Remembering Elizabeth (Featuring Suho and Sehun)

The next afternoon, Sehun joined me in the library. I was looking for a book that would keep me awake at night. ALL night. I told him the news I had received when I got up this morning, that my sister would be arriving in two days. He hugged me and told me that it was great news but he looked a little sad. I was VERY sad. In effect, this had been the only home I’ve ever known. I was getting ready to enter an alien world where I didn’t know anyone. AGAIN! To make matters worse, I should know! Everyone would know me and probably be happy to see me but they would be complete strangers.
Sehun still looked tired. Sometimes I wanted to reach up and wipe away the black smudges from under his eyes.
“What kind of book are you looking for?” he asked.
“A mystery I think,” I said as I looked over the titles on the shelf.
“Hold on.” Sehun crossed the room and took a book down from a high shelf. The sunlight coming in from the huge arched window lay in his hair and picked out certain colors to spark off of. Light brown, mahogany, rich dark brown, and even a few stray blond hairs. I stood there ignoring his words and admiring his good looks.
“This is one of my favorites,” he said. “It has a surprise ending.” He brought it over to me.
“Thank you, Sehun,” I said as I turned it over to read the back copy. “This looks good.”
He leaned against the desk and said, “Junie thinks we should get out of the house today. Where would you like to go?” He crossed his arms.
I thought about it. “Well, I really don’t know of any places to go. You see, I have this little annoying problem called amnesia and it prevents me from knowing just about everything. So why don’t you pick a place. Somewhere fun.”
If the look he gave me could talk, it would say You are a smart ass! “Fun huh? How about…” he tapped his finger against his lip as he thought. Then his tongue came out to rest on his upper lip as he looked up at the ceiling. I caught myself staring at it as he moved it around, wetting his lip and making it shine. “I know! Dress warmly and meet me at the bottom of the stairs.”

When I reached the entrance hall, Sehun was already there pulling on his gloves.
“Where’s Suho? Isn’t he coming?” I asked.
“Nah. He’s doing something boring as usual. It sucks to be the leader.” He smiled down at me. His smile made my insides feel all warm. You couldn’t look at that face and not smile back.
“Okay, then where are we going?” I asked as I finished buttoning up my coat.
“We should have bought you another coat. That thing is awful,” He said as he sneered at my big ugly coat.
I looked down at it too and got embarrassed. “I think this belonged to Tom,” I said.
“Then we definitely should have gotten rid of it.” He started unbuttoning the top buttons. “Take this thing off.” I finished the other buttons while he went to a hall closet and brought out another much better looking coat. It was still too big but it was in much better shape. He threw Tom’s coat onto the floor and said something in Korean into the intercom on the wall. He came over and moved my hands away and finished buttoning the new coat up for me.
“Why do you two do that?” I asked.
“Do what?”
“Treat me like a little girl. You do things for me that I’m capable of doing for myself,” I said.
“Well, now it has been confirmed for sure,” he said with an impish grin.
“What has?”
“You’re definitely an American,” he said as he opened the door.
As he put me in the car and buckled my belt, I said, “See, I can buckle my own seat belt you know.”
“Shhhh….” Was how he responded. I laughed.

Sehun seemed almost giddy on the way to wherever we were going. I liked it. It was so much better than the sad and brooding Sehun.
“You seem really excited,” I said.
“I haven’t done this in years and it’s one of my favorite things to do. I haven’t had time until now.”
We talked for a while until we passed a place I recognized. When I saw the sign for the restaurant through the window behind Sehun, I had a quick flash of a street corner, a piece of paper with the name of that restaurant on it, and of the smiling face of the man in my other visions. He wasn’t scary in this one. I must have looked strange because Sehun’s face became white and his smile turned into a look of concern.
“Elizabeth? Are you alright?”
“Umm… I’m not sure. I recognize the name of that restaurant back there.”
“That one? He turned and pointed behind us.
“Mmm-hmm.” I felt spacey.
“Are you okay? Do we need to go home?”
“No,no. I’m fine. There was no pain this time. Just a memory. Not even a scary one. I think it was the day I was kidnapped.”
“And that wasn’t scary?”
“It really wasn’t. I think it’s because I wasn’t afraid in the memory,” I said.
“You weren’t afraid when you were being taken?” he asked in disbelief. He looked confused.
“I think I went with him willingly. I almost had the feeling of excitement. Like I was doing something fun,” I said.
Sehun thought for a moment. “So you knew the guy?” he asked.
“I don’t think so. Not really. It felt more like I knew OF him. Like I was meeting him for the first time but I already knew who he was.”
Sehun studied my face and said, “Felt like? Instead of remembering, it sounds like you are reliving these things.”
“I think I am. It feels like these things are actually happening. I feel the touches and the emotions.”
“We should go home,” said Sehun.
“No! Sehun please? I’m fine really. I want to go,” I pleaded. I didn’t want to always ruin everything for him.
He looked at me skeptically. “Alright. But if it happens again, we go home. Deal?”
I think he was really afraid.
“I promise.”

When the car stopped, we looked to be in the middle of no where. There was a little shack and then nothing. Sehun was really excited again though.
If I remember anything else, I’m keeping it to myself!
He got out and opened my door for me but I beat him to the seatbelt.
“Where the heck are we?” I asked, looking around.
“Come on. You’re going to love it!” Sehun took hold of my hand. His hands were so warm and so much bigger than mine. My hand disappeared in his. “Your hands are so cold. Here, put these on.” He had put his gloves in his coat pocket in the car and now he was trying to put them on my hands.
“No Sehun. I’m not taking your gloves from you!”
“Shhhh…” he said as he put them on me anyway. I shook my head. So sweet!
The shack was as much a shack on the inside as it was on the outside. Sehun talked to the little man behind the counter in Korean so I still didn’t know what we were going to do. The man reached under the counter and brought out two black helmets. They were so shiny that they were almost mirrors. Sehun looked back at me, smiled and winked. He gave the little man some money and turned around to put one of he helmets on my head. It was a little big but he tightened the straps enough to make it snug. When he put his on, my breath caught in my chest. Sehun was hot. There was no denying it. He led me through a door at the back of the shack and I immediately knew what we were doing. I tried to turn around and go back into the shack but he caught me and turned me back around.
“Nope. We’re doing this.” He pushed me in front of him.
Lined up behind the shack were twenty four-wheelers. I didn’t know if I could drive. And if I could, I didn’t remember how now. We stopped in front of a candy apple red one. It was smaller than the others.
“You like this one?” he asked with his eyebrows raised.
“I don’t know how to drive one of these, Sehun,” I said.
“It’s so easy. I’ll show you.” He helped me get on and showed me the controls. It did seem easy. There was basically just go, stop, and turn. I wanted to get off as soon as I got on but when I looked at his face and saw the excitement, I couldn’t disappoint him. He climbed onto a bigger black four-wheeler a few down from mine. He pulled in front and motioned for me to follow. I said a prayer, closed my eyes, which wasn’t the smartest thing to do, and hit the go button.
He was right! It was easy! And fun. Once I got the hang of it, I could see why he was so excited to get here. I followed him for a while but when we came to a beach, he stopped and I pulled up beside him. He raised his visor to speak to me. His cheeks were flushed pink and he had a sparkle in his eyes that I hadn’t seen before. He has the sexiest eyes I can remember, I thought. Suho’s were nice too, in a sweet way. But sometimes when Sehun looked at me, my tummy did little flip flops.
Looking at the joy on his face, I could tell that when he was out here, he felt free. No one was sticking things in his face to sign, no one clicking pictures on their phones, and no one screaming and yelling for his attention. He could just be Sehun.
He had to yell for me to hear him. “I’ll race ya to the far bank. If you win, I’ll buy your lunch. Anything you want. If I win, you have to kiss me!” I couldn’t see his mouth but his eyes were smiling and daring me to take the wager. I smiled back. Either way it went I was a winner.
“Okay, you’re on!”
“On the count of three,” he said. He put his visor down and held up three fingers. I got ready and he lowered one finger and then took off. I just sat there for a second, stunned that he had just cheated. Sehun! I hit the go button and revved the engine. There was no way I could catch him. He looked back at me and then threw his hand up. I gave it a good try but he made it to the other side a full minute before I did. When I stopped, he was already off of his bike and had his helmet off. He was laughing. Hard.
I jumped off of mine and took my helmet off too so that I could yell at him. Before I got a chance, he was in front of me. He said, “Pay up!” and then his mouth was on mine. He pushed me back against the bike and grabbed my head with both hands, intertwining his fingers with my hair. His tongue softly entered my mouth and drove me crazy. He had leaned into me so close that I was practically laying back on the bike. The kiss seemed to last forever. It was long and slow and soft. When he finally pulled away, we were both breathing hard.
Oh. My. God!
He stared at me as he tried to catch his breath. I was dizzy and my body was tingling.
“Well,” he finally said, “let’s go eat.” With that, he put his helmet back on and got back on his bike. He waited for me to get back on mine and we returned to the shack.

On the way to the restaurant, we didn’t say much. I think we were both a little uncomfortable. He had gotten shy. There was nothing shy about that kiss but now there was a blush in his cheeks and he couldn’t quite look into my eyes.
The restaurant was more like a little diner. It was so cute. We sat in a booth in the corner near the window and after we ordered, nothing. I was going to have to be the one to break the silence.
“So, what exactly was that?” I asked.
He was tearing pieces off of a paper napkin so that he didn’t have to look directly at me. “What do you mean?” he asked.
“Sehun.”
“Alright. Here it is. You are leaving in two days and I figured, why not? So I went for it.”
I nodded. “Okay. I mean, it’s fine. I was just surprised is all.”
“Really? I was just collecting on a bet.” He didn’t lift his head, only his eyes and looked at me.Damn! Stop that Sehun!
“Which wasn’t right because YOU cheated!”
He didn’t answer to that.
After we ate, Sehun asked me if I wanted coffee. I remembered the coffee I had in the airport and I decided against it.
“I don’t think I like coffee,” I said.
“Alright, hot chocolate?”
“Sure!” Anything with the name hot chocolate HAD to be good!
Instead of waiting for the waitress, Sehun went to the bathroom and stopped at the counter on the way back to get our drinks. I was drowsily staring out of the window. It was like watching a television show. There were so many interesting people. I liked to try to make up what they were discussing or figure out where they were going or where they came from. A particular man caught my eye for the simple fact that his hair was so blond, it was practically white. It really stood out in the sea of black hair on the street. Then he turned around. My heart stopped. My entire body went numb and I could feel the familiar pain building in my head. It was him! The man that kidnapped and tortured me was standing right outside. All I had to do was tell Sehun but I couldn’t move. I was frozen in fear. I couldn’t breathe and misty fog started to blur my sight. My stomach threatened to eject the food I had just eaten and yet I still couldn’t move. Until the pain obliterated every other sensation. The last thing I remember of the real world was a beastly scream tearing it’s way out of my throat, Sehun dropping the cups and hearing them shatter, and seeing his panicked face as he ran toward me in slow motion.
After that, I was once again a prisoner in that small locked apartment. It was dark except for a blue light coming in through the small window. It caused everything to have an eerie blue glow. I looked around the best I could at the bedroom that was my prison cell. I was laying in a huge four poster bed with black satin blankets. I had a thick gold chain around my ankle that tethered me to the bed. I jumped when I looked across the room and noticed that I wasn’t alone. The white haired man was sitting on a desk staring at me except his hair wasn’t white. It was brown. My heart began to race. I didn’t know if it was from fear or excitement. He slid slowly off the desk and walked toward me. I watched as he just as slowly began to unbutton his shirt. After three buttons, he ripped the rest off in one movement. As I watched him remove his clothes, the area between my legs began to get hot and throb. He went to the end of the bed and grabbed my ankles. He roughly pulled me toward him. He ran his hands up each of my legs and grabbing my panties, he slowly pulled them down until they were tangled in the chain. I scooted back up into the bed as he crawled with me, until his face was hovering over mine. He lowered his mouth onto mine and his tongue filled up the empty space. His hands slid up and over my breasts and in another quick, violent movement, he ripped the thin t-shirt from my body. His mouth began to seek out all of the hot points on my body. His tongue flicked over very sensitive places and his mouth rested on others. With one thigh, he parted my legs and rested between them. His body slid down mine as his mouth made a path straight toward the hottest part of me. When he reached the edge, my breathing was heavy. He pushed my legs up to part them further and then his mouth softly began kissing my wetness. I climaxed. The bed was already soaked with my excitement when he moved up suddenly and filled me. He groaned and I yelled.
“Kyung! Please, Kyung!” I begged. I wanted more of him. I wanted him to go faster and deeper until we were one person. He knew what I wanted and he gave it to me. He rocked into me and I lifted up to meet him until we were moving in perfect unison. His hands found mine and he pushed my arms over my head and held them there. He kissed me and now his kisses tasted like me. They tasted like unripe strawberries. The sounds he made and the smell of him filled me as much as his body did. There was nothing else in the world but Kyung. Still holding my hands over my head with one hand, he moved the other down between my legs and began to touch me as he plunged into me over and over.
“Come for me my sweetness. Come for me. Come for me. Come for me my Elizabeth…” I did.
As I came and squeezed around him, he did the same. He slowed down and pulled away from me but he didn’t move off of me. We laid there, listening to each others breathing and enjoying the slight buzzy feeling you get just after.
I felt the coldness when he moved away from me. The blue light went off and I was left in complete darkness. I could hear Kyung walking around in heavy boots when seconds ago he hadn’t been wearing anything. His hand ran down my leg and I felt him remove the chain from my ankle.
“Now kitten, we are going to play hide and seek,” he said.
Not again, I thought. I began to cry but silently so he couldn’t hear me. This was when my decent into hell began.
As quiet as I could, I got out of he bed and went to the dresser. I found a t-shirt and some boxers to put on.
“You better hide well, kitten. If I find you then I’m going to have to punish you. You’ve been a bad kitty and Daddy’s mad,” he taunted.
Fear by fear, pain by pain, torment by torment, I relived every part of that horrendous night. The cat and mouse game he played, the beating with the whip, and the vicious rape that in no way resembled the love making I had relived before. I endured it all again. My body ached but not as much as my heart. I lay there curled into a tight ball under that big black satin comforter, and I began to hear a strange beeping. I closed my eyes and listened harder until I could hear voices and sounds that I didn’t recognize.
I opened my eyes and looked around. My sight was a little blurry but I found myself in a hospital bed, connected to an I.V., a heart monitor, oxygen, and a blood pressure finger cuff. There were people moving things and checking things and I didn’t recognize any of them.
Then I spotted Sehun in the hall. He was on the phone with who I deduced was Suho and he was talking a hundred miles a minute. He had been crying and maybe still was. Most of it was Korean but every now and then he would slip some English in there. I heard him say, “They won’t let me go in, Junie! They said the state was taking over until her sister came.” He also said, “I don’t know what to do. You have to come and help me, Junie. She can’t stay here with them.” I watched as he hung up and just stared at the man standing at the door that I assumed was a guard. He glanced in at me and I smiled and gave him a small wave. I could see the shock on his face and he yelled, “Elizabeth!” He tried to get through the door but the guard effectively held him back.
“She’s awake! Let me go! Stop! I need to see her!” I watched, powerless to do anything, as they dragged him away. I could still hear him yelling down the hall. A nurse came in to check on me and I tried to tell her I wanted to see Sehun but she only spoke Korean.
It wasn’t long before I heard a commotion in the hall. I saw Suho talking to some people. Sehun wasn’t with him. He was being loud and stern and when he got that way, he was hard to argue with. His eyes reached me for a split second before he was obstructed my the guard. I was done. They couldn’t make me stay here. I was going home with Suho.
I started pulling wires off, saving the I.V. for last because I knew it was going to hurt. It did. Bells started going off and people came rushing in. But by the time they got there, I was out of the bed and headed for the door. They grabbed me and tried to put me back into the bed but I wasn’t having that. I decided to be the biggest problem they’ve ever had. I would probably end up doped up and tied down but I’ve been through worse and it would be worth it. I would cause them so much grief they’d regret keeping me from my boys. They tried to coax me back and then they used force. When they touched me, I screamed. I screamed bloody murder. They let go but only for a second. Then they redoubled their efforts. I screamed again. I was tearing down the house. I screamed Suho’s and Sehun’s names. I could hear Suho yelling at them to let me go. He said, “YOU’RE HURTING HER YOU BASTARDS!” Men were holding him back.
They got me to the bed and when I got my arm free, I punched a doctor in the face as hard as I could. He was too shocked to grab me so I swung and punched the nurse on the other side. Someone from behind me grabbed my shoulders and tried holding me down. I began to kick. I got one tall guy between the legs and he was out of the fight for good. I kicked another man in the stomach and yet another in the face. They were holding my arms to administer a shot and that’s when I really freaked. Not of my own volition this time. I lost control of my body and my actions.
I saw Tom pushing the plunger of the syringe that held the hot liquid that made me forget. I saw the other man crying and kissing me one last time. I saw darkness, then redness, and then a deep growling scream escaped from me. Everything was red. I could feel my body take over and it found a strength I didn’t know it had. I pulled myself up and pulled away from all of them and fell into Suho’s arms. He pushed me behind him and said some loud things in Korean. Everything became silent and I had to hold onto Suho to keep from falling in the floor. Adrenaline doesn’t last long and when it’s gone, it leaves you helpless. Without looking at me, Suho asked over his shoulder, “Elizabeth? Are you alright?”
“I am now,” I said softly. My throat was raw from so much violent screaming. I could taste blood.
“They can’t hold you against your will. If you want to sign discharge papers and leave with me, I’ll make sure that happens. Is that what you want?”
“So much, Suho.”
“Okay. Get into the closet behind you and get your clothes and put them on. I know it’s a little immodest but it’s a “have to” situation right now. I’ll fix this.”
He began to talk to them in Korean. Some of the orderlies had left and more important looking people showed up. People in uniforms and suits. I got that they wanted to take Suho somewhere to talk but he wasn’t about to leave me with them. He said Sehun’s name but I don’t know what it was about. They all calmed down and talked for a long time. I sat down in the floor. My body was getting sore all over from the fight. I also sort of felt like it was from memories that I had while I was asleep that I could no longer remember.
Finally, Suho came over to me and smiled. He held out his hand to me and I took it and stood up. “Alright. You are mine again. So is Sehun. No one is pressing charges and in fact, they are going to give you both apologies.”
“How in the world did you manage that?” I was impressed.
“Threats and manipulation,” said Suho with a little laugh.
And that’s why he’s the leader!
“What happened to Sehun?” I asked.
“He was arrested for civil disobedience and being a public nuisance.” Said Suho shaking his head.
“What?!!!” I couldn’t believe it.

A nurse brought me the discharge papers to sign and we left. As we walked out, the hospital staff gave us a wide berth. Sehun was already in the car with bloody knuckles and a swollen red cheek that would be a bad bruise tomorrow. He also had a pissed off look on his face until he saw me. He jumped from the car and pulled me into a tight hug.
“Are you alright? Are you hurt?”
“I’m okay Sehun. Actually it looks like I’m better than you.”
“I tried to get to you and they wouldn’t let me in,” he said.
“I know. I saw you. Thank you,” I said as he hugged me again.
“Okay guys, let’s go before they change their minds and commit you both,” said Suho.
We got into the car. Suho looked Sehun up and down and then did the same to me. Then he began to laugh. The laugh built and built until he was laughing so hard he couldn’t breathe. Tears streamed down his face and he had to hold his stomach. Sehun and I just looked at each other. We didn’t see what was so funny. Finally, Suho calmed down.
He said, “What a crazy little family we make.” Then he laughed some more.

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