As Blind As Could Be...
Oppa.
Hello?
“Kyungsoo-ah.”
Eo? Is there something wrong?
“Where are you right now?”
I’m just in bed talking with Jongin… wae?
“Ahh… um…”
You look at Taehyung and he shrugs.
“I’m coming home early, so we’ll talk then.”
Okay then I-
END CALL.
“What was that!?” Taehyung folds his arms. “We left the cafe for nothing.”
You and Taehyung were in a taxi on your way back.
“I’m sorry, but I’m just… UGH it’s nerve-wracking because I don’t know what to say to him.” You pull your hair.
Taehyung moves your hands down.
“Calm down.” Taehyung says. “I mean… what if he doesn’t have… (He hesitates for a few seconds) cancer. And what if he’s got something else? Maybe he’s just sick?”
“I definitely hope so.” You bite your lip. “I don’t want him to keep it to himself and suffer alone.”
There was a silence.
“Most importantly, I don’t want him to hide it from me.” You sigh. “I hope he at least told Jongin oppa.”
You arrive in front of the company and Taehyung offers to walk you in.
“Ani, it’s okay. It’s pretty late anyways.” You say, checking your invisible watch. “But, thank you for taking me for dinner.”
Taehyung nods and hugs you.
“Sorry I cancelled our dinner on such short notice.” You sigh. “I’ll make it up to you soon.”
“Eoooo~” He kisses your hair. “I know you will. I have to get back to my boys anyways. They’re probably waiting for me to come practice with them.”
“Get there safely.” You say, letting go of the embrace. “Take care of yourself.”
“You too. Take care of your little guy. Tell Baekhyun to text me when he has the chance!”
Taehyung says getting into the cab.
“Eooooo~” You smile as the cab drives away.
Walking into the dorm, you see it’s dead silent. You check the time on the clock. “10:30 pm”
“It’s not that late.” You say to yourself.
You check all of the rooms, but no one was around. You, lastly, went into Kyungsoo’s room. And there he was. Sleeping so peacefully. The moonlight was shining through the window from the other side of the room.
You sit right next to him and stroke his hair. He grins.
“They went to a karaoke bar, but I didn’t have the strength or appetite to so I didn’t go.” Kyungsoo mumbles.
You continue to stroke his hair and slowly, your eyes grow watery. You noticed some of his hair fall off and into your sweaty palms. That’s when you couldn’t hold it in and bursted out crying, causing Kyungsoo to shoot up.
“What’s wrong?” He asks you and holds on side of your face with his hand.
You show him your hand full with his hair. Kyungsoo blinks a few times and tears fall out of his eyes, followed by more of yours.
“I-” Kyungsoo starts.
You, knowing what he was going to explain and immediately take him into your arms.
“Just let it out.” You say. “I already know what you have.”
And just like that, Kyungsoo cries in your arms. A small squeal turns into a full on crying tantrum. His face and body is red from his anger and heat. He cries so hard that he coughs from his own spit and tears. And blood comes out, dripping onto your shirt.
You cup and lift his face with both hands gently. His eyes are red. Face is damp from tears and sweat. Pieces of hair that have fallen out of his scalp stick on his face. His lips are bloody. He hits his chest and wheezes.
Seeing him in this condition, you break down even more than before.
“What should we do?” You whimper.
“If the public see me like this (cough cough; blood),” He takes a tissue and wipes his mouth.
He doesn’t have to finish his question for you to understand.
“Cover your mouth with a mask. Wear your hat. Baggy clothes… I’ll drive you there.” You say. “No one will know our whereabouts… hopefully.”
Kyungsoo nods.
“We have to get you to the hospital as soon as possible.” You rush.
Driving in the car, Kyungsoo’s chair is pushed back for him to rest. Your eyes move from him to the road frequently.
“D-Did you tell anyone?” You say with a low voice.
“No… I was afraid to.” Kyungsoo admits.
“But-”
“Especially if you or Jongin found out at the time. Jongin was so busy with his drama and dance practice. You were busy taking care of your baby and bonding with Luhan… or Chanyeol shall I say. I didn’t want to add anymore stress… and be a burden.” He cuts you off.
You are about to accuse him for not telling anyone about it, but he’s had it hard enough.
“Arraseo… I’m just glad your okay right now.” You move your lips to one side of your mouth [if that makes sense].
Kyungsoo shifts his position to face the car door, back towards you. He screeches in pain.
“Kyungsoo?” You ask.
He doesn’t respond.
“Oppa.” You say starting to get worried.
“Jus’... one… second.” Kyungsoo says in pain.
“Oppa, just wait a little longer, we’re almost there.” You say quickly, stepping on the gas.
He screams and groans and complains and shouts because of the pain.
A few minutes later, you arrive at the emergency parking lot. You put Kyungsoo into a wheelchair and rush him into the hospital. There weren’t any fans or anything there because it was on such a quick notice. Plus, it was night. Kyungsoo wore his mask and hat, keeping his head low.
You run down the hallway and into the ER. They move him from the wheelchair to a hospital bed and roll him to an emergency room.
You try and follow but a nurse stops you from going inside the room with them.
“I need to be with him!” You cry over and over again, bringing the attention of all.
You wouldn’t stop giving up. Ten nurses and doctors (in total) had to help stop you until you finally gave out.
You wipe your tears and move around in panic. Who to call first? Eomma? Appa? S-Seungsoo? Jongin?
Yeowang! Where are you? Come join me and the boys at the karaoke bar. Ah- that’s right, Kyungsoo’s home so if you want, just go and check on him. Then, you should come join us.
“Kim Jongin.”
What’s wrong?
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You walk around impatiently, waiting for the boys to arrive. Tears still rolling and making it’s way down your face. So many things blurring your mind. You aren’t paying attention to anything, who you saw, where you were, who you were talking to. You walk by the window and see fans lined up.
I guess they all know. You think. Whatever. It’s not like they really know what’s wrong with Kyungsoo.
You walk around the nursery and see the little babies lined up, sleeping. Some were getting tested by the nurses. You walk more and more and more and more, you walk so much that you forgot where you literally were.
A nurse helps you find your way back to the emergency waiting area. The door opens and a few doctor comes out and you stand up.
“There was a clog in his lungs, but we were able to drain it. He’s very lucky, especially when he’s in an advance stage of lung cancer. He’s very weak at the moment. He’s not able to speak either. But, he doesn’t wish to see anyone right now. I’m sorry. You’ll just have to wait a little longer. Come back tomorrow in the morning maybe.” The doctor says.
“E-eo.” You reply. “Thank you.”
You see Kyungsoo laying in bed, being moved by nurses. He was pale. Most of his hair has fallen off. His lips were dry. Eyes barely open. You tremble seeing him in that state and can’t help yourself.
You start charging forward.
“Kyungsoo-ah!” You yell and repeat.
“No, you can’t go there!” The doctors try to prevent you.
“Let go!” You shout. “Let go of me I need to see him!...... Kyungsoo oppa! Kyungsoo oppa!”
Kyungsoo moves his head to the side as you call his name. He slowly disappears from your view.
You try more and more, but they keep pushing you back. You, out of anger, give one big push. You couldn’t let three doctors stop you from seeing and tending your brother. You pushed them so hard that all of them at the same time fell down.
“Eunsoo-ah~!” Chanyeol yells and you turn around.
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Kai’s POV
“Hurry drive faster!” I shout to Manager hyung.
My Kyungsoo’s in the hospital right now. Eunsoo-ah won’t tell me why. I hate it when she does that. The guys are with me and try to calm me down, but I can feel it. Something is wrong.
“I’m going as fast as I can calm down.” Manager hyung tell me.
There was traffic. LOADS of traffic. At this time? It’s 11:00 pm people!
“C’mon, we’ll never make it there in time.” Chanyeol says to me and opens the van door.
“Are you CRAZY!” Suho yells.
I nod my head and follow Chanyeol out the door. The rest of the guys end up following us. We run as fast as we can, wearing masks and hats and dark clothing. Hopefully no one spots us.
We are few minutes away from the hospital, but my legs are just about to give out. We ran for almost an hour.
“Yah, let’s take a break.” Baekhyun complains. “I’m wearing tight pants.”
“Me too.” Luhan huffs.
“Who told you to wear such clothing!” I say in anger. “We HAVE to get there as soon as possible! That’s what Eunsoo-ah said.”
“What’s wrong with Kyungsoo-ah anyways? What’s so urgent?” Xiumin whines.
“Well I guess we’d find out ONCE WE GET THERE!” I screamed in reply and start running once more.
I didn't mean to come off... like the old me (if that makes sense), but I'll stop at nothing if it involves my boyfriend.
They sigh and groan but follow a few feet behind me. Jeeshes. The one time they actually have to exercise they act like tired babies.
When we arrived there, fans were all lined up and waiting. Shit. How are we supposed to make it through to Eunsoo-ah and Kyungsoo-ah when there are fans and reporters everywhere.
A body guards spots us and calls his men to help us get through.
“Thank you.” Lay says, drawing the attention from all publicity.
We run into the hospital and are guided to the emergency waiting area. There, we see Eunsoo-ah taking on a few doctors.
“Let go!” You shout. “Let go of me I need to see him!...... Kyungsoo oppa! Kyungsoo oppa!”
I saw Kyungsoo being pushed into an elevator. He was probably being moved to the resting area of the hospital.
“Eunsoo-ah~!” Chanyeol obnoxiously shouts.
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You and the guys have been waiting for an hour or two. Apparently they had to do multiple tests on him.
You are about to fall asleep. Jongin puts the armrest -separating his seat with yours- up. He then moves you gently to sleep on his lap. You are too tired to argue, so you close your eyes. Jongin caresses your hair, trying to make you comfortable.
Chanyeol, who was sitting across, watches you two. Sehun was sleeping, resting his head on his shoulder. Basically everyone was waiting. Some members of Shinee and Super Junior who were close to Kyungsoo came as well. President Lee himself came here to see Kyungsoo’s condition. They don’t know what’s really wrong with Kyungsoo, all they know is that he’s been in the hospital, ill for hours.
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Waiting Area
6 am
Everyone’s gone. Except for you and Jongin. President Lee agreed to let us both get a day or two off to tend Kyungsoo. Everyone else was ordered to leave.
Your eyes flutter open and see that your still sleeping on his lap. You slowly move yourself into a sitting position.
Jongin feels his leg, that once was warm from your body heat, grow cold and he groans.
“What time is it?” He asks.
You check your phone.
“6 in the morning.” You reply.
“If I’d known we were doing an all nighter, I would’ve rented us a hotel room near the hospital.” Jongin sighs rubbing his eyes.
He turns his head and looks at you.
“You hungry?” He asks.
“Eo. Can we go get something to eat?” You ask.
He gets up and walks right in front of you.
“Can you walk right now? Should I get a wheelchair?” He offers.
“Sure.” You yawn. “My legs are pretty sore.
The feeling of Jongin pushing you reminds you of Kyungsoo. The time when he pushed you around the hospital in a wheelchair, right before you got your eye transplant. [Chapter 2] You two were innocent back then.
The hospital cafeteria was a few floors up. Jongin got you two something to eat while you waited at a table.
Though you were hungry, you didn’t want to eat one bite. On the other hand, Jongin stuffed his face with his meal and side dishes.
“Yah!” Jongin snaps at you. “Eat food! Your going to faint if you starve yourself.”
You blink a few times, then grab your utensils.
“S-sorry.” You smile. “Jal meoggo issseubnida. [I’ll eat well.]”
Kai nods in satisfaction as he watches you eat your meal.
After a few minutes, a nurse and doctor walks up to you.
“There you two are, we finally found you.” The nurse smiles. “Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi requests to see you.”
You stand up immediately from your wheelchair.
“Where is he?” Jongin asks wiping his face.
“We moved his just a few floors up.” The doctor says. “I’ll explain his condition to you on the way.”
As the elevator doors close, the doctor begins.
“So, I know you two are all grown up now, but it’s always hard for family to take this information in.” The doctor pauses. “Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi has stage three lung cancer.”
Those words weren’t new to you… but to Jongin…
“Excuse me?” Jongin says, starting to panic. “You mean…”
Jongin start to hyperventilate. You calm him down.
“Can you elaborate, please?” You say weakly.
“It means that he waited too long… we unfortunately cannot remove the cancer from his body. It’s spread too big. I even told him the time he came to me for a check up, but he refused.” The doctor says.
You and Jongin blink at his words.
“So he’s been lying to us this entire time?” Jongin says in sadness and anger.
“Here. How about this.” The nurse smiles. “Let’s take you into another room before we see Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi. You should know what’s really wrong with him before you see him. We took x-ray photos of his lungs.”
You didn't want to face reality. You didn't want to know the truth. You wanted this nightmare to end. But you had to wake up and let reality hit you.
They lead you into a room. The doctor pulls up the photos and explains to you what they mean.
“The lung cancer has spread to the lymph nodes located in the center of the chest, which is outside the lung. And, the tumor has grown into nearby structures in the lung. In this situation, there is no way I can completely remove the cancer because removal of the cancer must be performed bit by bit.” The doctor explains. “I’ve removed most of the cancer (shows photo), but there is still a vague amount left… and it will spread.”
After receiving knowledge about Kyungsoo’s condition, you stiffen up. Jongin does the same, but looks sort of… possessed or zoned out. They guide you to where Kyungsoo’s was staying and leave you two.
Jongin’s hands shake as he attempts to open the door. You sigh and pat his back. He looks at you and embraces you. You pat his back faster as he begins to cry.
“Shhh, shhh, shhh.” You say. “It’s going to be okay. If you can’t bring yourself to see him, just wait outside here. I’ll go first. Come in if you’d like. Or I might just come get you.”
He nods as you let go. You wipe his tears and kiss his forehead.
“Take a walk.” You suggest. “Like the doctor said, it’s always hard for us to take this information in.”
He turns around and starts walking. Dragging his feet. Ruffling his sweaty, greasy hair. You sigh and shift your position to face the door.
Okay… Eunsoo. You can do this. One… two… three.
You open the door and walk in slowly. There’s a short hallway before Kyungsoo’s revealed.
You take a step backwards and cover your mouth. The tears you've been holding back betray you and fall drastically, getting stuck on the your hand -the hand that covers your mouth-. For, the Kyungsoo you've known all your life... is no more.
“Kyungsoo-ah.”
Eo? Is there something wrong?
“Where are you right now?”
I’m just in bed talking with Jongin… wae?
“Ahh… um…”
You look at Taehyung and he shrugs.
“I’m coming home early, so we’ll talk then.”
Okay then I-
END CALL.
“What was that!?” Taehyung folds his arms. “We left the cafe for nothing.”
You and Taehyung were in a taxi on your way back.
“I’m sorry, but I’m just… UGH it’s nerve-wracking because I don’t know what to say to him.” You pull your hair.
Taehyung moves your hands down.
“Calm down.” Taehyung says. “I mean… what if he doesn’t have… (He hesitates for a few seconds) cancer. And what if he’s got something else? Maybe he’s just sick?”
“I definitely hope so.” You bite your lip. “I don’t want him to keep it to himself and suffer alone.”
There was a silence.
“Most importantly, I don’t want him to hide it from me.” You sigh. “I hope he at least told Jongin oppa.”
You arrive in front of the company and Taehyung offers to walk you in.
“Ani, it’s okay. It’s pretty late anyways.” You say, checking your invisible watch. “But, thank you for taking me for dinner.”
Taehyung nods and hugs you.
“Sorry I cancelled our dinner on such short notice.” You sigh. “I’ll make it up to you soon.”
“Eoooo~” He kisses your hair. “I know you will. I have to get back to my boys anyways. They’re probably waiting for me to come practice with them.”
“Get there safely.” You say, letting go of the embrace. “Take care of yourself.”
“You too. Take care of your little guy. Tell Baekhyun to text me when he has the chance!”
Taehyung says getting into the cab.
“Eooooo~” You smile as the cab drives away.
Walking into the dorm, you see it’s dead silent. You check the time on the clock. “10:30 pm”
“It’s not that late.” You say to yourself.
You check all of the rooms, but no one was around. You, lastly, went into Kyungsoo’s room. And there he was. Sleeping so peacefully. The moonlight was shining through the window from the other side of the room.
You sit right next to him and stroke his hair. He grins.
“They went to a karaoke bar, but I didn’t have the strength or appetite to so I didn’t go.” Kyungsoo mumbles.
You continue to stroke his hair and slowly, your eyes grow watery. You noticed some of his hair fall off and into your sweaty palms. That’s when you couldn’t hold it in and bursted out crying, causing Kyungsoo to shoot up.
“What’s wrong?” He asks you and holds on side of your face with his hand.
You show him your hand full with his hair. Kyungsoo blinks a few times and tears fall out of his eyes, followed by more of yours.
“I-” Kyungsoo starts.
You, knowing what he was going to explain and immediately take him into your arms.
“Just let it out.” You say. “I already know what you have.”
And just like that, Kyungsoo cries in your arms. A small squeal turns into a full on crying tantrum. His face and body is red from his anger and heat. He cries so hard that he coughs from his own spit and tears. And blood comes out, dripping onto your shirt.
You cup and lift his face with both hands gently. His eyes are red. Face is damp from tears and sweat. Pieces of hair that have fallen out of his scalp stick on his face. His lips are bloody. He hits his chest and wheezes.
Seeing him in this condition, you break down even more than before.
“What should we do?” You whimper.
“If the public see me like this (cough cough; blood),” He takes a tissue and wipes his mouth.
He doesn’t have to finish his question for you to understand.
“Cover your mouth with a mask. Wear your hat. Baggy clothes… I’ll drive you there.” You say. “No one will know our whereabouts… hopefully.”
Kyungsoo nods.
“We have to get you to the hospital as soon as possible.” You rush.
Driving in the car, Kyungsoo’s chair is pushed back for him to rest. Your eyes move from him to the road frequently.
“D-Did you tell anyone?” You say with a low voice.
“No… I was afraid to.” Kyungsoo admits.
“But-”
“Especially if you or Jongin found out at the time. Jongin was so busy with his drama and dance practice. You were busy taking care of your baby and bonding with Luhan… or Chanyeol shall I say. I didn’t want to add anymore stress… and be a burden.” He cuts you off.
You are about to accuse him for not telling anyone about it, but he’s had it hard enough.
“Arraseo… I’m just glad your okay right now.” You move your lips to one side of your mouth [if that makes sense].
Kyungsoo shifts his position to face the car door, back towards you. He screeches in pain.
“Kyungsoo?” You ask.
He doesn’t respond.
“Oppa.” You say starting to get worried.
“Jus’... one… second.” Kyungsoo says in pain.
“Oppa, just wait a little longer, we’re almost there.” You say quickly, stepping on the gas.
He screams and groans and complains and shouts because of the pain.
A few minutes later, you arrive at the emergency parking lot. You put Kyungsoo into a wheelchair and rush him into the hospital. There weren’t any fans or anything there because it was on such a quick notice. Plus, it was night. Kyungsoo wore his mask and hat, keeping his head low.
You run down the hallway and into the ER. They move him from the wheelchair to a hospital bed and roll him to an emergency room.
You try and follow but a nurse stops you from going inside the room with them.
“I need to be with him!” You cry over and over again, bringing the attention of all.
You wouldn’t stop giving up. Ten nurses and doctors (in total) had to help stop you until you finally gave out.
You wipe your tears and move around in panic. Who to call first? Eomma? Appa? S-Seungsoo? Jongin?
Yeowang! Where are you? Come join me and the boys at the karaoke bar. Ah- that’s right, Kyungsoo’s home so if you want, just go and check on him. Then, you should come join us.
“Kim Jongin.”
What’s wrong?
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You walk around impatiently, waiting for the boys to arrive. Tears still rolling and making it’s way down your face. So many things blurring your mind. You aren’t paying attention to anything, who you saw, where you were, who you were talking to. You walk by the window and see fans lined up.
I guess they all know. You think. Whatever. It’s not like they really know what’s wrong with Kyungsoo.
You walk around the nursery and see the little babies lined up, sleeping. Some were getting tested by the nurses. You walk more and more and more and more, you walk so much that you forgot where you literally were.
A nurse helps you find your way back to the emergency waiting area. The door opens and a few doctor comes out and you stand up.
“There was a clog in his lungs, but we were able to drain it. He’s very lucky, especially when he’s in an advance stage of lung cancer. He’s very weak at the moment. He’s not able to speak either. But, he doesn’t wish to see anyone right now. I’m sorry. You’ll just have to wait a little longer. Come back tomorrow in the morning maybe.” The doctor says.
“E-eo.” You reply. “Thank you.”
You see Kyungsoo laying in bed, being moved by nurses. He was pale. Most of his hair has fallen off. His lips were dry. Eyes barely open. You tremble seeing him in that state and can’t help yourself.
You start charging forward.
“Kyungsoo-ah!” You yell and repeat.
“No, you can’t go there!” The doctors try to prevent you.
“Let go!” You shout. “Let go of me I need to see him!...... Kyungsoo oppa! Kyungsoo oppa!”
Kyungsoo moves his head to the side as you call his name. He slowly disappears from your view.
You try more and more, but they keep pushing you back. You, out of anger, give one big push. You couldn’t let three doctors stop you from seeing and tending your brother. You pushed them so hard that all of them at the same time fell down.
“Eunsoo-ah~!” Chanyeol yells and you turn around.
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Kai’s POV
“Hurry drive faster!” I shout to Manager hyung.
My Kyungsoo’s in the hospital right now. Eunsoo-ah won’t tell me why. I hate it when she does that. The guys are with me and try to calm me down, but I can feel it. Something is wrong.
“I’m going as fast as I can calm down.” Manager hyung tell me.
There was traffic. LOADS of traffic. At this time? It’s 11:00 pm people!
“C’mon, we’ll never make it there in time.” Chanyeol says to me and opens the van door.
“Are you CRAZY!” Suho yells.
I nod my head and follow Chanyeol out the door. The rest of the guys end up following us. We run as fast as we can, wearing masks and hats and dark clothing. Hopefully no one spots us.
We are few minutes away from the hospital, but my legs are just about to give out. We ran for almost an hour.
“Yah, let’s take a break.” Baekhyun complains. “I’m wearing tight pants.”
“Me too.” Luhan huffs.
“Who told you to wear such clothing!” I say in anger. “We HAVE to get there as soon as possible! That’s what Eunsoo-ah said.”
“What’s wrong with Kyungsoo-ah anyways? What’s so urgent?” Xiumin whines.
“Well I guess we’d find out ONCE WE GET THERE!” I screamed in reply and start running once more.
I didn't mean to come off... like the old me (if that makes sense), but I'll stop at nothing if it involves my boyfriend.
They sigh and groan but follow a few feet behind me. Jeeshes. The one time they actually have to exercise they act like tired babies.
When we arrived there, fans were all lined up and waiting. Shit. How are we supposed to make it through to Eunsoo-ah and Kyungsoo-ah when there are fans and reporters everywhere.
A body guards spots us and calls his men to help us get through.
“Thank you.” Lay says, drawing the attention from all publicity.
We run into the hospital and are guided to the emergency waiting area. There, we see Eunsoo-ah taking on a few doctors.
“Let go!” You shout. “Let go of me I need to see him!...... Kyungsoo oppa! Kyungsoo oppa!”
I saw Kyungsoo being pushed into an elevator. He was probably being moved to the resting area of the hospital.
“Eunsoo-ah~!” Chanyeol obnoxiously shouts.
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You and the guys have been waiting for an hour or two. Apparently they had to do multiple tests on him.
You are about to fall asleep. Jongin puts the armrest -separating his seat with yours- up. He then moves you gently to sleep on his lap. You are too tired to argue, so you close your eyes. Jongin caresses your hair, trying to make you comfortable.
Chanyeol, who was sitting across, watches you two. Sehun was sleeping, resting his head on his shoulder. Basically everyone was waiting. Some members of Shinee and Super Junior who were close to Kyungsoo came as well. President Lee himself came here to see Kyungsoo’s condition. They don’t know what’s really wrong with Kyungsoo, all they know is that he’s been in the hospital, ill for hours.
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Waiting Area
6 am
Everyone’s gone. Except for you and Jongin. President Lee agreed to let us both get a day or two off to tend Kyungsoo. Everyone else was ordered to leave.
Your eyes flutter open and see that your still sleeping on his lap. You slowly move yourself into a sitting position.
Jongin feels his leg, that once was warm from your body heat, grow cold and he groans.
“What time is it?” He asks.
You check your phone.
“6 in the morning.” You reply.
“If I’d known we were doing an all nighter, I would’ve rented us a hotel room near the hospital.” Jongin sighs rubbing his eyes.
He turns his head and looks at you.
“You hungry?” He asks.
“Eo. Can we go get something to eat?” You ask.
He gets up and walks right in front of you.
“Can you walk right now? Should I get a wheelchair?” He offers.
“Sure.” You yawn. “My legs are pretty sore.
The feeling of Jongin pushing you reminds you of Kyungsoo. The time when he pushed you around the hospital in a wheelchair, right before you got your eye transplant. [Chapter 2] You two were innocent back then.
The hospital cafeteria was a few floors up. Jongin got you two something to eat while you waited at a table.
Though you were hungry, you didn’t want to eat one bite. On the other hand, Jongin stuffed his face with his meal and side dishes.
“Yah!” Jongin snaps at you. “Eat food! Your going to faint if you starve yourself.”
You blink a few times, then grab your utensils.
“S-sorry.” You smile. “Jal meoggo issseubnida. [I’ll eat well.]”
Kai nods in satisfaction as he watches you eat your meal.
After a few minutes, a nurse and doctor walks up to you.
“There you two are, we finally found you.” The nurse smiles. “Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi requests to see you.”
You stand up immediately from your wheelchair.
“Where is he?” Jongin asks wiping his face.
“We moved his just a few floors up.” The doctor says. “I’ll explain his condition to you on the way.”
As the elevator doors close, the doctor begins.
“So, I know you two are all grown up now, but it’s always hard for family to take this information in.” The doctor pauses. “Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi has stage three lung cancer.”
Those words weren’t new to you… but to Jongin…
“Excuse me?” Jongin says, starting to panic. “You mean…”
Jongin start to hyperventilate. You calm him down.
“Can you elaborate, please?” You say weakly.
“It means that he waited too long… we unfortunately cannot remove the cancer from his body. It’s spread too big. I even told him the time he came to me for a check up, but he refused.” The doctor says.
You and Jongin blink at his words.
“So he’s been lying to us this entire time?” Jongin says in sadness and anger.
“Here. How about this.” The nurse smiles. “Let’s take you into another room before we see Mr. Do Kyungsoo-shi. You should know what’s really wrong with him before you see him. We took x-ray photos of his lungs.”
You didn't want to face reality. You didn't want to know the truth. You wanted this nightmare to end. But you had to wake up and let reality hit you.
They lead you into a room. The doctor pulls up the photos and explains to you what they mean.
“The lung cancer has spread to the lymph nodes located in the center of the chest, which is outside the lung. And, the tumor has grown into nearby structures in the lung. In this situation, there is no way I can completely remove the cancer because removal of the cancer must be performed bit by bit.” The doctor explains. “I’ve removed most of the cancer (shows photo), but there is still a vague amount left… and it will spread.”
After receiving knowledge about Kyungsoo’s condition, you stiffen up. Jongin does the same, but looks sort of… possessed or zoned out. They guide you to where Kyungsoo’s was staying and leave you two.
Jongin’s hands shake as he attempts to open the door. You sigh and pat his back. He looks at you and embraces you. You pat his back faster as he begins to cry.
“Shhh, shhh, shhh.” You say. “It’s going to be okay. If you can’t bring yourself to see him, just wait outside here. I’ll go first. Come in if you’d like. Or I might just come get you.”
He nods as you let go. You wipe his tears and kiss his forehead.
“Take a walk.” You suggest. “Like the doctor said, it’s always hard for us to take this information in.”
He turns around and starts walking. Dragging his feet. Ruffling his sweaty, greasy hair. You sigh and shift your position to face the door.
Okay… Eunsoo. You can do this. One… two… three.
You open the door and walk in slowly. There’s a short hallway before Kyungsoo’s revealed.
You take a step backwards and cover your mouth. The tears you've been holding back betray you and fall drastically, getting stuck on the your hand -the hand that covers your mouth-. For, the Kyungsoo you've known all your life... is no more.
Notes
Okay... so the last paragraph that I wrote may give you the wrong idea. He isn't dead... yet. But his old self is gone. So yeah.
A twist in the story, huh?
This chapter is kinda short, but I'm giving you more soon. My poor Kyungsoo *wipes tear* jflaiudhfilauwehdflawkudsfhlkadushflads
Anyways, I hope I'm not BORING you with my writing. Kinda slow because I have to specifically explain to you what's wrong with Kyungsoo. AND on top of that, the reactions of each individual as they soon learn about his condition.
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See you in the next chapter.
~Alexis Thao
~Kyungsoo's Wifey
And lastly... a little bit of Chansoo ft Sebooty
Thank you for sharing.
12/4/17