As Blind As Could Be...

You wake up, feeling as if you were falling from high heights. You flinch. Someone grabs your arm with a strong grip. You sit up. The room is dark. Who knows what time it is right now.

You see his silhouette lean closer to you.

“Eunsoo-ah.” His hot breath whispers.

“Mm.” You answer.

“Another bad dream?” He asks, rubbing your arm. “You want to tell me about it?”

“When did you become a stalker.” You tease.

“Yah.” He pouts. “I couldn’t sleep okay? There’s just a lot to think about… you know, it being our last day and all. It’s sad... I don't want to leave. I don't want to make this big risk.”

“Sehun-ah.” You say. Your hands are at your sides.

“Mm?” He responds.

“You really think we should stay in S.M.?” You whisper.

There's a slight pause.

“I want what's best for us. S.M. is our best chance. Leaving... doesn't exactly mean we're still going to produce music. Besides... we already have history here. In S.M. With our sunbaes and hoobaes.” Sehun replies, whispering. "I don't want that reality to end."

It’s silent for a few minutes. Chanyeol walks into the room. You sense Sehun frowning, but he leaves with no answer. You feel a wave of guilt as Chanyeol's presence sends him off, but he isn’t the only one feeling depressed.

Chanyeol yawns and scratches his head. He stays standing, a few feet from your bed.

Instead of him coming to you, you slowly pounce off your bed. Without warning, you take him into your arms.

He blinks, shocked at first, but returns your embrace, smirking.

“Hey.” His voice is scratchy.

“Hi.” You whisper, smiling.

“Are you okay? Did something happen?” Chanyeol asks, lifting you up slightly.

“Just…” Your voice trails off. “Just missing you, that’s all.”

He lets out a laugh.

“C’mon, I know you better than that.” Chanyeol squeezes you.

“You think we'd be okay... if we didn't terminate our contract with S.M...?” You change the subject, softening your voice. You rest your chin on his shoulder. “If we leave, it'll start major unwanted conflicts.”

“That's true. Is wasn't President Lee's fault for Kyungsoos illness.” Chanyeol points out. He sways you back and forth. “We can't blame him for everything. At the same time, things won't be the same.”

“Wasn’t that our excuse whenever someone left the group.” You sigh. “I don’t want us to be overworked.”

“So give him conditions.” Chanyeol presses his lip on your shoulder.

You let go of the embrace slightly, facing each other.

“I guess this is a topic to talk about when everyone’s around.” You say, looking down.

He moves his hands down to your waist, or maybe even lower.

“Your right.” Chanyeol smirks. “Let’s talk about us now.”

He takes one hand and lifts your head to meet his. You feel yourself blush. He pulls your bodies closer to each other (not that they aren’t already close enough), as you pull his head lower to yours with your hands.

But-

*Beep* *Beep* *Beep* *Beep*

You check your phone, letting go of Chanyeol’s grasp.

5 am Alarm. “Wake UP!”

Chanyeol sighs and ruffles his hair. He sits on your bed, legs dangling.

“Already?” Chanyeol pouts, then changes to a whisper. “But we were just getting started.”

You turn the lights on, blinding both of your eyes. He squints.

“Eo.” You peck him on the lips. “Already. C’mon, let’s go wash up.”

A smile grows on his face as he jumps to catch up with you.

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8 am

Everyone’s awake, moving around. All in a grumpy mood. You and Chanyeol are the first ones ready. You sit on the couch, hands meshed with each others, watching the other members fiddle about and move around the dorm. Yes, the dorm. Everything’s back on track. It’s obvious President Lee wanted you guys back in the dorm to change your minds about leaving the company. But, you haven’t discussed it with everyone yet.

You haven’t gone grocery shopping in forever since… well. Since there wasn’t anyone around who wanted to cook anymore. None the less, who are good at cooking.

Kai approaches you… not in the way you are expecting. His shirt is all scrunched up around his neck. His hands arm high, attempting to pull the shirt off. His abs are showing…. And his face isn’t visible.

“E-eunsoo-ah.” He says. “Help me, please.”

You laugh and let go of Chanyeol hand. Chanyeol was chuckling to himself. You stand up and begin to take his shirt up. But, you realize how vulnerable he is now. You move your hands down and tickle his sides, causing him to move crazy. He laughs so loud, everyone stops to see what was happening.

“Ahhhhh, st- stahaha, stop, Eunsoo-ah!” From a laughter to an annoyed tone, Kai scolds you.

You take the shirt off.

“Pabo.” You hit him in the back of the head. “This isn’t your shirt. It was your roommates.”

Code word for Kyungsoo.

“Ya, think?” Kai shakes his head so his hair was out of his face.

You smile and look around, noticing you drawed everyone’s attention.

“YAH!” You shout. “Get ready! Manager oppa and them are waiting already.”

They smirk and scurry. Finally, after fifteen minutes past, everyone’s ready.

“To think it’s our last day performing and you’ve all been lazy as-.” You stop yourself as you click your seatbelt.

The van starts and you head to the venue. But, before you could leave company grounds, someone stops you.

“President Lee requests to see EXO in his office right now.” She says. “It’s not a yes or no answer, he means RIGHT NOW.”

Chanyeol makes eye contact with you. This could be our last chance.

In his office, the ten of you stand before his desk. He sits, observing each and every one of you.

President Lee, for the first time, looks gloomy and turns to you. “What’s your decision?”

You look around at the others.

“Can we have a moment to talk about this?” You ask. “We’re still undecided.”

“Times ticking.” He sighs. “But, alright. I’ll leave the room briefly. I have to run an errand anyways.”

Once the door close, everyone loosens up.

“SHIRO!” Chen throws his hands up. “I don’t want to be under his command, acting as his puppet anymore!”

“What are we going to do if we disband?” Minseok asks, folding his arms. “Nothing. No job, no hobbies, no freedom because everyone will still know who we are. It’s bull either way.”

“We’re getting too old for this. I’ve been so sleepy these days. And, we’ve been taking a long hiatus. We could just stay on hiatus longer.” Baekhyun sighs.

“That’s not fair to the fans though. I mean, we’re here now because of them, right? Why put them in more pain?” Lay blinks. “It’s not the way EXO should work things out.”

“But, what about our health? We’ve lost… Kyu-... so much since we’ve signed with Lee Soo Man. What now?” Sehun rubs his eyes. “We’re basically killing ourselves already.”

“What else do we have to lose?” Suho says. “Nothing. We have nothing to lose because we’ve lost so much already.”

“What would Kyungsoo do?” Kai whispers, loud enough for only you to hear.

Silence.

Your eyes widen and lock them with him. Spacing out, remembering Kyungsoo’s smiling face, holding his microphone, waving and laughing to the fans on stage. The fans screaming his name, holding posters and light up writing. His happiness.

“We can’t leave.” You mutter. “Kyungsoo’s success and hard work would be a waste if we do. He'd want us to keep fighting and keep smiling... not to throw our talents away and terminate this contract.”

“But, we’d be living in hell.” Chanyeol counters. “And I know for a fact, that’s not what anyone of us wants.”

You turn to him. “Like you said, we'll set up conditions.”

“I’d rather play it safe, than lose this lifestyle, lose my motivation.” Lay smiles. “Let's stay.”

You look down. Chanyeol puts his hand on your shoulder and whispers in your ear, “We can do this. We can bear it.”

You look at everyone. Are they really satisfied?

“C’mon, Yeowang.” Sehun purses his lips. “No matter what, as long as we're together, we're going to be okay.”

The door opens and President Lee walks in carrying you’re contracts. He nonchalantly places them on his desk. He leans forward, hands on the edge of his desk.

“Well?” He says, a bit impatient. “What’s your desicion, leader.”

You hesitate and stare at the ground.

"We'll stay." You bow. "Sorry for causing you any trouble."

Notes

HEY READERS~

I kind of, hated the way this book ended. SO I've created two endings. You can either follow OPTION A or OPTION B. This is currently OPTION B. And my past one is OPTION A.

They'll both have at least, one or two follow up chapters, so stay tuned for that. I hope these endings will be more satisfying and towards your liking.

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See you in the next chapter~!
~Alexis Thao

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