Starting Over.

“Jae-sshi!” I screamed.
I rushed over to the unconscious body lying on the floor. I shook him but he didn’t even flinch.
“APPA!” I screamed tears flowing down my eyes.
My dad rushed to my room, and his eyes widened at the body lying on the floor. He quickly got his phone out of his pocket and dialed the ambulance. They quickly came and took Jae-sshi with them, I was with him the entire time, until when they said I should leave because they needed to do some checkups. The doctors finally came out; I ran up to the doctor and found out it was Kang-Soo.
“Kang-Soo oppa!” I screamed while running up to him.
“why do I always see you in the hospital?” he asked laughing a bit but his expression quickly changed when he saw me crying.
“ho-how’s Jae-sshi?” I asked hiccupping.
He smiled again.
“don’t worry he’s fine but he needs some rest. He has starved himself and that’s why he fainted” he said and patted my back.
“we can talk later but now; you can go inside and see him” he said and showed me the way.
I walked inside and was greeted by a Jae-sshi who was eating. I smiled, glad that he was eating, but sad because I didn’t know anything about him starving himself. I sat beside him and watched him eat, he saw me but kept eating.
“Yah! Why aren’t you saying hi?” I asked pouting.
“damn, it’s hard to try acting mad at you” he said laughing.
I smiled at him for second but turned serious.
“why did you starve yourself?” I asked.
He looked down and sighed.
“because I don’t deserve to eat. I couldn’t even protect you, then how am I supposed to eat calmly? I love you in my entire heart and that’s why it hurts so much. All this you went through. You nearly got raped and couldn’t even get close to any male without having a break down, and all that happened because I couldn’t protect you. I’m scared that you won’t love me anymore and leave me” he said crying a bit.
Then I remembered something. If a boy cries because of you then you must mean a lot to him, that’s something Bomi told me a lot. I came closer to him and hugged him.
“you want to hear something?” I asked letting go of the hug
He nodded.
“I never told this to anyone. I sat in my room one day alone, just thinking about something but suddenly this boy came to my mind. Then I realized that he always comes to my mind, I began to wonder how long he’s been on my mind, then I realized that he’s been on my mind since the first day I met him, he never left my mind” I leaned closer to him.
“the boy was you, and it’s always been you” I said in a whisper.
I leaned closer to him and pressed my lips to his soft ones. He was shocked at first but gave in. I laid beside him on the hospital bed and stayed with him the entire night.

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