Even though, We may argue and fight sometimes about stupid stuff--I still love you like a little brother that I never had. -Qri

When I was at my photo shoot,I was very lonely and bored. It seemed like everyone was busy doing their own thing nowadays. I starting to miss Rap Monster so much, he always would come by the shooting area just so we could hang out and talk. He would also treat me out to eat as well after my photo shoots. For some reasons, I feel like without him my life and heart isn't complete without him.

I really want to talk to him,but it may be awkward sense we haven't talk to each other in a while. Also, He has been working on his new album for so long that I never get to see him. Then, the rest of the girls are so busy that they wouldn't want to come over and hang out with me. Boram is probably at the mall sense it is her day off from work. Then, Eun Jung is probably hanging out with Kai as always even though she acts like she hates him.

They both are pretty lucky that they don't have to be bored like me. How unlucky of me to even allow myself to act like this on a day like this. After the photo shoot, I headed back to the company to work on a new song for my upcoming comeback. Even though, Boram is off of work today, I can still work alone to get it done,but I will have to work hard. It isn't my first time making a song by myself without her help,so I just decided to let my mind take the wheel.

As I headed to the main studio, Suddenly I saw Rap Monster in there, it seemed like he was also working on a song as well. He seemed to be very focused about this new song as he didn't attend my photo shoot or even call me. I of course didn't want to bother him in his busy moment of working on this precious song of his, also I know he wouldn't want anyone to disturb him. Moreover, I just decided to leave the studio and work on my album later. However, I decided to hang out with Boram at the mall sense I need some time off as well.

At the mall

At the mall, Boram and I went all over the place to find a perfect outfit for the company gathering this evening. Boram decided to wear a short dress not to get confuse with the types of dresses that Eun jung likes to wear tight mini dresses. Then, I decided to wear a one piece romper with high heels and a hat. When we were done shopping, we decided to sit down at the nearest cafe, have a little chat and catch up on the latest gossip. Me and Boram haven't spend any time together sense the day, we went to the cafe and ended up getting into a small argument over being a celebrity.

''We are going to look amazing at this party that our company is hosting. Also, we are going to make all those other wannabe celebrities look stupid.'' Boram said in excitement

''Yeah we totally are going to make them look like complete idiots. They are going to wish they never stepped foot in front of us.'' I said laughing hysterically

''Anyway, I wanted to ask you how have you been doing?'' she said worried

''What do you mean,Boram? I've been doing great these days even though,we haven't been hanging out a lot due to our busy schedules. '' I said confused

''Qri, cut the crap already!! You haven't been acting yourself lately, you've been very out of it for the past few days and its getting to be annoying. Me and Eun Jung have both noticed it a lot lately and you need to snap out of it. Don't tell me-- it has to do with Rap Monster not talking to you lately?'' she said

''Okay!, You got me Boram god lord! Its just that...I miss him very much. The way he use to be their for me now I feel like...he is not their anymore.'' I said sadly

''What the Hell! Are you even talking about? Qri, Get your head out of your ass, this is Rap Monster you are talking about, you guys have been friends for the longest time from what I can remember and nothing is going to change that. Trust me! '' she said seriously

''Do you really think that? What if he doesn't want to be friends anymore due to what happened?'' I asked worried

''Did you not listen to a word I said? Its not going to happen, I know Rap Monster like we were siblings, he would never do that to you or anyone that he loves. Furthermore, stop worrying so much and have fun.'' she said

''Thank you! Boram for being their for me.'' I said

''No problem! Plus we are best friends, we must have each other backs and stick together no matter what.'' she said

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After hearing Boram speech, I felt very happy again, now I feel back to my own self again and now I can finally breathe again. Then, I can be more confident about myself and also not stress to much about the small things. Furthermore, I can just let everything in my life just happen on its own and stay positive. If Rap Monster wants to talk then he is alway welcome to talk to me and he know that. I decided to started to get ready for the party now that I had my thoughts in the right place.

When I arrived at the party, It was so packed with some much people than I had expected. For some reason, I thought that it would be just Empire entertainment artistes,but Stardom artists were there too as well. They were all dressed so nice and elegant as well. Boram and I both turned to each other and laughed. It seemed like we both got too ahead of ourselves at the mall. However, For the most part we both enjoyed boasting about ourselves sometimes.

As we walked in too sit down at our table, Eun jung suddenly walked in wearing the most sexiest dress ever. She had everyone attention even both the chairmans. However, we both weren't surprised because she is always the center of attention out of the two of us. Then, After her entrance Kai suddenly made his way in wearing a black tux, He attracted so much girls its like...we were at one of his concerts and also the chairmans were watching as well. Two minutes later, Rap Monster made his appearance wearing all white tux, which also made everyone go crazy as well and his father was watching closely.

We both had a special table for us because we were the top artist of our company and producers. Before the party started, we all started chatting sense we haven't really talked to each other for a while. This was the first time that we actually sat down together and talked to one another in a long time. My heart was beating so much because I noticed that Rap Monster was actually sitting next to me, He was actually talking as well not that he wouldn't and he didn't seem to have a problem with me. The vibe around us was so live and it was amazing to talk with each other about so much different things as we are all friends.

As we were all enjoying ourselves, Kai started talking about some new girl at their company who just started her debut and she was also going to be attending the party. He also said that the girl was nothing special at all, she is like those other artists,but the company likes to through her out of proportions like she is anything special. However, Eun Jung cut him off and gave him a unpleasant look to shut him up. Eun Jung told us that she is a very nice person and learns very quickly.

She also said that she is talented and smart. We were all nervous about this girl and what she really was about besides what Eun Jung had to say. Three minutes later, their was a girl who walked over to our table, she was wearing a white maxi skirt with a white half shirt and white boots. She was quite pretty,but she gave off this clingy vibe. As she made her way to her seat, she looked at both Kai and Eun Jung who were both talking to each other quietly.

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After the dinner was coming to an end, we all decided to go out and hang out some more. However, the new girl came over and finally introduced herself to us after a long period of silence at the dinner table. She spoke very softly,but she actually seemed pretty nice. She said that her name was Lily which I thought was a beautiful name to have. Of course, I wasn't too happy that they (the chairman's) let her sit at our table, she should've sat with the rookie artists not with us. However, I was just more please that me and Rap Monster got to talk and have fun together. Also, That the party was amazing and we all had fun together like we use too despite being in different companies.

As for the new girl Lily, we will see what type of girl she truly is and how she contributes to our group. Whether she is capable of knowing were her boundaries are and also where she stands in this group.

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