Bad Boy

PART 3
JI EUN'S P.O.V.

Yes, that's probably it. I have been seeing way too much of Oh Sehun lately. Yes, that's why I suddenly dreamed of him being my lover, and the father of my child. That's it.

I knew I was distracted when I started walking to work. I couldn't really go back to sleep after walking up from my dream, or was it a nightmare? Why is there a voice niggling in my subconscious that kept telling me its a memory. No! I refuse to believe that it was ever a reality. I would never be stupid enough to get involved with Oh Sehun.

I kept walking with out really seeing where I was walking. I trudged the path I took a thousand times before. My mind whirling, torn between memories and nightmares. It was almost too late before I realized I was walking straight into the path of an oncoming car. I was yanked back to safety by a pair of strong arms and hugged tightly in a warm embrace. My cheek hit someone's hard chest before I felt myself and the person holding me falling down. Whoever was my savior took the brunt of the fall. Despite that, the wind was knocked out of me. I couldn't breathe for a few minutes and my lungs felt like they were on fire.

My clouded mind could not process the frantic shouting of the person holding me. A felt a sense of Déjà vu. It's like I've been like this before.....I saw a glimpse of it in my mind. But only the pain remained. I could not really recall anything.

"Ji Euna! Ji Euna! Answer me! Please, Jagi! wake up! wake up! Somebody call an ambulance!" Foggily my mind processed that the person holding me is now frantic about my safety, I forced myself to breathe as deeply as I can. I saw Sehun frantically shouting while shaking me awake. He was holding me very tightly. It felt like I was traveling a long never ending tunnel just to be able to see him, to reach him. My hand touched his face to draw his attention back to me.

"Sehun, I'm alright. Is the baby going to be okay?" I asked softly. I saw relief flood his eyes as I focused on him, quickly followed by surprise. His brows were knitted by confusion as he shook his head in disbelief.

"Ji Euna! You remember now? I....I.." Sehun was stumbling over his words. His eyes were starting to water with unshed tears. He grasped my hand and kissed me.

"I am sorry. I am so sorry. Please forgive me. Please......... Ji Euna!!!" Sehun was frantic again. That was my last coherent thought before I passed out again.

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SEHUN P.O.V.

Dear God. Punish me if you must but please keep her safe. How many times in my life must I see the person I love most get hurt right in front of my eyes?

What were you thinking about my love? Why were you not paying attention to where you were going? I should have moved faster. I nearly lost you again. Do you really remember be now? Do you remember our baby? Our love? The accident? My sin? Can I beg again for your forgiveness? For your love? Why are you so still?

I stood up abruptly as the doctor entered the room.

"Good Morning Mr. Oh. Are you the patient's guardian?" The doctor politely inquired.

"She's my fiancée. What's going on? Why is she still unconscious? She wasn't hit by the car. does she have any internal bleeding? Do we need to transfer her to a trauma center." I anxiously threw one question after the other to the poor doctor. He just smiled benevolently at me. He was the grandfather type.

"You can relax son. I see no evidence of recent trauma on her tests or scans. I do see that she must have been in a major accident before?" The elder asked quizzically as he gently guided me to sit down again.

"Yes sir. She was in a car accident three years ago. She nearly died then." Sehun replied almost barely above a whisper.

"Well as far as all our test indicates, physically she's just fine, if slightly under weight for her age and height. However, I can only guess that a person's mind will try to protect itself from any perceived trauma by shutting down." The doctor told me politely.

"We just need to wait for her to wake up on her own to see what else needs to be done. It will only be then that we can fully evaluate the extent of her mental condition. I will leave for now, with instructions to be called or paged once she awakens." He politely inclined his head towards me. I gave the doctor a deep bow before I returned my silent vigil at Ji Eun's bedside.

Three years ago, I was the rich, spoiled bad boy of the university. Too used to getting my own way. Too much money and power and not enough guidance. My parent's idea of parenting was buying me whatever I ask for as long as I don't interfere in their race to make more money.
I was in my senior year when she transferred from another university. She was one year my junior. Pretty, friendly, smart, good girl. The kind I would never get involved with. They almost always want only one thing from me. A ring on her finger.

Ironically, I ended up being the one pursuing her. Despite her good girl image, she was also a little spitfire who never lacks the courage to stand up for herself and for those she cares about. She impressed me with her directness and her courage. She demanded an apology for my wrong doing. I can't even remember anymore at this point exactly what i did. All I remember was for the first time since I could remember, somebody called me on my bullshit.

I showered her with lavish gifts that only someone with money and power could buy. She threw it back at me and told me never to insult her again. I tried seducing her, and she laughed at me and called me cute. Everyone else thought I was manly, sexy and seductive. She cut me down with one smile. I was frankly getting cantankerous, not used to being ignored or lumped in with the rest of humanity. I always thought I was special. I never worked so hard to prove it to anybody in my life.

I made a paper doll cut out for her and told her to hang it over her bed. I joked that this were how many children I would give her. She thanked me for it and smiled at me like I gave her the moon and the stars. In that moment, for the first time in my life, I felt my frozen heart beat faster than it ever did in my life. If I have to point out a moment where I knew exactly when I fell in love with her, it would be that moment.

I worked hard to earn that love. I made myself over to be a man worthy of that love. Perhaps it was too soon, but making love to her seemed as natural as the air I breathed. Every kiss, every touch we shared is a precious memory.

I graduated a year before her. I didn't need a job since I stood to inherit a lot of money but because I did not want her to think I am lazy, I took a menial job in my father's company. One where i can be pretty much be free most afternoons and evenings to be with her. I basically moved in with her. I slept beside her, woke beside her, ate beside her, pretended to read books quietly while she studied and always came home to be with her.

We had each other. My life was complete. Until the day we found out we were going to have a baby. I was in shock. Not that I would have minded having babies with Ji Eun, I was just worried it was too soon. Idiotically I opened my mouth and blurted out the most stupid thing I could say.

"But we were always careful. Are you sure?" Those were the exact words that came out of my mouth.
I saw her shock, then her pain. Before she closed her eyes and shut me out. The following day, when I came home, she already left. I took me six months before I found her. As if things weren't complicated enough, my father chose that moment to be the asshole that he is. He confronted Ji Eun and told her to get an abortion. He named a sum that would get her set for life. Again, Ji Eun saw the worst possible side of me. Instead of fighting back, getting mad or defending her. I did what I had always done when my father hurst me with his words. I froze everyone out. I chose that moment to look at him blankly and walked out.

Ji Eun's mother was livid at the treatment she was receiving. She packed up Ji Eun and moved her again to the house she now lives in. A few weeks before she was due to give birth, I traced her and came to get back my family. This time, I tried to be diplomatic. I bided my time. Ji Eun and her mother were involved in a car accident on their way to her OB appointment. Her mother died instantly trying to protect Ji Eun and our child. Ji Eun was bleeding badly.

Despite the best medical team that money could buy. Our baby died in her womb. She was in a coma with little possibility of survival. I wanted to die with her. Miraculously, Ji Eun healed slowly but surely.

I was holding her hand when she finally opened her eyes for the first time in months. The first thing she asked for was our baby. My silence spoke volumes. The grief I saw in her eyes will haunt me for the rest of our lives. That was the last time she looked at me with any sign of recognition. Until this morning.

She became agitated every time I tried visiting her after that time. I was impeding her recovery. I withdrew from her conscious life but remained hovering. I cannot lose her too.

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JI EUN'S P.O.V.

Slowly I came awake to the most beautiful man I have ever seen in my life. He smiled in relief, kissed me and embraced me so tightly i couldn't breathe. Oh Sehun. I smiled, but then memories started flooding in. I shoved him away from me before slapping his face so hard his head should have spun around.

"Stay away from me you bastard!!"

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