As Blind As Could Be...

“And, and, and… I can’t remember what happens next.” I explain.

She writes notes down on her notebook. I can feel sweat run down my side burns. I look down at my interlocked hand with Chanyeol’s. He squeezes our hands and I bring my face up to meet his. He smiles and nods his head. I look behind him, the rest of the members sit and stare at you, aligned against the wall. Kai mumbles things to himself.

She clears her throat, which draws all of our attention towards her.

“Is he… here in this room right now?” The psychiatrist asks me.

I thin my lips and turn my head to look directly at him. He holds a utensil in his hand, wearing all white, and a black jacket, like before.

I gulp. “E-eo. He’s right there.”

I point to the seat next to Jongin. Everyone turns and looks at the empty chair I claim to be filled. By Kyungsoo. Jongin blinks nervous and licks his lips, biting them after. She writes more things down.

“He’s playing with… a fork; smiling at me… and Jongin… and…”

Seungsoo sighs.

“I’ll take over from here.” He informs the woman.

She bows and leaves, handing her notes to Seungsoo. He sits down and puts his glasses on; reading through your files and her notes.

“And I thought my treatment for you was going perfectly fine.” He says, eyes never leaving the papers.

I look down. Did I do something wrong? I let go of my interlock with Chanyeol and rub my opposite shoulder with the same hand. Chanyeol searches for my eyes, I can feel it. But I don’t want to face him right now. I’m too embarrassed.

“Have you seen him anywhere else before the lift incident a few days ago?” Seungsoo asks.

I sniff and try to recall anything.

“At the hospital… when I wasn’t discharged yet. I didn’t realise until now. He’d be in the room all of the time… wait.” I pause. “He was only around when…”

I remember. Whenever Kai came and brought lunch for Seungsoo and I, Kyungsoo was behind him. Whenever Kai came in general for treatment, Kyungsoo was there. Whenever Seungsoo left Kai and I alone in the room, Kyungsoo was with us. On the nights when Kai slept in the hospital bed with me, Kyungsoo was sleeping behind me. I felt his breath on my neck. I thought it was just wind, but it was actually… Kyungsoo. Always holding a fork in his hand. A shiny, metal fork. Looking exactly like the one my father used on me. I just know. I-

“Eunsoo-ah!” Seungsoo slams his hand on the table, making me jump. “Focus. Finish your sentence.”

“I… I can’t.” I hesitate.

If I tell him Kyungsoo appears whenever I’m with Jongin, they would take him away from me. That’s the last thing I want. For both Kai and I.

“You have to.” Seungsoo explains. “We can’t help you if you don’t. We’ll have to give you the truth serum.”

[A/N: Truth serum is something they give patients so they’ll tell and reveal the truth to the doctors. They do this in order to cure and help the patient recover.]

I stand up and my heart starts to beat faster.

“What if I don’t want your help.” I say.

Jongin stands up, followed by Kyungsoo. Chanyeol and Luhan stand up too.

“It doesn’t matter if you want my help or not. You need it. You can’t be living like this, or you will injure yourself more. You almost died a few days ago.” Seungsoo sighs.

“I’ve almost died many times.” I fight back. “I almost died from father, Tao, the baby, now. So what? You make no point at all. As a matter a fact, it already feels like I’m dead. I have no purpose to live anymore if the one I hold dearest to me is dead. MAYBE IT’S A GOOD THING I SEE HIM RIGHT NOW. I WOULD’VE ALREADY KILLED MYSELF IF I COULDN’T.”

Everyone’s silenced by my words. Tears are about to ball out of my eyes.

“Eunsoo-ah, sit down.” Chanyeol tugs me, trying to calm me down, but I ignore him.

There was more silence. Almost like Seungsoo didn’t know what to do next. But I could tell he was waiting for me to explain more.

“If I tell you, you’ll take him away from me.” I look down.

“Take who away from you?” Seungsoo asks.

The boys look suspicious and confused, waiting for an answer.

I look up at Kai as a tear falls down my face. They all turn to the direct I was looking at.

“Don’t tell me…” Jongin walks towards me.

He walks in front of Chanyeol and puts his hands on my shoulders. They boys stand up slowly, unsure of how to react. Seungsoo takes his glasses off and carelessly lays them on the table. He leans back on the chair and anticipates.

My eyes are already watery from fighting with Seungsoo oppa. But now, having Jongin so close to me… more seem to disperse.

Kyungsoo takes my hand, turns me around and smiles. He wipes my tears with the same hand as tears fall down his. I look down at his other hand… holding the fork.

Is this really happening? I shake my head and turn around once more. I grab Jongin’s hand and run out the door with him. Chanyeol calls my name and starts running after us. Followed by the rest of the group. I can’t let them ruin my one moment to talk to Jongin. I look to my left and find Kyungsoo running next to me. His face was emotionless and determined, holding my hand, pulling and guiding Kai and I. But… Kyungsoo isn’t looking at me. He’s looking at Jongin… and Jongin’s looking at him. Their making eye contact. Kyungsoo leads us to the Cherry Blossom tree orchard. The place Kai and I had our first special moment. Did we kiss here? It’s been years since I’ve been here. GEEZ. Has time really gone that fast? I look behind us and no one was following us. We must’ve lost them. Kyungsoo leads us to sit behind a huge cherry blossom tree. Kai and I rest on the tree, breathing heavily from the amount of running we did. Kyungsoo sits across from us, waiting patiently.

I ignore him and turn to Jongin.

“I’m sorry.” I breath. “I dragged you out here.”

“It’s okay.” Kai runs his hand through his hair and Kyungsoo laughs lightly, amused. “It wasn’t you who lead me here.”

Kai takes my hand and interlocks it with his.

“I’m just glad your safe.” Kai smiles.

“I…” I want to say something, but I don’t know what.

“Since no one’s here I can tell you.” Jongin gets serious and I feel my heartbeat accelerate.

He looks down for a second, then back at me, biting his plump lips.

“Your not the only one… who sees him.” Kai says with a low voice.

I blink. What did he just say? Kyungsoo laughs and smiles.

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Jongin’s POV

Hospital Room
Week before Eunsoo’s discharge

“Bring them some lunch. I bet the hospital food there gets boring.” Kyungsoo tells me.

I look down at him, hands in my pocket. He wraps his hands around my arm, looking around.

“Geez. Why do I have to do everything now.” Jongin complains.

“Because your the only one I trust with Eunsoo now, besides myself.” Kyungsoo says blankly.

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New Mansion
Days ago…

“Are you sure she’ll let me take this?” I ask holding his high school lock and it's keys.

Kyungsoo smiles.

“Eo.” Kyungsoo licks his lips. “It’s mine anyways. Not hers. If I say you can take it, you don’t need her permission.”

“But why…” I blink.

He laughs and cups my face.

“Ah, your so cute.” Kyungsoo smiles.

I feel myself blush. This isn’t real… this isn’t real… this isn’t-

Kyungsoo leans forward and kisses me briefly on the lips. My eyes widen.

If this isn’t real… then why did that kiss feel so…

I touch my lips.

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Namsan Tower
Days ago…

On the lift. Eunsoo’s leaning on my shoulder. Is she sleeping? I look to my left and Kyungsoo waves at me. I laugh to myself at his cute actions. STOP. I mentally slap myself. He isn’t real. This isn’t real. I look once more and he’s gone. There.

Next thing I know, Eunsoo screams and grabs my sleeve. I jump. Did something happen?

“W-what happened?” Luhan asks her.

I look at her worried, but she’s not looking at me.

“Nothing. I just thought… no, nevermind. Nothing.” She replies.

Why is she hiding things from us? Next thing I know, she spaces out. We try to do everything to make her snap back into reality. All we did was make things worse. She opens the lift using the emergency latch and basically jumps out. We all scream her name and she finally snaps back and screams. Once she was pulled back into the lift, the guys and I push the doors closed. Kyungsoo sits next to me, holding my hand tightly. Afraid.

“What just happened?” Kyungsoo asks.

I ignore him. He’s not real. He stands up and walks over to Eunsoo. Don’t freak her out please.

“Are you okay?” He asks her.

I can tell by her actions, she’s afraid. Wait… she can see him too? Can she? Are we both seeing the same Kyungsoo? Or different versions… she can see him?

She looks up at Chanyeol. It must be hard for Chanyeol… he’s the type of guy who gets jealous easily, and can’t handle things perfectly. She screams, startling all of us once more. Chanyeol the most. He looks worried that he did something wrong. Next thing you know, she ends up walking over to me. I sigh and open my arms for her.

I hold her like a baby. She’s a huge baby. My baby. I look down at her and smile. I then look up. Everyone’s staring. Did I do something wrong? And the stupid slow lift is making time go by so slowly. She lifts her head and presses her cheek on mine, making me blush.

“He’s here. Kyungsoo’s alive.” She whispers, then lowers her head.

She snuggles deeper into my skin, if that was even possible. But, she seemed comfortable, so I went with the flow. Kyungsoo sits next to me and strokes her hair, his tears falling dramatically.

So… she can see him too. I’m not the only crazy one, right?

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Eunsoo’s POV

Current Time.

“Where is he right now?” I ask.

Jongin points right at Kyungsoo.

“Do you see him there? Holding a fork?” Jongin asks.

I blink in awe and nod. How does Kai see that? The fork, I mean. It doesn’t have anything to do with him yet…

“Wearing all white and a black jacket?” I ask.

Jongin nods.

“How is that possible?” I ask him slowly.

Kyungsoo waves at both of us. Kai and I tilt our heads to the middle of us, barely touching each others. We blink at the same time and wave back.

“How can you see his clothing? I got it for him for our anniversary. I didn’t think you’d see that.” Jongin scratches his head.

“The fork… how can you see that? It was nothing to do with you. It looks just like the one my father used to…” I stopped, I knew he knew what I was going to say.

“Maybe it’s because we were there when he died?” Jongin predicts.

“Ani…” I respond. “Chanyeol was also in the room when Kyungsoo died… so that’s not valid.”

Kai leans in closer and pulls me closer to him. He whispers in my ear.

“Do you think we should ask him?” Jongin suggests. “I know it sounds stupid, but I don’t we’ll be able to solve it on our own.”

I bite my lip and nod. Kyungsoo blinks at both of us.

“Why are you guys always so serious?” He smiles.

I want to ask him… but I’m too nervous to even bother. I open my mouth, but Luhan pulls me up.

“I found them!” Luhan yells to the guys and one by one, they approach us.

Kai stands up, followed by Kyungsoo.

Chanyeol takes Luhan’s grasp off of me and into his arms.

“What the hell!” Chanyeol complains. “You can’t just run out like that.”

“But we did.” Kyungsoo answers.

It was silent. There was no response to what Kyungsoo says, so I repeat his words.

“But we did.” I shrug.

“Yah!” Baekhyun hugs you so tight. “Stop scaring us like that.”

I smile and hug him back. “Mianhe.”

“Kai, protect her from them. I won’t be able to see her if they take her.” Kyungsoo pouts.

Baekhyun let’s go and Kai immediately pulls me behind him.

“What are you doing dongsaeng!” Chen says looking suspicious. “It’s not like we are going to hurt her or you.”

Kai blinks. I blink. Shoot. If we say anything, they’ll think we’re crazy. We are crazy. But for some reason… why does it feel like Kyungsoo is so… alive?

“Psh, what does it look like he’s doing, he’s protecting her from you guys. Tch. They were always nut heads from the start. It’s always the beagle line. I should’ve known.” Kyungsoo says annoyed.

“Shut up!” Kai and I say at the same time, looking at Kyungsoo as he shrugs.

“What did you just say to us?” Suho walks up to Kai and I.

I can hear Kai gulp and find myself sweating like crazy. Kyungsoo puts his hand on my shoulder. I feel the eyes staring at Kai and I. I’m about to go crazy. I push Kyungsoo and Kai away from me and run.

“Eunsoo-ah!” Kai and Kyungsoo say at the same time.

What the hell is going on? This isn’t real. This isn’t real. This isn’t real. This isn’t real. This can’t be real. This isn’t real. I stop and breath. I look around and see no one around. Good. I’m alone.

“Where are you going?” Kyungsoo asks me.

I jump. What the hell?

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Kai’s POV

It’s been minutes. Minutes since Eunsoo disappears. Minutes since Kyungsoo disappeared. And here I am. Alone. The guys went to go after her. They all went after her.

I’m so… alone. No one to hold anymore. Kyungsoo’s all I have. Eunsoo’s all I have.

Notes

Kyungsoo looks at Kai's lips, then meets Kai's eyes. They look at each other with love. Pure Love. Kai starts to sweat and gets nervous.

"I love you." Kyungsoo says straight to the point.


Kyungsoo breaks the stare and wipes his sweat on his nose with the back of his hand; unsure of how Kai will respond.

"What...?" Kai asks impatient, never breaking his stare at Kyungsoo.



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