Lets Not Fall in love.

There are a lot of things I often look up to. For instance, when my dad was alive I could hear him shuffling the hallway to get to work before I had to get for school.

Sometimes I woke up to my mother getting up for work. And sometimes when my brother had over Hyungwon, I would hear him snoring. Those are just a few things I woke up to. But this particular morning I woke up to my brother over me with a iron grip on my shoulders.

I open my eyes groggily to meet his hostile ones. He looked like he had just witnessed a murder, maybe he had. "You're actually fucking Seunghyun Choi." it wasn't a question. And I was still in the midst of sleep so I couldn't come up with a lie. So I laid on my back looking up at him and bat my eyes.

" where did you get an idea like that?" just because I was super tired didn't mean that I wouldn't at least try to get out of it some kind of way.

"IM and Hyungwon said that you may have something going on with him. I didn't want to believe it, of course I didn't want to believe it but then I saw you getting out of his car the other day. Amy are you retarded?" I set up roughly, forcing him off of me and to the edge of my bed where he just looked at me. I tried my best to mimic Choi's poker face.

"It's not like that. I just. We met a few nights after you and I got here."

"When were you going to tell me?"

For some reason, I felt a little offended. When was I going to tell him? When was I going to tell him!?! When was you going to tell me about anything he had been doing. I figured now that since he knew about me and what I was up to, that I could lay everything out on the table because I knew more than he could ever imagine. And I knew he wouldn't do anything about it. Like what? Tell my mother?

"Juniper, when exactly were you going to tell me about Monsta X? About working with zico? About robbing that club. They want to kill you guys."

this made Juniper cast his eyes down in my comforter instead of looking at me. got you, you little punk. "Seunghyun actually isn't that bad of a guy." I felt a lump form in my throat as I said this, who was I really trying to convince your? Myself or my brother?. I really want to believe that he wasn't that bad of a guy. He hadn't hurt me. Or done things against my wishes. He's never threatened me. And maybe deep down inside I wanted to believe that he felt more for me than I did for him.

" I'm just supposed to be okay with him being intimate with my little sister?" I reached over to turn the alarm on my phone off and then got up out of my bed to take my packed bags out of my closet. "And Hyungwon. You know he digs you right?" I bought a little bit and took out what I was going to wear for tonight. "No. I didn't." I semi lied. Excuse me for thinking he just want to get in my pants, who the hell am I kidding he was the sweetest person I've ever met. But it was too late for that. Before he was just someone I knew from a rival gang before he started hanging out with my brother. Before we got close the way we did. Before I even started to trust him.

"Well he does and- is that a see through bra? Amy!" I shut him up by throwing a pair of socks at him. Then explained it was because I'd be wearing a dress.

"Hyungwon told me about you guys planning to meet up with Zico tonight. I guess it's only fair to tell you that I'm going to Seoul for the weekend with Seunghyun." My brother gave out a dramatic sigh and then fell back on my bed.

" what does Mom think you're doing?" he asked me.

" she thinks I'm working late and then having a girl's night with Juli before school starts again." I answered before reiterating my question back to him.

"She thinks I'll just be at Hyungwon's. I need to start thinking out of the box like you." He said with a chuckle. One that I returned. Once school started back he wouldn't have anything to do with this gang business. We have way too much homework to worry about. And pretty soon colleges to be entering.
." Thanks for not telling Mom on me, Amy."

" and to you as well, sir."~~~~

" my, my." Choi's voice was Sultry and low and he pulled up and one of the pretty shiny white vans much like the one I had been shoved into you when I first met him. I hopped in the car after throwing all my stuff in the back and turned to him. Automatically, I leaned forward to kiss him I was overwhelmed by the taste of sweet coffee and cigarettes. It was actually a pleasant taste.

" I can't wait to devour you tonight." He murmured to me. I sat back in my seat and rolled my eyes."

" can you take me to dinner first before you think about touching me?"

" what is it with you women and food?" We both shared a laugh before we drove off. Off to Seoul. I actually hadn't been to school since I was little girl. But this was just as fine. I always imagine going to a nice city with a significant other on some extravagant date. The closest was when an ex-boyfriend of mine to me Little Tokyo because that's what he thought I would like.

but was Seunghyun really my significant other? Did I love him? Did I think this relationship will be something long-term?

" why is your expression so sour princess?".
I turned to look at him in the face as he drove. He didn't look back at me but I knew I had his attention.

" am I your girlfriend?" To this Outburst, he chuckled a little bit. I hate it when he chuckled.

" am I your boyfriend? Are we dating?" I rolled my eyes.

" that's why I'm asking you. I don't know we've been at this for almost two months and..."

" do people still even do labels anymore? My goal is to treat you like a queen and have you by my side. I like you Amaryllis. And you like me, right?" I could only nod slightly. Because he was somewhat right why do we need a label?

"But... You're right." He said suddenly. And I tilted my head to the side and gave him the side eye.

" if I would have given you a little sooner other than "my girl." I wouldn't have to think about how you made out with a man I hate in my own club." I hung my head and purse my lips together. Well he was right about that. It was a wonder how still trusted me after I had done something so stupid.

"You're my girlfriend. How about that? As your boyfriend, I'm going to treat you like a queen. I'm never going to hurt you. I'll be here, I promise" I rolled my eyes and set back in the seat. I don't want to get emotional in front of him. I didn't want to cry. But what I did do was reach over and grab his free hand while we continued on to Seoul.

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