Gratefulness~ pt.5

It's almost twelve and my hands are shaking as I approach the office again. I try to calm down because this is not how I usually react. I'm not the one who gets overly nervous about things. It's just that the people I'm going to meet are going to be the members I will have to come along for possibly many many years. Ugh, I think to myself. Why am I worrying?
I walk the last steps up and there they are. I see two people sitting on their chairs and the chair on the left is empty for me. Hyun Suk looks at me and nods.
"Good, we are all here," he says. And the girls turn around to stare at me surprised because of Hyun Suk's English.
"Minea?"
"Mi-Ok!" I recognise her from her gorgeous silky hair and I run to hug her and she stands up happily.
"I can't believe this! I love it!!" she screams and I scream a bit too.
"I'm so relieved that you're with me," I sigh and all the shaking stops.
"Hi," a black-haired girl looks at me behind Mi-Ok. She looks a bit uncomfortable, having to be the one that has to settle down with two friends.
"Oh, hello, Bu Bae Kwan," I smile at her and she gives a small smile back.
I sit down and Hyun Suk turns to us.
"So, you are the group," he looks at each of us. "I hope you'll get along well together and even if you don't, you have to. This is where the things begin to get real. You are going to work together and you have to be ready for this, right? Well..."
"Are we going to speak English all the time?" BaBo broughts up suddenly.
"Mineha is a foreigner, so yes, until she learns Korean," Hyun Suk answers casually.
"All the time? What if I forget Korean?" she starts nagging and I honestly could not be rude like her towards him. He's the boss.
"I don't understand why it's a problem for you. Your English grades are straight As," Hyun Suk reveals and BaBo has to agree with him, until she opens her mouth again. "But all the Chinese people and others just barge in here and they don't know the shit is going on. They don't speak Korean. We don't speak Chinese. They come into our country and they learn the language. Isn't that how it's supposed to go? Jesus!"
"It's true... I will learn to speak Korean quickly," I add silently.
"It will take years," she mutters by herself, not even looking at me.
"This is not a good atmosphere to start with," Hyun Suk looks at her angrily and she finally quiets down. "You are going to be more international than any other group before, if everything goes according to what I've planned for you, so English is not a skill to forget now. It will be very useful for you in the future."
I didn't think he was a person who would make a lot of plans but more likely to go with the flow, I think to myself.
"But about what's happening now... Tomorrow you have photoshoots," he reads from his calender which is marked full of little reminders. "For the teasers that will start dropping next week."
"Are they official?" Mi-Ok looks at him excited.
"Not for the debut consept, just teasers that something's coming," he coughs.
That's typical of him, keeping people wondering what the teasers are for. We discuss some basic things, our new schedules and sign a few papers.
"Now, the first thing. You have to move together in a dorm and get to know each other..."

"What's wrong with her?" I look at Mi-Ok.
"I know, right? She used to be so nice..." she says and at the same BaBo comes from behind the corner and looks at us like we were trash.
"You are so full of yourselves," he blurts out and Mi-Ok is brave enough to grab her hand.
"What?" Mi-Ok asks and stares at her in the eyes.
BaBo tells her to let her go and then grins.
"You," she looks at me. "Do you know what kind of rumours are spreading out there?"
"Out there as...?"
"Inside the building."
"Okay," I shrug. I know that I'm a thread for everyone and that the trainees hate me because of it. It's not a new thing. Mi-Ok looks at me worried.
"They say," BaBo begins dramatically. "That you're dating G-Dragon and that without him you could never be an idol. It's only possible because YG loves G-Dragon like he was his own son." Well this certainly wasn't what I expected.

"And why do they think she's dating G-Dragon?" Mi-Ok gets closer to her, trying to threaten.
But BaBo utters a laughter at her amusing actions.
"You're not the only trainees that lived in that dormitory," BaBo looks down on her. It's true what she's saying. The others must have seen me hanging out with him.
"BaBo," I begin talking but she interrupts me.
"Don't call me BaBo. To you, I am Bu Bae Kwan. Your sunbae."
"Okay," I take a deep breath so that I wouldn't explode. "Whatever. But I don't care what they say. Maybe it's a good thing that I met him and I got to do this thing. I know that you all are scared of me because ooh~ I'm a foreigner. I got in just like that. But it certainly does not mean that I don't work my fucking ass off for what I want," I start to heat up. BaBo stares at me blankly.
"Yeah! Maybe because of him I met Yang Hyun Suk and maybe because BIGBANG liked me I got my opportunity. Of course, if I had never met YG, I had never even come to think about it, that I could become a YG trainee. That's ridiculous! Even I can agree on that. But you have to remember that they have lots of foreigners working for them and they don't just grab them by sleeves and ask if they want to become trainees. And we weren't even together with Ji Yong back then. But YG heard me singing and he liked my voice and that's why I am here now," I end my preach. "I may have told too much to you but I am not afraid of you or any other trainee out there. As much as I'd like to be accepted, I don't need to prove you wrong if I know I'm not," I say and pick up my heavy sports bag.
"I have something to say to you too," Mi-Ok stands up for me. "Something to ask: do you understand that if someone it's you who gets kicked out of the group if you don't start acting like you like us?"
BaBo laughs. And this time it's different kind of laughter, not at all arrogant.
"I didn't know you two got such a spice in you."

Notes

Teaser for chapter 5