the company by the CEOs themselves.
At 6:54 I am placing Mr. Kim's coffee on his desk. All of a sudden I feel dizzy again. Bright light blocking my view. My feet going weak. I held the edge of the desk as I left a warm touch catching me before I fall.

Namjoon's point of view

I am late, I am late, I am late. I had to be at work at 6:45. The group will be there at 7:15. Last night when I came home I automatically fall to bed. I don't even remember when I fall asleep, I didn't even eat or shower. I was too tired probably.
I rush into the building. People vowing as I pass them. When I get into the elevator I see that I have four calls from Yoongi-Hyung. I try to call him but he doesn't answer. Great. I walk into my office and I can see Maria placing my coffee on my desk. She is wearing a black dress to match her black hair. But before I can say anything I see her as her upper body starts to move towards the ground. Rushing to caught her I hold her waist as she turns towards me with half-closed eyes. She doesn't move for a second. The ends of hair touching her lips. She has put all her weight on me. Her hand is still touching the edge of the desk while her palm is looking upwards, and I see marks on her wrist , thin lines. I feel a familiar sense while I look at her for a second. Then with a big breath she “wakes up” and I look at her dark brown eyes while she stares in mine. She suddenly pulls away.
“M..Mr...Mr. Kimmm you are here” she avoids my eyes as she fixes her dress.
“Maria, are you ok?” I say with worried eyes. “Do you want a glass of water?”
“No, no I am ok. I haven't eat yet” she says as she lifts her head and smiles to me, but her eyes are telling me something else. Before I could say anything else my phone rings.

Maria's point of view

I feel embarrassed more because my boss caught me in a moment of weakness no because it's him. I had put a wall in front of me. I must not feel anymore. It is true that I think of him sometimes but how can I not?
“Mr Kim I am going to the room to welcome the group.” I say quietly because he is speaking to the phone. He waves as an agreement and continues to talk.
I walk out of his office. After I take a deep breath I go to take the profiles of the trainees that are at my desk.
My head feels better than before. It's 7:11 and I am heading to the greeting room. It's slightly smaller that the Great Hall. I can see many people from the company talking to the new trainees as they take their sits. Photographers and cameras everywhere. I go and stand near the door.
A minute after, everyone starts clapping and I can see that the “Gold” are getting at the front. The 5-member-girl group introduces themselves. First they start talking about how grateful they are for having them here. A couple more minutes and they wish them good luck so the CEOs can take the 'stage'.
All three of them standing there tall and handsome with their suits. Namjoon starts talking as he always did and does. But before I can hear what he says I hear someone whispering near me with question in he/she voice.
“Taiga....?”
I can feel cold sweat running at my back as I turn around and say out of breath.
“Hope....”

Eight years ago

BIGBANG's bang bang bang was playing from the speakers. Everyone at the club was dances and me trying to get something to drink from the bar.
After I get my drink I pass people hoping to not spill my drink. And then someone who was running passes me and I through my drink to a girl sitting at the left. She was wearing a white shirt with something written on it.
“Oh my God I am so sorry.” I tell her. She looks at me.
“It's ok don't worry. It happens.” she smiles “ I am Hope by the way, I am new at the kpop parties.” and she gives me her hand. I scream back to her because of the music.
“I am Taiga nice to meet you, welcome to the club.” and I smile back.
Her eyes are green and her hair is ginger with small curls.

Present

Her eyes are still green but her hair is straight and brown. I start to feel uneasy. This is bad. Really bad.

Namjoon's point of view

After the greeting the stuff showed them around and I left because work is calling me. I was surprised that I didn't saw Maria at her office. I thought she left early, that was why she wasn't at the greeting room. I go to my office and sit at my chair.
Where the fuck is she?
An hour passes and she is still not here. I start to get really angry. One thing about Maria is that she is a perfectionist and she is never late.
Maybe she is late because of her 'fall' this morning... I say as my eyes widen.
I am about to call the medical room when I see her coming in. She looks tense and a little off. I can see that her mind is traveling somewhere else.
I call her in.
“Where were you? You had to hang me he profiles two hour ago! I canceled the meeting because of you! You can just disappear like this! People actually work here!” I say to her. I didn't mean to scream at her but it came out naturally and I already feel bad about it. I can see her playing with her fingers as she looks at the floor.
“Mr. Kim I...I.. I am really sorry. I didn't mean this to happen.. I.. I am really sorry.” she says as she tries to look up but fails to look me in the eyes.
I take the papers that she left on my desk and leave without saying a word.

It's 5:39 and I am leaving work early today. When I went back to my office she was there. She asked me if I what anything. We didn't had a proper conversion but she still didn't tell me were she was. She was acting weird ever since. She will work late today because she has to prepare some papers for tomorrow's meeting. When I felt she was out to get something for Elt (Hoseok's secretary).
I get into my car but I don't start immediately. I lay at my sit and try to relax when I hear a familiar voice screaming in english at the parking lot
“LEAVE ME ALONE HOPE PLEASE”

Maria's point of view

“LEAVE ME ALONE HOPE PLEASE” I started begging her. This day is getting worse. Except for the fact that I am losing my job she doesn't understand. She came here because she is a photographer, and from all over the world it had to be here.
“YOUR FUCKING KIDDING ME RIGHT?!” she screams back “YOU LEFT US SIX YEARS BELIEVING THAT YOUR MOTHER LOCKED YOU UP BUT YOU JUST DECIDED TO MOVE TO NEW YORK TELLING NOTHING. NOTHING!!”
I could see anger in her eyes.
“This is your friendship? Go tell that to Naria when she found you at your bathroom floor surrounded by your own blood. YOU WHERE ON A FUCKING COMA FOR 3 MONTHS. I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT PILES YOU TOOK.
AND ME BEING THE IDIOT I AM I HAD THE BEST IDEA OF SENDING YOUR LETTERS TO HIM!!! BUT YOU ARE SELFISH TAIGA. AND THIS-”
“Wait you did wHAT?” I freeze
no no no no no this is not really.
After I deleted Taiga from my life I through everything away, but to be honest I don't remember my letters....
“You didn't know ? While you were on the coma I did send them. I don't know if he got them but I did it for you, but I should. All the promises where lies. You decided to live lie that fight for your dream” she laughs “I don't recognize you. Who are you and what did you do to Kim Taiga?”
I look up at her straight to her eyes

Notes

well it has been a long time since i wrote but it feels good to be back ^__^